Li Yue'er

"Child, it's not easy, you actually survived this thousand years, you are the only one I have ever seen who has withstood this catastrophe, you have suffered, wake up, child, wake up, may you find him as soon as possible, he is waiting for you, he is waiting for you......"

I opened my eyes suddenly.

It's the same dream, it's the same sound, and lately I've been waking up from such strange dreams, tears rippling on my cheeks, and my body and mind exhausted as if I had gone through a catastrophe.

The voice in the dream, low and distant, echoed in bursts of time, as if a kind old woman was whispering in my ear, but I could see nothing with all my might.

Who am I going to? Who is waiting for me? The voice in the dream was so clear and distinct that it lingered in my mind for a long time.

Is it really just a dream? But why do I burst into tears every time? Even in my dreams, my heart is so sad, as if I am dripping with a handful of ice slag that has been repeatedly grinded, and it has long melted and disappeared.

Outside the window, the sun was clear, the birds were chirping in the air, and the slightest breeze was blowing, neutralizing the dampness and depression of the summer heat, and my mind gradually turned around.

took a deep breath and patted his cheek, "Wake up, Li Yue'er, today is the day to report to Kairan, from now on, you will be a social person, cheer up!" ”

As for the inexplicable dream, "Forget it, let it be, it's just a dream".

I secretly cheered myself on in the bottom of my heart, rolled over and got out of bed, packed up and prepared to go out.

I am a senior graduate of Yanbei Institute of Technology majoring in administrative management, as an ordinary student of an ordinary university major, when applying for a job, I faced a number of master's and doctoral degrees from famous universities, except for a few transcripts of cultural courses that I could barely see, there were not many other advantages, perhaps my mother was blessed by the spirit of heaven, and when Kairan Chemical went to the school to recruit, I happened to encounter an employee of the administrative department who suddenly resigned and temporarily filled the vacancy, so that I could have the opportunity to get its OFFER.

There are not many career options for administrative management majors, and I feel very satisfied with Kairan's job, but my father is not convinced. As a civil servant in my hometown county, my father has been in the system all his life, and I was full of expectations that my major could find me a public servant who serves the people, but I didn't expect it to backfire, and I wanted to work in a company, and I couldn't help but sigh.

"Girls' homes, how good it is to go to the institution, stable, idle, how tired the enterprise is, and the pressure is great. Your mother left early, and you are an introvert, I don't ask you to achieve much in your career, smooth and smooth, I am relieved. I was a little sad when I said a few words.

I grew up with a gentle temperament and a bit of submissive passivity, and my mother's early death in middle school made my personality even more distangle and introverted. Over the years, it was really hard to see my father be both a father and a mother, and I chose administrative management, a major that I didn't like, according to his wishes in the college entrance examination.

Perhaps because I inherited my father's literary genes, I have loved reading and writing since I was a child. When I was in middle school, it was when the love stories of Qiong Yao and Xi Juan were overwhelming, and I couldn't help but sink into it in adolescence. A few essays, a few essays, and sometimes even a few words that come to mind, inspiration can be quickly appealed to the pen. Such intermittent and free creation, casual and casual, unconsciously persevered.

Later, I worked as a publicity officer in the university student union, wrote several articles and published them in local magazines, and I felt a little sense of accomplishment in my heart.

Kairan Chemical is located in the prosperous area of the center of C, the company has not been established for a long time, but because the boss Guo Kai recruits talents regardless of cost, it has attracted a group of industry elites to join, and naturally has brought sufficient resources and contacts.

As the saying goes, "it is up to people to do things, and it is up to heaven to achieve things", my interest in civil servants is far less intense than that of my father, and I really don't have a good impression of the kind of government agencies and units that can be seen at a glance when the work machinery is repeated. As young as I am, I always want to believe that a dynamic company like Kairan Chemical can carry all the visions and persistence of a fledgling young girl for the future.

Even at this time, I didn't know that Kairan would bring me more than this beautiful illusion?

Chen Ran

When the secretary sent me today's schedule, I realized that it had been three years since I left Kairan Chemical.

Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the office, looking out at the bustling traffic outside, the morning sun is slightly dewed, and the summer heat has begun to steam this eastern coastal city. Two years ago, I was not used to such a dry and depressing climate, and now I have no feeling at all, and the human body will always tolerate beyond imagination, and nothing is set in stone.

Six years ago, Guo Kai and I came out of the research institute in N Province and single-handedly founded "Kairan Chemical". The name was given by him, and he took one word from each of our names, and he said that it was so simple and direct, and it was impassioned, and it also represented the unity of our two brothers, and their profits and gold.

