Chapter 196: Can't Get Out

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I have to say that after staying in the hospital for nearly a month, just lying down for more than ten days, Gu Xizi felt that she was going to be moldy, and with this experience, Gu Xizi felt that she might hate and resist the hospital even more. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi closed her eyes, but she couldn't sleep at all, and there was only one thought in her mind, that is, it was time for her to leave. &1t;/p>

Half an hour later, Gu Xizi was still lying awake on the bed, but she felt a person walking in gently, and she could feel that person was Zhong Jinyun. &1t;/p>

After Zhong Jinyun came to the room, he was tiptoeing to clean up something, and after Zhong Jinyun left, Gu Xizi got up and took a look, it turned out that Zhong Jinyun had taken all the things about the baby in her room. &1t;/p>

Not a single thing left. &1t;/p>

It's as if nothing has been born. &1t;/p>

It's as if the child never existed. &1t;/p>

But some scars have been clearly imprinted in my heart and are difficult to erase, at least living with Zhong Jin Yun every day Looking at this familiar face, Gu Xizi felt that she could not come out of the past. &1t;/p>

So the only thing she can do is say goodbye to everything in the past. &1t;/p>

The only way to get out is to say goodbye to the past. &1t;/p>

Leaving Zhong Jinyun not only gave him a way out, but also gave Zhong Jinyun a bright future. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun didn't do anything wrong, the fault was that she and Zhong Jinyun might not be suitable for being together at all. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun took advantage of Gu Xizi's sleep, carefully searched the apartment of more than 300 meters, put all the things about pregnant women, babies and children into an empty room in the innermost part of the second floor, and locked the door of that room. &1t;/p>

Looking at the baby products piled up in the whole room, Zhong Jinyun finally couldn't help himself and sat on the ground and shed tears. &1t;/p>

When Gu Xizi needed him the most, he failed to stay by Gu Xizi's side and failed to fulfill his responsibilities as a boyfriend. &1t;/p>

For that child, not only did he not fulfill the slightest father's responsibility, but he also pushed the unborn child into hell with his own hands, not to mention that Gu Xizi was depressed every day, even Zhong Jin Yun probably needed a long time to recover. &1t;/p>

However, in front of Gu Xizi, he could only pretend to be strong and smile at Gu Xizi. &1t;/p>

Because if even he is depressed every day, I am afraid that Gu Xizi will wash his face with tears every day, after all, it is Gu Xizi who is hurt the most physically and mentally in this matter, and he is just the one who creates the source of all pain. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun hadn't indulged himself in weakness like this for a long time. &1t;/p>

After crying, Zhong Jinyun locked the room full of baby belongings. &1t;/p>

He hopes that one day he can open this door with Gu Xizi, as long as he can continue to be with Gu Xizi, Zhong Jinyun believes that they will have a cute baby. &1t;/p>

If there is a day, will those painful memories be turned into happy memories, and will Gu Xizi be able to completely come out of the pain of losing his child. &1t;/p>

After Gu Xizi came out of the room, Zhong Jin Yun had already cleaned up the house and had already prepared a meal, and Gu Xizi and Zhong Jin Yun had eaten together. &1t;/p>

Usually when eating together at home, Gu Xizi always likes to make all kinds of jokes with Zhong Jin Yun at the dinner table, and after a meal, Zhong Jin Yun also feels as if he has participated in a tea party. &1t;/p>

But today Gu Xizi is burying his head in eating and drinking porridge silently, Zhong Jinyun looked at Gu Xizi, the girl who likes Doraemon, loves to talk and laugh seems to have disappeared from his world. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi, who was sitting in front of him now, seemed to be a very strange person, with an unfamiliar expression and a cold face, it turned out that Gu Xizi was so cold and glamorous when he wasn't smiling. &1t;/p>

After dinner, Zhong Jinyun went to the kitchen to clean up the dishes and chopsticks, and Gu Xizi went to the bathroom to take a shower. &1t;/p>

When Zhong Jinyun finished cleaning up the dishes and chopsticks, he saw that Gu Xizi was not watching TV in the living room as before, but went back to the room directly, and Zhong Jinyun also took a shower and went to Gu Xizi's room. &1t;/p>

