Chen Ran

After dealing with the affairs of H City, I still returned to C City this weekend as planned.

That night, when I finally understood Director Zhao's feelings for Xiaojuan, I didn't seem to be too surprised and angry in my heart, as I said before, maybe I felt unqualified, in secular terms, I cheated first, what position did I have to accuse the other party of infidelity? Maybe she has no love for Xiaojuan, if she can have a man who loves her by her side, it is better than her feeling sorry for herself alone. Director Zhao is right, Xiaojuan needs companionship and care in her bones, how could I not know after so many years of husband and wife. But it's one thing to know if you don't know, and it's another thing to be willing to give. So, you see, when a man doesn't love a woman, even a gentle man like me can say such heartless words.

You may ask, since you now know their relationship, why haven't you divorced Xiaojuan? It's better to fulfill each other in this way than to suffer four people right now. I asked myself, but in the end I still rejected the idea. Maybe we'll get there someday, but right now, it's not the right time.

Xiaojuan's mother has just experienced the pain of bereavement, if I learn at this time that I will leave Xiaojuan and leave her, will I still be able to bear such a blow? And my parents, who have lived a life of thrift and harmony, must be anxious about how they can understand that young people are so reckless about dividing and harmonizing. As far as Xiaojuan is concerned, even if she has affection for Director Zhao, but her father's bones are still cold, I proposed to break up, no matter what, it seems that I am too ruthless and selfish, and I have lost my morality and responsibility. Therefore, whether I am fame or famous, cowardly or cowardly, even if the four of them are so awkwardly wronged now, they can only grit their teeth and bear the pain separately.

So when Xiaojuan asked me if I was really so relieved to let her stay alone in H City, I didn't answer her words immediately, but only said, "Xiaojuan, we are not alone now, your mother, my parents, are all responsibilities that we can't shirk." ”

Then, until I left H City, Xiaojuan did not mention anything about my whereabouts or stays. I'm just doing my duty as a family, and I can't and don't want to do more. So, you see, being gentle and hard-hearted, to put it bluntly, is just a love or not love.

Am I tired? Of course. I suddenly felt that these two months seemed to be the most tiring time in my thirty-six years of life, physically and mentally, and I was doing many things that I could not seem to have imagined in my previous cognition. But in the end, knowing that everything has changed, what is presented in front of you is still the same. This deep sense of powerlessness finally made me understand that in the face of reality, anyone is as small and pathetic as an ant.

So when I leaned on the sofa at Yue'er's house at the moment, closed my eyes and rubbed my temples, and felt her movement, I only tightened her shoulders and said weakly, "Don't move, let me hold quietly for a while." ”

Because, I'm so tired. It seems that only by taking her into her arms can you let your tired heart get a little relaxation and peace. It is only by Yue'er's side, in this small world where only I am with her, that I feel a little at home. It is this long-lost feeling of home that makes me go straight to the dust across thousands of miles. It was only when I heard her say thank you for the purple tulips I gave her that I opened my eyes.

I opened my eyes, lifted Yue'er's shoulders, looked at her suspiciously, and asked, "What flower?" I didn't send you flowers."

Then I saw Yue'er's smile on her face, as if she was in disbelief, stunned at the moment.

After a long time, she seemed to come back to her senses, and unconsciously muttered, "In the past few days, the tulips that have been delivered to the company every morning have not been sent by you?" ”

I smiled bitterly, "Yue'er, I'm sorry, I admit that I'm not romantic enough, but I still have to say that I'm too busy to take care of myself during this time, and this flower is indeed not from me." ”

"Huh?" Yue'er's eyes were full of suspicion and panic, "Who sent that?" After speaking, he looked at me innocently, "I didn't write my name, and it was purple, and the words on the card were the same, I really thought it was ...... from you."

I couldn't help but raise my eyebrows, "What's written on that?" ”

"This, this" Thinking that it was not from my mouth, Yue'er was a little embarrassed, blushing and lowering her head, "When you need me, I have always been in the closest place to your heart......" As if she was afraid that I would misunderstand, she hurriedly added, "Chen Ran, you have to believe me, I really don't know that you didn't send it." ”

I squinted slightly, pecked at the affectionate veins in those words, then smiled slightly, took her hand, and nodded, "Of course I believe you, Yue'er." After speaking, he sighed in self-defeat, "It seems that I have to work hard, my Yue'er is a treasure, and it is inevitable that some people will look at it."

Holding Yue'er's shoulders with both hands, I looked into her eyes, was silent for a long time, and finally asked, "Yue'er, did anything happen during my absence?" ”

"Huh?" Yue'er seemed to be stunned by my question, and it took a long time to come back to her senses, "No, no......" but her eyes were a little evasive.

"Really?" I was a little skeptical, Yue'er was not a person who was used to lying, but the trace of panic in her tone made my heart move.

"Well, not really" This time she didn't seem to hesitate, just looked at me and said surely.

sighed slightly in my heart, it's just that, maybe I'm too careful, Yue'er said that if there is no, then there should be none, she can't lie to me, why should she lie to me.

