Li Yue'er

Due to filling the vacancy, I was able to eliminate the rotation of other employees and successfully settled in the administration department.

Although Wang Hao kept praising my penmanship, he still didn't dare to rashly ask me to take over the writing when I really started working. After all, a rookie who has just stepped out of school has no work experience, so no one dares to take too much risk to use it easily, so as not to make a mess for himself without paying attention, so I was doing some errands at first.

I don't think there's anything, I know that my qualifications are mediocre, I haven't been a top-notch person since I was a child, even if my writing is a little distinctive, my personality finally lacks that competitive energy, and I can get a job in Kairan to make a living, and I'm very grateful to fate for my favor, so I do my best to work.

The Administration Department coordinates internal and external affairs, and needs to deal with all kinds of people, etc., and after a long time, I feel that Wang Hao is indeed a sleek and clever master. Although he has just passed the year of establishment, he is the first batch of veterans of the company to enter Kairan, and many large and small matters inside and outside the department seem to be at his fingertips in his hands, and there is nothing that cannot be solved. Sometimes I watched him talk nonsense with his eyes open, lie with his eyes closed, and have no trace of it, and I have to sigh that God really created a man, and he can't learn this thing.

With a quiet personality like me, naturally he is not the same kind of person as Wang Hao, and he doesn't have a good impression of his eight-sided exquisiteness. But I also understand that human feelings are like this, not to mention being in a position like Kairan, to put it bluntly, this is also a job requirement, but I am not suitable for it.

However, most of the young people in the department are very friendly, and everyone is enthusiastic and tacit cooperation at work, so I quickly integrated into it.

Time flies like a white horse, and half a year has passed in such a busy and trivial day. I gradually got used to the rhythm of Kairan, and I shuttled through the traffic of the city from 9 to 5 every day, and my colleagues around me said that my aura began to have some traces of wind and frost.

During this period, I became a regular employee of Kairan with the first score in the probationary assessment, and finally got rid of the low-end labor of serving tea and pouring water to copy materials, and began to take over the company's secretarial work.

As Wang Hao said, there are very few writers in the administrative department, and now young people are good at playing together, and most of them are anxious when they peck the pen head, and Kairan is young after all, and the focus of early recruitment is mostly on sales, procurement and other business lines, and the background department of the administrative department is not interested, and the general threshold is set too low, resulting in a group of homogeneous personnel overcrowded, but the lack of ability to use the pen. In the department, except for Zhang Xiaoqi, who can still piece together a few words, the others can't squeeze out a few drops of ink even if they rack their brains. However, in the past few years, Kairan has developed rapidly, and its contacts with local governments, banks, and media have become increasingly close and frequent, and various reports, materials, and reports have come unexpectedly, which has greatly increased the workload of the administrative department. "Iron battalion and flowing soldiers", Wang Hao also had to drive ducks to the shelves, and undertook a large part of the secretarial work, not only to strain the mind to engage in management, but also to force brain cells to knock squares, Rao is three heads and six arms are also miserable, my appearance is tantamount to timely rain, greatly alleviating his urgent need, and after turning positive, he naturally took over the drafting of some simple materials.

As soon as I arrived at the company that day, Wang Hao called me into the office with a phone call and threw me a thick stack of materials, "Come on, Comrade Xiao Li, the time has come to test you." At the end of each year, our company has to hold a customer appreciation meeting, and the administrative department of the errand of making brochures cannot escape. Oh, this is the information of previous years, you can refer to it, you have to be in a hurry, can you give it to me this week? ”

I looked at the pile of various photo flyers in front of me, calculated that today is Tuesday, which means that I only have three days to rush to work, this kind of brochure is not big, small is not small, how is it also the face of the company, and it is also the first important material I took over, of course, I can't be sloppy, I thought about it a little and agreed.

"Okay, do it seriously, this booklet Guo always has a purpose. He used to be bad."

Wang Hao's words made my heart move, it turned out that there was still this joint in it, so I asked: "What are the main things that Mr. Guo is dissatisfied with?" ”

"Hey!" Wang Hao shook his head and said, "Who knows, our President Guo is unfathomable, and every time he says, 'Your Administration Department uses this kind of mass-produced thing to prevaricate me every year?' Can it be a little more distinctive? Asked him what characteristics he wanted to highlight, but he was scolded and said that he had to stay here for six years in vain, what are the characteristics and asked him, you know, what about me, it's okay to play tricks, this is a little bit of dance and ink for your literati, it's really embarrassing, I can't help it, only to pass on the pressure to the advertising company, for which I have changed several advertising companies, yes, little girl, you are a newcomer, thinking actively, unlike our brain, which has long been blackened by the big dye vat, without Wencai, think about the characteristics of Mr. Guo, Get a first draft."