When Zhong Jinyun walked into Gu Xizi's room, Gu Xizi's room only had a lamp at the head of the bed, and the room was very dim, and Gu Xizi leaned on the head of the bed and read under the lamp. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi was a lot quieter, and Zhong Jin Yun had never seen Gu Xizi read so seriously before. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun raised his feet and slowly walked to the edge of the bed and sat down, moving gently for fear that he would disturb Gu Xizi's Yaxing. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi naturally sensed Zhong Jinyun's arrival, and turned his head slightly to look at Zhong Jinyun, "Are you here?" ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun's hand naturally rested on Gu Xizi's shoulder, "Didn't bother you, did you?" ”&1t;/p>

Under the dim light, Gu Xizi smiled at Zhong Jin Yun, "You have already come, and you still have to say that you don't bother......"&1t;/p>

Seeing Gu Xizi talking to him and laughing with him in such a relaxed way, to be honest, Zhong Jinyun really hadn't seen Gu Xizi smile at him so naturally for a long time, so his mood naturally relaxed a lot. &1t;/p>

"What are you reading?" &1t;/p>

"I'm reading a selection of Lin Qingxuan's prose." &1t;/p>

"My little Gu Xizi is reading such a book with literary background." Zhong Jinyun said with a smile. &1t;/p>

Seeing Zhong Jin Yun coming, Gu Xizi put the bookmark into the page he read, closed it and put it on the bedside table next to him, and then raised his head to meet Zhong Jin Yun's star-like eyes. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun's eyes seemed to have magic power, attracting Gu Xizi to stare at Zhong Jin Yun intently. &1t;/p>

The atmosphere at the moment felt like it was no different from usual, but Gu Xizi's eyes were a little more alienated, not the kind that Zhong Jinyun longed for. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun leaned over to Gu Xizi's side and hugged Gu Xizi's body, pressed Gu Xizi down on the bed, and kissed Gu Xizi on the cheek. &1t;/p>

If Zhong Jinyun kissed like this on weekdays, Gu Xizi would have been unable to control the kiss back, but today's Gu Xizi actually took Zhong Jinyun's kiss very calmly and restrainedly, and did not move, which couldn't help but Zhong Jinyun was a little frustrated, and he turned over and lay on the other side of the big bed and looked at Gu Xizi with his head tilted. &1t;/p>

After that, he suddenly remembered something, and came to Gu Xizi again and said slightly apologetically: "I almost forgot, your current body can't withstand such intense exercise, it's because I was careless." ”&1t;/p>

Gu Xizi didn't answer, and there was an indifferent smile on the corner of his mouth. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun, who was lying next to Gu Xizi, patted his chest, "Come on!" ”&1t;/p>

Gu Xizi frowned, "What?" ”&1t;/p>

"Come here." &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi leaned her head on Zhong Jinyun's chest as she said, leaning on Zhong Jinyun's chest, Gu Xizi listened to his very rhythmic heartbeat, as if her heartbeat was also beating with his heartbeat. &1t;/p>

After Gu Xizi leaned over, Zhong Jin Yun hugged Gu Xizi as before, and it felt so good to take Gu Xizi into his arms, that feeling was very real, as if he had the beauty of the world. &1t;/p>

"I've been in the hospital for so long, the first is that there are too many people in the hospital, and it doesn't seem good to hug and hug casually, and the second is that you are too seriously injured, I am afraid that the strength is too heavy and it will hurt you, so I endured it for more than 20 days and has not hugged you, and now that we are home, your body is much better, and I can finally hug you again......" Zhong Jinyun's words were full of iron man tenderness. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi naturally believed that Zhong Jinyun's tenderness was true, but this tenderness has now become a sweet burden in Gu Xizi's experience. &1t;/p>

While enjoying Zhong Jinyun's sweet love words, she was thinking about the fact of losing her child, and the whole person seemed to be entangled in love and pain and couldn't extricate herself. &1t;/p>

Thinking that this might be the last time she was with Zhong Jinyun, Gu Xizi's heart softened again, and she wanted to draw a complete end to her first love, which was also the only relationship in her life. &1t;/p>