Guo Kai is a typical entrepreneurial person, ruthless, resolute, and full of passion, while I am silent and don't like extravagance. Perhaps because of the complementary personalities, we became friends in the institute. After all, there are too many rules and regulations in the system, and we have been very depressed for a while, and seeing that a group of friends around us have gone to the sea to make money, we also decided to quit and start a business.

Guo Kai is a bachelor, one person is full, the whole family is not hungry, and one person is hungry, and he can't harm others. I was different, I was married at that time, and my lover Xiaojuan worked in the city's health bureau, with a decent job and a stable income. She really couldn't understand why I gave up the iron job of the research institute, and the boss followed Guo Kai to go crazy.

Xiaojuan doesn't like Guo Kai, saying that he is too oily, and his eyes are always dripping behind the lenses, as if he is hiding countless ulterior thoughts, afraid that I, an honest and stable person, will suffer with him. I don't speak. Xiaojuan has her worries, and I think it's normal, after all, my choice means that our lives will start to become uncertain, which Xiaojuan is extremely disgusted.

Xiaojuan and I were classmates majoring in chemical engineering at university, and there were 40 students in our class at that time, and there were only 3 girls. Because she is a local, Xiaojuan has a cheerful personality and is familiar with the road, plus the girls majoring in chemical engineering are rare treasures, and Xiaojuan belongs to the kind of girl with exquisite appearance, so she is very popular in the class, and she also enjoys the preferential treatment of the stars.

At that time, I was so focused on my studies that I didn't pay much attention to other things. Maybe it was my aura of being a top student that overshadowed the boys, or maybe it was my quiet words that added a bit of mystery, in short, my lukewarm attitude towards her successfully attracted her attention. So, on the clear night of the spring and summer of my junior year, under the huge phoenix tree on campus, when Xiaojuan confessed to me with a shy face, I was free for a few minutes.

It's not that I'm excited, it's that I don't even think about it. At that time, I was thinking about whether to go to a big city to continue my studies after graduation in the future, after all, research is my forte, and this path requires a diploma to speak, which means that I have to spend twice or even several times the time of others in my major, how can I have time to fall in love? Not to mention being caught by the "goddess" in the minds of the boys in the class.

My dormitory classmates joked that I was a blessing from my previous life, and I also thought about it carefully, when we were in college, although people's ideas and concepts had gradually opened up with the rapid development of society, it still took great courage for girls to take the initiative to confess. If you think about it carefully, Xiaojuan is a good person, she has a good personality, she doesn't have a bad temper, and I don't have a girlfriend, so I can't find a suitable reason to reject someone. Besides, girls are shallow after all, and I can't bear to make such a girl sad.

So we were together. After graduating from college, Xiaojuan was reluctant to toss, and stayed in the city's health bureau through her family's connections. Under her persuasion, I gave up the idea of going to the north to work hard, and entered the Institute of Chemistry in N Province and became a researcher. Then, like most people, we got married, worked, and lived in a step-by-step manner, and our days were trivial and uneventful.

The only drawback is that we don't have children yet. Xiaojuan is not easy to conceive, which makes our plan to create a man fail again and again. As the old saying goes, "children cultivate in their previous lives", they can't force it. Fortunately, I am relatively indifferent, and I still have the fiery desire to do something in my heart, and I really don't want to rush to have children. But Xiaojuan is worried about this. In the eyes of outsiders, she has had no worries about food and clothing since she was a child, and she has been smooth all the way, and now she is working well, her husband and wife are harmonious, and she is inevitably disappointed when she sees other colleagues and friends living happily in their families.

In fact, we have been seeking medical advice all along, but as we get older, there is still no news about Xiaojuan's stomach. And I have to go out to start a business at this time, which must be unacceptable to her, Xiaojuan doesn't like the days of separation between the two places.

But I really didn't want to pass up this opportunity. In order to reassure Xiaojuan, I have a three-year appointment with her. In the past three years, Guo Kai and I have gone out to give it a go, whether it is local or foreign, she no longer says anything. But at the end of the three-year period, I will return to her, whether I succeed or fail. I don't know what will happen in the next three years, but no matter what, Xiaojuan is willing to give me time, and I am very grateful to her.

In this way, after settling down at home, Guo Kai and I devoted ourselves to the day and night of entrepreneurship. As the saying goes, "don't do it if you don't know it", since we are all chemical engineering majors, and we have been mixed in this field for many years, we have resources and contacts, so we naturally put the opportunity to dig the first pot of gold here.

