"You've cleaned me up, I'll die more decently if I go to seek death now. What do you think? ”

"If you die, the people you are most sorry for are me and my children."

"Why?" Chen Meijuan asked knowingly.

"One is that I risked being killed to save you; The second is that I am pregnant and I scrub for you, apply medicine, change clothes, trim your hair, and knit a beanie hat for you...... I am not doing all this to make you die with dignity, but to hope that you will live with dignity so that you can repay my kindness to you. Zhu Yuliang replied to her with a serious face.

Chen Meijuan laughed and said: "In this way, I can't seek death now, I have to repay your kindness before I can die!" ”

Zhu Yuliang said: "Of course! You owe me a lot of favors. Don't talk about it! You have to live well, pay me back slowly, pay me back for the rest of your life! We all have to live well and repay the kindness that others have shown us. ”

Chen Meijuan put away the smile on her face and fell into deep thought......

After a while, Chen Meijuan asked Zhu Yuliang: "Although your culture is not high, why are you always so individual, insightful and courageous?" ”

Zhu Yuliang tilted his head and said, "How do you know that my culture is not high? I just don't have a lot of education. If it weren't for the fact that I went to a technical school for my parents as soon as possible, I would have been admitted to university. I was at the top of my class, and my teachers and classmates felt sorry for me! I got the best grades in math when I was in school, but my favorite was literature. ”

Chen Meijuan let out an "oh", knowing that she had said the wrong thing again.

"Teacher Chen! May I ask you a question? Why do you look up to the sky and laugh when they burn books? Zhu Yuliang saw that Chen Meijuan's mood had improved, so he asked curiously.

"Oh!" Chen Meijuan sat up straight, as if she was about to make a tirade.

"I laughed at me and Lao Cai for knowing today, why bother in the first place. You don't know, most of my books were bought by me when I was in college and before I got married. Moving from Shanghai to Suzhou, and then from Suzhou to Jiyang, these books have been with me for more than ten years, and it is not easy to carry them! I knew that there was today, so I would have put these books at my mother's house in Shanghai, so why move here and let people burn them?

Also, some of the destroyed calligraphy, paintings and antiques were handed down by Lao Cai Zu, and some of them were purchased by him from various sources little by little after spending all his savings. When I knew him, he liked to collect these antiques, saying that this one is from the Shang Dynasty and that is from the Spring and Autumn Period and the Warring States Period...... A clay pot that I don't think is enough, he is willing to pay a lot of money to buy it back.

When we moved here from Suzhou, in order to check in these books and treasures, Lao Cai specially customized some wooden boxes, and took the safest measures against shocks and shatters.

After these wooden boxes arrived at Jiyang Station, they had to be carried back from the train station one by one by two by the two of us...... At that time, we were going to put down roots in Jiyang, so we moved all these valuable things.

Usually at home, my hobby is to read books, and Lao Cai's hobby is to play with his antiques. Well, now it's all gone! If you knew that there was today, why did you spend so much money to collect them in the first place?

When my parents gave birth to me, they must have loved me as much as I did for Dabao Erbao. They saved money for me to study, but they never dreamed that their daughter would one day be trampled under her feet because of her too much knowledge...... I knew that there was today, why did they let me study in the first place?

So, when they were setting fire today, I suddenly remembered the "Okay Song" in "Dream of Red Mansions", and I couldn't help but laugh......

I laugh at our stupidity and stupidity, at our innocence and persistence, at the absurdity and rebellion of this world, and at the emptiness and boredom of life...... I can't think of any point in my life.

Human life should be painful, but it should be boring...... If it weren't for your presence here today, I'd have gone headlong into the well; But I was afraid of polluting this well and scaring the people in the yard. Looking for death at home, I am afraid of scaring Lao Cai and his sons. I think the next time they criticize me again, I'll take advantage of the unpreparedness and hit the wall headfirst! ”

Zhu Yuliang listened quietly, and then said, "It's very easy for you to seek death, and it's over in a few minutes. But have you ever thought about how your elderly parents will live when you die? How will your two minor sons live? How will a husband who loves you live? And those who torture you will continue to live unscathed. Therefore, seeking death is a stupid thing for relatives to hurt enemies, and it is absolutely undesirable! Besides, there is no point in human life; If you want to talk about meaning, there is only one! ”

"What's the point?" Chen Meijuan asked.