So, Gu Xizi also raised his hand slightly and hugged Zhong Jinyun's back. &1t;/p>

Feeling Gu Xizi's response, Zhong Jin Yun's frowning brows suddenly opened. &1t;/p>

Holding Gu Xizi like this, it seems that nothing has happened, everything has returned to the way it was before he went to the United States to film, and there has been no unpleasant thing between him and Gu Xizi. &1t;/p>

Thinking of this, Zhong Jin Yun sighed lightly, "It would be great if we could erase all the previous month from our lives." ”&1t;/p>

One of the words that Gu Xizi likes to hear the most is if, because there is no what if. &1t;/p>

But if you use these two words, it is probably a sign of regret. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi doesn't want to have any regrets in her life, so no matter what she does from childhood to adulthood, as long as it is the goal she wants to achieve, she will work hard. &1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun is the only man she has ever liked, and she has also fought for it. &1t;/p>

So she is not a failure, at least she has been obtained, she has loved deeply, and she has worked harder for this relationship, so for Gu Xizi, there is nothing to regret. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi also said in the same sighing tone: "Some things are born when they are born, and there is no way to erase them from memory, Xiao Zhong, we all have to accept reality." ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun immediately continued: "Yes, Gu Xizi, we should all accept the reality, and so are you, you always told me in the past that people should live in the present, don't always care about the past, people who always live in the past will not be happy, and now I will tell you what you told me." ”&1t;/p>

Gu Xizi couldn't help laughing, "I know a lot of truths, I'm a person, I'm better at enlightening others, but when things really happen to me, I may not be able to do it." ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun hugged Gu Xizi tightly and stroked Gu Xizi's soft silk one by one, "Gu Xizi, let's get out of that painful memory together, okay...... I am with you, and we should welcome a better future together. ”&1t;/p>

Gu Xizi understands what Zhong Jinyun said, but the pain of losing a child is like a nightmare that haunts Gu Xizi, as long as he sees Zhong Jinyun's face, it seems that Gu Xizi will think of that innocent child. &1t;/p>

She couldn't get out. &1t;/p>

At least she couldn't convince herself to come out now. &1t;/p>

Maybe it will take a long time for her to come out, but it must be without Zhong Jinyun by her side. &1t;/p>

"So you put away all the baby stuff in the apartment and erased all traces of that being......"&1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun's heart chuckled, "Gu Xizi, I don't want to erase the traces of his existence, I just packed up those things in one room, after all, we don't need those things now." ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun paused. &1t;/p>

"I think, when you get pregnant again in the future, let's open that room together and welcome a new life together, no matter what happens in the future, I will be by your side, we will face it together, I will never let you face it alone." &1t;/p>

Looking at Zhong Jinyun's cautious way of currying favor with himself, Gu Xizi's heart was also like a knife. &1t;/p>

Gu Xizi knows that Zhong Jinyun must feel very tired when he gets along with himself now, rather than the two of them torturing each other like this, it is better to separate and complete each other's world as soon as possible. &1t;/p>

"Xiao Zhong, you don't have to apologize all the time, you haven't done anything wrong, and you don't need to apologize to me all the time." &1t;/p>

Zhong Jinyun immediately answered: "It was I who made you lose your child, it was I who didn't stay by your side when you needed me, Gu Xizi, you beat me." ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun grabbed Gu Xizi's hand and smashed it into his chest, "If hitting me can make you angry and make you feel better, you hit me!" ”&1t;/p>

Gu Xizi smiled, "Hitting you won't change anything, and beating you won't make that little life return to my body, so why am I beating you?" ”&1t;/p>

Zhong Jin Yun stared at Gu Xizi in amazement. &1t;/p>

"But one thing you're right about is that we should embrace a new life, after all, people can't live in the memories of the past forever, and that would be very painful." The corners of Gu Xizi's mouth raised an indifferent smile. &1t;/p>

"So from now on, we all learn to forget everything about the past and start over, okay?" The corners of Gu Xizi's mouth raised a faint smile. &1t;/p>

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