I don't know when it snowed outside, it was cold.

As I watched the snow fall on the window one by one, I suddenly remembered what he had said that night.

He said that Beicheng is a city that doesn't snow much, but there is a place where winter is spent six months of the year.

The place he was talking about was called Ganas, which is located in the northern part of Burzin County in the Altay region, and it is a very beautiful place.

It's beautiful all year round, but the most beautiful time is in winter, and he went there once when he was a soldier, and it happened to be winter.

The winters in Kanas are long, lasting half a year, and they are covered in snow and snow.

The people there have long been accustomed to living in wooden huts with triangular roofs, riding horses and plows when traveling, and living in isolation.

He said that he liked it very much, the mare's milk wine, the finger meat, the quiet and peaceful, and the galloping on horseback over the snow.

He said: "Shen Qing, if you have the opportunity in the future, I will take you to Kanas to see the snow, believe me, you will definitely like it there." ”

I said, "Why can't you see the snow anywhere, why do you have to go so far?" And if you like it, it doesn't mean that I like it, how do you know that I will like it? ”

He said, "No, you're going to love it." ”

At that time, I wanted to say something, but he kissed it, and the kiss was different from the usual one, and I always felt that he was venting something.

That night, he asked me fiercely, again and again, when I was tortured to death, he fell into my ear and said, "You will like it, Shen Qing, you will definitely like it, come with me!" ”

Since then, I've fallen in love with this place, with what he calls the winter of Kanas, even though I had never heard of it before.

Just because he likes it, I like it too.

When I was carried out of the car, I grabbed the collar of the man in front of me, and the labor pain almost drove me crazy, but I still thought about the snow in Ganas.

"You promised to take me to see the snow, you promised."

It's a place I've never heard of, and you say it's so beautiful, you say you're going to take me to live there for a while, and you say I'm going to love it.

You let it stay in my heart, you said you would take me to see the snow, you promised it, forgot?

Lu Zhoucheng, have you forgotten?

Before entering the delivery room, the family was forbidden to enter, but I refused to let go, and I was unwilling to ask him over and over again, "Have you forgotten?" ”

"I haven't forgotten," he said. ”

I shook my head, "You forgot, Lu Zhoucheng, you forgot!" ”

He hesitated, then grabbed my hand, "If it's something I've forgotten, you can tell me." ”

"You promised to take me to Kanas, Lu Zhoucheng, you said you were going to take me to see the snow, you see, it's snowing outside, it's so cold, Lu Zhoucheng, I'm so cold."

"You're not cold, you're just scared, Xiaoqing, don't be afraid, I'll always be here with you."

He tried to break my fingers, I cried and shook my head, "Don't, Lu Zhoucheng, don't drive me away, I will be obedient, I will be obedient, I will never make you angry again." ”

I was crying breathlessly, but suddenly I felt like I was surrounded by a strong sadness, as if I had said something excessive.

I was so scared that my stomach hurt so much that I could barely grasp his clothes, and I cried and said, "Lu Zhoucheng, can you not go, okay?" ”

"You just can't let him go?"

He looked at me with an almost desperate look in his eyes, and his palm slid over my face, "If you can't let go, why do you want to torture yourself?" Why are you torturing me? ”

I called his name, and then, he kissed me.

"You're not wrong, it's me who is wrong, and it's always been me who deceives myself."

Seeing that he was leaving, I hurriedly pulled his sleeve, "Don't go......"

"I'm not leaving."

He touched my head, there seemed to be a mist in his eyes that could not be dissolved, and he promised me, "I will not go anywhere, I will be here with you." ”

I smiled happily, although my stomach hurts, but as long as he is there, I am not afraid.

Just when I was at my most relaxed, he suddenly snapped my fingers open.

"No"

I held out my hand to him and cried, "Don't leave me alone, I'm afraid ......"

"Be brave, Xiaoqing, you're not a child anymore, I'll wait here for you to come out!"

The door of the delivery room was cut off from outsiders, I couldn't see him, I couldn't hear him, and I panicked.

I begged the doctor, begged the nurse, and I said, "The one outside is my husband, can you let him come in and accompany me?" ”

No one was listening to me, they put me on the operating table, I felt a pair of hands touching my stomach, I resisted a little, and shouted Lu Zhoucheng's name.

I heard someone tell me to calm down, but I couldn't, I didn't know what I was afraid of, and I cried that I didn't want to give birth.

Maybe I made too much trouble, so they had to let Cheng Siyuan come in to calm my emotions.

