The sensation can be imagined.

I still have an unreal feeling in my heart:

I got a tattoo in the afternoon, and when I went to save Bai Xiaoxue in the evening, he was in the hospital here, and something so boiling happened and saved the entire hospital...... It's earth-shattering.

I smiled bitterly for a while, and said softly: "It's really amazing, in ancient times, Shennong tasted a hundred herbs and experienced ten thousand herbs in the world, and now you have to treat diseases and taste a hundred hardships and experience ten thousand pains in the world." ”

I'm really right: he has tasted all kinds of diseases, not to mention epilepsy, gonorrhea and the like, and even menstrual cramps, which are diseases that even women have, and he has experienced it as a man, and he has tasted all kinds of pain, which is really not too much.

To treat a thousand patients in this way, one has to feel the pain of a thousand kinds of diseases. That kind of pain is definitely 10,000 times more difficult than scraping bones to heal wounds, and ordinary people are afraid that they will collapse long ago, right?

I said, "You can hold on."

"Thanks for the compliment."

He smiled over there, very weak, "Actually, I really hurt, I think, the ten ancient tortures, skinning and boning, are nothing more than that, even far less than this pain, if it were an ordinary person, I would have fainted a long time ago, but I have a thought in my heart.... It's that I'm curing and saving people, and I have to persevere! ”

My heart was shaken, and the shock left my mind blank.

I pondered for a long time, and most of the guests I met were greedy for profit, and even tried to deceive me and earn all kinds of benefits for tattoos, all of them were selfish animals, and I couldn't help but sigh at the brilliance in his heart.

I said, "You're going to go on like this?"

"That's right."

Cheng Yekou said: "In fact, after I refused those interviews, I immediately heard that there was a person in the delivery room who had a difficult birth, and she herself refused to have a caesarean section, and she couldn't give birth for a few hours..... I went to the delivery room, gently touched her arm, and encouraged her. ”

I know that when outsiders are encouraging her and cheering for her, they are actually sharing the pain of the pregnant woman.

Cheng Yekou's voice trembled a little, and he said, "Hiss.... At that time, it really hurt! Contractions are one of the most painful pains, I don't have a uterus, but the pain in that position is soft, empathy, by the way, do you know the pain level? Divided into ten levels, the awl pierced the thigh, and it was only four levels of pain, and that was eight levels, and I felt my lower abdomen at that time, just.... Hiss! He gasped.

I was speechless.

He senses the pain of childbirth, and even shares the pain to save people, I think he is obsessed.

I know that after he lost his wife, he sank into self-blame, and now he can work hard again, so he is desperate to go crazy to treat the disease and save people, I can understand his feelings, but it hurts too much for him.

I don't know if there is a hell in the world.

But legend has it that in the eighteen layers of hell, there are mountains of knives, oil pots, and fires, each of which is tortured in a variety of ways, and he seems to be experiencing hell in front of him.

Living death.

It is equivalent to walking through thousands of pains, pregnancy pain, epilepsy, neuralgia..... Take a walk in hell.

"Then maybe it's really hell, you know I believe in Buddhism, the Buddha said, I don't go to hell, who goes to hell? Jizo Bodhisattva said that hell is not empty, and you will not become a Buddha. ”

Cheng Yekou was on the other end of the phone and continued: "Actually, since I came back from the hospital, I have been thinking about it, there are ten levels of pain in people, and theoretically there are only ten levels, if I suffer pain one after another and surpass that disease, what will happen to my body?" Will it collapse instantly? It is the cellular structure and nerve tissue of the human being, which collapses in an instant, turning into a puddle of rotten flesh..... I've been thinking about it. ”

I am silent.

