Ruiwen said that every time I went home, there was a figure waiting for me at the entrance of the village at the foot of the mountain, and the sunset was often hanging behind him, and that figure reminded me: Home is here, come quickly.

Ruiwen also said that every time I left home, at the entrance of the village at the foot of the mountain, there would always be a figure to see me off, and his hands were often stained with morning light, and that figure told me: Go with confidence, don't look back.

Later, that figure was gone.

When the time in his mind was reversed, he repeatedly scrolled back to the pictures of his life with his father for more than 20 years

The person who picked him up from school in kindergarten and always put him on the bicycle beam,

The person who is always used to holding his arm and worrying about him falling out of bed in the middle of the night when he sleeps every night,

When he got up in the morning, he would be lifted into the air and asked if he was the son of his eldest head.

The one who fights with the big man in the village in order not to let the big boy in the neighborhood bully him.

Dad, that's the kind of person.

Raven remembered that he came home two months ago, after dinner, the weather forecast on the TV was ringing "Fishing Boat Singing Night", his mother was cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks after the meal, and Raven made a cup of tea for his father who was leaning on the sofa. Father suddenly said:

"Son, come here, sit down here with Dad, I have something to say to you."

Raven suddenly realized that he and his father hadn't communicated well since he was in junior high school.

"Son, how are you studying lately? Is there any pressure? ”

"It's okay, it's a bit stressful."

"You're not in love, are you?"

"No, no, Dad, don't dare, I really don't dare, let's talk about it when I work in the future."

"Well, Dad hopes that you can study hard, and when you are admitted to college, you can fall in love, Dad has no objection."

"Well, I know, Dad, watch TV for a while and rest early, you have to pay attention to your health now, develop a good routine, quit smoking, and drink less. If you don't have strong self-control, I will go back and say hello to our elementary school teachers and neighbors in the village, and if anyone still pulls you to drink, I will go back and settle accounts with them one by one. ”

"Look at you, kid, how can you think like that! I can take care of myself, and you don't offend people out there. ”

Rui Wen bowed his head silently, looking at the stainless steel teacup in his father's hand, this teacup has been with the old man for many years, and he has this cup in his memory since he was a child, and the inner wall is full of a layer of tea dirt. Maybe this cup is older than his age, and Raven is also amazed at the durability of this cup, it has been with his father for so many years, whether it is at the bedside of his father's bedroom, the coffee table in the living room at home, the lectern at school, at his father's desk, or next to the hospital bed, it has always followed its master and stuck to its post.

"Did you hear that?"

Raven was distracted for a moment, and was pulled back to his thoughts by his father's questioning.

"Well...... Good. Raven replied absentmindedly.

"Son, Dad's illness, Dad knows it in his own heart, this family will count on you in the future, you are also a man, if Dad is not at home, you must take care of your mother. Don't make your mother angry, even know how to protect her, you have grown up, Dad believes that you will have a future and a good future, so in comparison, Dad is more at ease with your mother, your grandfather died early, you must remember that this family will have no other man to rely on except you in the future. ”

"Dad, don't talk nonsense, the doctors have said that your illness will recover after two years of slow recovery. Don't you always want to go to Tibet, when my college entrance examination is over, let's go on a trip, go to see the Potala Palace, go to see Yangzhuo Yongcuo, go to see the Jokhang Temple, I have formulated a travel strategy......"

Raven's inner strength had collapsed, and he tried to suppress his tears from spilling out in front of his father with all his might.

"You listen to me first, nineteen years ago, grandpa entrusted my mother to my father, and I have always tried my best to take care of her and take care of this family, but today, my father entrusts your mother to you, as the old saying goes, mother is more precious than son, can my Liu Bin's wife live well in the future, Dad will please you......"

Raven looked up and lowered the palm that had been covering his forehead and face, he found that his mother was quietly standing in the kitchen door watching them at some point, perhaps she had been listening carefully to the conversation between father and son, and Raven's mother was silent, and the tears that slipped down to her apron were more than Raven's dripping on the coffee table.