When I saw him, I cried even more fiercely than just now, stretched out my hand and said, "Cheng Siyuan, I'm in so much pain, will I die?" ”

Cheng Siyuan held my hand and patiently comforted me and said, "No, every woman comes over like this, don't be afraid, I'll accompany you." ”

I was still afraid, I said, "Cheng Siyuan, I don't want to give birth, can you take me home?" ”

Cheng Siyuan said: "I've survived for so long, do you want to give up at this time?" Think about your parents, think about the child in your belly, Xiaoqing, you can't be so selfish. ”

As soon as my crying was a little quieter, I felt someone picking up my pants, but the curtain was blocked under my stomach, and I couldn't see it, so I grabbed Cheng Siyuan's arm and shouted.

"Is the doctor male or female?"

Cheng Siyuan said: "Women, doctors and nurses are all women. ”

Because I was very resistant to male doctors, Cheng Siyuan assured me that there would be absolutely no men during childbirth.

I know he won't lie to me, anyone can lie to me, only he won't, because he is Cheng Siyuan!

"The palace entrance has been opened to six fingers, and you can start preparing."

Feeling a pair of hands touching my body, I was a little embarrassed, let go of Cheng Siyuan's hand and said, "Why don't you go outside and wait!" ”

Cheng Siyuan shook his head and helped me wipe the tears from his face, "I'm here to accompany you." ”

My stomach hurt so badly that I felt a little uncomfortable, and I sniffled and said, "I didn't expect it to hurt so much to give birth, I knew I shouldn't have stayed in the first place." ”

Cheng Siyuan comforted me and said: "Actually, it's not that terrible, when the palace mouth is fully opened, it will be born at once." ”

I looked at him with a red face, "How do you even know this?" I didn't teach it in biology class! ”

Cheng Siyuan's face also turned red, and he said a little embarrassed: "I checked it on the Internet." ”

Seeing that he was embarrassed, my mood suddenly brightened, and I joked: "Cheng Siyuan, after the child is born, let them recognize you as a godfather!" ”

Cheng Siyuan pursed his lips and didn't speak, probably because he didn't like this identity, I also cared, the key was the wow-wow-w

When the uterine opening was fully open, the doctor started to push me hard, and someone was pushing my stomach, and the pain was really indescribable.

I tried several times without success, and I was dizzy and couldn't use my strength at all, crying and shouting that I didn't want to give birth.

Then I began to hallucinate in front of my eyes, I saw the villa in Clear Water Bay, and saw Lu Zhoucheng sitting in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, holding an entertainment magazine in his hand.

He doesn't usually look at these things, but that day he looked so seriously that he didn't even notice when I walked around.

I remember a casual glance at the time, the cover of the magazine was Su Qi, I didn't know the existence of this person at that time, but now that I think about it, I suddenly feel very uncomfortable.

has always regarded Jiang Yinyin as an imaginary enemy, but he didn't expect the praying mantis to catch the cicada and the yellow finch behind, and the reality was finally defeated by his first love.

There seemed to be neon in my sight, and I was dazed, and I heard someone shouting in my ear, "Xiaoqing, be awake, don't sleep!" ”

Then Lu Zhoucheng disappeared, and in its place, there was an unpleasant smelling operating room.

Cheng Siyuan anxiously shook my shoulders until my eyes met him, "What's wrong with me?" ”

"You're tired."

Finding that I was awake, Cheng Siyuan showed a relieved expression, he grabbed my hand and said, "Is it okay?" Do you want to try again? ”

I nodded, but I really couldn't, it hurt too much.

Seeing that I bit my lower lip full of blood, Cheng Siyuan was frightened, broke my mouth and said, "No more, no more!" ”

Vaginal delivery failed, so it was changed to caesarean section.

This is much faster, after the anesthetic, cut directly on the stomach, and then open the belly and take the child out.

In fact, I didn't feel anything at the time, so I could only imagine the bloody picture in my mind until I heard the child's cry.

At that moment, I suddenly felt like I was reborn after the catastrophe, and even felt that this was an arrangement in the dark.

When I lost Mr. Shen and Mr. Chen, when I was full of resistance and despair in life, when I thought I was going to die alone, the little angel came.

I had never felt so strongly during my time in pregnancy, and after seeing my baby with my own eyes, I felt like I had the world again.

Looking at the infant child, I felt that the torture of more than 200 days was not in vain, and I was even more glad that I had made the right decision in the first place.

I said, "Cheng Siyuan, thank you!" ”

Then before Cheng Siyuan's answer, I fainted.

Later, Cheng Siyuan told me that when he went out, the doctor was stitching up, and he accidentally saw the wound on my stomach and only felt that his scalp was numb.

He said it was the most horrific picture he had ever seen, there was blood everywhere, it was even more terrifying than the scene of the car accident, it was simply shocking!

At that moment, he suddenly felt that mothers all over the world were great.

Of course, I am also a mother now, although I may not be qualified, but I will try my best to learn how to be a good mother, like Teacher Chen.