Chapter 144: Inexplicable
Since Qin Anchen happened to be here, for no reason, I want to confide in him everything that happened just now. He's such a smart guy that he can definitely analyze the details that I've overlooked. He will not be like Ji Zixuan, talking back to himself and fighting each other.
"What are you doing here? Are you stalking us? Or are you part of the project? Ji Zixuan angrily threw out a lot of questions, he was very angry when he saw Qin Anchen appear, and even looked a little out of his mind.
I gritted my teeth, and my cheeks were a little puffed out because of Ji Zixuan's words. As soon as Qin Anchen stepped forward just now, he had already explained his intention, not only did he not believe it, but he also questioned Qin Anchen, I really couldn't understand what Ji Zixuan wanted to do.
"Qin Anchen, the two of us are talking about us, don't pay attention to him. He is like this, sometimes good and sometimes bad, but when he speaks, most of them do not go through the brain, you must not take it to heart. I lowered my voice and spoke as close to Qin Anchen's ear as possible.
Qin Anchen's words and deeds and I all revealed a hint of harmony intentionally or unintentionally. Ji Zixuan gradually shook his nerves, and he even felt that the two of us were very eyesore. He gritted his teeth viciously, wanting to take Qin Anchen away from here.
Qin Anchen also seemed to sense something, he silently widened the distance between the two of us, and asked me about my recent situation with a concerned expression. "How is Miss Chu doing lately? In my opinion, it doesn't seem to be very good. Miss Chu reminded me to pay attention to my body, but you should also pay attention to it. ”
Qin Anchen teased me in turn, such familiar conversations and scenes made me suddenly feel safe, as if I had countless words to say to him, and wanted to talk to him in another place. I raised an eyebrow at him, as if to say that you dare to tease me.
In Ji Zixuan's eyes, Qin Anchen and I just don't take him seriously at all, and they look back at him in front of him. He stared at me with an ugly face, and when I wanted to say something more, he insulted me coldly: "Chu Xinyi, you are so half-hearted, you are sorry for me." ”
I scratched my head, and I was a little inexplicable in the face of his sudden words. Who am I half-hearted with? Could it be that he was referring to me and Qin Anchen? It seemed that there were only three of us present, and I sneered.
I didn't want to worry too much, so I warned him sharply: "You said I could, but Qin Anchen is my friend, I hope you can be respectful." Less nonsense, and no one treats you as a dumb person. "Ji Zixuan didn't seem to expect me to say such heartless words to choke him.
The atmosphere became even more awkward in an instant, Qin Anchen opened his mouth on the side, and knew that as an outsider, it was useless to say more. Maybe if he opened his mouth, it would just add fuel to the fire for Ji Zixuan.
"I don't know if you have anything else to say, if you want to say it now, when everyone is here, you can simply say it at one time and have a good time." I said lightly, as if to say that the weather is so nice today.
I don't have any feelings for Ji Zixuan, and I haven't communicated well with him recently, I quarrel all day long, and I have to fight each other as soon as we meet, I'm tired of this mode of getting along, and I look forward to getting out of this situation as soon as possible.
"I'm not stopping you two from making friends, I'm just hoping you two can keep your distance. Don't forget that you are a married woman, and you should keep me away from her. Ji Zixuan didn't care what the scene was now, he said two words to me and two words to Qin Anchen.
I couldn't help but feel a little funny in my heart, I really couldn't believe that these macho words came out of Ji Zixuan's mouth. But he prefers to say those hurtful words in every possible way as if he wanted to oppose me, and provoke me again and again.
Qin Anchen saw that I was talking angrily, so he coughed twice, trying to relieve the embarrassing atmosphere, and he persuaded me a few words: "Miss Chu, Ji Gongzi, you two have something to say." If it's because I'm inconvenient here, then I'll go first. ”
I shook my head, saying that this matter had nothing to do with him, that he was just one of the reasons, and that it was not all his fault. So it was useless for him to leave, I glared at Ji Zixuan angrily, and didn't want to speak.
"It's strange to say. Since you know that she already has a husband, and she is not far away from others, but she comes forward, are you so interested in destroying other people's feelings? Or do you have a particular hobby? If not, I think you'd better leave now! ”
"Ji Zixuan, what are you talking about!"
