Chapter 192: Empathy
"No, it......'s not," Zhao Bin said hurriedly, and only after a pause did he speak again, "It's just that Brother Lu was drunk in the bar, and I only found out when the people from the bar called me." I thought something unpleasant happened to you over there, that's why Brother Lu ......"
"How is Brother Lu now?" Bai asked after steasing his mind.
"I've already brought him to the office, because Brother Lu has never been so indulgent in drinking, I thought something was happening, so I called you to ask you." Zhao Bin explained.
Bai Bai answered and replied: "Brother Lu was fine when we came, maybe he just drank to relax, but he didn't expect to drink too much." ”
"You're right, maybe I'm overthinking." Zhao Bin smiled and said slightly apologetically: "I'm sorry during the day, didn't I disturb your sleep." ”
"It's fine."
"Then I'll hang up first, Brother Lu is still drunk here." After speaking, Zhao Bin hung up the phone.
During the day, he put the mobile phone back on the bedside table, looked at Ling Ye on the side and sighed: "Zhao Bin said that Brother Lu drank too much, call to ask about the situation." ”
"Well, it's okay to go to bed early." Ling Ye nodded faintly, and the two of them lay down and hugged each other to sleep again, but in the darkness that they couldn't see during the day, Ling Ye's deep eyes flashed a deep light.
slept peacefully during the day and night, and Zhao Bin, who was in the office, struggled to help Zhang Lupan who collapsed on the sofa up, took off his clothes stained with alcohol for him, gritted his teeth and helped him into the bedroom.
Seeing Zhang Lupan's mud, Zhao Bin took a breath and went to the bathroom to bring out a basin of hot water, and patiently wiped Zhang Lupan's cheeks and body with a towel.
After doing all this, Zhao Bin couldn't help but sweat profusely, and after a simple shower in the bathroom, he found a pair of Zhang Lupan's pajamas to wear on his body.
Standing on the side of the bed, looking at the frowning brows on Zhang Lupan's handsome face, he couldn't help but reach out to smooth out the folds in the center of his eyebrows.
"Brother Lu......" Zhao Bin muttered, but Zhang Lupan was intoxicated and did not react, Zhao Bin sighed helplessly, walked outside and came in with a glass of warm water.
sat down on the edge of the bed, reached out and patted Zhang Lupan's shoulder, and whispered in Zhang Lupan's ear: "Brother Lu, wake up and drink some water." ”
Zhang Lupan obviously had something on his mind, but during the day, he said that he was fine, which made Zhao Bin a little confused.
"Brother Lu......" Zhao Bin couldn't help but increase his tone, maybe this time his voice was heard by Zhang Lupan, Zhao Bin saw that the expression on Zhang Lupan's sleeping face loosened for a moment, and then saw Zhang Lupan's lips open lightly, and said with drunkenness: "...... during the day"
Zhang Lupan's voice was very light and light, and the words fell on Zhao Bin's ears a little ethereal, Zhao Bin thought that he didn't hear clearly, and couldn't help but ask again: "Brother Lu, what did you say?" ”
"Daytime ......" This time, Zhao Bin heard these two words truthfully, and immediately stared at him with wide eyes and stunned as if he had been struck by lightning.
Zhao Bin froze in place, a delicate and lovely face suffered from the pale numbness of a thunderbolt on a sunny day, the whole person seemed to be in a cold pool, freezing his entire body, but the dull pain from his heart still hit his internal organs, limbs and bones.
Zhao Bin looked at Zhang Lupan's still sleeping face half stunned, tears were hot and cold in his eyes for a long time, Zhao Bin blinked his eyes unconsciously, and let the cold liquid slide down his cheeks.
"Brother Lu...... Why do you want to do this to me......" Zhao Bin cried, his body slid down the edge of the bed and sat on the ground, his expression and voice were like a dazed and pitiful child who couldn't find a home, "Why...... You're going to like somebody else......"
Zhao Bin hugged his knees and cried for a long time sadly, his eyes were red and tearful, like a needle prick, like a knife, it was difficult to resist half the pain in his heart.
How so? So that's it?
"Brother Lu, why do you like daytime, aren't you also a man during the day. Brother Lu, if you can like men, why can't you like me? Zhao Bin didn't know who these words were for, so he muttered out of his mouth anyway.
When his crying voice was hoarse and his chest was out of breath, Zhao Bin finally restrained himself from crying, and sat on the ground in a daze for a long time, and his numb and blank brain finally returned.
Thinking that Zhang Lupan actually liked the day in his heart, Zhao Bin was heartbroken and thought about whether he also liked Zhang Lupan during the day, if he also liked Zhang Lupan during the day, then there was really nothing to do with him.
Zhao Bin thought painfully, but thinking of his previous call with Bai Bai, Bai obviously didn't know that Zhang Lupan liked him, otherwise it would be impossible for him not to show a trace of emotion during the day.
So, Brother Lu is just having a crush on the day now, and he hasn't confessed to the day?
Thinking that Zhao Bin lowered his eyes gloomily, even if Zhang Lupan had not confessed to Bai Bai, it was difficult to guarantee that he would agree once he confessed during the day.
For a while, Zhao Bin's heart was upset, and he didn't know what to do.
