Summer goes to autumn, and the days pass like this. And the seemingly calm harem is an undercurrent of waves. As the emperor became seriously ill day after day, the voices of mourning in the palace were endless. Probably everyone knows that the emperor's limit is approaching, but the position of the crown prince is still vacant, and the thoughts of the people in the first palace not only fall on the emperor, but also on the storage position. In order to avoid the gaze and protect himself, Chang'an asked Yun Ke to pretend to be seriously ill, push the state affairs together, and meditate on his cultivation.

The palace walls are deep, and the red face wants to grow old.

Chang'an walks on the long palace road every day, and can always hear the low sobs of those new concubines.

is still such a good age, still such a delicate face, some people have not even faced the saint, and they want to bury their lives like this.

The high-ranking concubines compete for the reserve, and the low-ranking concubines compete for favor.

The sincerity she was looking forward to had long since been wiped out in this deep palace.

Thinking of this, Chang'an couldn't help but feel sad.

In the twenty years of the deep palace, she has also boiled herself from an ignorant girl to the current woman in the deep palace. The prosperous past is vivid, but who can say clearly.

The willow color is jagged and the flower building is hidden, and the warbler cries to send the palace full of sorrow. Every year, no one sees the flowers, and the spring spring is out of the ditch.

In the spring of the twentieth year of Yongchang, although the emperor was ill for a long time, the spirit of this day was better than usual, and at night, Chang'an went to visit the emperor in the Mingde Palace accompanied by evening incense.

As soon as she entered the palace, she saw Cheng Dehai come out with a thousand children, and said to her with a smile, "Queen Mother, the emperor is resting in the palace, and the concubine is accompanying her." ”

When Chang'an heard this, his smile was a little cold, and the words that came out of his mouth turned into sharp word by word, "She is a concubine, this palace is the queen, there is a difference between dignity and inferiority, doesn't the concubine understand this rule?" ”

"Yes, yes, that's what the queen said." Cheng Dehai said with a smile on his face, "It's just that the emperor is accompanied by the noble concubine Niangniang ...... now."

"It doesn't matter." Chang An glanced at him coldly, ignored the second half of his words, and walked into the hall with a move.

In the dormitory, ambergris rose, and Chang'an could see the figures of Changle and Chu Luo laughing and talking through the curtain.

Chang'an coughed lightly, and the hall immediately fell silent. But after a moment, Changle turned out from behind the curtain and said on his knees, "The concubine asks the queen mother to say goodbye, and the queen mother is blessed with gold." ”

Chang'an looked at her indifferently, his eyes were cold, "The concubine is tired, go back and rest." ”

Changle's smile immediately froze on her face, and she looked up at Chang'an, but she met her cold gaze.

Changle pursed his lips tightly, although he was unwilling, he didn't dare to attack in front of the queen, so he had to retreat quietly.

Chang'an walked into the hall and saw Chu Luo sitting on the couch with a pale face, and his heart sank suddenly.

He looked at her, but his gaze was still gentle, "The queen is here." ”

Chang An smiled gently, sat down beside Chu Luo, and said with concern, "The concubine just came to talk to the emperor for a while, and the concubine saw that the emperor's complexion was better." ”

Chu Luo was slightly gloomy when he heard this, he sighed, and then a sorrowful feeling rose between his eyebrows, "My time is short, and I know it myself." The ministers are all admonishing, suggesting that I set up a prince as soon as possible for the sake of national stability, and the concubine just came, although it is not clear to say, but it is also a reminder that I decide the prince candidate. ”

Chang'an revealed his eyes as deep as water, and said in a deep voice, "The emperor has a long life, so don't worry too much." ”

"Chang'an." Chu Luo called her, and there was a clear understanding in his eyes, "You don't need to comfort me anymore." I know all of this. It's just that the establishment of the crown prince is related to the country's social affairs, and I will have to make a decision sooner or later. ”

Chang'an didn't answer, but bowed slightly.

Chu Luo saw that she didn't speak, and a trace of doubt flashed in his eyes, "Chang'an, regarding the position of the crown prince, I have already chosen someone in my heart, so you don't ask me, but which prince do you like?" ”

Chang'an's eyes were slightly red, and his eyes were low and avoided, "The eldest prince is the oldest, and he is the widow of the former queen, so he can help the emperor share the affairs of the previous dynasty." The five princes are smart, and although the six princes are young, they are very wise, no matter which one the emperor likes to be the crown prince, they are all excellent. ”

Chu Luo sighed lightly, and unconsciously felt a little stunned, "Concubine De has come to see me, and Concubine Gui has also come to see me, but you are the only one, I mentioned the position of the crown prince, but you refused to say a word for your son." ”

Chang An smiled lightly, put his hand in the quilt for him, and his tone carried a little lamentation, "Yun Ke is big, he has his own plans for everything, and he must also take into account the emperor's intentions." The emperor thinks that the concubines will speak, does he think that the concubines care about the throne or the position of the queen mother? ”

Chang'an's words were so clear, Chu Luo condensed slightly, and was about to speak, but suddenly saw her stand up and smile.

"That's it, don't talk about this, the emperor can rest in peace."

"Chang'an."

