Chapter 33: Unhappy
"Xiahou Gongzi thinks...... Ying'er is not happy? Xiahou Ying asked in a daze.
"It can't be said that I'm unhappy, but it's just ......" Xiahou Yan was silent for a moment and said slowly, "I always feel that Ying'er is very tired. ”
"Tired?" Xia Houying never thought that she was like this in the eyes of her brother, and she couldn't help but feel a little distracted.
Thinking of his deceased sister, Xiahou Yan sighed slightly, "In my impression, Ying'er was very similar to you just now when she was a child, she was a quirky little goblin who always did something unexpected. But since she was ten years old, she has changed ......"
Xiahou Yan seemed to be caught in the memory, and his eyes were far away, "At the queen's birthday banquet that year, Ying'er's song "Spring Apocalypse" showed her edge, and won the honor of 'noble girl model' given by the queen. Since then, Ying'er has changed, she has practiced the piano, read, and learned to paint seriously, and her manners, words and deeds have become more and more dignified and elegant, but the smile on her face has become less and less......"
Xiahou Yan smiled bitterly and said helplessly, "A model of a noble girl, it is these four words that completely restrain Ying'er, making her become stable and old at the most innocent age. Everyone praises her as the 'No. 1 Lady of the New Moon', but if I can choose for her, I still hope that she is the carefree little girl who used to be carefree......"
Xiahou Yan, who had been trapped in self-blame and memories, didn't notice that when he said these words, Xiahou Ying on the side actually wet his eyes.
These words had never been spoken between their brother and sister. Once, Xiahou Ying thought that no one knew about the hardships of trying to protect the title of "First Noble Girl", after all, the world would only see the glory when you stood at the top, but never cared about the hardships you paid for this glory. However, I didn't expect that my brother had always known about it and had always felt sorry for himself......
Xiahou Yan, who came back to her senses, saw Xiahou Ying lowering her eyes, thinking that she had aroused her thoughts about her sister, and she was a little reluctant in her heart, so she hurriedly squeezed out a smile and said, "Heh~ My words are a bit much, in fact, I just want to say that Ying'er can become friends with you, maybe because she envies you very much, although you are not as good as her, and there are some troubles at home, but at least, you can live freely according to your own heart." ”
Live your life as you wish...... Xiahou Ying only felt that she was empowered, and the whole person suddenly became clear!
Heaven gave her a chance to be reborn, wouldn't it be possible to give her a different way of living? In the past, Xiahou Ying carried too much on her body, so that although she was bright on the outside, she was tired on the inside. But now, she is no longer Xia Houying, does that mean that she can face her future life with a more authentic self?
Xiahou Ying, who finally figured it out, couldn't help but smile when she looked at her brother again, "Xiahou Gongzi is right, I should live freely according to my own heart!" ”
Seeing the smile of the thin girl in front of her, Xiahou Yan suddenly felt that her mood was not as heavy as just now, as if a touch of warm sun had shone into her heart. And the face of the girl in front of him began to blur, and finally turned into the face of his sister.
Xiahou Yan raised his hand with a smile and gently rubbed it on Xiahou Ying's head a few times, his eyes were full of indulgence.
"Brother, I will live happily instead of Ying'er!" Xia Houying said with a determined face.