When dawn was approaching, Zhang Lupan finally woke up from his hangover, and he had a splitting headache against his forehead for a long time, and then he sat up with his body.
Seeing that this was the bedroom of his office, Zhang Lupan was thinking about last night, and out of the corner of his eye, he saw Zhao Bin who was sitting on the ground and falling asleep against the corner of the table.
In this way, there is no need to guess Zhang Lupan to know that Zhao Bin must have brought him back from the bar last night, looking at Zhao Bin's somewhat puffy eyes and half-dry tear stains on his face, while his heart was slightly tingling, a feeling of pity arose.
Turned over and got out of bed, looked at his body wearing only underwear, grabbed a nightgown and put it on, then bent over and picked up Zhao Bin horizontally and carefully put it on the bed.
Zhao Bin seemed to be very tired, and let Zhang Lupan carry him to bed without waking up, and after settling Zhao Bin, Zhang Lupan walked out.
I opened the window of the office outside, and by the faint light of dawn, I leaned against the window and smoked cigarettes one after another, blowing the cold wind of the morning light.
If he didn't understand Zhao Bin's feelings before, then he understands now.
If he didn't understand the definition of daylight in his mind, he now did.
But it all seemed too late!
Day and night are heart-to-heart, you and I want to, in this case, all he can do is bury this feeling deep in his heart.
As long as the day is well, he is willing to give sincere blessings.
This kind of consciousness was only after the sun was completely poured down and the entire ashtray was filled with cigarette butts, and Zhang Lupan really made up his mind.
When Zhao Bin woke up, the sun outside had already risen in mid-sky, looking at himself lying on the bed, but the person who should have slept on the bed was gone, Zhao Bin didn't know what it was like.
Pushing open the bedroom door and walking out, I saw at a glance that the handsome and calm man was already sitting at the desk in a suit and leather shoes, busy with things.
Seeing Zhao Bin come out, Zhang Lupan rarely showed a smile to him, "Wake up." Chen Feng bought breakfast just now, you can go eat some over there. ”
Zhang Lupan used the bar to signal the coffee table over there, Zhao Bin looked at the obscure lowered his eyes, and whispered: "Brother Lu......"
"What's wrong?" Zhang Lupan put down the file in his hand, looked directly at Zhao Bin and asked.
Zhao Bin was a little surprised by Zhang Lupan's change in attitude towards him, obviously he had always avoided him before, how could he be so kind and pleasant as he is now.
"Brother Lu, what's wrong with you?" Zhao Bin looked up at Zhang Lupan and asked cautiously, he always felt that the person who was stimulated last night was not him, but Zhang Lupan.
As soon as Zhao Bin said this, the smile on Zhang Lupan's face faded a little, Zhao Bin couldn't help clenching his fingers nervously, but heard Zhang Lupan sigh and said: "I didn't do well to you like that before." Zhao Bin, Brother Lu is sorry to tell you. ”
"......" Zhao Bin was dumbfounded, not knowing why Zhang Lupan said this.
Zhang Lupan stared at Zhao Bin's expression full of apprehension, and said with some sadness: "I can't help but say a lot of excessive things because I can't accept your feelings for me, now that I think about it, you really didn't do anything wrong, but I was too mean." ”
"Brother Lu, it's not like this, I didn't think so......"
"I know you don't blame me, I'm just ......" It was only after empathizing with him that I understood Zhao Bin's feelings, "Although I can't respond to your feelings, in my heart you are still the same, my favorite brother." ”
"Brother Lu......" No matter why Zhang Lupan said this, Zhao Bin couldn't hold back the choking in his throat, and a feeling of gratitude rose in his heart, "Thank you......"
Thank you for no longer avoiding me like a femme fatale, even if you don't like me, at least you can face me as a person and my feelings......
"Alright, let's go to breakfast, I have a case to talk to you about in a moment." Zhang Lupan smiled and waved his hand to send Zhao Bin to breakfast.
Zhao Bin looked at Zhang Lupan blankly for a long time, and under Zhang Lupan's puzzled gaze, he smiled shyly and said softly: "It's ......."
When sitting at the coffee table for breakfast, Zhao Bin peeked at Zhang Lupan from time to time, thinking of Zhang Lupan's special attitude towards him today, Zhao Bin couldn't help but think about it a few times in his heart.
Why did Brother Lu suddenly change his attitude towards him and say these things to him?
Zhao Bin thought about it, and suddenly thought of a possibility, could it be that he accepted Zhang Lupan's confession during the day, so Zhang Lupan was in a happy mood and forgave him?
Thinking of this, Zhao Bin was not calm, and he couldn't swallow the sweet meat buns he ate in his hands anymore, and it took a long time before he said tentatively with a dry throat: "Brother Lu, have you contacted the day in the morning?" ”
Zhang Lupan's movements on his hand paused, but he didn't look back, just looked at the file in his hand and said lightly: "No, what are you doing here?" ”
"It's okay, I'm thinking of playing during the day, so I'll ask."
Zhang Lupan didn't see the complicated look on Zhao Bin's face, he was silent for a while before he spoke: "Ling Ye is back, he should be with Ling Ye during the day, nothing important...... Don't bother them......"
"Oh......" Zhao Bin replied sullenly, but found that the expression on Zhang Lupan's pale face became more and more incomprehensible.