Listening to Wang Hao's words, it is estimated that he is also a dead horse as a live horse doctor, after all, the brochure of this thank-you meeting is the icing on the cake, and if it is not done well, it will not be a bad thing, all interests in the business field are paramount, who cares if you make a small brochure colorful or unremarkable?

"Go, little girl, the challenge is coming, don't take it as a bad thing," he said and winked at me.

I immediately understood what he meant, and it was a surefire deal. It's badly written, anyway, there are unjust souls from previous years piled up there, and it's not bad for yourself. After writing, it is completely two days, in line with Mr. Guo's intentions, naturally he stands and stands firm in the administrative department, and the value is reflected, and he is no longer a little minion who sends some notices and notices, and he can write important materials.

Wang Hao is really better at talking with his mouth and eyes.

After receiving the task, I spent a whole day reading all the materials of previous years, and gradually understood what Mr. Guo meant. In fact, this kind of corporate brochure is common, just because the outside advertising company does not know much about Kairan, only to transfer flowers and trees, and to copy rigid sets, resulting in poor and rough content production, without characteristics, when Kairan was small in the past, it was just that, and I couldn't pay attention to it, and now it is a prince in the industry, such a face article is inevitably inferior, no wonder Mr. Guo is always dissatisfied.

In fact, as a fast-growing company like Kairan, the entrepreneur's contribution is beyond the imagination of ordinary people, so they also want to see their own destiny and the success of the enterprise link, if it is always limited to the company itself, such a propaganda article must not have soul flesh and blood, therefore, the key starting point is not Kairan, but its founder Guo Zong, the previous brochure is actually going in the wrong direction, of course, it will only go further and further.

According to this line of thinking, I have found all kinds of information about Mr. Guo over the years, from the special reports of the media to the style of his speech at internal meetings, all of which have been sorted out in detail, and finally the combination of pictures and texts has been used to set off Mr. Guo's life experience with the company's important time points, supplemented by narration, and finally formed a propaganda article with emotion.

I thought I was doing my best, so when Wang Hao got my first draft and was amazed, I was calmer.

"Okay, Xiao Li! It's impressive! Wang Hao praised my article, and didn't forget to hand a copy to Zhang Xiaoqi opposite: "Come on, Xiaoqi, look at this manuscript written by Xiao Li, the pen that published the article is indeed not on the same level as you and me, who were forced out of the house halfway, and it will take two or three days to reach this quality, amazing, this time Mr. Guo should be satisfied!" ”

I saw Zhang Xiaoqi's eyebrows raised slightly, and his face was a little cloudy, but after only a moment, he turned cloudy and showed a smile like a flower, and sat upright to take the manuscript handed by Wang Hao, "Is it?" Xiao Li is really amazing, then I have to read it carefully! She looked at Wang Hao and smiled and groaned, as if she was ignoring me.

Flipping through the manuscript casually, Zhang Xiaoqi seemed to have adjusted his state, and finally turned to me and sighed with great sincerity: "This brochure is really refreshing, and it is much more distinctive than those clichés in the past!" ”

"Right? I said that Xiao Li is sending charcoal to our department! Wang Hao's beautiful words were not stingy.

Zhang Xiaoqi cleared his throat and remained silent, "Yes, Lao Wang, at Xiao Li's level, I can finally retire with honor, don't arrest me again in the future, I want to report, we will have no face to see people if we make a fool of ourselves!" ”

"Sister Xiaoqi, don't say that, I'm new here, and I don't understand a lot of things, so I have to ask you for more advice!" I saw that Zhang Xiaoqi's words finally had a different taste, so I hurriedly excused myself.

"Xiao Li, don't be polite to me, to be honest, I really have to thank you, you don't know, it's really bitter for us who are not good at writing, before, there was no way, the department was in this situation, our manager Wang crushed people to death at the first level, and the leader arranged it, who would dare to disobey?" As he spoke, he glanced at Wang Hao.

