June 17th

Ma Chu said that Gu Ya's death was related to Luo Shicheng. He also said that before Gu Ya became famous, she was a resident singer at the bar and his girlfriend.

My brain speed quickened instantly, and I was running wildly uncontrollably.

I used to see Gu Ya's pictorial in Ma Chu's room. In his bookcase, there was a thick album, locked. Since I have always been reluctant to pry into other people's privacy, I didn't ask much at the time. Actually, I was curious about that album. The photo of Gu Ya that Chen Jiao handed over to me the night before must have been given to her by Ma Chu.

Ma Chu said that Gu Ya was killed by Luo Shicheng. This is unlikely, right? If Luo Shicheng was a murderer, then he should have gone to prison or sentenced to death a long time ago, how could he get away with it? Chen Jiao told me that Gu Ya looked a lot like Luo Shicheng's mother. And I look very similar to Gu Ya. In this way, Gu Ya and I have one thing in common for Luo Shicheng, that is, we both belong to girls who look like his mother.

From this, it is inferred that Luo Shicheng has a mother-lover complex. His mother must have had a rough life, her marriage was not smooth, and her husband was raising a little wife outside, so she became ill and died young. Luo Shicheng lost his mother's love since he was a child and grew up in loneliness. After his wife died, his father married a young wife and enjoyed the joy of family. Since then, Luo Shicheng has not been able to get any family affection except for the money given by his father. 's father is beautiful in his arms, so he naturally has no time to take care of Luo Shicheng left by his ex-wife.

Luo Shicheng rarely mentions his father. She only mentioned it to me once, saying that her mother died young, and her father then married a young wife and later emigrated. He told me this to tell me that his marriage was free and would not be interfered with by his family. Now that I think about it, his independence from childhood to adulthood stems from his father's indifference to him. When he mentioned his father, his eyes were dark, and there was a flash of sadness in his eyes. I felt that he and his father were strange and alienated.

When I think of this, I feel a little sorry for Luo Shicheng. Outsiders only see his success and majesty, but they don't know that he also has helplessness and pain in his heart. Family affection, if it becomes cold, it is like an invisible knife, piercing your heart. There is no trace of the knife, there is no external injury, only you can lick the blood that flows from the bottom of your heart. Sticky and salty, like the petals of a crushed flower at midnight, the juice flowing on the fingertips.

If Gu Ya really died at the hands of Luo Shicheng, then my fate would not be much better. Because, Gu Ya and I are both women who resemble Luo Shicheng's mother. If Luo Shicheng is really a pervert who likes to kill everyone who looks like his mother, then I will definitely end up dead. Unless, before the tragedy, I can successfully escape from Luo Shicheng's palm and go away. Let him never find me again.

I thought about it, and finally called Ma Chu and said that I could see him, but I only had time at noon.

Ma Chu said that he was off work today and happened to be opposite the apartment where I lived, saying that he was waiting for me in front of the apartment.

I quickly changed into a plain white cotton skirt, slipped into a pair of sneakers barefoot, picked up my keycard, and went out. I don't think there will be so many words between me and Ma Chu now, and I can come back in twenty minutes.

I walked out of the apartment door in casual clothes and saw Machu standing in the shade of a tree. He wears a pair of denim shorts with a blue T-shirt on top and a pair of black sneakers on his feet. He has lost a lot of weight, his eye sockets are slightly sunken, and it seems that he has not been sleeping well these days. Alas, it's no wonder that there is that little goblin Chen Jiao pestering, singing every night, how can sleep be good? When I think of this, compassion disappears.

I glanced up at Ma Chu, feeling a little embarrassed, and my expression was difficult to be natural.

After being silent for a while, Ma Chu spoke first. Ask me, you haven't eaten yet, have you? Let's find a place to eat?

I hurriedly refused, he and I had come this far, and I was afraid that I would not be able to eat the food. I said coldly, I just finished eating, I'm not hungry, we'll go back after we finish talking.

Ma Chu sighed and said, Okay, there is a forest in front, it's quiet, I'll take you there. I'll ride my bike and take you there.

That's when I noticed that there was a bicycle parked on the other side under the roots of the tree. When I first fell in love with Ma Chugang, he often took me to the beach on a bicycle and took me to the sparsely populated highways. At that time, we were very happy, listening to the wind blowing past our ears, and we would laugh in unison. But today, I am no stranger to him, and it would be really awkward to ride a bicycle with him again.

Ma Chu saw that I hadn't spoken for a long time, so he actually laughed softly. Bing'er, you wouldn't be so careful, would you? If you can't buy or sell, what can you do if you sit on my bicycle?

When I heard it, it was as if I was afraid of him. I met his gaze and said disdainfully, then let's go.

Ma Chu got on the bike, one leg on the ground, just like before, and waited until I was firmly seated in the back seat before pedaling hard. I was afraid that I would fall, so I had to reach out and put my arm around his waist as I had done before. My hand, lightly touching his waist, did not dare to force it. After all, this person is no longer my man, and he has nothing to do with me.

After about fifteen minutes, we rode into a quiet wood. The green leaves, rustling in the wind. In the distance, rolling mountains. On the hillside, a flock of white sheep runs. The blue sky high in the sky, blue and blue, rich and crystalline, seemed to be about to drip water. The scenery here is so beautiful that it is not stained with a trace of mortal dust.

Ma Chu put his bicycle under a big tree and walked lightly to my side.