Chu Luo called out to stop her, she turned around, her eyes were kind, "What else is the emperor?" ”

"Come and sit down, I have something I want to ask you."

Chang'an's heart jumped suddenly, but when he saw his quiet gaze, he quieted down.

Chu Luo looked at each other with calm and gentle eyebrows, such eyebrows, Chang'an had seen it many times, but now that she saw him like this, she was in danger of tears about to fall.

He shook her hand, her fingers were still as cold as ever, he sighed in his heart, and suddenly felt a little sad, "Chang'an, if I leave, what will you do in the future?" ”

Chang'an's eyes were sour, "Don't say these words, the emperor will get better." ”

His gaze was firmly on her, "Answer." ”

She looked up at him, her eyes lowered.

"If there really is such a day, the concubine will just live in the deep palace and live for the rest of her life."

There was a long silence, and she suddenly heard him say in a loud voice, "Chang'an, I can't stand you." ”

Sorry.

It's this sentence again.

She smiled tiredly, but refused to recall the heavy past.

"Why did the emperor say such a thing again." Chang An rubbed his red eyes, and his smile was as warm as the first sun, "This sentence, the concubine has heard it too many times, and she doesn't want to hear it anymore." ”

Chu Luo sighed deeply and said abruptly, "Actually, the ninth brother is sincere to you. ”

Chang'an's heart trembled, she suddenly opened her eyes, and looked at Chu Luo in shock, "Your Majesty, the concubine is not ......"

"I understand." Chu Luo looked at her with a warm gaze and smiled tiredly, "Concubine Fang Cai came to tell me that since you returned to the palace, you have often been in the same room with the ninth brother. Even the ninth brother's return to the palace was planned by you in advance. Not to mention, you have been secretly corresponding. She swore by the glory of her family, saying that the queen's fornication was an insult to the dignity of the royal family, and she asked me to punish her. ”

Chang'an listened to all this calmly, and at the end, it was just one sentence, "The Shen family has such a daughter, and it is also a shame for my family." ”

Chu Luo smiled indifferently and did not deny, "I am a dying person, I can't listen to these words, and they are nothing more than that." ”

Chang'an's eyes were like candles fluttering in the wind, and he jumped violently, "Does the emperor believe it......?"

He smiled slightly, as if he had infinite emotion, "Chang'an, she is very similar to you, but not you." ”

"It's two completely different people, how can the emperor feel similar?"

Chu Luo smiled peacefully, and suddenly asked, "Chang'an, are you still blaming me?" ”

Chang'an bowed his head silently, his eyes clear, "The emperor gave the concubine the most honorable status, what is there to blame the emperor for the concubine?" ”

"But that's not what you want." Chu Luo accepted her gaze, and there was a faint glimpse of light in his eyes, "Chang'an, I can't stand you." I couldn't protect you, and I didn't protect our Yunjing. ”

When it comes to Yun Jing, Chang'an is like being uncovered by someone who has been scarred for many years, and there is a pain between the skin and flesh.

"It's all over, don't mention it anymore, the emperor."

He sighed slightly and said in a deep voice, "There are some things that I won't say again, I'm afraid I won't have a chance." ”

"If you say that you can't live it, and the concubines can't live with the emperor, you can offset it together."

For a long time, he didn't say anything more.

Chang'an's heart sank, and there were tears in his eyes.

"I'm tired."

Chang'an got up and said slowly, "Your Majesty, rest." ”

She stepped out of the door, looked up at a clear blue sky, and the tears that she had been holding back for a long time finally fell wantonly.

For many years, Chang'an didn't know what he wanted.

A name? A sincere heart? Or, even she doesn't know what she's been fighting for all these years.

It was as if an abyss was surrounding her, and she fell into it, never to be seen again. She struggled to crawl out of the inside, only to find that the outside was still a cage, and no end could be seen even if she tossed and turned.

Li Shushen, Jiang Wanran, Song Yanji, Zhong Yuxiu, Wei Qingyun, Zhao Nanyan......

Whether it is providence or man-made, they have all faded into a line of small characters in the history books, and have never been seen again.

She Shen Chang'an, standing in this heaven and earth, is standing alone.

With tears in her eyes, Chang'an didn't know where she went, and as soon as she raised her head, she suddenly saw Chu Ying.

He sat in a wheelchair and looked at her quietly at the end of the palace road.

She stumbled to him, and when she could see clearly, she finally sat down and fell on his lap and wept.

The entire Great Chu Palace, as if there were only two of them, knew each other and depended on each other.

Chu Ying didn't say a word, so he accompanied him silently. In the past, he hid his mind in order to protect her, but now he knows his mind, and it is also for her to protect herself from the wind and rain for a while.

It's a pity that fate is wrong, when he met her, she was already *.

After many years, he never met a second her.

Whether it is Su Wanying or Yingsleeves, they are all excellent women, but they are not Shen Changan after all.

So he gave up everything and stayed by her side, and he felt comforted if he was closer to her.

In the battle of Songshan that year, he was seriously injured, and at the last moment of falling, all he thought about was her peach blossom smile.

After that, no matter what she said, he would smile and agree, "Okay." ”

Chu Ying lowered his gaze and smiled.

In the vast years, he has been floating in it, but he is sinking and there is no end in sight.