Chapter 154: Your heart is like my heart
The night was dark, and the candlelight was flickering.
Chang'an's red clothes flowed in a faint shadow under the dim candlelight of the Dark Incense Pavilion. She gently pushed the door, startled the red gold bracelet on her wrist Ling Ling, Chu Ying looked back in response, and at the moment of eye contact, she clearly saw that his eyes were red.
She walked up to him and squatted down, he stubbornly turned his face away, and said in a cold tone, "Why did you come?" ”
A hint of gloom flashed in Chang'an's eyes, "I'll come to see you." ”
"I don't want you to see me like this."
Chang'an's eyes were sour, and there were faint tears, "I'll take you back." ”
"Go back?" Chu Ying's voice was a little low, he chuckled lightly, and said heavily, "I'm already a wasted person, I can't go to the battlefield anymore, what's the use of going back?" ”
"But you are the general of the Chu State." Chang'an breathed a sigh of relief, and said mildly, "Now that the Chu State is stable, you have contributed a lot." ”
There was a slightly cold air pouring into his heart, and Chu Ying suddenly sneered when he heard this, "Stability? The stability of a princess in exchange has nothing to do with me. ”
Chang'an looked at him in a daze, at this moment, she didn't know what to say, or maybe because of her identity, there was nothing she could say. She looked at him like this, silent.
In the past two years, he seems to have changed a lot.
Once Chang'an also thought about what he would become if he found him one day?
Now that I see it, he is in front of him, it is the real Chu Ying.
She obviously had a lot to say to him, but when she saw him like this, she couldn't say a word, except for heartache and sadness.
She looked at him, tears streaming down her face.
He turned his face away, and with a glance in his eyes, he suddenly caught a glimpse of the tears in the corners of her eyes. His heart trembled, there were countless kinds of distress and unbearability in his heart, he pondered for a long time, and his heart finally softened.
She is Shen Changan, what can he do.
"Don't cry anymore." Chu Ying frowned slightly, and a helpless smile suddenly appeared on his lips, "I am only allowed to cry until I die, and before I die, Shen Changan is not allowed to cry in front of me." ”
Chang'an listened to his tone gradually soften, and couldn't help but burst into laughter, she looked at him and said in a deep voice, "Chu Ying, in the past two years, are you okay?" ”
Chu Ying smiled tiredly, "You look at me like this, do you seem to be okay?" ”
Chang'an knew that he was speechless, and when he saw him like this, his eyes immediately turned red, "I'm sorry...... When I go back, I will definitely ask the best doctor to heal you, and everything will be fine......"
"It's useless." Chu Ying turned his head sympatheticly, but his voice was deep and sad, "Don't waste your efforts, my leg won't get better." ”
"How so? Is it that you refuse to heal properly and return to the palace...... No, wait for me to go back, and let Zhu Zheng come over......"
"Chang'an." He called her suddenly, and a warm and slight smile appeared on the corner of his lips, "I'm fine, don't worry." ”
Chang'an silently lowered his head, and his heart was as cold as a cry.
Chu Ying's gentle gaze fell on her, and she smiled indifferently, "I remember one time, when I just returned to Luoyang from Lingnan, you sneaked out of the palace to see me, were you afraid that I would die suddenly?" ”
Being asked by Chu Ying at a marginal point, Chang'an raised his head suddenly, "At that time, they all said that you had the plague......
"So you're worried about me." Chu Ying smiled lightly and pulled a bundle of broken hair scattered from her sideburns for her, "I am blessed with a great life, I didn't die back then, and I will be fine now." ”
"But......" Chang'an wanted to say something more, but the words were all on his lips, but he was only choked. She looked at Chu Ying deeply, at the deep sadness and sorrow under his gentle face. I suddenly remembered that he had jumped off the horse before, handsome and chic, and my heart was sad for a while.
When he was alone, he experienced so many changes, how helpless and desperate should he be......
And at this moment, she met him here, perhaps, it was the arrangement of providence, or perhaps, she was destined to save him.
Chang An thought for a long time, and finally asked, "Chu Ying...... Why are you in Lin'an? ”
She didn't hear his answer.
For a long time, there was only silence in the air.
Chang An sighed slightly in her heart, she felt that maybe her question was inappropriate. So, she no longer expected his answer, and only quietly looked at the white moonlight outside the window, letting her thoughts wander.
The moonlight reflected on Chang'an's face through the thin window paper, and she heard Chu Ying smile lightly, and said slowly, "This is the place where you lived, I can't stay by your side, so I stay here, I'm here, I feel closer to you." ”
Chang'an opened his eyes slightly, and suddenly raised his head, "Do you know that I will come to Lin'an?" ”
He smiled darkly, his smile flickering warmly, "I don't know if you'll come, but if you don't, I'll keep waiting." ”
"I thought you didn't want to see me......"
Chu Ying closed his eyes deeply, silently concealed his silent pain under calm, and said in a deep voice, "I want to see you, but I don't want you to see me." ”
There was a breeze that inadvertently drilled into her eyes, blowing the haze in front of Chang'an's eyes, she gently tugged Chu Ying's sleeve, he looked down at her, she was teary-eyed in an instant, "I'm sorry......"
