Chapter 31: Lost Love
It seemed that after a long time, Chang'an finally stood up and faced Chu Luo, but his eyes were as deep as the ice of the abyss.
She spoke silently, "The concubine knows. β
Chu Luo was shocked when he heard this. In his impression, Chang'an would never call herself a concubine according to the rules in front of him, and she once complained about the injustice of this title - she was not a minister, let alone a concubine.
Chu Luo sighed gloomily and stepped forward, wanting to reach out and hug her.
Chang'an's face was cold, and he turned to the side slightly, avoiding his embrace.
His outstretched arms froze there at this moment, but the woman in front of him refused to look at him again.
Chu Luo was silent for a long time, and then said warmly, "Chang'an, if there is anything wrong with you, you tell me." β
He looked at her powerlessly at this time, and it was only when he faced her that he seemed so powerless.
Chang'an raised his head, there was no superfluous expression on his face, that kind of look, it looked extremely resolute, "The concubine is a virtuous concubine, with the emperor's grace, what else can go wrong?" β
"Chang'an!" Hearing her words, Chu Luo was already angry, he clenched Chang'an's shoulders hard, forcing her to look into his eyes, "Are you blaming me for promoting Zhong Jieyu's position?" Or did I blame her for pampering her? Chang'an, you say something! β
His grip on her shoulder hurt, and she held back her tears and resolutely raised her eyes to look at him. Such good-looking eyebrows and eyes are the most obsessed appearance in her life. His appearance has not changed at all, just like when she first met him when she was sixteen, and every expression and appearance of him deeply touched her heart.
It seemed like a long time ago, probably when the two of them were still in Taoyuan Village. He sat in front of the window, the faint light of the sky penetrated through the thin curtain and hit him in the face, he looked back at her, and smiled comfortably, such an affectionate smile, she will never forget it in her life.
People are still like this, but the heart can never go back to the past.
She raised her eyes slightly, her eyes filled with tears, "Chu Luo, you have changed." β
When he heard this, he suddenly let go of her shoulder, and a crystal tear flashed under his eyes.
He's changed.
Have you really changed?
Chu Luo asked himself.
In the past, when he was the king of Lin'an, he only had drinking and writing poems, chatting about landscapes, and Shen Chang'an. But after he became the emperor, he began to have the people of the world, the people of Li, and the country in his heart, but Shen Changan's position in his heart has never changed.
"Chang'an, listen to me, when Zhong Yuxiu came last night, I thought she was you......"
Chu Luo's mind was flustered at this time, he didn't know what he was talking about, and he didn't know what he wanted to say, he only knew that he was about to lose Shen Changan, but he definitely couldn't lose her, absolutely not.
"It's me?" Chang An couldn't hide the sneer in his heart, his eyes seemed to be stagnant, "What is the resemblance between Zhong Yuxiu and me?" Why do you think she's me?! β
In the end, Chang'an was already furious, and her mind suddenly appeared that Zhong Yuxiu was domineering, she raised the curtain and smiled coquettishly at herself, and the scene of her palace maid raising her hand to fight the cold smoke...... She sat in his royal sedan chair, trampling on her dignity to the point where nothing remainedβand all of this was due to him.
That summer, he saw her in the crowd and smiled at her. Since then, she has sunk.
And he is standing in front of him at the moment, and he is not the original teenager at all.
Chu Luo's body shook slightly, as if he didn't expect her to be so resolute.
However, he knew that he could not give up on her. She is Shen Changan, the Shen Changan who will chuckle as long as he coaxes.
His hand gradually climbed up to hers, trying to hold her fingers tightly, to give her a little warm strength in silence.
Shen Changan was like an electric shock, and the moment he first touched his finger, he suddenly shook it off.
She can't be like that before, absolutely not. As long as she thought that his body had just been warm with Zhong Yuxiu, and he came to touch her again at this time, her heart suddenly felt extremely disgusting.
"Chu Luo, I hate you." She held back tears and spat out those three words with hatred. Immediately after, she suddenly surged with an unprovoked anger, which seemed to have endured for a long, long time, until she couldn't bear it anymore, and finally burst out at this moment, "Why did you take me into the palace?" I don't want to be like this at all, I don't want to be a virtuous concubine at all! You have so many women, but when have you ever considered my feelings! When you were sick, I went to see you, but they stopped me at the door, and the Queen Mother said that only the queen can serve you closely...... But why? What is the reason for all this? Why if you are the emperor, why do I want to sit in the current position......" Before she finished speaking, her tears rolled down, "You are the emperor, there will always be so many people around you, but I have never been the only one ......"
Chang'an suddenly remembered his childhood in the mist of tears. She seems to have been alone for many, many years, and her mother has never been approachable, only when she has done her homework well, she will smile slightly and praise her. Her father loved her, but he could never match his new family. Every time she saw her father, she was quiet, as if she had done something wrong, and as long as her mother found out, she would be severely reprimanded and scolded for her ignorance. In her memory, the only person who made her feel warm was Aunt Lan, the only one who would always smile and treat Chang'an like her own child. It's really sad that the woman who destroyed her family is the best person for her.
