His crying voice continued to come from the earpiece, sometimes loud and sometimes small, sometimes like talking to me, sometimes like whispering. Imagining his current state, I picked up the pace again. When I arrived at the basketball court, I didn't hang up the phone, but my attention was not on the phone, and the basketball court at this time looked dull under the light of a few sparse street lamps, and the line of sight was less than 5 meters, although I looked carefully with wide eyes, and I didn't find him.

"Ning Meng~ You tell me, what do I have to do to get you back?"

At this time, Zhao Nan, who was already whispering, suddenly shouted, and I judged from the source of the sound that he should be in the corner of the basketball court, so I quickly hung up the phone and walked towards him.

"Zhao Nan, Zhao Nan"

I shouted his name as I walked, but my voice was like a stone sinking into the sea, and I didn't get the slightest response. I had no choice but to grope slowly by myself, and when I was about to walk into that corner, I heard someone whispering, and looked up at a dark shadow, probably him, and walked towards the black shadow with joy in my heart.

When I walked up to him, I saw that Zhao Nan was sitting by the wall like a puddle of mud, with a lot of empty cans of beer beside him, his eyes closed, but his mouth was still muttering.

"Zhao Nan, wake up, wake up!"

I crouched down beside him, shaking him and shouting. I thought to myself: Fortunately, I came, if I slept here all night, I would have a serious illness if I didn't freeze to death.

"Ah~ Lemon, you're here, don't you want me, why are you still taking care of me, didn't you run away with Zhou Yu's guy?"

He opened his eyes and saw me, and then he was overjoyed at first, and then, as if remembering something, his eyes dimmed again, and he said sadly.

"Don't you"

I wanted him to stop making trouble, but when I saw the tears on his cheeks and the sadness in his eyes, he couldn't say anything when the words came to his mouth. Maybe I'm going too far with him, after all, he hasn't done anything wrong now.

"Okay, let's not talk about this now, you get up, I'll send you back to the classroom first, okay?"

I've always been coaxing a child, and I said softly, who let him get drunk now, just let him go, anyway, I won't remember these things when I get up tomorrow. Thinking like this, the contradiction in my heart retreated slightly.

"I don't, I don't go back, Zhou Yu is inside, as soon as you go back, you will return to him again, I want to be with you, I want to be alone with you forever like this."

I wanted to help him up, but this guy is playing crazy with alcohol at this time, which is already quite heavy, and he deliberately shrank back, so I didn't separate him from the ground for a long time, as if he had grown up here.

"Okay, then I'll sit with you for a while!"

I pulled him for a long time, but not only did I not pull him up, but I ran out of strength. Seeing that he was still sitting on the ground, I simply sat down next to him, thinking about resting for a while, and then helping him when he woke up a little more.

"Zhao Nan, why do you say you are like this?"

Sitting on the ground, looking at the sky, I couldn't help but ask. I really don't understand, it stands to reason that I was just friends with him before, even if I liked him in my dreams, he didn't show that he cared much about me, why is he like this now, is it really the most precious thing that he can't get?

"Because I like you, Lemon, I've liked you since I first got into this class. But I'm scared that so many people who fall in love because they like each other end up breaking up for various reasons, and they don't get along with each other after the breakup, and I'm afraid that we'll be like that. I thought that you could be happy, and it would be enough for you to be happy, but seeing you and Zhou Yu in pairs, I felt uncomfortable. If it hurts after love, and it hurts if you don't love, then I'd rather choose love, at least without regrets. ”

I don't know when he sat up from the side, looked at me with his eyes open, and said sincerely. Looking at his sincere eyes, I knew that what he said at the moment was true. I recall the moment when he kissed me at the graduation party in my dream, and his eyes also revealed joy and happiness, he should have liked me as much as he does now, but then he still lost to time and distance.

"Zhao Nan, we are all too weak and afraid of failure, so we are destined to miss out. I may have liked you once, but now someone has made me understand what love is, what is giving, and we can't go back. ”

I looked at Zhao Nan and said seriously. If I hadn't met Zhou Yu, his confession at this moment should have made my heart move, and it might even make me put aside my worries and gamble. But all this changed the moment I made up my mind to ask Zhou Yu for advice and study, it was he who made my dead heart come alive step by step, and it was he who made me fall in love with the feeling of being respected, cared for, and regarded as a treasure. This feeling is something I can't experience with Zhao Nan in my dreams, and I like it very much.

"Lemon, can't you really give me another chance?"

He spoke to me in a voice that was almost pleading, and listening to his hoarse voice and looking at his sad expression, I really didn't know how to refuse.

"No~"

At that moment, countless statements flashed through my mind, euphemistic, resolute, hesitant, and finally I was going to tell him in a calm and straightforward way that "it was impossible". Before I could say anything, my mouth was sealed. The familiar smell of wine and familiar lips made me feel like I was back in a dream on the night of graduation, and I was a little confused whether it was the situation I dreamed of in my dream, or if I was in the real me in my dream now.

"Woo~"

Zhao Nan's aggressive kiss made me sober up instantly, what am I doing. I tried to get out of the way, but his hand was like a cage around my head and my body. With his eyes closed, and a line of tears on his face, he plundered my territory almost in a frenzy. I kept struggling, but he didn't feel it. It wasn't until his tears ran down his lips and into my mouth that the salty taste made me stop struggling and take it as a goodbye to the past.

I don't know how long it took for my mouth to go numb before he let me go.

"I'm sorry!"

At this moment he woke up, his eyes stopped on my red and swollen lips, and he said reproachfully.

"Forget it this time, don't do it again in the future, you know, it's impossible between us."

I spoke flatly, as if I were talking to an old friend.

"Hmm."

He nodded solemnly, and then replied, I knew that he should have let go of himself at this moment.