He burst into laughter, "What do you have to be sorry for me?" ”
Chang'an glanced at him deeply, and in the afterglow of tears, she looked at his face that was somewhat similar to Chu Luo, and her heart burst suddenly, "Your sincerity was let down by me after all, you could have had a better future, but I dragged you down......"
Chu Ying's eyes were hazy, but his smile became clearer, "I'm already a wasted person, and I can't do anything else except be able to guard you." ”
The pain in her heart was surging, Chang'an looked out of her tears and was white, she held Chu Ying's hand, almost pleading, and said earnestly, "Chu Ying, I can't throw you down, you can go back to the palace with me, okay......"
She thought he would refuse.
He will definitely refuse.
He stayed incognito for so long just to keep no one from finding him.
With such an unreasonable request, he would definitely not agree to it. But she wanted to hold on to a glimmer of hope and beg him to go back.
"Okay."
Hearing his firm voice, she suddenly raised her head, facing his deep eyes, Chu Ying smiled slightly, and looked at her, "I'll go back with you." ”
Chang'an opened his lips slightly, and wanted to speak, but tears fell first.
Chu Ying smiled faintly, his tone was full of distress and unbearable, "What do you ask me to do, I don't allow anything." ”
Chang'an stood at the moment for a long time, and the slightest throbbing pain in her heart gradually spread, and she vaguely felt that what she owed Chu Ying would never be paid off in this life.
Ying Sleeve stood at the door, watching Chang'an's vermilion figure gradually disappear, she thought for a moment, wiped away a little tear from the corner of her eye, and quietly entered the house.
"Sleeves?"
When she heard him call her, she smiled slightly, and sat down close to Chu Ying, "Congratulations, Lord Wang, you are finally going back to the palace." ”
Chu Ying smiled unconsciously, and there was half gratitude and half melancholy in her tone, "You found her, right?" ”
"yes, see how well I know you, I know you'd love to see her." Yingsleeve pressed the sourness in her heart, and said in a slightly cool tone, "It's a pity, Ah Ying, you go back to the palace, I will never see you again......"
Chu Ying frowned slightly, and his tone was a little loose, "If you want, you can go back to the palace with me." ”
Yingsleeve's eyebrows moved when he heard this, and he quickly turned his head and laughed, "What are you doing when you go back?" Be your concubine? ”
Chu Ying was stunned for a moment, and suddenly said, "No...... It's to let the royal brother point you to a good family business......"
"I don't want it!" Yingsleeve Huo Ran stood up, with a fearless face, "I don't want the emperor to point out the marriage, what will he point to me?" The son of an official eunuch? Rich young master? I don't like them. ”
Chu Ying frowned slightly, and said with an indifferent smile, "I can't look down on this, I can't look down on that, so what do you like?" ”
Yingsleeve's gaze fell on Chu Ying, and then he turned his face away, and sneered disdainfully, "This girl can't look down on anyone, and she doesn't like life in the palace, so I don't want to go back to the palace with you." ”
"Then I'm going back to the palace, what should you do next?"
"What should I do?" Yingsleeve pointed at himself with his finger, and sneered unconsciously, "My lord, if you hadn't dragged me down, I would have been happy a long time ago, just rely on my medical skills, walk the rivers and lakes, and help the people, why can't I?" Do you need to worry about me? ”
Chu Ying sighed slightly, with infinite sighs and sighs in his heart, and finally only turned into a sentence, "Yingsleeve, thank you." ”
"Thank me for what?" Yingsleeve bit her lip tightly, her heart was almost bleeding from pain, she held back, turned her back and said, "Oh, it's not early, it's not early, I'm tired, I'm going back to sleep, you can sleep too." ”
Chu Ying's heart was gloomy, and he responded in a low voice, "Okay." ”
"Then I'm leaving!" Ying Sleeve turned around and left Chu Ying's room without looking back.
The moment she closed the door, her eyes widened, and tears fell uncontrollably. She crouched by the doorframe, looking in through the narrow slit, and with that glance, Ying Sleeve knew that this was the last time she would see him again.
Chang'an returned to the palace, and it was already the second watch.
From afar, she saw Wanxiang standing in the doorway, pacing up and down.
Wan Xiang saw Chang'an, and immediately ran forward and said, "Master, you're back!" ”
Chang An shook her hand and said in a deep tone, "Nothing happened in the palace, right?" ”
Wanxiang shook her head and said worriedly, "Not really, it's just that Gonggong Hai came to find the master once, and I deduced that the master went out for a walk, so he didn't ask anything more." ”
"Cheng Dehai?" A bad premonition faintly rose in Chang'an's heart, "Didn't he say what he came to the palace for?" ”
Evening Fragrance shook her head wistfully, "Not really. ”
Chang'an sighed slightly, pressed the meaning of the heart in his heart, and in a blink of an eye, he remembered something important, so he suddenly said, "Don't say more, you go to Changping, I will ask him to deliver a message to the emperor." ”
Wanxiang nodded, and just took a step out of the door, she suddenly saw Cheng Dehai running inside in a panic.
Chang'an couldn't help but feel a burst of panic in his heart, and his face gradually turned pale, "What's wrong?" ”
Cheng Dehai knocked three times in a row, he raised his head, opened his lips tremblingly, and said, "The queen, the emperor...... The emperor is not good! ”