When Chang'an was three years old, he liked to squat by the door when he had nothing to do, waiting for his father's return.

When she heard the sound of official boots stumbling on the ground, she screamed in surprise and threw herself into her father's arms. Shen Tunan held her with one hand, gently scraped the tip of her nose with the other, and smiled gently, "Why is Xiao Changan sitting at the door again today?" ”

Chang'an listened, just sat in his father's arms and giggled.

When she was a little older, she suddenly realized that her father's days of coming home were getting fewer and fewer. At first, I went home once every three days, but then it was extended to half a month, and then I didn't come back once in a month. She lay down beside her mother, sighed and asked, "Why didn't my father come back today?" ”

Every time my mother heard this, she would turn her face away and say in a hidden anger, "It's not because of you! ”

At that time, Xiao Changan was always stunned, and she didn't know why her mother was angry at her. Later, when she was older, she realized that her father had already had another home outside.

When Chang'an first met Aunt Lan, he only thought she was so beautiful and so kind. She held Chang'an in her arms and carefully peeled lychees for her to eat. Chang'an held the lychee and always looked at Aunt Lan with wide eyes. At this time, Aunt Lan would smile and say, "If only I had such a beautiful and lovely daughter." ”

Shen Tunan would always laugh when he heard this, "Isn't Chang'an also your daughter?" ”

When Chang'an heard this, he was a little reluctant in his heart.

You are not my mother, but why am I your daughter?

It was also at this time that Chang'an suddenly knew that a man could have three wives and four concubines.

Changping, Changxing, Changxuan, when her three younger siblings all landed, Aunt Lan's love for Chang'an did not decrease at all.

In the face of her mother's coldness, Chang'an always likes to go to Aunt Lan's house, Aunt Lan taught her embroidery, Changqing taught her to ride a horse, but her father often took her to the suburbs to play. During that time, I was always happy and at ease.

Her father helped her to the horse, she held the reins tightly and didn't dare to move, but her father straightened his face and said sharply, "My daughter Shen Tunan's daughter is not afraid of heaven and earth!" With that, he spread his hand and let the horse gallop away.

Whenever this happens, Changqing will always ride another horse to accompany her, and said softly, "Chang'an, don't be afraid, my brother is here." ”

She mustered up her courage and poked her head out to look back and saw her father standing far away from her and smiling at her.

That smile stopped on my father's face for a long time, and I didn't forget it for more than ten years after Chang'an.

But those days are gone.

The two men she loved the most, her brother Shen Changqing and her father Shen Tunan, both left her at this time. She is the only one left living alone in this world.

She, Shen Chang'an, used to be her father's proudest daughter, and always will be.

Shen Changan returned to Lin'an Shen Mansion twice, but he actually came for the funeral, once for her brother, and this time for her father.

Unlike last time, this time she didn't even see her father for the last time. All she saw again was him lying in the coffin, looking serene. She lay on the edge of the coffin and wept bitterly, refusing to let go of her hand.

The last time she saw her father, she held her father's hand like this, feeling his warmth and his old man.

If she had known that it was the last time, she would not have let go.

She looked at her father, so calm, as if he had just fallen asleep, and there was no pain. He looks like this, just an old man over half a hundred years old, and he is not at all as majestic as Shen Tunan, the former governor of Fujian and Zhejiang.

She wished he hadn't.

Shen Changan lay on the closed coffin for a long, long time, so long that her tears had dried up, but she refused to stand up.

I don't know when, Aunt Lan was already standing beside her, she reached out to help her, and called softly, "Chang'an." ”

This "Chang'an" made her heart warm. It's been a long time since she'd heard her family call her that. Nowadays, people call her "Guifei Niangniang", and some old slaves also call her "eldest lady", she doesn't seem to have a name in this family, only when Aunt Lan calls her like this at this time, she feels a trace of warmth.

"Don't be sad anymore, your father will definitely feel uneasy when he sees you like this in the sky." Aunt Lan said, she actually shed two lines of tears in a daze, she turned her face and quietly wiped it away, turned around and wanted to pull Chang'an up from the ground again.

Before Chang'an could stand up, she heard a rush of footsteps approaching, and when she raised her eyes, she saw her mother.

Her biological mother, the eldest lady of the Shen Mansion, hadn't stood side by side with her for a long time.

"What are you crying about? It was your own uselessness that killed your father. ”

Shen Mu's voice coldly came into Chang'an's ears, like a knife blade, fiercely piercing Chang'an's heart.

She raised her head suddenly, her voice trembling, "What ......did my mother just say?"

"Oh, the eldest lady is too sad, this ......"

"There's no place for you to talk here!" Mother Shen roared angrily, staring at Aunt Lan with burning eyes.

"The master was ordered to go to the Yellow River, why didn't you dissuade him by his side? If the master goes, you can't get out of it! The anger in Shen's mother's eyes suddenly lit up, and as soon as Aunt Lan heard this, her tears were immediately forced out, "What is this big lady, the emperor's order, where does the concubine dare to persuade ......?"

