When I was in elementary school, my mother had a devout Christian boyfriend.

He is a man with glasses who looks Sven and speaks more Sven, with a slight haircut.

He came to my house after a date with my mother, and after having a meal with me, he told my mother in a tone that was half disgusted and half seductive, that the environment without a father was not suitable for boys. And my appearance and personality can easily provoke "guilty" men.

At that time, I didn't seem to understand, but I intuitively felt that what a "cultural person" like him said was a great truth.

Later, the man with glasses lived with his mother.

In less than three months, he almost tirelessly taught me that all men are "sinful"; And my appearance is "one more sin"; If I seduce a man, I will go to hell.

He scared me so much that I couldn't sleep for days, for fear of falling into what he called purgatory.

It was a time of absurdity.

Whenever a man is kind to me, whether it's an older brother, uncle, or grandparents, I can't help but feel disgusted with myself: Kang Rong, you are a sinner and you are going to hell.

Of course, my mother did not notice the change in me.

Until one day, my mother saw the man with glasses put his arms around me and kiss me on my chest.

My mother drove away the man with glasses and gave me a hard lesson with a broom, saying that I was "shameless" and "perverted".

At that age, I didn't understand the reason for her anger, I only knew that she was angry with me...... Even, she hates me anymore.

When I grew up, the "Korean Wave" suddenly became popular.

The classmates, both men and women, were discussing a movie called "The King's Man". The newsstand at the entrance of the elementary school even has a collection of stills from the movie.

For me at the time, the name of the movie was shocking enough. But what is the connotation of the movie, I don't dare to think too much.

How can a man's partner be another man?

I don't understand...... I even feel disgusting.

I've heard a few words from my classmates.

The girls sighed at the love that was not tolerated by the world, and most of the boys scoffed at it.

I haven't seen it, I don't have any ideas.

I just think that a movie with stories in it is all fictional and has nothing to do with my world, so why should I care?

But now, it's happening to me...... At first, it was just my mother's boyfriend who didn't like me; Now this man is my only and most cherished friend.

To be honest, I don't think Angel is a "pervert". I still like him as a friend.

Even when he kissed me, I was not disgusted. But when he put his hand in my pants, I was genuinely terrified and hated him from the bottom of my heart.

When a decadent like me encounters a problem, he either dodges or procrastinates. In the case of Angel, I have also resolutely implemented this policy.

After the physical education class that day, Angel was waiting for me at the door of the table tennis room like last time.

I don't understand what he thinks, and I'm even more reluctant to face him. I pulled the dark-skinned partner and dragged him on.

The partner was clearly in no mood to stay.

Angel came over and said it was my friend who could take his place. So it became a fight between me and Angel.

I didn't speak, I held my breath in my heart, and I hit hard and fast. Angel often couldn't catch it, and ran around picking up the ball.

His movements were gentle and firm, but I was disturbed by the sadness of his patient silence.

After another moment, there were only the two of us left in the ping pong room. I didn't mean to stop, and Angel was almost considerate with me.

The ping pong teacher played with a bunch of keys to lock the door, and was a little surprised to see me.

He shook the key in his hand, and the sound of a jingling bell seemed to be driving someone. No, I had to leave.

I hurried back to my dormitory, Angel following me less than half a pace; From a distance, we're probably as good as we were not so long ago.

However, there is no going back.