82. I'm sorry
That kind of love can't help it, whether it is due to the effect of drugs, or because of the lovesickness after a long absence, it has long been unclear. Jing Yan felt an urgency and impulse that she had never felt before. It is as if walking in the clouds and drifting with the wind, and as if you are in the sea, riding the wind and waves.
He almost couldn't control it, he just wanted to rub this woman who originally belonged to him into his body and into the blood. Never again.
Shen Ruochu was up and down in a half-dream, half-awake, as if he was completely unconscious, and seemed to have a trace of clarity in his intoxication. She obviously couldn't withstand Jing Yan's strength. Subconsciously, she raised her hand and clasped his arms. The fingertips shrunk, leaving red marks on his solid muscles.
That bright and quiet afternoon was unprecedented and crazy for Jing Yan. However, for Shen Ruochu, she actually didn't leave too much impression in her mind. She only remembered that before the peak, there was a brilliant white light flashing. After dazzling, only the blazing temperature remains, burning and ironing, and it does not go for a long time......
The sun sets and rises again, and the long dark night is finally over.
The sky is bright outside the window. The morning light shone in through the gap in the curtain and hit Jing Yan's face. With a thick brow furrowed, he opened his eyes and woke up first
The deep eyes were slightly misty because they had just woken up, but they regained their clarity in an instant. Then the first thing to do is to look at the person in your arms and make sure that she is still there.
Shen Ruochu slept deeply and sweetly. At this moment, he buried his head in Jing Yan's chest, and he couldn't see his face. The petite one is extraordinarily quiet and well-behaved, and it is so fragile that it is pitiful.
Looks like he exhausted her yesterday!
A sigh overflowed from the thin lips, and there was a hint of sourness in the satisfaction. Jing Yan moved his arms lightly and tightened the person in his arms a little tighter.
Such a good girl, why did he almost lose her?! He really had a brain twitch at the beginning, so he agreed to the divorce. But fortunately, she was found again.
The corners of the lips unconsciously rose slightly, and the shallow arc was full of pleasure. Jing Yan lowered her head and kissed the top of her hair, and slowly closed her eyes.
The fatigue of yesterday's indulgence has long been swept away after a night's rest. There are mountains of documents waiting for his approval in the company, and there are several major projects waiting for him to reconsider. But he just didn't want to move.
He just wanted to hold her motionless. Just hold it like this, you can live quietly, and you will be old.
It's just that this beauty and satisfaction didn't last until the end of the day, and it didn't even arrive at noon, and it was completely broken with Shen Ruochu's awakening.
Shen Ruochu felt sore limbs and weakness in the haze. It was a kind of discomfort that diffused between the bones, as if she had forgotten to lubricate after her whole being disassembled and reassembled. There was still some tightness in my chest, and I couldn't breathe well.
She writhed twice in annoyance, but she couldn't escape the shackles-like heaviness. He held on and opened his heavy eyelids. Then, I was confused for only a second, and I was instantly dozed off and scattered.
This is not the first time that Shen Ruochu has seen Jing Yan's sleeping face close at hand when he woke up, and the scene in front of him is not much different from the countless mornings before.
If time could be turned back months, she would definitely hug the man she liked tightly, burrow into his arms with a dead face, and refuse to let go. Then maybe it's a room of laughter, maybe it's a room of charm.
However, many things are like this, and the slightest difference is a thousand miles away.
It's like the two of them...... used to be the closest couple, but since they signed that thin divorce certificate, they have become strangers.
The difference is that she can no longer start from a stranger and he starts from scratch.
Shen Ruochu only felt a splitting headache. She felt the hollow in her heart that had just been filled begin to slowly crumble, and she couldn't stop it.
Jing Yan is used to getting up early, and she has never had the habit of sleeping back. He has been in a state of false sleep, and his mind is sober. So Shen Ruochu knew it as soon as he moved.
When he opened his eyes, he saw her dumbfounded, and couldn't help but hook his lips.
"Awake?" The greeting was slightly hoarse and slightly nasal. succeeded in bringing Shen Ruochu back from shock.
Almost without thinking, she raised her hand and pushed hard against his naked chest.
With this push, Shen Ruochu successfully broke free from Jing Yan's arms.
It's just that the other party is tall and big, and she rolls directly to the side of the bed under the effect of the rebound force. Seeing that the man was about to fall to the ground, he survived thanks to his hasty help.
But Shen Ruochu was not grateful at all.
"You let go of me!" Her voice cracked, and then she started kicking and scratching at him like crazy.
Men are always extra good-tempered when they have eaten their fill.