Thinking of this, I didn't bother anymore, and smiled at her, "That's good, you don't know, how nervous I was when I realized that there was a rival in love", patted her face as she spoke, and asked dotingly, "What are you going to do with the flowers sent over again?" ”

"Huh? I, I'm sure I threw it away......" Yue'er hurriedly grabbed Bai Dao, "Anyway, I'll just ignore it." ”

I laughed, "Thank you, Yue'er" and then stretched, "Now I can sleep peacefully." Seeing me like this, Yue'er also laughed, but I always felt that there was a little embarrassment and worry in that smile.

It was lying on the couch all night, and I was desperate for a good night's sleep, but I couldn't sleep for any reason. Maybe it was the unique intuition between lovers that made me somewhat reserved about Yue'er's denial, or maybe the anonymous flower giver finally became a thorn in my heart, in short, on the first night of traveling thousands of miles back to City C, I finally couldn't stand the silence of four o'clock in the morning after a few hours of tossing and turning, climbed up and walked to the balcony, habitually lit a cigarette, and relieved my irritable and depressed mood in the clouds.

The words on the card unconsciously appeared in my mind, "When you need me, I have always been in the closest place to your heart", silently read it a few times, this word sounds very familiar, remembering the scarf that Yue'er gave me during the Spring Festival, which is exactly the same as the tone on it, no wonder even Yue'er misunderstood that I sent flowers. Laughing at herself, it seems that girls like these sweet words, wasn't Yue'er also full of joy and moved before this? Hehe, if she likes it, of course I will tell her without hesitation, there is no need for another person to ghostwrite, right?

But who is this person who is one step ahead of me? I couldn't figure it out, it seemed that I knew Yue'er's taste quite well and knew what she liked. "When you need me, I've been in the closest place to your heart", the closest place, the closest place, I looked up suddenly, could it be Wang Hao?! He is Yue'er's direct leader, and he is in the Administration Department, isn't it the nearest place? What's more, he strongly recommended Yue'er at the beginning, and his good impression of her was obvious. Yes! It's definitely him! This kid, isn't it enough for Zhang Xiaoqi to come to fight Yue'er's idea! It's really unbearable! I snuffed out the cigarette butt and exhaled, looking like I was going to hit him sometime.

But suddenly I realized in great discouragement, how do I go about beating him? And in what position should I strike him? Of course, single men and women have the right and freedom to pursue love, but I am a married man who should always remind myself not to exceed the rules, even if I love Yue'er and she loves me!

Shaking his head with a wry smile, in the final analysis, it was all the fault of the marriage contract. And I used to find so many reasons for myself not to divorce, and now, of course, I can only watch other men covet their lovers, what can I do? I can't do anything! You deserve it, Chen Ran! Do it yourself!

There were already gray-blue shadows in the sky, and the morning stars in the east were like silver rhinestones dotted on the curtain, shining alone and enthusiastically, illuminating my restlessness. When I woke up early, I lost my sleepiness, and a new day was approaching, and I looked at the world that was gradually becoming clearer in front of me, and suddenly I had a sense of unreality that I didn't know where I was.

After breakfast, I went back to the community to pick up the car and asked Yue'er to wait for me to pick her up at the apartment to go to work together. Yue'er agreed very well, and her expression was the same as usual, but before I got in the car and left the gate of the community, I received a text message from her, "Chen Ran, I'll go first." We'll see you later. ”

I don't know what's going on, and I don't know what went wrong, but I feel that Yue'er's headless and brainless farewell is finally weird, thinking of yesterday's everything, my heart is even more upset, I didn't have time to think about it, so I turned around and went straight to the company.

Walking into the company, I caught a glimpse of the purple tulips in Yue'er's mouth at the front desk. The enchanting color and the mind that can't be hidden make people feel dazzling no matter how they look at it. I was not angry, and I was about to step forward to find a reason for Xiao Wu at the front desk to deal with this eye-catching bouquet, when I suddenly heard a familiar voice sound, "Mr. Chen, you are back!" ”

Looking back, it turned out to be Shen Dazhi and Yang Xi. To be honest, because the two of them were trying to get on a blind date before, it made me a little angry, but at this moment, I had to squeeze out a smile and say hello, and I had no choice but to dismiss the idea of disposing of the tulip.

Yang Xi didn't open any pot, "Mr. Chen, you see that the purple tulips on the front desk are beautiful, right?" "I think I have always felt that I am good-tempered, and Shen Dazhi is a person I can trust, and she is becoming more and more unrestrained and unrestrained in front of me.

Sweeping the bouquet of flowers, I smiled slightly, noncommittal.

"Shen Dazhi, take a look," seeing that I didn't deny it, Yang Xi pushed Shen Dazhi and said angrily, "Even Mr. Chen thinks it's beautiful, Tang Hai really has a heart for Yue'er, and you have a little bit of a wooden brain!" As he spoke, he sighed repeatedly.

"Yes, yes, you're right," Shen Dazhi smiled wryly, "Tang Hai also said thank you for giving her advice!" ”

"He's not bad at all," Yang Xi said proudly, "and when it's time to ask him to invite us to dinner!" I'm going to have a good meal for him! Hey, how many brain cells it cost me! ”

Because I knew their relationship, these two people did not shy away from flirting in front of me, but I was shocked when I heard it, and I couldn't help but squint my eyes and asked slowly,

"Who is Tang Hai?"