Chapter Twenty-Three: The Gamble of Life
There will be many choices in this life, and each one represents the direction of your future life. I don't know what I'm going to be like in the future, but I know that I love you in front of me.
Qiao's recently received a big order and ushered in a new customer, and this customer didn't seem to be at ease to cooperate with Qiao Yunyuan, so he took advantage of the party at Qiao Yunyuan's house to get to know Qiao Yunyuan in depth.
Coincidentally, Jiang Yifan and Jiang Lihua also happened to be guests in Blue Mountain Beiyuan that day.
After eating, the customer's wife proposed that she wanted to play cards with Qiao Yunyuan, after all, the best character can be seen at the gambling table. If you want to meet friends with cards and explore Qiao Yunyuan's virtual reality, it is worth cooperating with him for a long time.
It's a pity that Qiao Yunyuan was busy with things, and he was urged away by a phone call after two calls, but a few people just played and felt that it was inevitable that the end of the game would be disappointing at this time. In the end, I had to temporarily bring in Jiang Yifan, who had just learned to play mahjong, to save the scene.
Between touching the cards and looking at the cards, several elders suddenly talked about their children, mostly about early love. Jiang Yifan didn't say a word, just silently looked at the cards, and listened carefully to their conversation.
"I heard that girls nowadays are sensible early, and they fall in love at a young age, you may pay attention to these issues, girls must be clean and self-conscious.
Like our daughter, the person she is looking for in the future will be either rich or expensive, and I won't let her be harmed by those poor boys early. The lady said it seriously, Jiang Lihua frowned and nodded hurriedly, as if she agreed with Mrs. Chen's statement.
"Sister-in-law, you have to listen to these words, we all have daughters in our family, and we must be vaccinated in advance for everything, so we can't let them suffer and be fooled."
Li Shaoling only smiled slightly embarrassed after listening, and continued to play cards without making a sound. On the contrary, Jiang Yifan was a little distracted, and he even pushed the cards played by Li Shaoling without looking at them, everyone thought that he had won the cards, but if you look closely, what he wants is not Li Shaoling's card at all.
"This kid doesn't know what cards he plays, how to play this card." The wife surnamed Chen wrote all the displeasure on her face, she originally wanted to come to meet Qiao's family for a while, but she didn't expect to temporarily change to a stinky boy on the stage, obviously showing that people didn't take her seriously.
Jiang Lihua on the side explained: "Sister Chen, this kid is not very good at playing when he just learns, you should be more responsible." turned to comfort Jiang Yifan: "Xiaofan, don't be nervous, it's all about your family, it doesn't matter if you win or lose, just be happy, come on, this doesn't count as let's do it again."
The card continued, but Jiang Yifan's mind stopped at Mrs. Chen's words just now.
Yes, people born like Qiao Xing will marry in the future, and they will naturally be outstanding and stand out from the crowd, no matter which aspect they are, they must be the ones who stand at the top of the pyramid.
And he is neither rich nor expensive and has nothing, as Xiaotang said, everything he has to rely on other people's charity, where did he give her a good life.
He can't give anything.
In the end, Jiang Yifan lost, not only that card, but he lost his whole life, and he lost a mess. In the past, he thought everything was too simple, thinking that as long as the two of them loved each other, there would be no other worries.
Maybe he should really let go, let the two of them go and try to accept the others. But the words are light, how can he be willing to let go of her.
However, Jiang Yifan was not the only listener in this conversation, Qiao Xing listened to it outside the house, but he didn't dare to disturb it, for fear that his recklessness would make Li Shaoling suspicious.
Not only because of this, but also because she was afraid that if she rushed in, she would inadvertently hurt Jiang Yifan's already sensitive self-esteem.
In fact, she has always known that the main reason why Jiang Yifan is always so close to this relationship is because he feels that he is too humble to be born worthy of her.
And what Qiao Xing values least is these hypocritical surfaces, she really wants to tell him that she doesn't care about those things outside her body at all, what she cares about is him as a person, this heart.
There are thousands of thoughts in her heart, but she is afraid that her mouth is too stupid, and Jiang Yifan has always been sensitive to these problems, she is afraid that what she says will be self-defeating.
However, she believed in Jiang Yifan's feelings for herself. It's not often said on TV that as long as the two love each other enough, there is no difficulty that can stop it.
So just like this, one thinks that the other party will understand, and over time, some things will slowly accumulate between the two people, and sooner or later separate the two close people.
This incident became Qiao Xing's unspeakable concern, and she was very uncomfortable under the pressure of her heart.
However, some of the worries are backlogged, and the more uncomfortable they are when they break out, Li Shaoling looks gentle towards Jiang Yifan on the surface, but in fact she is also wary.
When he was in junior high school, he was able to go in and out with Qiao Xing at her suggestion, but now that the two children are getting older, Li Shaoling hinted that Jiang Yifan wanted to keep a certain distance from Qiao Xing, especially after the last time he played cards, this hint was even worse.
