Lin Lishan sat down unconsciously, looked at the daughter in front of her, moved to Zhou Jiao's side, looked at her face, didn't see her daughter was safe, and moved again, Mother Zhang next to her watched her move forward vigorously, and didn't speak, and looked at her son Zhang Guoqing.

Zhang Guoqing saw his mother's eyes looking forward to him, and shook his head slightly. It's not easy for him to come forward, he also wants to see what Zhou Jiao thinks, some things are not concluded by a few letters and a few sentences of analysis, and many feelings rely on fate and cannot be forced. He respects his lover's attitude and feels sorry for her hardship. In both lives, Zhou Jiao suffered a lot of hardships and grievances when she was young, and the love of her parents was a luxury for her. In her previous life, she was not discouraged about her parents at the beginning, but she was discouraged later. Father's love and mother's love are too difficult for her to get, and she often says that she belongs to her parents and has no relatives.

Lin Lishan plucked up her courage, stretched out her trembling hands and gently ** her daughter's skinny palm, a drop of tears dripped on it, took a hard breath, looked up at her, looked at her daughter's sallow face, endured distress, held back tears and asked her softly: "Jiaojiao, mom Jiaojiao, you are so old, mom didn't come to see you, let you suffer a lot of grievances, mom is sorry for you, it's all mom bad, mom shouldn't give birth to you, let you have a mother and no mother, mom shouldn't, if your dad sees you like this, how distressed should I be, what face do I have to see your dad?" Jiaojiao, you must hate your mother in your heart, right? It's all because my mother is not good, she didn't take good care of you, and she suffered so much at a young age, how could they treat my daughter like this? They all say you're good, that's what you're doing? How can they treat you like that? It's all to blame for your mother's stupidity, it's all your mother's fault for not coming to see you, and if your mother came to see you, they wouldn't dare. My Jiaojiao, mom is sorry for you, you shouldn't listen to your grandfather, their old Zhou family is not a person, they are not a person. You just hate your mother, and your mother doesn't blame you, it's all your mother's fault, it's my mother's fault, it's all my fault. Why do you want to go to your father, what are you looking for him, you can't even live your only daughter. Why don't I think about coming to see you, even if it's just a glance, it's better than seeing it with my own eyes, it won't make you live so hard. After speaking, Lin Lishan lowered her head and howled.

Zhou Jiao sighed, did she dare to hate, the tears were about to flood the hall. I don't know how her father got through when she broke the news that he died, and it's no wonder that he couldn't raise her. Just this cautious, expectant Ai Ai didn't know that she thought she was a daughter.

Zhou Jiao patted Lin Lishan gently, took the handkerchief handed by Zhang Guoqing, wiped her face for her, looked at her with her head down, still crying there, and sighed, her mother is too straightforward, her feelings are rich, and there are many tears, I am really afraid that she will be sad and sentimental. I'm even more afraid that she won't understand it if she is tactful, and she will think wrongly, "Don't cry first, listen to me, I really haven't complained about you now, even I haven't hated you before, let alone now." In addition to not coming to see me, you don't need me to eat, or do you lack me to wear? You gave birth to me and raised me, and I will hate you, so what have I become? The hardships I have endured and the sins I have suffered are not caused by you, maybe you will say that it would be good if you didn't let the Zhou family raise them at the beginning. But it's already like this, I'm married and have children, and we want to be better.

Speaking of complaining about you, when I was young, I complained to you before I was ten years old, and in the Zhou family, they all said that you don't want me anymore, because I killed my father, and even my grandparents didn't refute it, I blamed you. In the days when there is no mother, I don't care about food and clothing, but when I see others protected by my mother, I blame you, I really miss you at that time, even if I don't eat or wear clothes by your side. Even if you hate me and kill my dad, I will be obedient and obedient, even if you beat me, I will be obedient and obedient so as not to make you angry, because I have no relatives, only you are my dearest in the world, and if I don't have a father, I only have my mother. I think when I grow up, when I am older, and learn more skills, I can go to you and tell you that I can support myself, and I don't need you to send money to support me, I just want to follow you, because I really have no relatives anymore, only you.