"Hey, hey, hey, what are you talking about!" Wang Hao was indignant, "It's as if I'm giving you little shoes to wear, conscience of heaven and earth, when didn't I beg my father to tell my grandmother and ask the top students in our department to raise your noble hand to use the pen,"

Zhang Xiaoqi ignored him, took my words and said to me with a pleasant face, "Xiao Li, our department is short of writers, you have to play a good writing like yours, and the future is immeasurable!" Feel free to find me if you don't understand anything."

She was so kind and easy-going, and she was so cold and alienated from the previous one, which surprised me a little, and I also felt that I seemed to spend the belly of a gentleman with the heart of a villain, so I was embarrassed to say, "Sister Xiaoqi, thank you!" I'm going to learn from you well in the future."

Zhang Xiaoqi smiled gently, noncommittal, and patted the back of my hand in response.

"Okay!" Wang Hao smiled happily when he saw this, "The two Aiqing have their own strengths, just like the right-hand man of this king, it is really the blessing of this king, and it will all depend on you in the future!" After saying that, he stood up and pretended to wave at us.

Zhang Xiaoqi and I were amused by him, and the atmosphere was harmonious for a while. Just as the sun is shining in the clear sky outside, hiding the shadows of all people and things in the most silent and invisible corners, leaving only the illusion of brilliance all over the ground.

Chen Ran

After leaving Kai, I took a year off, on the one hand, because of Xiaojuan, after all, the plan she had in mind to create people had not yet succeeded; On the other hand, I also feel a little tired, and maybe I am a little helpless about reality. In fact, I have always been a more forbearant personality, I don't want to fight for anything, maybe the growth environment from childhood to adulthood has planted the gene in my body, but in some tossing and turning nights, it vaguely makes me have a sense of powerlessness to sink.

Xiaojuan's plan to create a man is still not improving, she is very anxious, and emotions gradually come out between her words. This made me very irritable, thinking that I should go for another physical examination, and if the man also had a reason, then I had to think carefully about how to treat it.

But as the saying goes, "the plan can't keep up with the change", and before I had time to go for an examination, the Health Bureau sent Xiaojuan to H City for two years of exchange with a piece of paper.

This made Xiaojuan extremely embarrassed, and finally looked forward to my return, and she had to face separation from the two places, but the leader also talked to her, which was paved by the bureau to promote her. In life, it is difficult to escape the four words of fame and fortune after all, and even a persistent person like Xiaojuan finally chose to accept it. I don't think I need to worry too much about the fact that my career delayed her plan to create a human being.

We all understand that since we have chosen to go to H City, the plan to create a man will have to be postponed for at least another three or five years. After all, two years later, there is a promotion cake painting there, and if you have a child, people will not leave the place vacant there and wait for you.

Sometimes I think about it, it's actually just like that for a lifetime. When you don't have it, you desperately want to have it, you have this and you can't bear to do that, you have it and you want more and better. Is there the most important thing in life, if not, then what is the so-called giving and gaining; If so, what is it, and how do we deal with it?

These thoughts began to haunt me and made me re-examine the path I had traveled, until one day Xiaojuan asked me to go to H City with him.

Xiaojuan came back quite late that night, and it was said that the unit was catering for her, and it was not lively to eat and sing. I can feel that Xiaojuan has been quite proud of the spring breeze recently, after all, going to H City to exchange is also a fat difference, plus the opportunity to be promoted, it is really envious of others, Xiaojuan and his party should be very drunk, and when they get home, they are full of fat powder, tobacco and alcohol, which makes people smell a little disgusted.

Xiaojuan drank a lot, her flushed face was drunk, and when she saw me reading at the bedside, she pulled it open and leaned over to me.

"Drink so much wine, rest early" Even after taking a shower, Xiao Juan still had a trace of alcohol lingering, and I frowned and persuaded.

Xiao Juan sat up with a bone, straightened my face and said, "Chen Ran, why don't you go to H City with me?" ”

I was a little surprised, I had been preparing for her departure, everything had been arranged, the tickets had been bought, and for some reason she had suddenly come up with the idea.

Seeing that I was silent, Xiao Juan continued: "I have been pecking during this time, and this opportunity to communicate and promote is indeed rare for me, but you know, I don't want to part with you. You see, now you have nothing to do anyway, it's better to go over with me and see what opportunities there are, if there is a suitable one, do it, it doesn't matter if there is no suitable one, anyway, I don't expect you to make much money, after all, now Kairan's dividends are enough for us to be well-off, and people are just not happy to part with you. Xiao Juan's voice was already coquettish, and there were tears in her eyes.