I was even more angry, and I couldn't believe that the person in front of me could be the same as the moment before.
This person seems to have changed his face, and the strange poignancy is completely different from what I remember before.
"You're still thinking about him? You're just a half-hearted person. Do you think he's better than me? ”
I felt that he was a little unreasonable, but Qin Anchen on the side was still persuading me not to be angry, and to communicate clearly with him, I was a little angry for a while.
"Ji Zixuan, don't think of everyone so dirty, do you know? What are you saying and doing now? "I don't think there's anyone more than him.
"What am I talking about? What am I doing? I'm glad I do now, of course I know what I'm doing. It's not you, but you look at the way you look now, and you can't wait to stick to that man, why is he better than me? ”
I think he's just unreasonable.
"Even if he's better than you, he's different, you look at you like a crazy person now, do you really think you're good like this?"
"Why can't I bear it anymore? Or can you say that, and sure enough, you just feel that he is better than me, don't you? ”
I was furious for a moment.
"Why don't you have a point in your heart, why isn't he better than you? What do you look like yourself, and you don't know what you think about yourself? ”
Ji Zixuan heard me say this, and he became even more angry.
There was tension between us, as if we were going to fight in the next second.
Qin Anchen felt very uncomfortable when he saw us arguing, and hurriedly stepped forward to dissuade him.
"You two stop arguing, there is nothing to do, no matter how you continue to quarrel, I'm afraid it will really hurt your feelings."
He said it sincerely.
"What are you doing here now, if you know it from the beginning, then don't get involved in other people's feelings, and you don't feel disgusted when you put on this pose now!"
Ji Zixuan turned his head away with a look of disgust.
Qin Anchen was a little silent for a while, what he said was a bit too much, and he didn't know how to refute it.
"Are you a child? Children are not as willful as you, can't you hear others say hello? You're talking in a weird tone, who's going to listen? ”
"Why did you protect it in just one sentence, it can be seen that you are very sincere to him, but I don't know if he likes you or not, and he doesn't have you in his heart?"
I listened to him and was furious.
"That's enough, look what you look like right now. Do you have to deliberately distort what others say? ”
I looked at him with disappointment.
His face was already flushed, and he was obviously very angry, but the strange thing was that I didn't feel happy or sad when I looked at him like this, because he and I had been separated by those things.
"Are you telling the truth? Do you think I'm inferior to everyone else from start to finish? His voice grew deeper.
My heart felt a slight ache.
He grabbed me by the arm and stared at me with a pair of eyes.
"If nothing else, is what you said before true? Do you really think that way of me, and really think that I am inferior to other people? ”
I met his gaze and looked at him.
I thought about what we had been through, and how he was doing to me now, and I couldn't help but laugh bitterly.
"Sometimes I really doubt whether you like me, or because of your self-esteem that you refuse to let go, you see that you don't look like you like someone at all, if I definitely have a grudge, I believe it more easily."
He let go of my arm and staggered twice, his eyes staring at me in disbelief, full of pain.
I didn't know what to say more, so I chose to be quiet.
Everyone fell silent for a moment, and the silence in the woods was a little eerie.
"Chu Xinyi, do you have a heart for this woman, can't you really see what I do to you? You'd rather believe someone you've just met than believe it, but think I'm not as good as them, hello, you're really good! ”
I didn't look at him any longer, although I chose to be silent, and the emotional entanglement between us could not be explained clearly in a sentence or two.
Ji Zixuan turned around, I didn't see his expression clearly, I could only hear his somewhat hoarse voice.
"Did you never like me?" I didn't know exactly what answer he wanted to hear, so I just chose to be silent.
I couldn't figure out what my feelings were for him, but I knew it wasn't what he thought it was. But I didn't say anything.
I was irritated, and the thought of how he had treated my friend before made me feel an indescribable urge to fight.
"Every time I make any friends, I am sarcastic and denial, you obviously want to control me, you don't like it at all, you have never understood yourself, and you always talk about love!"
I thought about everything I had been through, and the more I felt that what I was saying was the truth.
Ji Zixuan even lied to himself, he thought he loved me very much.
Ji Zixuan didn't explain this time, just left silently, I didn't feel relaxed in my heart, but I felt a little heavy, I would rather him explain here than choose this indifferent attitude, which made me feel that my guesses were all right, and he never really had me in his heart.