In the past, when I was in Teng Ai, I often had to socialize because of work, and it was common for me to drink and vomit, but since I knew I was pregnant, I haven't drunk alcohol.

But now, I want to get drunk.

It wasn't dark yet, there was no one in the bar, so I sat down at the bar and asked the bartender for a glass of vodka.

When I took the first sip, I said to the baby, "I'm sorry baby, but mom is really hard right now, and I'll die if I don't drink." ”

When I got to the second drink, the bartender accosted me, "It's rare for a girl to drink such a strong drink." ”

I took his wine, sniffed it, and drank it all in one gulp.

"One more drink."

The bartender poured the wine and said, "You're going to get drunk like this, do you want to add something else?" ”

I shook my head and pulled a few bills out of my bag, "Forget it, just open me a bottle." ”

"Okay, then you drink it yourself."

The bartender helped me get a drink and went to greet the other guests.

I've never been to a bar alone, and I always feel silly like that, like announcing your loneliness to the world.

Now I'm such a fool, I'm not alone, I'm just sad.

A full glass of vodka was poured down, the stomach was burning as uncomfortable, I subconsciously touched my stomach, the baby must be very uncomfortable now!

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry!"

Someone sat down next to him, "How boring is it to drink alone, do you want to join us?" ”

I turned to look at him, then poured him a glass, "Please." ”

The man smiled, picked up the glass in front of him and said, "Vodka is too strong to drink like this, I like to add some ice." ”

I didn't bother to pay attention to him, "Love to drink or not." ”

When I wanted to continue pouring the wine, the man suddenly grabbed my arm and said, "Stop drinking, let's go dance." ”

I pulled out my arm and looked at him with a blank face, "I'm sorry, I can't dance." ”

No one believed the truth these days, and thought I was not giving face, so my eyes swept over the remaining half bottle of vodka, "How can someone who comes to the bar not dance?" ”

Seeing me shake his head, he asked again, "What will you do if you can't dance?" ”

I looked behind me, someone was singing on the stage, it was the second class of the third year of Dong Chou.

The familiar melody evokes memories of my youth, when I didn't have to think about anything, and the happiness was pure.

Would love to be so pure again, just once.

With the strength of the wine, I walked up to the stage and said, "Can you let me sing a song?" ”

This situation is not uncommon, and the people in the audience began to heckle, so the lead singer gave me the position.

The lights suddenly dimmed, and I heard a familiar melody as the white light hit me.

"Hey, I miss you so much, and now it's raining outside the window again......"

The people around me are all Maiba, but I really rarely sing, even if I accompany customers to KTV, I am also the one responsible for helping people order songs.

I don't know how I'm singing, I can't hear any other voices in my ears, I just keep singing, singing, and there is something in my heart clamoring to find an outlet for catharsis.

Halfway through the song, rainbow-like colors appeared in front of me, like blooming flowers, and I smiled and reached out to grab it, and the cold liquid slid down my cheeks.

It was terrible cold, and I was tormented by the burning of alcohol and the pain in my abdomen.

I don't know how long I can last, I just feel that the light is getting closer and closer to me, and then suddenly it goes dark in front of my eyes, and I fall on the stage.

"Miss, are you alright?"

"Ambulance, call an ambulance!"

The lights overhead were like halos of light, and I couldn't see clearly, but I could vaguely hear a lot of people talking, and it was very noisy.

My stomach was hurting more and more, and I struggled to raise my hand to touch my baby again, but I couldn't.

Baby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......

The vodka was so strong that he went straight unconscious after half a bottle, and when he woke up, it was already a day later.

Alcoholism, gastrointestinal bleeding.

When I heard the doctor's words, I was already prepared.

Although I also thought about giving up this child, when I really lost it, the painful feeling came from all directions like a tidal wave, and I felt like I couldn't breathe.

I heard that I had a miscarriage, so Zhu Jing came to see me with my goddaughter.

For the first time, she didn't scold me, but looked at me with a particularly sad look, "The child is gone, how do you feel now?" ”

I shrugged my shoulders with a pretended lightness, "Not bad." ”

Zhu Jing smiled and stuffed the child into my arms, "Look at her and say it again, how does it feel?" ”

Liu Xiaohua liked me very much, and 'giggled' to grab my hair.

Looking up at her dark eyes, I broke down and cried, "Jingjing, you take her away, please." ”

Zhu Jing refused, she just wanted me to look at Xiaohua, and then reminded me over and over again, look at what stupid things you have done!

I cried, for a long time, for the lost child and for myself.

Maybe this is God's will, if there is only one person between me and Lu Zhoucheng who can be happy, I hope that person is him.

Not long after Zhu Jing left, Lu Zhoucheng came.

He rushed in front of me and lifted me up, his red eyes reflecting my pale face, "Where's the child?" You knocked the child out? ”

I laughed, laughing from the bottom of my heart, "Lu Zhoucheng, I will fulfill you!" ”

"You ruthless woman!"