"As I said, repay the favor! Think about how fragile and precious human life is! Your parents gave birth to you and raised you as an adult, do you want to repay this kindness? My husband is with you through thick and thin, and you will never give up, do you want to repay this kindness? A good person like me risked his life to save you today, do you want to repay this kindness? When you think that you still have so much unrepaid kindness, are you embarrassed to seek death for your momentary pleasure? If you are so selfish, then your life really has no meaning at all. ”

Chen Meijuan stared wide-eyed at the little housewife next door in front of her who she looked down on a few days ago. There is no big truth in her words, but they really make sense.

"How can you give me such a convincing reason to live?" Chen Meijuan asked curiously.

"Since I was a child, I have heard my mother say: It is better to die than to live! As long as you live, there is hope; When you die, there's nothing. Zhu Yuliang replied.

Chen Meijuan said: "Okay! I will consider your persuasion. ”

Zhu Yuliang suddenly stood up, grabbed Chen Meijuan's shoulders and yelled at her, "It's not considering my persuasion; Instead, you must swear to me that you will never have the slightest thought of dying no matter what! If you don't swear, I'll walk out of this bolt door and never know you again!" ”

Chen Meijuan was obviously shocked by Zhu Yuliang's momentum, and she said tremblingly: "Okay! I...... Swear there will be no more ...... The slightest thought of death! ”

Only then did Zhu Yuliang breathe a sigh of relief. She told Chen Meijuan the story of Zhou Jiahong. She said that she used to be very disappreciative of Zhou Jiahong, and always felt that her sister-in-law's life was too worthless and too wretched. But after witnessing this great movement, she suddenly felt that her sister-in-law was such an amazing person!

Indeed, if Zhou Jiahong wanted to seek death, then she would have died a hundred times. Even if she withered like an old tree's roots, she would live; As long as you live, there will always be a day when the dead wood will come to spring.

Chen Meijuan finally opened her heart to Zhu Yuliang. She confessed: "I used to look down on you because I was an intellectual, but I was jealous of your young beauty, so I often spoke ill of you behind your back with Dr. Liu. The insult I have suffered today is a punishment for my arrogance, jealousy, and vitriol. Therefore, I swear to you again: if I slander and slander you in the future, then I will not die a good death! ”

Zhu Yu's conscience thought, could this "soul transformation" movement really transform the soul?

She asked Chen Meijuan to sleep first, saying that she was going to clean up the patio, so as not to make Cai Fuguo sad when he saw this mess.

But Chen Meijuan stopped her, saying that it would be good to let Lao Cai see this mess, which could break his attachment to things outside his body.

……

A few days later, after Cai Fuguo settled down the two treasures, he returned to Tongxin Pavilion from Shanghai.

When he saw that the patio was full of broken porcelain, pottery shards, and flying black ash, he began to think that he had gone to the wrong courtyard; But when Chen Meijuan and Zhu Yuliang came out of the house and looked at him, he knew what was happening.

He squatted in the patio, did not enter the house for a long, long time, and finally rolled down two lines of tears. With red eyes, he said to the two women, "It's good that I wasn't at home at the time, otherwise I would have killed someone!" ”

……

In the evening, Chen Meijuan said to her husband: "Now the sons have settled down." Let's get a divorce! I don't want to drag you down. ”

Cai Fuguo looked at his wife, and after being silent for a long time, he said, "Divorce? There are no doors! Unless you don't love me anymore. Look me in the eye and answer me! Do you still love me? ”

"Of course! This will never change. Chen Meijuan replied.

"Do you know when I decided to marry you?" Cai Fuguo asked.

"Maybe it was a second before you proposed to me!" Chen Meijuan teased him.

"When we met for the second time, I made up my mind. The first time you came to see me, you had two pink bows on your braids. I accidentally mentioned that I don't like bows, and the second time you came to see me, there was no bow on your braids. That's when I knew you were a woman who could change herself for me, and you never lied to me once.

So I decided to change it for you as well. Actually, I don't like at all, and I can even say that I hate this ghost place. I think the people here are very savage and cunning...... But in order to repay you for your sincerity to me, I have decided to follow you to this hellish place to put down roots. ”

"I just know now that you hate so much. It's hard for you! Chen Meijuan said apologetically.

"Maybe I came here every night to get revenge!" Cai Fuguo said.

"Why do you say revenge?" Chen Meijuan asked suspiciously.

"Why do I hate this place? I don't know it myself. Therefore, the meaning of life is not only to repay gratitude, but also to take revenge. Otherwise, there is no point. ”