Chapter 4 Dreaming of the Past
"The rain seems to have stopped." He stared out the window, picked up the wine glass on the table, and drank it down. He took out a piece of broken silver from his bosom, placed it on the table, and then walked out of the inn.
Xiao Er stepped forward to greet him, and said with a smile: "Qin Gongzi walks slowly." The "Qin Gongzi" mentioned in Xiao Er's mouth is a frequent visitor to this inn, and he often comes every now and then, always a pot of wine and a piece of broken silver, which has never changed. He's a strange guy and a man with a story.
"Hyojia...... Hyojia ...... Why do you want to leave me alone......" He had just walked out of the door when he heard a dreamy voice. He subconsciously looked around, and saw a girl sitting on the steps, her head buried in the crook of her arm, and the clothes she was wearing were already soaked. He walked up to her, crouched down, and pushed her, but she collapsed limply in his arms.
He was shocked, this ...... As the saying goes, men and women don't kiss. Now he is so close to a strange woman. Although he is a martial arts practitioner, he should always know these things. In a moment's panic, he retreated, and the girl fell to the ground stiffly, and her mouth kept muttering: "Xiaojia......"
"Girl, girl, wake up!" He pushed her again, but he couldn't wake up no matter how he pushed, he frowned, it didn't seem that it was as simple as falling asleep. The girl was pale and soaked...... He stretched out his left hand, palm on her forehead, a little hot. It's not good, it's a cold.
He immediately picked her up and ran into the distance, but what are you thinking about in your heart?
Mo
My name is Mo Yan, and I grew up in an orphanage with my mother. Although I was born in an orphanage, I am not an orphan because I have a mother.
I heard from the dean that the day I first met your mother was a rainy night with lightning and thunder. She came to me alone with a big belly and a suitcase. At first, I didn't agree to take in your mother and daughter, but the moment she knelt down, I completely relented and agreed to let you stay and let your mother be a teacher in the orphanage. Ah Yan, when you grow up in the future, you must honor your mother well. It's not easy for your mother......
When I was a child, I don't know how many people said I was a wild child, and I can't count them. They said my mother was a third party and I was a wild seed.
Whenever this happens, I look at them with wide eyes and insist on asking them to apologize. If the other party was just a child, whether it was a boy or a girl, I would pounce on them and unceremoniously punch them in the face with a small fist until they said sorry. If the other party is an adult, I will not be outdone, and I will take a hard bite.
It became a common occurrence for adults to come to my mother. My mother would lock me in my room for a day or two. She asked me, do you know if you are wrong? Ever since I was a child, I have been stubborn. I bit my lip and looked at her without saying a word. She always said, Yan'er, why are you so like me? Even if it's not like me at all...... Yan'er, are you hungry? Mom cooks something for you to eat.
If God gives everyone a gift, then my gift is music. As I grew older, my love for music became even more uncontrollable. I am also recognized as the golden voice of the orphanage. Can it be ...... My mother wouldn't let me learn music, I wasn't allowed to sing, I wasn't allowed to listen to songs, I wasn't allowed to touch anything about music. For this reason, I also had a lot of fights with my mother. Until later...... I realized that she didn't want me to be like her.
When I first met him, it was a bright sunny day.
He sat alone by the window, quietly looking out the window.
I walked up to him and handed him the menu, "Sir, what do you want to order?" He turned his head, his black pupils reflecting my figure, and his lips moved slightly: "A glass of Cappuccino"
I was stunned for a moment, "Is there any problem?" I then reacted and shook my head, "No." Please wait a minute, sir. "I walked away with the menu, my heart was pounding, what was wrong with me? It's not that I haven't seen a handsome guy here, why is my heart beating so fast when I see this person today?
I turned around again and looked at him secretly, he was wearing a white shirt with a slightly open neckline, revealing delicate collarbones, fair skin, and slender eyebrows. No matter how you look at it, he looks like a beautiful man in that kind of costume drama. Fluttering in white, walking the end of the world.
For weeks on end, he would come here, ordering a Cappuccino and the occasional refreshment. Strangely, he always only asked me to order, and never asked the other waiters to order.
