When I returned to my small rental house, I felt very comfortable, because my rental room was very small, only a window of less than one square meter, and the distance of less than one meter outside the window was the wall of the next building, even if the sun was big, it could not shine in, this kind of house lighting is very bad but cheap.

I used to feel very depressed to live in, and I don't know what the reason is, but I feel extremely comfortable when I come back this time. As I lay on the bed, I felt the world fall silent. Thinking of the meaning of the two old men today, I began to panic again, took out my mobile phone and habitually dialed Qian Xiaotong's number, and only after being stunned did I remember that she was no longer my girlfriend.

Without hesitation, I deleted her phone, flipped out my mother's phone, and dialed it to tell her that I was homesick and that I wanted to go home for a few days.

My mom asked me on the phone if I was too tired from work. He also said that if you are tired, don't do it, rest for a while, and the family is not so tight now. Then he told me that if I could go back to school, I would apply for a student loan to continue my education, and I didn't have to worry about my family.

I asked my sister how she was, and my mother said that the situation was much better, and I don't know what the reason was, but she had recovered quickly in recent times, and the medicine was almost ready to stop.

I said I'll go back and see my sister, I haven't seen me for a few months, and I think it's weird.

Mom was silent for a moment and said, "Okay, come back, is the fare enough?" ”

I said, "Yes, I have a salary to receive tomorrow, and I will come back when I am done." After saying that, I hung up the phone happily, this news temporarily dispelled the gloom in my heart, thinking of my sister's cute and sensible appearance, I couldn't help laughing.

Tomorrow's salary is a part-time job for me as a dishwasher in a restaurant, and I only go to work at five o'clock in the afternoon, when there are many diners, so the kitchen is too busy, and I work until eight o'clock, thirty a day. It's been less than a month, and the boss is very good, and he should be able to settle his salary.

That night, I kept repeating the same dream, in which I saw a solemn and simple bilateral door, the door was closed, and from time to time there was the laughter of Mu Xue from inside the door. I want to go in and play with her. I ran over to push the door, but when I just came into contact with the door, Mu Xue's voice instantly turned into a crying voice, she cried heartbreakingly, crying my liver and intestines. I could only push the door slightly with all my strength.

I pushed the door while shouting to my sister to be good, my brother came in immediately, pushing and pushing the door suddenly opened, because I couldn't contain my own inertia, I fell directly into the door, my body shook violently, and I woke up.

When I woke up, I wiped the cold sweat from my head and felt very tired. After a while, he fell asleep slowly, fell asleep and entered this dream again, and when the door opened, he was awakened again, and so on and so on many times until dawn.

Listening to the noise outside, I struggled to my feet. My whole body is weak, so weak that I can't even stand on my feet, I kept pushing the door hard in my dream last night, but now my body's reaction seems to be telling me that it is not a dream, but that I have really been consuming my physical strength.

Forced to walk to the bathroom, I had to go out, wait to go to the boss to settle the bill, and then buy a ticket home.

Squeezing out the toothpaste and putting it on the toothbrush, I put the toothbrush in my mouth, I looked up at the mirror hanging on the wall in front of me, and this look made me jump, my face became very white, that very sickly white, not even the lips had any other color, but the dark circles under my eyes were obvious, and they were very large. It's like those ghosts who have finished wearing makeup in horror movies.

Is this still me? I shook my head from side to side, and when I saw myself in the mirror repeating the same action, I could believe that it was really me.

Maybe it was because I didn't sleep well last night, and I was deceiving myself and comforting myself. There are ready-made instant noodles at home, which are the kind of old Beijing that cost a few cents a pack, I don't know if you have ever eaten it, and there is only a packet of inferior seasonings in it. The taste is bad, but the price is good.

After soaking two packs of old Beijing instant noodles, I felt a little more strength after eating, and I had a trace of fantasy in my heart.

I opened the door and walked to the end of the corridor outside, where there was a window, the position was facing east, and there was no tall building in front of it, so the sun was shining in in the morning, and I walked under the sun, hesitating to go into the sunlit range. Looking at the crowd of people coming and going below, some even deliberately walked to a sunny place.

They can, why can't?

Mustering up courage, I stepped into the range of sunlight, and after entering, I felt very cold!

It wasn't as good as yesterday, at least I could stay in the sun, and I started to look forward to it, and if I had to choose between cold and itchy, I would definitely want it to be cold. But then the feeling my body gave me completely broke my idea, the very cold feeling only lasted for a few seconds, and my body began to itch wildly, the feeling was exactly the same as yesterday, and I couldn't last a few seconds at all.

I quickly walked out of the sunlight and returned to my room in a dejected mood, what the hell is going on? I thought about going to the hospital to see if there was anything wrong, but when I think of my current financial situation, I can't afford to go to the hospital at all. If it's because of this disease, then it won't help if I go to the hospital.

Forget it, let's get down to business first, but how do I go out like this? I went to the toilet again and looked in the mirror, and the strange thing was that the terrifying appearance in the morning was gone again, and my face became no different from that of a normal person.

Although it was a good thing, I was so panicked about it, these things were unexplainable, I kept grabbing my hair with my hands, and I couldn't help but yell at the mirror:! What the is going on!!!!

After venting, I packed up my things and went out, my luggage was a backpack, and I didn't return the rental room, because the landlord was very picky, and I couldn't return it if I wanted to. There are still two months to go, so let's rent here first, maybe I'll be back in a few days.

When I went out, I also brought an umbrella by the way, this umbrella surface is pure black, the sunshade effect is also good, and it is very open. It was given to me by Qian Xiaotong as a birthday gift on my birthday last year. I bought it on Taobao, and I paid for it. I used to cherish this umbrella very much, and sometimes I was reluctant to take it out when it rained, because Qian Xiaotong personally selected it for me.

Now I'm relieved, and I'm even a little grateful to her for choosing such an umbrella for me, which I need right now.

I went out with an umbrella, I avoided the sun all the way, shuttled through the alleys of the crowded urban village, and walked to the restaurant where I worked, the boss had just opened the door, and was still cleaning up the cash register, I told her about the situation, and she was very happy to settle the salary to me, although it was not a full month, but she still gave me 900 yuan. I have to say that there are still many good people in this world.

After getting the money and thanking the boss, I left the urban village to wait for the bus home. In the early spring, there were relatively few people returning to their hometowns, so the seats on the bus were empty, and the curtains on the windows let in the sunlight, so I had to open my umbrella to block my whole body. Fortunately, there were few people in the car, so I sat in the back of the car again. Except for the driver warning me not to get his car dirty, it was calm all the way. It's just that I don't know what he meant by soiling his car, I was just holding up the umbrella to get sunny.

My hometown is in Hunan, the road is very long, the bus is slow again, it is already more than ten o'clock in the evening when I get off the bus, and there is still heavy rain in the sky. Fortunately, my house is on the side of the road, a few minutes walk away.

Because it was too late to get home, I called my mother in advance and told her not to talk to Mu Xue, for fear that she would not sleep and wait at home.

Mom and Dad knew I was coming back, so the wait in the hall was still open, and they didn't sleep. When my mother saw me coming back, she quickly ran to the kitchen to have a hot meal, and after a few words of greeting with my father, I was ready to go upstairs to see Mu Xue.

Mu Xue is not in good health, so she did not sleep alone, although she is five or six years old, in order to facilitate the care, she has been sleeping with her parents.

Came to the door of my parents' bedroom lightly and slowly pushed open the bedroom door.

(Today, I will change here first, thank you for your support, and thank you again another day.) ）