The so-called ideal,

It doesn't have to be at the ends of the earth,

It doesn't have to be far away from home.

You tell me?

They are like newborn fish eggs, scattered in the sea of people after a short time together.

After Yao Xiaoyou's wedding, Wen Xiaoguo went to visit Lao Zhao in prison, for a long time, his concern for Lao Zhao all came from Ah Luo's report on the phone, although Lao Zhao has been actively performing in the past six years, seriously reforming, and has made meritorious contributions, and has been given two opportunities to reduce his sentence, but his physical condition is getting worse and worse, he fainted in the canteen some time ago, and had a slight cerebral infarction.

Wen Xiaoguo registered and waited in prison for nearly an hour, but he didn't talk to Lao Zhao on the phone for 10 minutes through the heavy glass.

"Go back, go back early to be busy with you, and explain to my family that I'm fine. You and Ah Luo should be busy studying, busy studying, busy work, don't worry about me, and don't have to come here often. This only allows you to spend 300 yuan a month, and you can buy some snacks and daily necessities. Your aunt sends money to my account every few months, and you two don't have to worry about me. Let's go, let's go, go back, I'm hanging ......."

Lao Zhao's vision was a little blurry, and he was a little flustered when he hung up the phone. He stood up and waved his hand, signaling Wen Xiaoguo to go back early, and then walked towards the door behind him in three steps, leaving Wen Xiaoguo to sit on the stool in amazement.

The time stipulated for the visit was half an hour, Wen Xiaoguo didn't leave immediately, he wanted to consume the remaining twenty minutes before getting up and leaving, if this was also a kind of companionship.

From time to time, he looked at the door where Lao Zhao had just entered, and looked around, the huge visiting area was divided in two by a heavy glass wall like a bank counter, a long row of stools, and a long row of landline telephones.

This time is the peak of visitation, there are almost no empty windows, the women outside are crying, and the men inside are also crying. A woman picked up the child in her arms, leaned forward, spread out the child's palm and pressed it against the window, through the glass, and inside was also a large, struggling to open hand.

In a room are two worlds, those inside yearn for freedom and those outside yearn for reunion.

After coming out of prison, Wen Xiaoguo stood on the side of the road and lit a cigarette, a gust of wind blew the sand into his eyes, he rubbed his eyelids repeatedly, trying to wash out the debris with the water in his eyes, although it hurt a little, he clearly felt that the wind carried the smell of freedom.

In the afternoon, Wen Xiaoguo took a long-distance bus to Lanzhou to find Liu Jun, and he and Liu Jun hadn't talked enough at the little demon's house a few days ago.

He heard Liu Jun say that he graduated from college a year ago. Liu Jun hit several walls in finding a job, and later was accidentally abducted into a pyramid scheme organization by a friend in Hubei, and later Liu Jun's father rushed thousands of miles to Xiangyang alone, relying on anxious red eyes and a kitchen knife in his arms to get him out of the thief's den.

Liu Jun said:

"That time, I seized the opportunity, stole the cell phones of the members of the organization, and quietly sent my dad a distress message and the approximate address of the trapped person, and when my dad rushed in that day, he unzipped his coat and took out a kitchen knife, and there was a huge sign on his chest with four big words written on it with a red brush, 'Return my son!' , I used to worship how handsome Chen Haonan was in "Crazy Boy", and at that moment, I suddenly felt that it was bullshit! No one in the world is as powerful and handsome as my father! ”

Wen Xiaoguo found a training institution opened by Liu Jun in a residential building in Chengguan District, a 200-square-meter duplex building with two floors, and a 1.2-meter dead-arm Venus plaster statue in the rest area, with a snow-white and graceful posture all over the body, but the chest is obviously a little greasy and black, which should be the pulp formed by being touched many times by hand.

"Second brother, what do you think of me here? Hey...... Let's go, go to my office. I'll get you some water, and I'll come right away. Liu Jun said:

"It's not bad, it's just that Venus is a little dirty, so let's take a bath in the plaster cast statue." Wen Xiaoguo joked:

"Come to me, let's do it together, my position as the executive principal here can always be reserved for you, you can open the salary, and there is no problem with technology shares." Liu Jun said:

"Hahaha, no, no, I'm afraid that I'm too shallow to learn, embarrassed by the big responsibility, and then I will make your training class yellow." Wen Xiaoguo said and saw that the drink bottle handed over by Liu Jun was Hans's cabin.

