Life is sometimes like this, it makes you have hope, but you can never touch the source of hope, and you hang your whole person in the air, you can't survive, you can't die.

That's how I was in the dead of night.

Actually, all along, my understanding of love is like that, and I've always held it, with a better attitude, and it doesn't have a big impact if it's gone.

Maybe it's like singing in a song, I can't figure out who sang it, and those who are favored have no fear.

That's how I hold the lock of the sky so badly, no one can get him to leave my side, this kind of fearless mentality to face the relationship between the two of us.

Just like after I learned the fake news from the surname Gao before, I didn't know how to face it, so I could only let myself try to escape, but this time there was no way to avoid it, except to let myself avoid the crowd and silently go crazy.

Time is still passing day by day, and I once followed the team into the mountains to search, but when I was in the jungle, the feeling of being surrounded by trees always made me miss the lock even more.

Whenever I think of this time, maybe I won't have a chance to meet him after locking the sky, and when I see his good-looking face again, I can't use any existing words to describe that kind of taste.

Since that time I have refused to go into the mountains again.

If you wait for him outside, you will feel better.

In the third month, when I went home to get a change of clothes, Shen Feng dragged me to the bathroom and said with a shaky expression: "Chen Yang... Are you sure you're going to do this in the future? ”

I was a little stunned: "How do you go down?" ”

...... Shen Feng should have had a lot to say, but when he heard my answer, he was stunned for a while, and then he seemed to lose his strength: "It's nothing..."

When I came out of the bathroom, I found that Xu Shu was standing quietly in front of the door of the toilet, and when I came out to meet her, I glanced at Shen Feng behind me with a slight sideways face, and said to Xu Shu: "Don't go to the toilet in front of the toilet door, you still have to brew before urinating?" ”

For a while, Xu Shu and Shen Feng were a little crying and laughing.

My mother had a cold, and my father was kind enough to let me take the children more, so I simply planned to stay in the mall overnight and play with the children all afternoon.

Looking at him kicking his little fat legs back and forth, the pent-up emotions that have been accumulated for many days have been relieved a lot.

Clapping my hands at the little lock, I said, "Baby, come to Mommy." ”

Pouting on the ground again, I don't know what to do, and he ran towards me.

Holding him in my arms, patting the dust on my body, and kissing his little head, I asked, "Baby, is it okay to sleep with your mother tonight?" ”

The little lock nodded fiercely, and randomly raised his head and shouted in a very vague tone: "Mom." ”

When I heard this, my heart moved, and I couldn't help but smile and ask, "Son... What did you just tell your mom? ”

After glancing at me twice, he suddenly spoke: "Baba...", when he said these two words, his tone was very clear, I don't know if his parents taught him something, when he shouted the word Dad, his little face obviously flashed cautious, as if he was afraid of being frightened by something.

His nose was sore almost instantly, his eyes were sore, and he asked in a hoarse voice, "Son... Do you miss your dad? ”

After thinking seriously for a while, Xiao Suo nodded seriously: "I want Baba..."

hugged him, and tears immediately fell out.

"I miss your dad too."

At night, it was rare for Xiao Suotou not to ask his parents, but to sleep with me obediently, which was absolutely impossible before, even if he slept with Xu Shu, he didn't want to be with me.

Because I always care about him, everyone else is right no matter what he does right or wrong, and he doesn't say a word of blame.

Everyone sings white face, and I am the only one who sings this black face.

After just taking a shower for the little lock and throwing it on the bed, there was a sudden noise outside, and then soon Yang Yang ran up to inform me that the surname Gao had come over with someone.

The little lock didn't want to be in the house by himself, and his mother had a little cold, so she reminded me not to send the children over tonight, and Uncle Ga Zi wanted to take the two children, so he simply carried him downstairs.

The mall is guarded outside, so it's safe.

They got out of the helicopter and ran straight at us.

The first floor of this mall used to sell sofas, and the model room was directly used as a living room by us, which would sit on the sofa, and with a light turned on slightly, I opened my mouth and asked the surname Gao: "Why do you come here at night?" ”

The people brought by the surname Gao will all be guarding outside, and Yang Yang and Shen Feng, who originally followed up in the house, will also retreat, and there are only two people surnamed Gao and me in the entire model room at the moment.

After glancing around from side to side, the surname Gao said: "It's good that you cleaned it up." ”

frowned: "I'm asking you..."

Before I could finish asking the question, the surname Gao said to himself: "I came here because there are some things, and I still want to tell you after thinking about it for a long time."

I was stunned for a moment, and then he spoke: "If I don't say... Then these things, you will not know at any time. ”

After staring at him for a long time, I asked, "What's the matter?" ”

He glanced at the little lock that was playing with the buttons of my clothes, and said randomly: "When you were just pregnant, I mean when Suotian first found out, were you about to go crazy with joy?" ”

Although I don't know what this question has to do with what we want to say, I still nodded obediently and replied: "Well, I'm very happy, it's almost out of control." But... People who become fathers are basically like this. ”

The surname Gao accepted the expression: "He has been asleep for nine years. ”

"What?" I didn't get used to the sudden change in subject.

"You're very smart, you should have guessed the general situation before, and the age of the lock sky is nearly ten years old... This question should have been bothering you for a long time. ”

I nodded, and without opening my mouth, my hand subconsciously hugged the child... I always feel that the surname Gao seems to really want to say something important.

"After we went in there... Everything will be sorted out... It's just that the only person who knows those things now should be myself," said Gao with a wry smile and explained: "At that time, it was only me and Suotian who went in, and the others were outside. ”

"What the hell is going on?"

"When I was small, I was picked up by the old captain of Team C, and as for the place where I picked it up... It's next to an ancient tomb in the depths of the Qinling Mountains... Because the deep place is really incredible, so the days of Suotian when he was a child were not too comfortable, and he was looked at as a monster, and then you almost learned from Zhu Weiyuan before, the old captain in order to keep his son, so he got Suotian up, in fact, if you think about it, you can understand, this kind of confidential thing, how can it be so simple to fool the past, those people in the middle may be interested in studying Suotian... So in the days after Suotian was put in, he was injected with a lot of developed drugs, and after being injected with an unnamed drug again, Suotian fell into a state of suspended animation, and his brain also reacted to the outside world, but he was sleeping, and... One sleep is nine years, and this matter is still unsolvable, because although his body has grown in these nine years, it is still in some ways, do you understand? That is to say, these nine years are actually equivalent to standing still for Lock, which will not make him old or anything. ”

'Chen Yang... Do you believe that there are ghosts in the world? ’

'Chen Yang. ... I'm human too, and I'm going to die. ’

I can see things at night. ’

I don't know who I am or where I'm from. ’

As soon as I finished speaking, my mind was like a slideshow, constantly replaying what Suotian had said to me.

His heart suddenly twisted up like a pain, he asked me so many times, is there a ghost in the world? Are you doubting yourself?

I suddenly remembered a sentence I had read in the tomb robbery notes, which was indeed more appropriate to use on the body of the lock sky.

I am a person without a past or a future, who does not know who I am, where I came from, and where I am going. I don't know any of that. ’

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