Even if Qiao's family no longer treats him as an outsider, they will never accept him as a son-in-law, which Jiang Yifan clearly understood from the beginning. But sometimes he also hated his sobriety, and the more sober he was, the more he dating, the more desperate he felt.
She is his poison, the antidote to his addiction. Longing and lingering deep into the bone marrow. He can't retreat, and if he takes one step back, he can't help but take two steps forward. He couldn't quit, and the more restrained he became, the more he wanted it.
He is like an addict, feeling guilty when he gets it, and feeling the contradiction of preferring sin when he can't get it, and this contradiction torments him deeply.
Qiao Xing never understood why the happier he was, the more painful he felt, even though he was in front of him, he was always hesitating when he stretched out his hand.
Qiao Xing is a hedonist, so her attitude towards this love is very frank and transparent. She loves Jiang Yifan, so she is willing to give everything to love. His restraint was like a piece of sand falling in Qiao Xing's eyes, making her feel uncomfortable.
As for Jiang Yifan, he has long been accustomed to living cautiously, and he is careful with every step he takes, for fear that if he makes a mistake, he will lose everything he has now. Qiao Xing is not a luxury for him, if he is destined to not get something in his world, he will not fight for it, and he will not be afraid of losing it if he has not obtained it.
However, how could he refuse Qiao Xing and push her away? No, that's more painful than dying.
unwilling to push her away, and afraid that he would lose it in the end, that kind of contradiction was repeatedly superimposed, deeply tormenting his heart.
Qiao Xing told Mo Jinyu what she thought in her heart, and Mo Jinyu only canceled her and said: "I see that you are really his way, you don't understand, these are all men's routines, do you understand the routines?" This is called 'refusal and welcome', do you understand! ”
What Mo Jinyu said was serious, and Qiao Xing also seemed to understand it. "So, you mean he's playing tricks on me? Actually, he has me in his heart, right? ”
"Nonsense, why bother with it if you didn't have you. You have to know that there are only two differences between women in a man's world, what you like and what you don't like. If you like it, you will hollow out your mind about her, you can refer to the male animal courtship..."Hearing this, Qiao Xing finally couldn't listen to it, so he shouldn't have found Mo Jinyu to complain, what he can explain is just some nonsense.
For these Qiao Xing, he was also very depressed, so Jiang Yifan saw Qiao Xing with a depressed face when he was studying together at night. He tapped his head with a pen and asked, "What's wrong with you, have you eaten bitter melon?" ”
Unexpectedly, Qiao Xing did not sneer at each other, and said solemnly and uncharacteristically: "Jiang Yifan, tell me honestly, am I a willful, tantrum tantrum, and a big lady's temper in your heart, especially unlikable?" Thinking of Tang Xiaotang's words that Jiang Yifan scolded her before, Qiao Xing felt that it might be because of this that Jiang Yifan was always hot and cold to her.
Jiang Yifan felt that Qiao Xing was very self-aware, so he nodded logically: "It seems that you know yourself very well." ”
Seeing Qiao Xing's depressed appearance, he smiled and added: "Anyway, I'm used to it, I won't mind." ”
Qiao Xing was very upset by Jiang Yifan's words, and puffed out his cheeks and said angrily: "Then I really have to thank you for your love!" ”
Jiang Yifan buried his face in the pile of books, and didn't look up at her, "Don't thank me, it's a matter of duty." However, after a long time, Qiao Xing didn't move, and he looked up puzzled, only to see that her eyebrows and eyes were full of smiles.
"You just admitted that you like me, I heard it!"
Jiang Yifan was stunned for a moment, continued to bury his head in reading, and tried his best to answer in the most bland tone: "Is it so unusual?" ”
He has been trying his best to restrain himself, unwilling to spread his heart in front of Qiao Xing.
Does he like her? Don't like it? It's no wonder that Qiao Xing took great pains to get a definite answer from Jiang Yifan's mouth. Their current relationship is more ambiguous than that of relatives and more intimate than friends, but they have not yet reached the level of lovers.
Also confused by Qiao Xing is Mo Jinyu, Liu Xiaoxiao has never officially disclosed her relationship with Mo Jinyu, and even she has never explicitly accepted his pursuit. But Mo Jinyu and Liu Xiaoxiao's suitors are different, at least she is happy, and she needs him to be by her side when she is troubled.
Qiao Xing made fun of Mo Jinyu for most of the time being someone else's spare tire, while Mo Jinyu laughed and called them 'difficult brothers', and no one was much better. Qiao Xing smiled bitterly, looking at Mo Jinyu, who was also sad, what she didn't expect was that she, a difficult brother, would sacrifice his life for her in the near future.
When we were young, we were short-sighted, we only saw the present, and we were reluctant to look forward to the invisible future. Qiao Xing is like this, she only likes to covet the pleasure of this time, and her happiness is like water, and she has her back to the sea, so she never worries that the water will run out.