Chen Ran

Today, I am a little restless, perhaps the winter in the south is gloomy all day long, and the hearts of people who have not seen the sun for a long time will be stuffy as if they have been covered with folds and ravines, deep and shallow like a maze with no direction.

This anxiety seemed to reach its climax in the evening, and when I cut the fruit, I actually scratched my hand, and the red blood quickly spread out of the wound, like a wounded flower that suddenly opened, but it was in the wrong place, and I stared at it for a long time, before I remembered that it seemed that it should be cleaned up first.

When I put on the Band-Aid, I had no interest in making juice, so I picked up the apple on the board and bit it in half, and there seemed to be a little bit of blood between my lips and teeth, and I wandered like an invisible snake spitting letters, and it wrapped around my body for a while, making people struggle more and more unable to move, and finally gave up in vain.

A crescent moon on the horizon timidly showed its head, and it looked obscure in the cold mist like the sinking sand. I remembered that on the last day of the New Year's holiday, on the way to the airport, we talked about the consulting company again.

"Chen Ran, have you considered the matter of the consulting company?" Xiao Juan looked out the window at the rows of high-rise buildings and suddenly asked.

"Huh?" I was stunned for a moment, she almost forgot about me if she didn't mention it, and thought for a while, "It's better to take on the new project, how big the belly is and how big the meal is, not to mention that I'm not in front of the owner, don't make it impossible to eat and walk around." After a pause, he continued, "As for the one you mentioned last time, you can consider it, if all aspects are suitable. Go back and get in touch with that director, and find out more about his intentions and conditions. ”

Xiaojuan bit her lip, "Well, okay, I'll ask him out to talk then." It's been so long, and I don't know if people still have this idea. ”

"It's okay, we don't have to sell. Let's meet and talk about it first. ”

Xiaojuan nodded and stopped talking, and the carriage fell into silence again.

For some reason, Xiaojuan's return trip was far less happy than the previous arrival in C City, and the short reunion was fleeting, making the upcoming separation even more sad and unbearable.

But the time has come, and we will have to go our separate ways.

Leaning on the sofa in the apartment at this moment, the glass window of the balcony covered a thin layer of frost in the temperature difference between the inside and outside, as bleak as the moon on the horizon, and the embroidery river meandered, but there was only a hazy shadow, twisting and squirming into the distance. There was silence all around, and there was an unaware exhaustion that made people awake in the drowsiness, as if waiting for an unpredictable trace, and their hearts were anxious.

The phone rang at this time, I picked it up and looked at it, an unfamiliar string of numbers, hesitated to press the answer button, and an anxious female voice came from the earpiece: "Hello, is it Mr. Chen?" I'm Xiao Wu at the front desk of Kairan, and just now the ** hospital called and said that Manager Wang and Li Yueer from our administration department were sent to the hospital in a car accident, so let's send someone to the hospital. ”

"What did you say?" I suddenly got up and reconfirmed the phone as if in disbelief, "Wang Hao and Li Yue'er had a car accident?!" ”

"Well, yes, the hospital called the company just now, and no one answered it too late, and then transferred to me, saying that Manager Wang and Li Yue'er crashed on the way back to the city from the industrial park, and they were just sent to the hospital at this time......"

"And how are they now?!"

"The hospital said that Li Yue'er was fine, but Manager Wang was seriously injured. I don't know the specific situation, so I want to report to you and Mr. Guo as soon as possible. ”

"Okay, I know, you immediately notify the other senior executives of the company now, so that they can quickly rush to the ** hospital."

"Good, good".

As soon as he hung up the phone, Guo Kai's phone called, "Chen Ran, why is your phone always busy?!" Something happened, Wang Hao and they were in the hospital in a car accident, you hurry up to the ** hospital to see, I will go back to C City the day after tomorrow, and then I will go over to see them. ”

"Lao Guo, I know, Xiao Wu at the front desk was talking to me on the phone just now. I've asked her to inform the other higher-ups, and I'll be right there. ”

"Okay, you can call me when they are there! I've been waiting for as many nights as possible! ”

I promised to hang up, and the man had already arrived at the door. I can't describe the mood at this moment, as if the undercurrent was stirring around in my body like a tide for a whole day, and at this moment finally broke through the barrier, pouring out like a flood, making people's limbs cold. I haven't felt like this for a long time, as if the lost thing has left me again, even if I know that Li Yue'er is fine, my heart is like being tightly clamped by a big hand, desperately squeezing the blood droplets.

That dream suddenly appeared in front of my eyes again, and now I seemed to be as if I was in a dream, unable to grasp, unable to shout, unable to beg, as before, the heartache of the past came rushing over me, swallowing up all my reason and self-control during the day.

My hands trembled a little, and I flipped out her phone, at this moment I don't care about my boss and subordinates, I don't care about marital self-discipline, I don't care if she is awake or asleep, I want to hear her voice, I must hear her voice, otherwise I will suffocate to death.