Lu Zhoucheng threw me back on the bed and left angrily.

I don't understand, why everyone says I'm ruthless, it's obviously me who made the sacrifice!

I was discharged from the hospital after Lu Zhoucheng left, and I did not go back to Lu's house, but went to the villa in Clear Water Bay.

I slept in a daze at night, and when I heard a sound in the room, I broke out in a cold sweat and randomly touched something to use as a weapon.

At that moment, the bedroom light suddenly turned on, and I stared at the thief.

After a while, the other party moved first, walked over and took the lamp in my hand, "If you really meet a bad guy, what you should do is to find a place to hide immediately." ”

I looked at him for a long time before I could find my voice, "How did you know I was here?" ”

"Where else can you go but here?"

His words almost pierced my heart, and I covered my mouth to keep myself from crying.

Lu Zhoucheng threw his coat on the sofa and turned to look at me, "What, I said it wrong?" Or do you want to go to Zhao Bin? I heard they were planning to get married next month. ”

"Although it's a little late to ask these questions now, I just want to hear the truth, the child is really Zhao Bin's?"

I was speechless and bit my lip desperately.

Lu Zhoucheng looked at me for a while, then nodded and said, "I understand." ”

No, you don't understand!

I grabbed Lu Zhoucheng's arm and shouted at him uncontrollably, "Lu Zhoucheng, you will never understand what I lost, you will not understand." ”

Lu Zhoucheng looked down at me, those eyes that seemed to be able to see everything, people couldn't look at them.

Lu Zhoucheng, I don't owe you anymore.

I let go and looked away, "You married me for the sake of the child, and now that the child is gone, if you want to divorce, I have no opinion." ”

Before he finished speaking, Lu Zhoucheng had already smashed his fist on the bed.

"That's what you're trying to say! Shen Qing, I really misjudged you! ”

Lu Zhoucheng gritted his teeth and said this, and then left angrily, leaving me alone in the empty room, grieving for my poor child.

The next day, I slept until noon and got up, and when I went downstairs, I accidentally smelled the smell of food.

I thought it was Lu Zhoucheng, and I went to the kitchen to find someone with joy.

However, there was no Lu Zhoucheng in the kitchen, and there was a woman about my mother's age.

"Who are you? Why is it in my house? ”

Hearing my voice, the man hurriedly put down the spoon and turned around, "You are Mrs. Lu, hello, my name is Wang Shuying, and everyone calls me Sister Wang." ”

I frowned, "How did you get in?" ”

Wang Shuying said: "Oh, that's the case, I'm from the ** housekeeping company, Mr. Lu asked me to take care of you, the key was given by him, from today onwards, I will be responsible for your three meals a day." ”

It was only for a moment, because I knew what he was doing it for.

He just wanted me to get well as soon as possible so that I could operate on the woman I loved.

Lu Zhoucheng came quickly, I only drove Wang Shuying away at noon, he came over in the afternoon, and as soon as he came in, his face was black, "Miscarriage is not a trivial matter, you need someone to take care of you now." ”

I drank the soup stewed by Sister Wang, looked up at him and said, "I don't need anyone else, I can take care of myself." ”

Lu Zhoucheng disagreed, and propped up the table with both hands, "Shen Qing, now is not the time to be strong." ”

I put down the spoon and pursed my lips to look at him, "Don't you want to?" Then come by yourself! ”

"I don't want to?"

Lu Zhoucheng sneered, and then reached out to pinch my face, "Why didn't I find you so thick-skinned before?" ”

Because of his action, I was stunned for a moment, looking straight at him with both eyes, and I couldn't think of anything other than the man in front of me.

Realizing what he had done, Lu Zhoucheng took his hand away in embarrassment, coughed dryly and said, "Stay well, don't walk around, call me if you have something." I'm leaving. ”

Hearing Lu Zhoucheng say that he was leaving, I stood up suddenly, "Will you come back at night?" ”

Lu Zhoucheng turned around and looked at me puzzled.

I just let it go, anyway, he said I was cheeky, so I should show him it once.

"What kind of expression do you have, we are husband and wife, of course we are going to live together, do you plan to separate from me?"

In fact, when I said these words, I didn't know the bottom of my heart, who knows if Lu Zhoucheng will eat this?

But he didn't speak, which made me a little disheartened.

Just when I couldn't help but want to give up, Lu Zhoucheng suddenly spoke, "After eating, I went upstairs to rest, and the doctor said that you can't touch cold water." ”

"And what do I eat for the night?"

"I'll buy it back."

"Can I order food?"

“…… Shen Qing, don't get an inch! ”

The corners of my mouth grinned uncontrollably to both sides, I knew that I was stupid like this, just because of this man's words, I was happy like this, but I was happy.

No matter how far I can go in the future, at least for now, Lu Zhoucheng is still mine.