finally grew up to 10 years old, and the Zhou family couldn't bear it anymore for me, in addition to thinking about you, I saw through their mouths. I learned a lot of skills myself, I learned secretly, I learned to see a doctor, I learned to embroider, these are all skills to make money, I think I can go to you, I put down my face, and every day I think about how to get grandpa to promise me to call you. When the phone is finally connected, I will be very excited, I feel that I am really good, I can see you soon, but you refused on the phone, you said that you can't take care of me, let me wait, be obedient in my hometown, you will definitely come back to pick me up. Listening to your cold voice, refusing me to come to you, my heart was cold at that time, my whole body was numb, I bit my fingers and understood a truth, I can only protect myself, I really have no relatives.

It's been six years since I received your letter, and I haven't even opened it. They are wearing new clothes and new pants, I know these are your money, but I don't care, I just want to learn something quickly, grow up quickly, and leave the Zhou family quickly. After two years, I have read more books, I have come into contact with society, and I know more, I will calculate the years, I was born 40 years ago, it will be the darkness before the dawn, and it is understandable to leave me in my hometown, but when I am ten years old, it is just liberated, then you will refuse me to go back, are you giving up on me, or is there something unspeakable? But if it were me, I would do everything I could to see my child, even if there was a knife in the sky. But I didn't get results.

Hate? Don't hate, I don't like to complain and hate others, that will make me too tired. I told myself that it's good to be alone, I don't have to be sad for others, I don't have to worry about others, I can live as I want when I become an adult, no one cares about me, I love myself, no one cares about me, I value myself. After a few years, I got married, got married, and you didn't show up, and I didn't have any expectations, I just wanted to live and live well.

When I heard the voice of the little fifth brother in the delivery room, I thought of my dad and you, I thought of what kind of mood you had at that time to give birth to me? Why don't you care about your only daughter after experiencing the pain of giving birth, even if you see each other and take a look, it's better than sending something over.

Thinking of the money sent every month every year, I heard that you didn't remarry me and have a child. But why didn't you come to see me? Even if we meet once, even my grandmother's family has never seen anyone, so my father always has one or two friends, and I haven't seen them. I don't usually pay attention to this, but it's not normal to think about it carefully. Later, I opened the good letters, the thirty or so letters that had not been opened in six or seven years, maybe I couldn't understand many things when I was ten years old, but now I can see that you have been looking for my father, looking at each of the different mail addresses, and looking at the date, I think I can't follow you around even if I go to you, and I feel better. For me, even if you never put me at ease, but you love my dad, that's enough. If you do remarry, then no matter what the big reason, betrayal is betrayal. You can guard my dad, I feel so much better.

The former little five went to report the good news to his grandparents, and found that there were a lot of wrongs, so he forced him to return to the addresses of several people in the Lin family, planning to send back some special products as a thank you gift, and by the way, he also told them not to send things in the future. During this period, some unpleasant things happened, and I took back a few empty envelopes from the Lin family. As soon as he came back and said that we were analyzing and pondering, we understood that my grandfather and others had been telling me that you had abandoned me more or less secretly. After knowing some truths, I have been feeling angry in my heart for the past two days, and I am not angry anymore when I send it out today.

Don't cry, I really didn't hate you, you not only gave birth to me, I also survived on the money you sent every month, you didn't come to me, haven't you been looking for my dad? So don't be sad, I really don't blame you, I can understand that my dad is too important to you, and finding him has become your only obsession. ”

Lin Lishan hugged her tightly without waiting for her to finish, crying silently, and touching the top of her daughter's hair. I didn't know how to describe my distress for a while.

Tears fell on Zhou Jiao's neck, and the hot Zhou Jiao's heart tightened, making her heart ache, she still looked forward to her mother's love in her heart, otherwise where would her sadness and joy come from. Whether it is her, or the original Zhou Jiao, she should choose to forgive, she hopes that her father will come back and have a home waiting for him, she trusts her instincts, and her mother also has her in her heart.