Chapter 177: Suicide in fear of sin.
"The reason why I said this to you, can't you still see that I am here to protect you? Don't embarrass me! ”
Don't embarrass me?! I just don't want you to die because of me, isn't that okay?
"No, I don't understand, I can't let you die because of me." If someone has to die in this war, then I can't be used as a medium, in this way, I will feel guilty, and I will have trouble sleeping, especially for someone like Xiao Yiran who is dedicated to protecting me!
He has such a deep affection for me, how can I live up to it like this?! When I blamed him, I didn't think that Yeluqi was instigated by Xiao Jincheng in order to eradicate Xiao Yiran, and at that time, I was blinded by hatred and made such a serious mistake blindly and recklessly.
He slammed the plate on the floor and startled me with a crisp sound that spread all around.
He smashed the plate...... Do what?
I saw him squat down, picked up a sharp fragment, and said with a relieved smile, "Little bad heart, do you know, I actually knew you earlier than him, you and your mother were close friends with my mother and concubine before her death, and later broke off contact because my mother married far away, I also heard about you, but I was blinded by the rumors of the world and did not know the pearl of the flower, when I saw you in front of the queen mother, I regretted it too late...... You say, if I had come back earlier and found out that you were different earlier, would the current situation be a different situation? There was deep regret in his voice, "However, now, I have also regarded you as a confidant and friend, and the original deception was really a last resort." ”
As soon as his hand moved, sharp shards slashed across his wrists, and blood burst out instantly, "Now let's exchange your death for my life...... I definitely can't. ”
I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly a voice screamed faster than me, "Don't ...... Rajah! ”
This scream changed my god back, and I shouted at the guard, "Come on, come on, Xiao Yiran committed suicide, he ...... Suicide, someone! I shouted hoarsely against the iron railing, and pulled the iron door vigorously, but I still didn't move.
Several guards hurried to the ground for a while, and then hurriedly opened the door, and I rushed in, hugging him who had fallen to the ground, blood stained the ground, my eyes, and my skirt, "Quick...... Hurry up and ask the imperial doctor...... Come on! ”
He shook my hand with his backhand, "Little bad heart, sorry for the deception." ”
"I don't blame you, I don't blame you for a long time, you ...... Stop talking. I stroked his wrist, which had been bleeding all the time, and the blood gushed like a spring of blood stained my entire palm and the back of my hand red, which was extremely dazzling.
"Okay, then I can ...... Safe ...... Left. His face turned pale and his gaze became blurred.
I shook him vigorously, "No, no...... The Imperial Doctor, the Imperial Doctor is coming soon, you hold on...... You have to hold on. ”
Xiao Yiran can't die, he can't die! I kept shouting in my heart.
Nuan Nuan, if you can sense my heart and feel my prayers, then please, please keep Xiao Yiran, don't let him die!
Seeing the unstoppable panic in my eyes, Xiao Yiran was very calm, and he lamented angrily, "Flashy fame and fortune are empty after all, I shouldn't have been so attached to that position for a long time, I worked hard to lay out and wanted to catch cicadas with praying mantis...... As a result, he miscalculated people's hearts, and in the end, he lost ...... It's so miserable, promise me...... Don't be fooled by this bloody harem...... Pollution, let's go, how far can you go, how far you can go, do what you want to do...... Whether it's Jinyunlou or smiling proud rivers and lakes, here's ...... After all, this is not ..... is not your destination, you belong to ...... Belongs to ......"
His voice grew smaller, deeper, smaller...... Finally hidden in the pale lips, the whole body relaxed weakly, and there was no strength to hold my hand anymore, and the soft vertical bloodstained ground was stained with blood.
"Lord Wang." Xiao Qian cried bitterly, tears fell from her eyes, kowtowed hard, fell to the ground weakly, and cried loudly.
I looked at everything in front of me in a daze, I was speechless, I didn't expect that my visit this time would eventually become his talisman, is this the so-called flooding and difficult to recover? I sent one of my first friends here to the end of my life?!
Slowly looking at the unconscious body in front of me, I blindly walked out of the prison and ran towards the imperial study, I only have one thought now, I want to see Xiao Jincheng immediately, immediately!
There are some things I must ask him face to face, otherwise, I am afraid that I will regret it, I do not believe everything he has done.
This morning, he also said to me, "Life and death are broad, and I will not regret my love for three lives." "Is it all fake? In the end, he still treats me like a pawn like Chunrui?
"Originally, I thought that he should be very affectionate to you if he didn't touch other women except you, and he didn't hesitate to push Chunrui out in order to protect you, but I didn't expect that I would look at him wrong......"
Thinking of what Xiao Yiran said, I realized that in fact, it was me who caused Chunrui to die well, and I was the last murderer!