I took the cigarette case at the head of the bed, took out one and lit it, put my hand on Xiaojuan's shoulder and leaned next to me, slowly exhaling a puff of cigarette, "Why did you suddenly mention this?" ”

"It's not sudden, in fact, I've been thinking about it lately, but I just didn't open my mouth" Xiaojuan's eyes were red, "I wanted to conceive a child before, but it turned out that you would be gone for three years, and you men would run for careers, I understand this, after all, when you graduated, you also gave up your dreams for me to stay here, so you and Guo Kai went to engage in Kairan, although I was not happy, I decided to let you go." Now that you're back, I thought we could have a family of three, but my hope was still disappointed, you may say that since I want to have a child, why do I have to accept this opportunity from the unit" Xiaojuan buried her head and smiled bitterly, "If I can't conceive a child in the end, at least there is a job to give me some hope, isn't it?" ”

It's the first time Xiaojuan has mentioned this to me during this time, I understand the truth she said, and I can't bear it in my heart, so I rubbed her shoulder and said, "Don't talk nonsense, this matter of children depends on fate, and our fate just hasn't arrived yet."

"No, Chen Ran, listen to me, no one can say anything about this fate, right? What if I really don't have a fate with children in my life? I didn't think that way before, and I didn't want to think like that, but I've been a little disheartened in the past two years. Her voice gradually lowered, revealing a rare tiredness and helplessness.

Without waiting for me to answer, Xiao Juanfu sat up again and said, "So, I accepted this exchange, I am not young anymore, now the newcomers in the unit are all masters and doctors, undergraduates like us, they will also have an advantage in qualifications, in a few years, and those with high academic qualifications will also have qualifications, and people are still in their prime, we will have no advantage at all, high is not low, the child is not pregnant, and there is no chance for work development, I, I really don't know what state I will be in when I ...... then."

I couldn't help but sigh and extinguish the cigarette butt, "What are you doing with these unhappy people?" It's okay, I'll just accompany you. ”

Xiao Juan raised her head suddenly, thinking that she didn't expect me to agree so quickly, and grabbed my arm and said in surprise, "Really? Chen Ran, really? ”

"Hmm. Like you said, I don't go to work anyway, and idlers come and go freely. And we don't have to worry about food and clothing now, let Guo Kai's kid worry about making money, I'm all back, what else can't I put down? I smiled at her.

"Great, husband, you're so good to me!" Xiaojuan hugged me and burst into tears.

Breaking her hand around my neck, "It's just that we're all gone, and your parents are far away, who will take care of them in the past two years?" ”

Xiaojuan lowered her head and thought about it and said, "It's okay, my parents are not very old now, and their health is fine, not to mention that this is a good opportunity for me, they will definitely support it, besides, aren't your parents also here?" Both of their parents are in the local area, and they can take care of each other. ”

I looked at Xiaojuan's happy expression, her happiness and satisfaction were so clearly written on her face, this is Xiaojuan, she has lived happily since she was a child, rarely sorrowful, maybe in her thinking, most of the people around her are following her, her parents, me, and even my parents, except for the only time I went out to start a business was the only time I disobeyed her will, most of the time her wishes can become reality.

"Okay, let's go to my parents' place for dinner tomorrow, and by the way, tell them about it, and my parents, I still have to explain such and such things to them before leaving." I patted her on the shoulder, "It's not too early, let's rest first"

"Okay, thank you, husband," Xiaojuan couldn't help but exaggerate a kiss on my face, "You're so nice".

I smiled lightly, "I'll look at the ticket tomorrow, I guess I won't be able to book the same flight with you, after all, the time is a bit rushed." When the time comes, you go first, and I'll go over to accompany you after I've settled down everything at home. ”

Xiaojuan naturally had no objection, I turned my head and turned off the bedside lamp, she came up, wrapped her slender jade hand around my waist, looked at me with tenderness in her eyes, and the meaning inside couldn't be more obvious. I sighed and rolled over to crush her underneath.

It's just that I always seem to be a little distracted tonight, and at the moment of the outburst I was even a little glad that it was finally over.

Why is this happening?

The moon and stars outside the window are scarce, and the night breeze in early autumn blows the white gauze curtain next to the bed from time to time, as if the murmur of people is continuous, which makes my absent-mindedness at the moment even more uncertain, but the autumn is as cool as water, and this wisp of inexplicable mood is finally hidden into the end of this lonely night.