"Oops, I haven't seen this thing for a long time, and the last time I drank it should have been when we worked together in Ningxia after the college entrance examination."

"Hehe, my stomach is not very good now, and I can't drink as presumptuous as before, Hans's cabin is very good, and it has a familiar taste." Liu Jun said:

"I can't see it, you're still a very nostalgic Sao Nian." Wen Xiaoguo said:

"That's not possible, now I'm not only nostalgic, but also a literary and artistic young man. Guoguo, how are you doing now? Liu Jun said:

"I'll talk to you in a while, let's talk about you first, Beijing is in a good time, how can you come back when you go back?" Wen Xiaoguo asked:

After Liu Jun stretched out his hand to light a Lanzhou cigarette for Wen Xiaoguo, he slumped his body on the chair, took a deep breath, and said:

"When I first came back from Hubei, I was idle in Lanzhou City, wandering around all day long, and then I wanted to go to Beipiao to partner with my cousin to start a company. Where does the registered capital come from? At least the capital must be there. I made a round of phone calls, and everyone was actually poor, and there was very little help they could help.

My mother has a very stubborn personality, and even when my sister got married, the old lady said, if you want a divorce, you must never come home, and you are responsible for your own life. Will I be even more ruthless before I graduate from college, saying that I can't find a job? If you don't have money to eat, you can go to the roadside to ask for food, and you are not allowed to go home and ask for money.

There is really no way out. I hesitated again and again to try to call my dad to discuss this, I just came out of the pyramid scheme den, many relatives and friends who dared to lend me money easily, I also told my dad on the screen, I can show him the contract and project plan, it is really necessary to start a business.

I'll figure it out. ’

The old man replied to me and said nothing else.

Originally, I thought that there was no drama, but my father was a boiler burner, with a salary of less than 3,000 yuan a month. ”

Liu Jun raised his head and stretched out his hand to open the wine next to the desk, and I Wen Xiaoguo raised his hand and did not stop it after all.

"And then?" Wen Xiaoguo asked:

"It doesn't matter, I didn't expect to borrow money from my dad in the first place. As a result, it was only three or four days, and my dad called the night before to ask me to meet at the bus stop in town the next day. I also went with the attitude of trying, and planned to take a picture and leave.

But I saw that he was wearing a morning exercise suit, a T-shirt and shorts, black socks and white shoes, looking very ugly, and wearing a ridiculous peaked cap on his head...... A handful of sweat.

My brain buzzed, and before I could think of what to say, he opened the small waist pouch on his stomach and took out a passbook from the Agricultural Bank, as well as 20,000 yuan in cash, scattered denominations, the largest face value of 100 yuan, and the smallest face value of 10 yuan. There was also a note in the passbook, written in pencil:

'One hundred and sixty-seven thousand four hundred and five, is that enough?' ’

After seeing my dad hand me the passbook, he pointed to the note and motioned me to take a closer look, I really didn't know what to say at the time, but nodded instinctively, stretched out his hand and continued:

‘…… Enough, enough, enough. ’

"Dad, you robbed the bank? There's so much money there? ”

The old man glared at me, and then he edited a text on his phone:

Don't tell your mother, I tricked her into coming out to exercise in the morning, secretly brought money, and took the bus from my hometown. You also know that if your mother finds out, she will definitely have a better life, and she may kick us out of the house. ’

I was stunned for a moment, and before my mind could turn a corner, I looked at my dad's explanation to me with a confused expression, accompanied by dizzy gestures.

'Why do you help me when you know my mom doesn't agree?'

My first instinct was to hand it over to my mom. ’”

Liu Jun hiccuped, sat up and slumped back in the chair, and suddenly laughed.

"Hahaha, uncle is such a strange man."

Wen Xiaoguo couldn't help laughing.

"When I finally got my strength, I thought about whether I wanted to write a note or something, borrow money, and I have to say how long it will take to repay the money, right? Just as I was about to speak, my dad had already zipped up and was about to turn around.

He re-edited a text message to show me, which read:

Without further ado, I have to catch the bus back and go to the market to buy groceries. Your mother is a ghost, be careful to tell her to see the wayway. ’

Then he turned and walked away.

