Again, Zhao Wei refused to let me go home to see my mother.

I understand mother. She's never been very close to me, and now she's pregnant...... I'm probably dispensable.

Then again, for me, she's also someone I've always wanted to stay away from.

It's just that I want to leave her completely, and I am very conflicted about the countless fears, confusions, and worries that she brought me as a child.

She's a woman who can fascinate everyone — and of course, it's easy to get annoyed by her anger and fall into self-doubt.

Not because of her beautiful appearance, but because of the mysterious attraction of a black hole in her.

No one seems to be able to resist the appeal.

Even though I had her blood in my veins, I never really understood her.

I was attached to her and hated her at the same time.

Back in the apartment, Van Yesh sneered and pointed to the gauze on my forehead, "Not dead?" It's a pity. ”

I smiled wryly and replied, "yes, that's a pity. ”

Van Yesh knew almost everything about me and Angel.

We still hate each other, but we all want Angel to be happy.

As a result, our relationship has recently entered a strange state of harmony.

This change began after he discovered my efforts to climb over the wall.

He drank some wine that day and apologized to me with red eyes. I was shocked, but also a little emotional. He likes Angel, he should be no less than me.

He said that what I did was much smarter and more courageous than his heinous crime of killing his father.

I also admire his brain circuits.

Because even I feel that I am just going over the wall because I don't dare to have a roundabout tactic of confrontation with my elders.

At the end of the day, I'm still a selfish and weak coward.

I toasted him with a nice glass of champagne, which was a relief.

Since then, we have been roommates who are both friend and foe.

Even the classmates are becoming more and more willing to guess that we are actually together.

Let them speculate. We didn't care, and we knew that Angel wouldn't care.

"What's wrong with you?" Van Yesh put away the mockery, "If you don't break your appearance, Angel won't mind, as for being so loveless......"

I looked at him wistfully, not wanting to speak. My expression should be ugly.

"Ouch, you didn't climb the stairs and fall, you were caught by the security guards as a thief, right?"

"It's a little bloodier than this." I opened the fridge and pulled out a bottle of lemonade – I became less and less fond of sparkling drinks after being poured Coke by Van Yesh.

"Was you caught by your aunt?" Van Yesh laughed dryly, "Then your life is quite big, you can come back alive." ”

"Hmm." The lemonade soured my eyes narrowed, "My good luck is probably coming to an end." ”

"Kang Rong, you won't retreat just because of this, will you?"

"That's right." I looked at him intently, "I'm very timid. I couldn't move anymore. ”

"Are you kidding? That's not how you go over the wall. ”

"No kidding. I call this reality. I looked at him earnestly.

"What's going on? Don't say you're going to give Angel to me......" Van Yesh's expression was solemn, not knowing whether he was excited or dissatisfied.

"What are you doing? Of course it won't be given to you. I rolled his eyes, "I just want to wait a while." I wasn't going to see him until I graduated. ”

"Are you serious? There is still half a year before graduation, little brother, Angel will go crazy. ”

"It's only half a year, soon. Angel is not you, so she won't go crazy. ”

Of course, if I cut off contact with Angel, it would probably be the longest half year of my life.

"Have you discussed?" Van Yesh asked, "If it was just your unilateral decision, he would hate you." ”

"I haven't discussed......," I said, a little weakly, "he won't hate me." He won't. ”

"Don't be too confident." Van Yesh scoffed again, "I know him no less than you. Do you know why Angel hates me so much? ”

"Why?" I've always been curious about that.

"After I killed my violent maniac dad with my own hands, I went to Angel for a drink...... "Van Yesh looked drunk and melancholy, "I took advantage of his drunkenness and did what I always wanted to do......

"He was young at the time, and he didn't dare to lose his temper with me the next day, huh...... Then he didn't even look at me......"

His words made my chest feel tight and my heart palpitate.

…… Therefore, Angel had a relationship with him.

To say I don't mind is an absolute lie.

But that's just about minding.

No matter what Angel has done or what has happened to anyone, I like him and will not let go.

"So," Van Yesh sighed softly, "if you break off with him for half a year, he'll hate you for the rest of your life." ”

I understood what he meant. He just didn't want Angel to be hurt again. I don't want to.

But if I ask myself, I want to finish high school peacefully rather than make him happy.

I'm just a useless, hated person.

Since none of us have the ability to break through the barriers of our families, why not wait until we have the ability to start over?

Why ask for yourself?

Why bother yourself?

Is it rewarding to confront your loved ones? I don't think so. Angel certainly wouldn't think so.

Is it hard to just be apart for half a year?

Hard.

But let me take another risk to find Angel, and then face Angel's mother's disgust, mother's disgust, and Zhao Wei's reprimand......

It's harder.