The pace slowly changed from the initial rush to weakness, and I don't know how many miles I ran, I only felt that my physical strength brought into the whole body was paralyzed, panting again and again, and my whole body was like a prostration, and I was powerless to take a step forward, and my body leaned softly against the pink vermilion wall, staring at the sky of floating clouds.
It seems that I really don't belong here, and suddenly I have an urge to escape, the deep palace compound, there are crises everywhere, and there are many unknown bloody cases hidden in the embattled palace walls.
Chunrui is dead, Xiao Yiran is dead, who is next?
This overhead world, this overhead character, I am as helpless as duckweed, I want to leave but I don't know where to go.
I've given up taking a step further, don't say whether I can get into the imperial study, what can I do if I break in, question and condemn him? Questioning him killed Chunrui and killed Xiao Yiran, the person who once assisted him in ascending to the throne of God?
But Chunrui's death is to protect me so I am willing to die, if she doesn't die, then it is me who dies and Xiao is the same, if he doesn't die, Xiao Jincheng will die. What can I ask? Who am I to question?
With a wry smile, why did I insist on entering the palace and not leaving, since I chose to give up An Huaixin's identity, why did I have to re-enter the game.
I turned around indifferently and evoked a wry smile, is this the will of God? Even if I know that I am just a character in the book, no matter how I try to get rid of it, I can't get rid of the story following the established track!
Raising my eyes and standing still, I stopped trying to move forward, Yeluhuan was standing behind me for some time, and it took a long time for him to slowly speak, "I have something to ask you." ”
His eyes are deep, still intoxicating, and still that beautiful face that makes people jealous.
"I have nothing to say." At this moment, his state of mind has calmed down, and he has no extra strength to entangle with him except for the desolation and despair in his heart.
"If you don't answer, I'll denounce you now." As he finished speaking, he walked towards me, approaching with a sharp warning that made me want to laugh weakly.
If I had said this earlier, maybe I would have been scared and panicked, but now, I still don't care.
"Whistleblowing? Exposing me is An Huaixin, the concubine of Zhenbei Palace, the wife of the emperor's media, or exposing that I was not assassinated to death as rumored by the outside world, but sneaked into the palace to do something wrong? I sneered, and a smile was always on my lips, "Go, you go now, to prove that I am at peace with my heart, and stir up the whole Southern Dynasty unrest, so that you can take advantage of the chaos to raise troops." Go on! A cold snort accompanied by a chuckle escaped.
Yeluhuan's face changed, and when he looked at me here, he had a strange confusion.
Gently stroking my own face, I said tepidly, "This face has long lost its previous charm, and it has not been the previous Allure, if you want to know the reason, you can ask your good queen Mrs. Liancheng, I believe she will give you a very satisfactory answer." ”
I walked straight past him, walking back towards the way I came, leaving him alone to stand in place, the cold wind was cold and fragrant, I took a hard breath and slowly spit it out, and the thoughts in my head gradually cleared.
When I returned to Jiefang Pavilion, many Jieyu ran out of the room, standing on the edge of the porch and looking at me with an embarrassed face, whispering something.
I looked at their lips with a blank face, and I thought it was so funny that I laughed out loud and made them stunned for a while.
Could it be that this woman is a demon?
All of them stared at me with stunned eyes and looked at me who was smiling incessantly.
"Little master, how did you make it like this?" Chunya came out with a worried face, and stepped forward to support me, for fear that I would accidentally fall to the ground, but I was now powerless to take another step.
"It's fine." I just feel that my voice is extremely dry and hoarse, and my head is a little dizzy.
"Master, your face ......" Chunya let out a low cry, and then she stared at my scratched face with great concern, with a worried expression.
The appearance of the woman in Jiefang Pavilion should be carefully cared for, once she is injured in this life, she may be explained here, how can the master be so careless!
I gently stroked the face she was looking at, Fang felt some pain, it turned out, it was hurt face, I don't know if he saw it, or if he had seen it but thought he didn't see it.
Thinking of the yellow figure, I unconsciously smiled again.
Again, he turned a blind eye to me again, the last time he was barefoot, this time he hurt his face, and the two times he ignored me intentionally or unintentionally?
"An Jieyu, I have a bottle of medicine here." Wu Jieyu held a small Tao Ping in her hand and handed it to me, "I'll wipe it on for you, it's very smart." ”
I shook my head faintly, just a face, I don't care anymore.
"Master." Seeing that I refused, Chunya called anxiously on the side.
"An Jieyu don't want to hurt herself, the faces and lives of women in the harem are tied together, even if you don't care about this face, at least you have to protect your life."
Looking at Wu Jieyu's earnest words, I bowed my head and agreed.
Wu Jieyu is really smart.
Then we went back to the room together, she personally smeared the ointment on her hands, and then applied it evenly on my face, showing some slight pain, and then the feeling of coolness spread all over the body, with a faint fragrance that I was relieved of.
"I heard...... King Rong committed suicide in prison. ”
Sure enough, Wu Jieyu is not simple!