Seeing my anxiety, Yu Dong said to me: "Don't think too much, after the child is born, I can take care of him with you." ”

I smiled, and if he was born, I didn't want to bother him, because he didn't have the obligation to take care of my child for me.

In the rest of my life, I didn't lose my energy all day because I missed Ling Mo too much, I worked hard to learn English, adapted to life here, I originally wanted to go out to find a job, but because I was pregnant, I was not very proficient in English, so I had to give up for the time being.

But I didn't dare to spend a lot of money because I didn't have the money I had before, so I finally tried to find a job, after all, Yu Dong lived here, and he ate and drank for nothing, which made me feel quite embarrassed.

It was only later that Yu Dong found out and scolded me.

On this day, I came back from outside, because the weather here is always cloudy and rainy, so when I came back, I accidentally got a little rain, and when I came back, I happened to meet Yu Dong, who had just arrived home.

"Why are you still going out when it's raining?" He asked when he saw me.

Because I didn't tell him about my job search, I had to go out for a walk, but he saw what he was holding, and when he took it and looked at it, he got angry, "Do you know that you are a pregnant woman now?" Who would want you to go for a job like this? What you need you can tell me, Mu Tong. ”

"But I don't want to rely on you for everything, Yu Dong, I need to be independent, I decided to stay, child, I am a mother, we can't all rely on you to live in the future!" I said with tears in my voice.

Seeing that my already rosy eyes were already ruddy, Yu Dong touched my head, "Then wait for the child to be born and go to work in my company." ”

"That's still dependent on you, it's okay not to go, and I'm not capable enough, and I can't adapt to your company's position." I said.

"Why not, if you can be Ling Mo's assistant, then it's no problem in our company, but if you can't do it, you can also be my assistant." Yu Dong looked at me and said.

"That's not going to work, then I'll be a stumbling block in your emotional path." I really owe Yu Dong too much, so I just want him to be good now, not to revolve around me.

"Do you want to get rid of me so much?" He asked, a little angrily.

I lowered my head, "It's me who doesn't deserve you, so I don't want to delay you!" ”

"Why can't you deserve it, why can't you deserve it, I like you, even if you don't like me, you just need me, you can be with me, because I want to!" He reached out and grabbed my arm excitedly.

But I still shook my head, "If we didn't have a baby in our belly, we might still be possible, but now ......"

"It's okay, I can raise him with you!" Yu Dong said with certainty.

I looked at his sincere eyes, and my eyes were red again, it's not that I love to cry, it's really Yu Dong who makes me feel very distressed, but I can't accept him with a sympathetic attitude.

"Why are you doing this? Yu Dong, I'd rather you hate me than I want you to like me like this! I said with tears in my eyes.

"Okay, don't cry, I'll talk about work later, first rest assured, if you're bored at home, tell me, I'll take you out to play!"

"Don't be so nice to me, okay?" I guess I'm the only one who can make this request.

But he said, "Now that you are pregnant, I am not good to you, who is good to you?" Even if I promise not to be good to you, I have to be good to the child in your belly, he is innocent! ”

...... "I have nothing to say.

"Okay, let's take a break, I'll go cook!" Yu Dong asked me to sit on the sofa and wait, he went to cook,

In fact, he hadn't eaten my cooking for so long, and I hadn't made the recipe he gave me before, so I grabbed him and said, "Then from tomorrow, you come back for dinner, I'll make it!" ”

He looked at me, as if he couldn't believe it, but finally said, "It's okay to do it once in a while, usually I'll come, and it will be inconvenient to have a big belly in the future." ”

He is really caring and considerate of me, but we just don't have that fate together, after all, I can't let the child in my belly be born and call him dad in the future.

That was very awkward for him and for my child, and when he grew up, it would be embarrassing for the child to find out about it.

When asked me, how should I explain it, it is better to be such a person, so that he can make up a story and give him a beautiful reverie.

"It's okay, you're so busy all day, and you still let you cook, it feels very bad, I'm only a month pregnant now, as long as I don't run and jump, it's no problem." I persisted.

Seeing me say this, Yu Dong had no choice but to agree.

But I seem to have developed a habit now, that is, I have to look at Ling Mo's news and his photos every day.

It's just that he seems to be very busy recently, there is no news about him, and there are not many updates about him under Ling's official Weibo, as if he is really going to disappear from my world.

I recited his number, but I had typed his number many times, but I didn't have the courage to dial it.

