Yongan Hospital, in a private ward. Zhou Yansen looked at the pale woman on the hospital bed. Without the usual distress, thinking of his friend Lu Bai's words, and what Mo Li found out, he seemed too calm. I don't know why that independent, self-reliant, and high-minded woman could become like this.

Maybe it was the smell of smoke, the woman on the hospital bed opened her eyes and saw the man on the sofa with his legs folded, swallowing clouds and spitting fog, under the dim light, the handsome face was hidden under the smoke, and the expression was invisible, but it inexplicably made people feel gloomy, and they were full of loneliness.

"Yan Sen," Qian Xiaonuan shouted softly.

"Awake?" Zhou Yansen stood up and walked to the side of the bed, looking at the woman on the bed expressionlessly: "Xiao Nuan, leave Nan'an!" Go abroad and start your life again! ”

"Yan Sen? What do you mean? Qian Xiaonuan was stunned for a moment, and couldn't believe what he heard.

"Since Nan'an City is your nightmare, if you want to wake up from a dream, you can only get rid of it by getting out of the dream...... You also don't want to live in the pain of the past all the time and not be able to get out. ”

"Is it because of Yu An'an? Are you in love with her? Qian Xiaonuan was eager to know the answer, but she was afraid of the answer and didn't want to hear it.

Zhou Yansen didn't speak, flicked the cigarette ash in his hand, and a trace of uncertainty flashed in his eyes.

"Yan Sen, you dislike me, you dislike me for being raped by others, you never touch me, and the distance between you and me is always one step away......"

Zhou Yansen suddenly remembered that when Qian Xiaonuan had just had an accident, he was mentally disturbed in the hospital, and no one was allowed to get close. It's just that Zhou Yansen is not excluded, Zhou Yansen goes to the hospital to see her every day after work, and once Yu Anan also came, just saw the nurse giving Qian Xiaonuan an an injection, Qian Xiaonuan was so frightened that she ran into her arms, hugged his waist and didn't let go.

Yu Anan didn't say anything at the time, but when he went to wash up the next day, he found that the clothes he wore yesterday were thrown in the trash. Ask her what's going on? Yu Anan just said lightly, "dirty", she was very angry at the time, and mocked her: "It's dirty, won't you wash it?" Is it that you can't take care of yourself without a servant?"

Zhou Yansen still remembers Yu Anan's expression at that time, looking at himself coldly, and the corners of his mouth curved a faint arc: "You can wash your clothes if they are dirty, but the smell left on your body by others can't be washed off." "I don't like to share anything with other people, including my husband, and if something is touched by someone else, I will immediately give it away. It seems that since then, I have been very reluctant to get close to women. Every time I came out of the hospital, I had to change my clothes before going home.

Qian Xiaonuan didn't know what Zhou Yansen was silent, and waited for a long time, thinking that he wouldn't answer, but heard his deep voice: "Yu Anan doesn't like her things to be touched by others, and if she touches them, she will discard them." ”

When Qian Xiaonuan heard this, she only felt that her heart was tumbling badly, and a lot of anger and unwillingness surged up: she smiled bitterly: "Are you in love with her?" How can you fall in love with her, and what about me? ”

"I don't deny that I liked you and was attracted to you, but I just liked it, not to the level of love. Because when we were young, we didn't know how to tell the difference between liking and loving. Besides, we never had a relationship. ”

When Qian Xiaonuan heard what the man said, she couldn't help but think of what Yu Anan said when she came to the hospital some time ago: "A man's first love is like the white moonlight in his heart, which occasionally bubbles up in his spare time." And his wife is a cinnabar mole on her chest, even if she doesn't like it anymore, she has to face it every day and become one. If you want to remove the cinnabar mole, you have to peel it yourself. And you, Qian Xiaonuan is not even Zhou Yansen's first love, but you have to keep coming out to brush up on your sense of existence, what do you rely on? It's nothing more than taking out your scar from time to time to dry, and using his guilt to take revenge on my father. You can really grasp people's hearts!