He continued: "If hell really exists, then the ghosts who suffer from those sufferings, the pain in their souls, may not be unusual, but the living.... In the human flesh, but to endure the pain of hell, and the pain of man to the limit and not to die..... At this point, I am moving forward. ”

He sighed softly, like a healer seeking the truth, and said to him, a fanatical martyr who can die at night, "Actually, tonight in the hospital to bear the last pregnancy pain, to help the pregnant woman give birth smoothly, my whole body is already paralyzed, it hurts too much... It hurts so much.... I've been thinking about this since I got back from the hospital. ”

"There's so much to know, and what happens if I accidentally touch a dying patient? The moment she died, I would experience the feeling of death at the same time..... I would not have been in shock and would have died at the same time, because my bodily functions, my brain, would tell me that I was dead, and in foreign countries, there are examples of such experiments. ”

He gave me an example.

There is an experiment in a foreign country: blindfold the prisoner, and then pretend to cut his wrist to bleed, but turn on the faucet next to it, and slowly drip water, so that the prisoner thinks that he is slowly dripping blood, and after a few hours, the prisoner dies... It wasn't that he died of blood loss, it was his brain that told him he was dead.

He said with some horror: "Actually, I'm more afraid, so try to compress the feeling of touching the other party in three seconds, because if the diagnosis process, if the other party dies suddenly, will I also ......." He suddenly stopped talking.

I sweated on my forehead.

It is very likely that what he said is that even if he is unwilling to come into contact, but he will die suddenly, especially since he comes into contact with hundreds of patients in one night, how can he often stand by the river without getting his shoes wet?

He gave me a lot of scientific knowledge, and his thoughts on this kind of pain sharing, which made my heart confused, and even more difficult to understand, I said: Can you take it easy, if you really encounter the kind of sudden death, you are afraid that you will .....

"Thank you very much for taking the liberty of bothering so late, and if anything happens, I'll call again." After he finished speaking, he hung up the phone in an instant.

Boom!!

"Oh my mother." I yelled, slammed my fist on the wall, and trembled with rage.

This Professor Cheng Yekou may have guessed this a long time ago, but he still did not hesitate, I suspect that he may have come here to get a tattoo, he was ready to get a tattoo, he came to me to get a tattoo, he had this idea.

He wanted to harm himself.

His tone was very calm, as if he had already planned to harm himself, and he might have had the will to die a long time ago.

"Damn it!" I regretted it a little in my heart, hung up the phone and called back frantically, but there was no longer answer, I held my breath, went back to bed to rest, tossing and turning, and couldn't sleep.

The next morning, with a black eye socket, Zhao Banxian came over early, and said very leisurely: "Last night, you tattooed Professor Cheng Yekou?" Let him regain his fighting spirit? ”

I nodded.

Zhao Banxian was puzzled and said: That's a good thing, re-treating and saving people, I don't know how many lives can be saved, why are you so depressed.

"It's not easy."

I told him about it, and after he heard it, he was stunned and shocked in place, and sighed for a long time before he sighed and said, "He blames himself in his heart, and he wants to die for a long time..... We didn't realize it at the time, we were deceived a lot, and the tattoo was a human soul, and we were thinking about whether she was a bad person, but we ignored the death intent in his eyes, so we help him now, isn't it.... Push him to his death? ”

I nodded, feeling uncomfortable.

If I don't get a tattoo for him, he'll continue to sink and survive.

I helped him get a tattoo, but it made him determined to turn into the last stray fireworks and embark on the road of crazy rescue.

I said, "I want to go to the hospital and change that picture, but if he goes on like this, he is looking for death, and he is "suffering from all beings" with the body of a living person, and I don't know what will happen..... In the past, it was just a matter of talking, but no one has ever really endured the suffering of sentient beings.

Xiaoqing said innocently next to him: Then will he become a Buddha? A living Buddha, a Buddha in the flesh, sanctified through all kinds of hardships? Ancient legends are all rumors.

I smiled wryly, I don't know.

Zhao Banxian said: "Hey, you want to stop him, but you also have to think about one thing, he was depressed and unhappy before, lost the dignity of a doctor, and cowardly shrank in the corner and didn't dare to see a doctor..... I thought, that's what he thinks, why are you trying to stop him? ”