And in the evening, Brother Qiang, the head teacher, went into the classroom and told Ruiwen that after his father returned from another old illness and sent the news that he was hospitalized in the provincial capital, Ruiwen didn't have time to pack anything, rushed out of the school gate and got into a taxi in a panic to run to the long-distance station.

Raven felt like a stray dog that couldn't find a home, and he had lost his only bone. Raven hid his head in his coat and hat, and wept incessantly.

He picked up his phone and dialed his father's number, and several calls were turned off. I kept repeating in my heart:

"Dad, you'd better answer the phone soon......"

Last semester was approaching the final exams, and my father was admitted to the hospital for the first time for treatment, and Raven didn't know it. When it came time for surgery, Raven didn't know. My father didn't let the people around him talk about Raven, because he felt that it would affect the status of Raven's exam. Rui Wen remembered that when he came to the hospital later, he teased his father and said,

"Don't say that you just break the exam, if you have a headache and brain fever on June 7 next year, I can escape from prison and stay with you at the college entrance examination site."

But that wasn't the case that time.

That time, when my father was not discharged from the hospital, Raven called, and he was still lying on the hospital bed.

"Dad, what are you busy with?" Raven Says:

"Oh, I'm not busy with anything, I'm fighting with your Uncle Wang and Uncle Li at home," Dad said:

"Oh, it's so laid-back, who loses and who wins?" Raven Says:

"Of course I won, your father's IQ of playing cards you kid don't know, wait a while, wait a while, my son's phone, don't play the cards first, I want this card, I have a ...... Son, when will you come back?" said the father.

"Oh, we're on vacation, and we're done with the last exam in the morning...... "I said:

"Well, then you can come back and talk about it, pay attention to safety on the road, let's continue to play, hang up first" Dad said:

After hanging up the phone, tears began to fall, and at this moment Ruiwen was standing in the public phone booth at the school gate, holding the schoolbag tightly in his hand to go home. A minute before I called my father, I just learned about my father on the phone with my mother.

Raven asked his father how he was doing, and his mother replied:

"The operation went well, your dad has recovered well in the past two days, I am at the door of the ward at this time, your dad is alone in the house, he said that when you come back to tell you about this illness, you should come back quickly, your dad is always talking about you today......"

That time it was slightly better than Raven had expected.

When Raven arrived at the hospital, his father's condition was stable, and the rest was that he needed a long period of conservative recuperation. Because it is a lung disease, tobacco and alcohol can no longer be touched. Following the doctor's advice, Raven confiscated all his cigarettes, and after a while, the old man's health improved slightly, but at the same time, he also became addicted to smoking. Raven had a premonition that his father, who had been in good shape recently, might make some small moves, and Raven was always vigilant, until one time when he returned to the ward after washing his father's clothes, he didn't know where to run, and when Raven found him at the back of the inpatient building, he was secretly swallowing clouds and spitting fog to satisfy his smoking addiction, and when he saw that Raven had found out, he didn't have time to destroy the incriminating evidence, so he had to pinch the cigarette in his hand.

After being embarrassed for a few seconds, Rui Wen didn't know where he had the courage to look condescending like the school head teacher reprimanding him, and shouted at his father angrily:

"Dad, what are you doing! Don't die, huh? I don't know how my body is? Or do you feel more comfortable staying in the hospital than at home, and want to stay for two more months? The smoke belongs to the state, and the life is one's own! I don't know how you got in? What did the doctor tell you to think was teasing you? Why are you not obedient at all! ”

But as soon as he finished saying this, Ruiwen realized his faux pas, if it wasn't reasonable, it is estimated that the old man would have slapped him in front of him like this, and the mountains were full of flowers and stars. But the father said to Ruiwen with a shy look of admitting his mistake:

"Smoke this one today, okay?"

Rui Wen instantly smiled helplessly at his father's actions, and suddenly found that slowly, he became a child, and he became an adult. Sometimes I really don't know how to let my father know Raven's love and respect for him, when we were young, we always gave all our passion to passers-by, but threw too much indifference to the closest people, it's not that there is no love, it's not that I don't want to say, it's just the so-called face, the so-called stubbornness, so that there is an inexplicable gap between myself and my parents.

But the world is impermanent, and the previous casual glance is really the last one.