Later, she met Chu Luo. This man will spoil her and spoil her, and whatever she does wrong, he will take it on himself.
On the wedding day, she sat on the wedding sedan chair, and the joy was real. Since then, she has another person to rely on.
But now, he treated her like this, and he had disillusioned her only hope.
Chu Luo stood in front of Chang'an, stunned for a moment, his heart aching as if it had been torn. He had seen Chang'an's various appearances, her gentle smile, frowning and bowing her head, blindly coquettish...... Each of these looks was deeply imprinted in his mind. However, he had never seen her so emotionally uncontrollable and roaring.
His thoughts pulled him back to a long, long time ago, when he was dressed in green clothes and held hands with her in the palace garden. At that time, Chang'an was still such a green girl. He once promised that he would stay by her side for the rest of his life.
Later, he took her into the palace and gave her the best protection and the most grace in his way, but he never thought that the deep walls of the palace would bring her such a great disaster.
He didn't know what to say at the moment, and he didn't know how to comfort her. He just stayed where he was, without saying a word.
After a long time, he wanted to walk over and hug Chang'an, but she pushed him away coldly, "Don't touch me." β
She was still like this, and his patience was running out. He tried hard to catch her, Chang'an wanted to dodge, but his strength was never as great as his, and he couldn't break free at all, she was in a hurry, grabbed a jade bottle next to him and threw it in his direction.
I only heard a "bang" sound, and the jade bottle fell to the ground and shattered.
I saw Chu Luo half-squatting, making a sound in pain. A bloody wound appeared on the left cheekbone on the right side of his face, and the wound was deep and shocking.
As soon as Chang'an saw Chu Luo's bleeding wound, Fang Cai's stubbornness suddenly disappeared.
Frightened, scared, heartbroken...... At this time, all kinds of emotions were wantonly vented in her body, and she didn't have time to have more doubts, so she hurriedly went up and pounced in front of Chu Luo. She grabbed Chu Luo's bloodied hands, struggling and crying, "I didn't mean to...... I really didn't mean to...... I don't really know ......."
Chang'an was crying and wanted to take Chu Luo's hand away and check his wounds, but as soon as her hand touched, the blood had already soaked her fingers, and he turned his head to avoid her gaze and pushed her away.
Chang'an sat down on the ground, tears rolling down his cheeks.
Chu Luo stood up and walked out of the hall with difficulty step by step. As soon as he went out, Chang'an immediately heard a deafening scream from the palace maids, accompanied by He Sheng's exclamation, "Quickly pass on the imperial doctor!" There was an instant panic outside the hall.
Chang'an fell to the ground and reached out to pick up the pieces of jade, which were stained with blood. She picked up one, two, three...... When the fourth piece was picked up, Cold Smoke and Evening Fragrance suddenly rushed in.
Wan Xiang was the first to see the blood on the broken jade, thinking that Chang'an's hand had been cut, and immediately squatted down to stop it, "Niangniang, don't pick it up, let the slave come......"
Chang An ignored her, or picked up the broken jade on the ground one by one, Wan Xiang was anxious to reach out and fight with her, as soon as Chang An withdrew his hand, the sharp fragment immediately cut a wound in her palm, and blood dripped down her fingertips to the floor.
Chang An didn't seem to be surprised, watching the blood flow out of his palm, but he didn't feel a little pain.
Evening fragrance was startled, and hurriedly went to call the cold smoke and brought the gauze. She bandaged Chang'an while crying, and her tears melted together with blood, "Niangniang, it's all the slave's fault......"
Chang'an raised his head, and his smile was extremely faint, "No wonder you, it's the palace itself that has done evil......"
When Han Yan heard this, he quickly knelt on Wanxiang's side, and said in a low voice, "How can the master say such frustrating words...... Master, it's okay, we can get through......" said her, and her big tears had already fallen.
The two of them cried together before Chang'an met, but they finally couldn't hold back anymore and cried bitterly.
On this day later, Chang'an didn't know how he passed. The wound on her hand was bandaged by Evening Fragrance, and she invited Zhu Zheng from the Tai Hospital to come and see it, and prescribed some prescriptions, which also asked Hanyan to take it down. She didn't even have lunch or dinner, but when the time came, she lay down in the dormitory and fell asleep.
After serving the cold smoke, he was about to retreat outside the hall, but was stopped by Chang'an.
She wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, trying her best to pull out a smile, "Master, what's the matter?" β
Chang'an lay on his side and said quietly, "You're also tired, don't keep vigil here in the palace at night, go back to sleep." β
When Han Yan heard this, he hurriedly said, "Master, ......"
"Let's go back." Before Hanyan finished speaking, Chang'an already sighed, "It's okay here in this palace." β
Hanyan has always known Chang'an's temperament, she answered, turned around and walked out of the hall.
Chang'an heard the door of the temple squeak and close far behind her, and she smiled sadly, tears sliding down her cheeks and falling onto the pillow.