Mother Shen smiled coldly, looked at Chang'an again, and said, "Chang'an, aren't you the emperor's favorite concubine?" You just watched your father go to his death, I really raised your daughter for nothing! ”

Chang'an's pupils widened suddenly, staring at her mother in disbelief.

Her mother, in the eyes of everyone, has always been easy-going, always has been.

Every time her mother looked at Chu Luo, she always just smiled.

It was only at this moment that Shen Changan suddenly understood that it was awe, just out of awe of his identity as a prince and an emperor, nothing more.

Chang'an wanted to say something more, but Changping had already heard the sound and rushed in, "Haven't you made enough trouble!" ”

Changping was already eighteen years old, taller than his father had been when he was young, and he stood there straight like this, his eyes wide with anger, "Father has not yet entered the ground, but you are already arguing here!" ”

He looked at Chang'an, tears seemed to slip through his eyes, he tried his best to hold back, and said sharply, "It is not easy for the eldest sister to live in the palace, but do you still blame her?" ”

Mother Shen was dumbfounded by this sentence, she looked at Changping angrily, as if she was unwilling, "Are you out of the house, as soon as the master leaves, do you want to be the master of the house?" ”

Changping smiled coldly, looking at Shen's mother without a trace of concession in her eyes, "I don't think I'm a homemaker, naturally it's not the eldest lady who has the final say." ”

"You-" Mrs. Shen trembled with anger, pointed at Changping with her finger, covered her heart, and couldn't say a word.

"Changping, don't say it again! Don't apologize to the eldest lady yet! Aunt Lan was also very angry, and stepped forward to grab Changping and asked him to kneel, "Kneel!" ”

"I didn't do anything wrong, why kneel?!"

"I'm your mother, I'll let you kneel!"

Aunt Lan and Changping had a fierce dispute, and Changle, who was hiding behind and watching this scene, couldn't help crying.

Chang'an hurriedly stepped forward to protect Changle, and in the face of the absurd scene in front of him, he said angrily, "Enough! ”

Everyone was stunned and looked at Chang'an.

Chang'an knew that she was the eldest daughter of the entire Shen family, and she could never back down or be cowardly anymore.

She walked up to Changping, tried her best to restrain the churning emotions in her heart, and suddenly said loudly, "Changping, my father is gone, my brother is gone, you are the eldest son of this family, everything about my father, including his position as the governor of Fujian and Zhejiang, needs you to inherit it, you must not be discouraged." ”

When Changping heard this, he turned his face away, Chang'an clearly heard the sound of his teeth colliding, and said unconsciously in surprise, "What's wrong?" ”

"The position of the governor of Fujian and Zhejiang has long been gone, and a man surnamed Hu has taken over the position of the master." Mrs. Shen spoke coldly, her tone jerky.

Chang'an didn't notice it, "What?!" ”

"Chang'an." Aunt Lan walked to Chang'an's side and comforted her, "That position, we don't fight or grab, Changping can be stable for a lifetime, and we will be at ease." ”

"Why not?!" Chang An burst out angrily, as if he could hear the burning sound in his chest, "Father dies and son succeeds, this is the rule of my dynasty, why can I let people at will?!" ”

Aunt Lan looked at Chang'an and sighed softly, as if she was helpless, "What does the emperor mean, where do we have the power to be disobedient." ”

Chang'an's eyes were wide open, and there was a mountain of hatred surging in her heart.

It's the emperor, and it's the emperor again.

What the hell is he going to do with her?

Mrs. Shen seemed to see Chang'an's thoughts, her gaze swept over Aunt Lan's face intentionally or unintentionally, and said in a deep voice, "The emperor favors Zhaoyi, if you can't win the heart of the saint, let Changxuan enter the palace to accompany you." ”

When Chang'an heard this, his heart was as desolate as ice.

Is this what her mother said? This is actually what her own mother said? To send her sister to the palace and to the emperor's side, just to assist her on one side?

"We Changxuan will never enter the palace!" Aunt Lan also seemed to be annoyed by this sentence, and said angrily, "Changxuan is my daughter, I will definitely not let her enter the palace!" ”

Chang'an looked up at Aunt Lan, she was a fireworks woman, and at this moment, she was even more distinct than her mother, who was full of poetry and books.

It was obviously a hot summer day, and Chang was in this vast Shen Mansion, and he felt extremely desolate.

The world has completely abandoned her.

She has no brother, no father, and the person she loves the most is surrounded by a hundred flowers blooming.

It's really chilling.

Chang An laughed angrily, but at this moment, she had an extremely clear consciousness.

It's time for her to fight back, it's time for her to punish those people, she can't watch them destroy everything bit by bit, absolutely not.

Chang'an stood up tremblingly, his gaze never as firm as it was at this moment.

Her fingers slid over the iron nails that came out of the doorway, oozing blood, and immediately stained her entire fingertips, and she looked blankly, not even feeling a trace of pain.

Now there is no pain, in her heart, she doesn't feel any pain.