"Why don't you let me help you heal?"

Jihime walked over, stood beside me, and spoke.

"I can't afford your ghost power. ”

I looked at him for a moment before I spoke.

"You're finally willing to speak. ”

Jihime raised her head and looked at the plum trees in the yard that had just sprouted flower bones.

Truly.

I hadn't spoken for a whole morning since I knew I had lost my spiritual powers.

Because I don't know what to say.

I don't blame it.

He himself is unable to protect himself, and this approach is good for both of us.

But I was very uncomfortable.

Uncomfortable speechless.

But none of that matters anymore.

I sat quietly on the edge of the cloister, looking at the sun that was gradually obscured by dark clouds, and I had a lot of thoughts.

The maids in the courtyard had already sent me back to my room, and it was cold and deserted in the ice and snow.

"Jihime, are you happy?"

I looked at the sky and spoke slowly.

"What about being happy, and what about being unhappy. ”

Jihime lowered her head and smiled.

I know his laughter is sad.

But he wouldn't tell me how sad he was.

"My father, mother, and brother left me when I was three, twelve, and seventeen. ”

After a long time, I hung my head, bit my lip, and slowly spoke.

Jihime froze for a moment, obviously not expecting me to say this.

He looked at me silently, not knowing what to say.

"They have never done anything unreasonable, but God wants to take them away. ”

"And I can only watch them leave me, no matter how many bad guys I catch, no matter how high the honor I get, they will not come back. ”

My heart throbbed, and the memories of the past kept coming back to me.

"When my brother died, he told me to live happily. I smiled, "I try to forget all the unhappiness and try to be happy." ”

"But you know what? There is no happiness in this world except in the cold world. ”

I turned my head and looked at Jihime, my eyes filled with tears.

"Like my father and brother, I punished evil and promoted good, but in the end, I was rewarded with betrayal and death. ”

"The things I trust, the things I like, the things I have, and the things I am close to will all leave me one by one. ”

I choked, hugged my knees, and buried my head down.

Jihime lowered her eyes and stood next to me, squeezing the hand that was supposed to be on my shoulder, and then withdrawing it.

I cried bitterly.

I vented all the grievances and pains I have suffered over the years.

I also want to always punish evil and promote good.

However, there is an end to the road, there is a source of water, and there are times when people are exhausted.

I just want to live well.

But Heaven always gives me a thunderous blow when I want to let go of everything.

It often kills me.

And when I chose to die, it made me nirvana and reborn.

I've been tormented by this kind of life and death.

God, if you're watching, please let me know.

The world says that heaven is good, why is heaven not good, but it is not good to show me.

My appearance changed, my name changed, everything changed.

I thought I could let go of everything, let go of my disguise and armor and embrace everything new.

But now, I'm alone.

I'm still alone.

I don't want to embarrass you, so I choose to stay in the palace.

Because I have lost so much.

You taught me the art of reaching the heavens, and gave me a white jade cane.

The happiest thing for me is to shuttle between Yunmengze and Shan Xueju every day.

You have treated me as yourself.

But, you know what.

I'm fragile right now.

I can't handle that much on my own.

I almost died again today.

It's okay for you to come back.

Don't leave me alone in Changlang Garden.

Don't leave me alone to face these jackals, tigers and leopards.

Don't leave me alone.