As soon as the phone rang, I called her name as a matter of course, as if I had always called her like this, without the slightest hesitation or hindrance. When disaster comes, in the face of life and death, what is a title?

I want to make sure she's safe, and that's my biggest concern right now.

I put on my coat, picked up the keys, closed the door, and never before, in the thirty seconds of talking to her, in one go, when my car drove onto the road, it was only ten minutes before I received a call from Xiao Wu.

On the way, I called Shen Dazhi, Wang Hao was injured, and the rest of the administrative department couldn't support the situation.

My car was a little drifty tonight, it's not like I haven't encountered such a sudden situation, but in the past, even if I was flustered, I could quickly calm down and deal with it calmly, but today I clearly feel powerless. The wheels roared hoarsely on the asphalt, like a trapped beast desperately trying to break free from the locked iron cage, my heart shrank and ached, and in the cold neon of the winter night, a frightened picture was conjured, which made people's backs chill.

If, today's car accident is another ending, if, in case, Li Yue'er is seriously injured, or even ......, what should I do, "The upper and poorer blue fall into the Yellow Spring, and the two places are gone", these two lines of poetry popped up in my mind for no reason, and I already felt that it was unlucky, and those two words were unspeakable after all.

What am I going to do? Heh, when did Li Yue'er reach such a point for me?

This sudden accident finally made me re-examine my heart, people say that they only know how to cherish when they lose, but I want to say, you don't know when you will lose to make people's hearts twist!

But does Li Yue'er belong to me? No, I never had her at all! This realization pains me and makes me sad, if she was never mine, who am I to talk about her loss or not?!

No, I can't go on like this, I can't lie to myself, I deliberately hide my emotions, deliberately pretend to be a serious leader in front of her, but it's all to cover up my weakness and cowardice, because I have always stood on a moral high ground to criticize myself, and I never think that the people around us are actually facing disasters and even death directly and without warning every day.

Is there the most important thing in life? This question, which has been haunting me for a long time before I returned to Kairan, is suddenly clear in front of me at this moment, the most important thing in life is not profit and affection, but it can also be profit and affection, it can be anything in the world, but it is not anything in the world, the most important thing in life is precisely life itself.

The reincarnation of the red dust of the vested human body, what is in the red dust, together with the red dust itself, should be born, this is life, this is the most important experience.

And to bear, it is destined to be impossible to compare, and it is not only as narrow as giving and receiving, it is all your present, your life is like this, right there, it will not increase a point because you pay more, nor will it be reduced by a single point because you get less. In the final analysis, everyone's life is essentially irrelevant to others, just as we come and leave this world, we are all stranded and unattached.

If this is the case, why do I need to understand all my feelings for Li Yueer, including those dreams, those repeated heartaches and hesitations? Because it is clearly there, where the heart desires, will not be erased, this is my present, this is my commitment, this is what my life looks like.

Suddenly remembered the signature in the empty temple, as well as the words of the old monk, the vicissitudes of the sea finally fell silent, but the vicissitudes of the sea had been turbulent, and the galloping was just the will of people. "If you come, you will be safe, and if you go, you will let it go," since you come, you can face it calmly and bear it.

"If you come, you will be safe, and if you come, you will be safe", I repeated these five words, and suddenly felt that the road ahead seemed to be illuminated by countless torches, as if a starry avenue was carved out in the reckless night haze, and my car also grasped every inch of land under my feet like an iron claw, and there was no confusion at all, and I galloped away.

I came to the hospital with everyone, Yue'er was really fine, Wang Hao was more serious, but in the end, there was no worse result, which is a blessing in misfortune. At this time, I no longer wanted to hide my concern for Yue'er, and personally opened food and drinks for her, but I didn't have time to comfort her in the presence of everyone, and only told her to recuperate. I saw Yue'er's red eyes a few times, and I understood that for a girl who had not been involved in the world, this unexpected car accident had greatly exceeded her imagination, and the feeling of the rest of her life after the catastrophe was something that no one else could fully experience, but even so, when I asked if I wanted to tell her family, she still chose to hide it, just to not let her elderly father worry. She is so forbearant and sensible, like a wild chrysanthemum on a cliff, proud of the frost open, even if it is a single branch, it is heaven and earth.

But I want her to understand that under this misty time and space, no matter what danger she encounters today, no matter what storms she will have in the future, she is not alone.

Yue'er, thank you for coming back safely, fortunately you are fine, even if I still call you "Xiao Li" at this moment to save you from being troubled, even if I can give you maybe you can't bear it, even if I can only silently guard you by your side like this.

So, what do you know or don't know, it doesn't matter, I just have to take it, just deliver it with my sincerity and way, and then carry out and complete my life.

Of course, I am extremely glad that there are you in this life.

Then I received a reply from her - "Mr. Chen, I am very fortunate to see you again." ”

That's enough, that's enough.