Jing Yan is no exception. He was obviously deliberately conniving, and even if Shen Ruochu punched and kicked, he only parried and did not fight back. There were countless blows to the chest, neck, and shoulders. Even the shin of her calf was kicked hard by her, and it hurt and hurt. Until her sharp nails shook and almost scraped into her eyes. Only then did he strike suddenly, clamping her two small thin arms with one palm, and then turning over and pressing her under him, completely shackled.
Shen Ruochu's limbs couldn't move, but he was still not to be outdone, and only shook his body and struggled desperately.
It's just that the state of the two of them at the moment seems to be a little weird...... Men and women who are honest with each other engage in hand-to-hand combat in bed. No matter how you look at it, it is full of ambiguous crimson, which leads to reverie.
There is a natural gap between men and women. Soon, Shen Ruochu lost his strength, and collapsed there with a sore body, panting. Jing Yan, on the other hand, did not move at all, her deep gaze locked on her sweaty little face, not for a moment.
"Enough trouble?" He asked in a low voice, his voice hoarse. The body had already quietly changed in the "fight" just now.
Shen Ruochu didn't notice this at all. She glared at him angrily with round eyes and gritted her teeth, "Jing Yan, you are so despicable!" ”
The dark gaze darkened, and his resolute facial lines were slightly tense, "I'm despicable......" He repeated those three words in a low voice, and sneered, "Shen Ruochu, tell me, where am I despicable?" Well? ”
"Jing Yan, you actually gave me that kind of medicine! You are simply not human......" Shen Ruochu said fiercely in the first half of the sentence, but later, there was already a faint cry in his voice. She is not an innocent little girl who is ignorant of the world, she lost her mind yesterday because of the effect of the drug, but today she is awake and interspersed with the front and back, and after a little thought, she understands what is going on.
In fact, many times, once the barrier between men and women is broken, it will be the same. What's more, she and Jing Yan used to be the closest couple, and all the enthusiasm and beauty in her life were given to him. The divorce certificate is just a piece of paper, even if the two people are no longer legal husband and wife, the intimate facts that once existed cannot be erased.
So at this moment, Shen Ruochu's mood is very complicated. Very, very, indescribably complicated!
divorced him with great difficulty, and when he turned around, he was arrogant and resolute. As a result, I went around and around, and finally ......
She admits that her anger is only to hide the boundless fear and confusion in her heart! He is her poison and her calamity. From the first moment I met him, I was destined to be planted in his hands. She clearly knew that there was only one chance, and she tried her best to escape from Ascension, but why did God tease her again!
Tears blurred his eyes unconsciously, and Shen Ruochu cried out with a "wow...... a torrent of landslides and ground cracks.
Jing Yan looked at the tearful woman under her and was stunned, and then heard a kind of despair in her crying. It seems that a leukemia patient, after being sentenced to death, was unwilling to die and finally tried desperately to find a glimmer of life of his own, who knew that after the successful matching, he found that the stem cells transplanted into his body turned out to be an AIDS patient!
One second heaven, the next second. There will be no recovery, and there will never be a superbirth.
This kind of realization made Jing Yan suddenly a little sad. For so many years, it was actually himself who made Shen Ruochu constantly wander between heaven and hell......
Somewhere in my heart rose a pang that I had never felt before. He looked down at her silently for a long time, until she was already crying and could not breathe, then he slowly lowered his head and kissed her on the lips heavily.
The three words "I'm sorry......" vaguely crossed into Shen Ruochu's mouth, but they echoed over and over again in her heart, and it was extremely clear.
Before she could be shocked, he repeated "I'm sorry" softly, and when the voice was swallowed into her stomach again, he let go of her lips and kissed the corners of her tear-drenched eyes instead.
Another "I'm sorry", hoarse and low, full of guilt, full of apologies, and full of ...... Heartache. Then, every time the fiery lips landed, a "sorry" sounded.
Shen Ruochu was stunned, lying there and letting him kiss and apologize, forgetting to shed tears for a while, and didn't know how to react.
Jing Yan said sorry countless times, and kissed the tears on her face reverently and gently. He propped himself up, pulled a little distance from her, and after his throat rolled up and down, he spoke in a dumb voice, "Ruochu, I ......" But before the words could be spoken, they were interrupted by an abrupt ringing of mobile phones.
Funny music is exclusive to Brother Funny. Shen Ruochu was frightened, but he instantly returned to reality. She pushed him away, wrapped in one hand and went to find the source of the sound. Jing Yan keenly caught the evasion that flashed in her eyes, and her face was slightly gloomy. But he didn't get her back in the end, just pursed his lips and looked at her pretending to be busy.
The poor phone kept calling and was finally found in the gap between the bedside table and the bed. Shen Ruochu hurriedly pressed the call button, and as soon as the word "hey" came to his mouth, he heard Shen Xingzhi's anxious voice coming into his ears, "Chuchu, come to the municipal hospital, my mother was stabbed by gangsters!" ”