Time is fast, the winter in London is even more rainy, and every day Yu Donglu will tell me to wear more clothes, and then buy me some warm snacks on the way back from work.

I was very moved, but the next day, I heard that Ling Mo had come to England, and I wanted to see him, but I didn't know where he was. So I wanted to go out and try my luck.

Because the phone has no power, I didn't bring the phone directly, after all, I'm still a little familiar here, so I don't need to bring it to know the way.

First, they took a taxi to the company they had worked with, because he might have come here because of the cooperation.

The other is a company that he mentioned when we came here before.

But in the end, I ran three places, and I didn't meet him, maybe my fate is over, and I am destined to never see him again in this life.

Seeing that it was going to rain again, I had to take a taxi back, but I was a little unwilling.

I deliberately lingered at the door, and finally took a taxi to Yu Dong without waiting, because I suddenly thought that he might also come to find Yu Dong, so I changed the route and went to his company.

But I didn't go upstairs, because I was afraid of being asked by Yu Dong, so I didn't go up.

After wandering downstairs for a while, it really rained, so I had to take a taxi to Yu Dong's house again.

I was very depressed, in fact, I could have made a phone call to solve all these problems, but the phone was out of battery, in fact, the main reason was that I didn't have the courage to pick up the phone and call him.

But I just came out like this, and Yu Dong, who didn't see me when I came home, is now looking for me all over the world.

The phone was turned off, so he was looking for it outside in the rain, and when I got out of the car, I saw him asking people everywhere at the intersection of the street if they had seen me.

Seeing this scene, my heart felt like something had been pumped out, and I was very distressed.

Standing under the eaves of the door, he shouted, "Yu Dong! ”

He turned around and saw me and ran over directly, his clothes were already wet now, so he wanted to hug me, and finally held back, "Mu Tong, where have you been?" I searched everywhere but couldn't find you, and the phone couldn't get through. ”

"I just went out casually, and my phone ran out of battery, so I didn't bring it." I still didn't tell him the truth.

His anxious expression eased now, and then he took my arm and said, "If you go out again in the future, you must bring your mobile phone, otherwise I won't find you, I'm worried." ”

I nodded, "Hurry up and get dressed, it's all wet." ”

As he spoke, he took off his clothes and put them on my head, because the yard could still be drenched in the rain.

I didn't refuse, so I hurried into the house, and then brought a bath towel and draped it over him, "Go and wash up, lest you catch a cold." ”

He nodded, and then went to the bathroom.

And I also walked into the kitchen to prepare for cooking, I didn't meet Ling Mo today, and I was still a little sad in my heart, but when I saw Yu Dong looking for me, my heart was warmed by him again.

But why did he come back so early today?

I didn't think much about it, I put the meal on the table after it was done, and it was relatively simple, so it was quite fast, and when Yu Dong came out, my last dish was going to be served.

"It's easier today." I say.

He nodded, and then looked at me as if he had something to say, but as if he didn't know where to start.

And I didn't ask much, because he would naturally say what he wanted to say.

But I didn't expect him to say, "Ling Mo is coming to London today!" ”

Hearing this, I stopped to look at him while eating.

Actually, I already knew, but I pretended not to know and asked, "What is he doing here?" ”

"Work-related matters."

"Did you see him, then?" I asked.

"Well, I asked him if he wanted to come and see you!" Yu Dong looked at me and said.

I was stunned for a moment, wondering how he answered, but I was afraid that he would say that he didn't want to see him, so I looked at Yu Dong and didn't ask.

But he said it himself, "He said to see if he was free, this time he came in a hurry, and he will leave tomorrow." ”

I nodded, and didn't speak again.

Then Yu Dong also asked me, "Mu Tong, do you want to see him?" If you want to see you, I'll take you there now! ”

I shook my head, "Since he's busy, forget it!" ”

Seeing me say this, he didn't say much, after all, his true thoughts in his heart were that he didn't want me to go.

After eating, I leaned back on the sofa as usual and watched TV, scrolling through Weibo, but in fact, the main pages stayed on Ling's official blog.

Yu Dong sat next to me, and then said that it would be his birthday in a few days, and that there might be a birthday party, and maybe a lot of friends would come, and asked me if I minded.

I shook my head, he didn't need to ask me, this was his house, he didn't have to ask me for a birthday party, so I said, "Of course you can, this is your house." ”

He smiled and said, "There are a lot of friends here, I'm afraid you will not adapt and will feel noisy." ”