I withdrew my gaze from looking into the distance and said to Ma Chu, if you have anything to say to me, just say it quickly.

Ma Chu gently grabbed one of my hands, and said to me in a choked voice, Bing'er, don't you have a trace of concern for me? Can you really forget our past entirely? You are a kind girl, your heart is very soft, can you bear to watch me suffer for the rest of your life? I regretted the marriage at the beginning, it was in anger, I was jealous of that Yu Gang, and I doubted the relationship between you and him. But now, knowing that I was wrong, won't you give me a chance to repent?

I looked at Ma Chu angrily, his eyes glistening with tears. I can't see tears in my life, and when I see others crying, I want to cry myself. My tears, for some reason, overflowed my eyes. I couldn't hold back my crying and said to Ma Chu, you only know now that you regret it, but it's a pity that it's too late! When you decided to repent of marrying me, did you think about my feelings at that time? You know that I have no relatives in this city, but when I was in danger, you turned a blind eye to me and fell into the ground. I'll never be able to forgive you! And your little lover Chen Jiao, I won't forgive her! You are all cruel people, ignoring my self-esteem and existence, and only caring about your own merriment.

My tears, which kept dripping, had to stop talking. I looked at Ma Chu with hatred, he was once the man I had loved, feared, and looked up to with my heart. But now, I just want to trample him under my feet. If it weren't for the love of my own life, I would even want to kill him. He trampled on my love, ruined my life, and almost ruined my reputation.

Ma Chu's tears also flowed down. He stepped in front of me, raised his hands, grabbed my shoulders, and looked at me with heartache. Bing'er, I know I've broken your heart, and I know how wrong I was. However, there is one thing, my heart loves you, and my love for you has never changed. I can't explain the absurdity of Chen Jiao and me, and I don't want to shirk responsibility. But I really don't love Chen Jiao, I only have desire for her, which is an instinctive need and greed. I also confessed to Chen Jiao at the beginning, saying that I had no love for her, and it was impossible to give her a name. It's herself, who keeps pestering me, saying that she doesn't care about anything, as long as she can be with me.

Ma Chu wanted to continue, but he couldn't cry. When I think of what happened during this time, I am also full of emotion, and the tears of grievance come one after another. Our former lovers wept bitterly. The good times of falling in love seemed to happen yesterday. I thought that I could live forever with him, and that he would really live and die with me. But then, before I died, he hid far away. Even if I am nostalgic for the past, how can I really forgive him?

Ma Chu suddenly pulled me into his arms and kissed me forgetfully. I smelled his familiar breath again, and it felt so intimate, almost confused with the concept of time, I wonder what year it is? But soon, I came back to my senses.

I yelled, pushing Ma Chu away. Ma Chu, you are shameless! You're not human! You insulted my love in the past, and now you insult Chen Jiao's love for you! Chen Jiao, even though there are thousands of bad things, but she loves you so deeply, she gives everything she has, and she is desperate. But how did you treat Chen Jiao?

I don't know why I want to speak for Chen Jiao? Maybe it's because she and I are both women. Why should women be embarrassed by women? In the end, isn't it because of an obsessive love? Isn't it because of a man who is difficult to let go of in this life?

Ma Chu grabbed my hands hard and roared with emotion. Bing'er, love is selfish, and there is no way to adulterate. I just can't let myself fall in love with Chen Jiao, the only woman I love in my heart is you! Before I met you, the woman I loved was Gu Ya, but Luo Shicheng took her away! Now, Luo Shicheng is going to take you away again, why does he always have trouble with me? Why does he always want to snatch the woman I love so much? I don't want you to die in the hands of Luo Shicheng like Gu Ya! Bing'er, wake up, how can a man like Luo Shicheng be serious about women? A woman is nothing more than a plaything in the palm of his hand!

I cried bitterly and tried my best to break free of my hands, but Ma Chu refused to let go.

Bing'er, after I fell in love with Gu Ya, I planned to stay together for the rest of my life. It was Luo Shicheng, who suddenly appeared, who inserted a foot and snatched Gu Ya away. Gu Ya has not seen her mother since she was born, and others say that her mother is abroad. It was her adoptive father, an ordinary single railroad worker, who raised her. Her adoptive father, for her sake, never got married in his life. When Gu Ya finally grew up, the adoptive father fell ill and died. Gu Ya is a poor child, her ideal is to be an actor and become a household name. Later, Luo Shicheng helped her do it and achieved her dream of stardom. But Gu Ya was still unwilling to go against her heart. She loved me in her heart, and she secretly came back to see me after she became famous, and we carried Luo Shicheng on our backs and stayed in the hotel all night. Later, on the morning of the third day, there was the bad news that Gu Ya committed suicide by jumping off the building in the early morning!

My eyes widened in astonishment, and I listened to the story told by Ma Chu as if it were a fantasy. No, it can't be true! I screamed in horror, not knowing whether I was refuting Ma Chu or trying to comfort my panicked heart.

Ma Chu stared at me painfully and shouted loudly, Bing'er, if you can't do everything as Luo Shicheng wishes, the next woman who jumps off the building and commits suicide may be you! I can't watch you die at the hands of Luo Shicheng!

Just when I was in a state of extreme fear and on the verge of an emotional breakdown, I heard the honking of a car. I looked alertly in the direction of the sound, and my body trembled involuntarily, with an indescribable fear.

I saw a familiar red car parked in the shade of a tree nearby. The car door slowly opened, and Luo Shicheng walked down with a smile.