"Girl. That handsome guy probably likes you. β
"Manager, what are you kidding. How could he possibly like me? β
"Haha, Mo Yan is shy? I'm very open-minded, manager, and it's normal for students to fall in love nowadays. Haha, I think he's good. β
Looking at the empty seat by the window, he didn't come today. An inexplicable sense of loss came to my heart, and I thought back to what the manager said, did I really like him?
"Yan'er, you have to remember what your mother said. Never fall in love with a man easily, because in the face of love and power, they will always surrender to power. β
Mom's words echoed in my ears again...... Did my biological father also choose rights and abandon our mother and daughter? I hate him, I hate all the men in the world who play with their feelings. But why have you become so ruthless?
He never came here again, and as my studies got busy, I left the cafΓ©.
"Today, a transfer student has transferred to our class, everyone applauds and welcomes." After the head teacher finished speaking, the students around him began to whisper, discussing what this transfer student would be like.
I listened to the music in my headphones. The sound of "a cup of Cappuccino" ...... It's him? The MP3 in his hand fell to the ground, turned his head sideways, and stared at him. Time seemed to stand still, and his eyes reflected my figure, like returning to that clear sunny day.
"Your MP3." He picked up the MP3 that had fallen to the ground and handed it to me.
"Ah, oh, thank you." I hurriedly took it and nodded in thanks.
"Guo Xiaojia, what do you call it?" He stretched out his hand, I was stunned, and Mu Ne stretched out his hand and replied to him: "Mo Yan." β
"Mo Yan?" He raised the corners of his mouth and chuckled, "Hehe, please advise." His smile is faint, but unforgettable.
His habits have not changed, he still likes to sit in the window seat, and the noise in the classroom seems to have nothing to do with him, and he always looks indifferent.
"Ah Yan, do you know this handsome guy? Wow, introduce him to me, okay?"
"That's right, Ah Yan, how did you know such a handsome guy? ......" The classmates' questions came one after another, and just when I couldn't resist it, the head teacher finally spoke, "Quiet! Let's start the lesson......"
I turned my head again, looked at him, and muttered, "Guo Xiaojia? β
As everyone knows, I already have this name in my heart......
I thought that as long as love was still there, there was nothing to be afraid of in a long-distance relationship. But I realized that I was wrong, how outrageous and ridiculous I was.
That year, I experienced the pain of separation. Whether it's the difference between life and death, or the difference between life and life, I am almost on the verge of collapse, and I don't even know how I survived.
"Well...... I have to go. Xiaojia hugged me tightly in her arms, and I never cried easily, and I couldn't help but burst into tears. Xiaojia stretched out her hand and wiped away the tears for me, "Silly girl, what are you crying about, it's not like you'll never see it again." β
"But...... How long will it take for you to come back? β
"There is such a big thing in the company, and my parents need me to go back and help...... This is ......" Xiaojia frowned, I looked up at him, I knew what he wanted to say, and said with a smile, "Okay." It's a big deal that I'll work hard and get into Shangnan next year. β
Xiaojia touched my head and smiled lightly, "Then you have to come on." The universities in Shangnan City are not so easy to get into. β
"Hee-hee, for your sake, I have to do my best! I don't want someone to take away my boyfriend. β
"Young master, it's time." The butler beside Xiaojia reminded.
"Yes. We'll see you again. Xiaojia kissed me softly on the lips, hugged me again, waved her hand, and walked with the butler to the security checkpoint.
I was reluctant to watch him leave, and it wasn't until he was gone for a long time that I came back to my senses. Actually, I don't know when I fell in love with him, maybe it was that bright sunny day, the boy in the white shirt, who had occupied my whole heart, but I was also heartbroken because of him.
Mom, are you okay in heaven? Yan'er misses you so much, why do you leave me alone in the world?
Now I am truly an orphan without a father or mother.
It's so tiring to be alone...... Tired...... Why, a merciless car accident is going to take you away? You are the kindest mother in the world, you raised me with hard work, but I haven't repaid you yet, why did you leave? Don't you say anything?