I didn't turn my head back. ”

"Uncle is really handsome. Aren't you doing well in Beijing, why did you suddenly go back to your hometown? Wen Xiaoguo said:

Liu Jun took a hard puff on his cigarette, paused and said:

"At that time, I always thought that I was very good, and that I could gain a firm foothold in Beijing, not only to support myself, but also to live well. For a while, I often got scared in front of my sister, until the Mid-Autumn Festival, I guess my sister couldn't stand my expansion, so I couldn't help but tell me, in fact, on the night I called my dad, he knocked on the door of every house in the village, a few distant relatives, he picked a few people with better economic conditions and sent a lot of long text messages one by one to communicate with me, he couldn't speak, and most importantly, my dad didn't have a social circle, because of his own reasons, his self-esteem was already fragile. Guoguo, growing so big, I have never seen my dad borrow money from anyone, and the monthly salary card is honestly handed over to my mother for safekeeping and disposal, and I have never heard of my dad borrowing money from someone. ”

Wen Xiaoguo suddenly felt that Liu Jun's wine at the moment was unusually sober.

Liu Jun refilled another cigarette and continued:

"I really couldn't understand later, he was very calm and flat when he handed me money at the station that day, and it felt like a local tyrant went to the bank to buy some financial products. This is not over, and then when I came home for the Chinese New Year, I secretly turned the house upside down and found a stack of IOUs in an old iron mooncake box, adding up to 140,000 yuan. Did you know that to help me, he wrote on it at an interest rate of four times the interest on a bank loan. Now that I know, he's secretly doubled the pressure I've had and then taken it all on himself, and he's certainly not going to let me know it......"

Liu Jun was a little emotional, drank the wine in the bottle in one go, then turned his head out of the window, wiped his face up and down with both hands, and tears flowed out through the fingers between his palms.

"Guoguo, do you know what else I found? At the bottom of the IOU, there is also a personal accident insurance policy of Huaxia Insurance! The legal beneficiary is me, my dad borrowed a total of 74,000 and gave me more than 60,000, and he took out more than 5,000 yuan from this money to buy himself an insurance, and the underwriting time was just right! ”

Wen Xiaoguo was speechless in surprise, was stupid for half a year, and said heavily:

"No one knows, tomorrow or the accident will come first."

Liu Jun directly picked up the white cotton half-sleeves he was wearing, wiped the water stains on his face repeatedly, and said while wiping:

"But I know that if there was an accident, it must have been premeditated. My dad is so stupid, so stupid, so stupid......"

"So you decided to go back to your hometown from Beijing?"

"Well, yes, when I left Beijing, I sorted out all the Beijing subway bus recharge invoices in my hand, with a face value of 20 yuan, 50 yuan, 100 yuan, a total of 87 pieces, 4580 yuan, and then neatly spread on the bed and took a photo and sent it to a circle of friends, I said, don't drift north, the master wants to go home, don't pretend to be forced to ......"

Wen Xiaoguo rubbed his eyes and said with a smile: "Haha, I saw your circle of friends." ”

Liu Jun continued: "The night before I came back from Beijing, I wanted to take a taxi for luxury, at that time the cash in the wallet was only a few dozen yuan of blue, blue, green and green, the luggage in the rental house had already been packed, the house was empty and messy, forget it, go out and go for a walk, I counted it, 39 yuan, I told the master, go to Wangfujing Street, walk along Chang'an Street, open according to 39 yuan, if you can't get there, just throw me on the side of the road, anyway, aimless, I don't know what to think, Song Dongye's "Anhe Bridge North" is playing on the car radio.

'I know those summers

It's like youth that can't come back

In place of dreams, it can only be difficult to reluctantly

I know the

will also smile with youth'

When I heard this song, my nose was sore, I tilted my head, and stuck my head out of the car window, which I hadn't washed for several days...... I also chatted with the driver about what he didn't have.

'Master, no wonder others say that folk songs are God's consolation to the homeless. ’

'What? What do you say? ’

The taxi driver was probably a little confused, and he didn't react.

'Nothing, you drive your car......'

Wen Xiaoguo teased and said, "Fourth, you are really getting more and more hypocritical. ”

Liu Jun said: "That time I suddenly figured out that the so-called ideal is not necessarily at the ends of the earth, not necessarily at home. You tell me? ”

"Yes, you're right."