At that time, I was mainly responsible for the technical research of industrial nitrogen dioxide gas separation in the research institute. This technology is what we have done in addition to Yanda in China. Because it is mainly used in a small number of industrial enterprises, the use cycle is long, and the demand is unbalanced, compared with other research projects with more customers, high returns and quick results, the institute does not pay attention to it, and the allocated resources are also less, so I almost carried the work of a team by myself.

As the saying goes, "If you lose your horse, you won't know if you are not blessed", and because of my personal "contracted" research, this technology has instead achieved the success of Kairan Chemical.

Guo Kai, of course, is not as good as me in terms of technical foundation, but because of his extroverted personality and active thinking, he was transferred to the external relations department of the institute after a year of research, and was responsible for contacting with external units, so he knew a lot of corporate customers, which obtained a lot of valuable market information for us.

We have analyzed that we are almost self-made, and one of the significant characteristics of the chemical industry is that the initial investment is huge and the recovery cycle is long, which is one of the reasons why individuals rarely get involved in this industry. Although the gross profit of the gas separation technology I studied is quite high, due to the extreme segmentation of the market, few people know about it, and even if they do, most of them choose to give up due to factors such as capital investment and unstable demand. However, Guo Kai contacted along the way and found that although there are not many customers, there are few suppliers, and only Yanda is currently supplying, and the product price is expensive because the raw materials are imported. And our alternative technology, the raw material can be solved in China, which creates a large living space for us; In addition, the frequency of use by customers is inconsistent, and the gap in demand fluctuations is not as large as imagined. As for production, we plan to first adopt the model of renting factories and commissioned processing, so that the initial investment is relatively small, and our own funds can be operated, and the first step is to win as long as the funds can be circulated.

Just do it, Guo Kai and I began to work on site selection. In order to avoid unnecessary controversy, we decided to register in the western city of C, which is far away from province N. Perhaps those years were really lucky, just in time for the implementation of the national western development strategy, the cheap materials and labor costs in the western provinces made our company's development smooth. In just three years, the scale of "Kairan Chemical" has quadrupled, and it has become a well-known enterprise in the local industry and abroad.

As the company embarked on the track of rapid development, my three-year appointment with Xiaojuan was also approaching. In the past few years, because of the success of my business, my family's economic conditions have changed significantly compared with before. We moved from a small two-bedroom house to a villa on the outskirts of the city, and Xiaojuan also had the Beetle she had always loved. I also took my parents from my hometown and took care of Xiaojuan's usual life by the way.

In fact, at that time, I thought that now that life is getting better and better, Xiaojuan will not change her original mind and let me continue to do it. After all, the company is now in the golden period of development, and my withdrawal will definitely have a big impact on Guo Kai and the company. Besides, I can't let go of it in my heart, Kairan Chemical started from scratch, just like a child raised by himself, and he has to let go before he is an adult, which is really reluctant.

But when I inadvertently mentioned this to Xiaojuan, I completely broke off my thoughts.

Xiaojuan said that she grew up in a good family, the pursuit of money is not as strong as mine, she has been alone in the empty house for three years, and what she urgently needs now is a husband who stays by her side and a long-awaited child.

Xiaojuan also said that she has given me enough time, and we have already made an agreement, she doesn't like people who don't keep their promises.

Xiaojuan also asked me, which is more important, career or family? Or, who do I choose between Kairan and her?

It was the first time that Xiaojuan had been so angry at me.

I understand her feelings. This matter is indeed my intention to break my promise, Xiaojuan gave me time, but I wanted to avoid fulfilling my promise because of my own selfishness.

Her words left me speechless, and her questions made me unable to answer.

When she moved out of the child, all I could do was be silent; When she told me to choose, I knew that leaving Kairan was a foregone conclusion.

I am not a very ambitious person, nor do I have the strong desire for money that she thinks, and I cannot afford her to put this three-year covenant on a moral and ethical level to judge my devotion to marriage and to her.

Actually, I wanted to tell her that it wasn't necessary. In this life, to put it bluntly, people are all alone, and in the end, they are all the same. If you think about it this way, you will feel that there is nothing in this world that you can't give up?

For Kairan, yes, I am reluctant. But since it's time to leave, let's leave.

Later, I thought, do you need to explain these words to her? As if there was no need.

I just don't know what Guo Kai will think when he learns the news, it's inevitable to blame me, I just hope it won't hurt our brotherhood.

I can't help him.