On the day I got my acceptance letter, my mom got into a car accident and was gone. How can I deal with this mixture of joy and sorrow? She was gone, and I lay on her bedside, crying for a day and a night. Since I was born, I didn't have a father, and I confessed that I had never had that heartless father. Mom, it was you who made me understand family affection, even if we don't have a father, we have a complete family. It took me a long time to get out of the haze, because I believe that my mother wants to see me happy, and I want to go on with my life.
While sorting through my mother's belongings, I stumbled upon a diary she had written, as well as her passbook. When I was a child, I wanted to know about her past, but she didn't say a word. It took me days and nights to finally read all the diaries.
Eighteen years ago, my mother was a popular singer and became popular in the entire music scene. But his mother fell in love with him, even if he had a family, his mother loved him without hesitation, and was even willing to fade out of the music scene for him.
But he deeply broke my mother's heart, if he chose his mother, he would have lost his family and the company he had worked so hard to run. He said, since I single-handedly made you popular, then leave me, such a reward is not too much. Mom's heart was completely cold, she gave him a slap, red eyes, and left him.
My mother conceived me, came to the orphanage, gave birth to me, and named me Mo Yan. Mo Yan, don't say it again, do you? Mom, your infatuation has made you suffer after all. But this infatuation, does he understand? Even hurt you! Mom, I must fulfill my long-cherished wish for you, I want to recognize him and let him know that you have worked hard for so many years.
I finally understood what my mother said. She didn't want me to sing, because she was afraid that I would be like her, into the bottomless music scene. She didn't want me to fall in love with someone easily, and that was because she was afraid that I would be hurt by her back then.
Now that I think about it, how much better am I than her? Is it a mistake to fall in love with someone you shouldn't love?
With short burgundy hair, a pale pink slanted shoulder skirt, the white shoulders are undoubtedly exposed, the ruffles are used as a modification of the skirt, which is a little more cute, and she wears a pair of black * knot heels.
I took the wine glass and tasted it slowly, and from time to time someone looked at me. I raised the corners of my mouth proudly, Guo Xiaojia, you couldn't have imagined that I would come, right? What's even more ridiculous is that your betrothed partner turned out to be my half-sister.
"You come with me." I was still drinking, and suddenly someone pulled me away, and the wine glass was thrown to the ground. Suddenly, it attracted the side eyes of many people.
"It hurts, let me go!" My hand ached, and after a few moments, he pulled me to the garden and finally let go.
He looked at me and said in a questioning tone, "Why are you here?" β
I sneered, "Why, can't I come?" You're betrothed to my half-sister, and my sister is here for your engagement, isn't it? β
"Xiaojia, why are you here?" A gentle female voice rang out, yes, this beautiful woman was my half-sister, the fiancΓ©e of the man I loved so much.
She also saw me, and smiled, how happy she was, "My sister is here too?" β
"Sister? When will your dad be willing to admit me as a daughter? I can't afford your sister. "I never imagined that I would say such cold words.
She looked at me with pitiful eyes, "How can my sister say that, you have always been Daddy's daughter." β
"Really? If he really regarded me as a daughter, why didn't he go to see my mother, and why didn't he admit me! "My eyes are moist again, I have no family affection, no love, how happy you are as a woman, how do you know the pain in my heart.
His right hand was waving towards her face, but he was grabbed tightly by a pair of hands, and Guo Xiaojia shouted at me, "Is it enough? Have you had enough of this crazy woman? If you make any more trouble, don't blame me for being unkind. Security guard! β
This is the first time he has lost his temper with me, I was stunned, is this really still my beloved Guo Xiaojia? I held back, trying not to let the tears fall, and I asked him, "Xiaojia, I'll ask again, do you really not love me?" Do you always insist on getting engaged to her? β
I still have a glimmer of hope, but he has ruthlessly trampled on it, and he will not even leave me with the last glimmer of hope. "How many times do you have to say it before you woman comes to her senses? I really don't love you, I love her. He kissed her on the lips in front of me. I stepped back step by step, tears fell drop by drop, and I finally made the same mistake as my mother.
"Why...... Don't love me anymore...... Guo Xiaojia, why are you so ruthless...... "I was walking on the street in despair, walking aimlessly, there was darkness in front of me, and I couldn't walk no matter how I walked......