Chen Ran

This time, I didn't stop Xiaojuan, and watched her pick up her luggage and walk out of the hotel room without looking back. Maybe I'm a little tired, a little tired. For Xiaojuan to make things difficult for Yue'er indiscriminately several times, no matter how good Rao is temper, I can't bear it. Let's go, let's go, she's right, one east and one west, the sky is separated, leave enough time and space for each other, each calm down, each sober, and wait until everyone can be calm and meet again!

Maybe Xiaojuan is right, she is just doing this to defend her rights and interests and protect her marriage, she is not wrong, but is Yue'er wrong? She has always been so passive and introverted, and even a brother-sister relationship was finally achieved by me with great effort, and now she is so nakedly insulted by Xiaojuan, how will she feel? And what should she think of me? Not to mention what Xiaojuan said about how she coveted me, I now wonder if she still has the courage to continue to be my sister! Xiaojuan, Xiaojuan, you are so careless that you are forcing me to the point where I can't even keep a little thought!

picked up a handful of water and poured it on his face, looking at himself in the mirror who was embarrassed and angry, his face was swollen, his eyes were deep-set, and there were faint bloodshots distributed in the middle, looking listless and lost. A moment of frustration and remorse came to my heart, I Chen Ran has always boasted that I am the best at balancing, why is my marriage and life like this now? Xiaojuan, Yue'er, the two women I don't want to hurt the most, but they were both hurt because of me, what a great irony! They're all right, no one is wrong, it's all my fault, right? It's that I shouldn't be delusional about Yue'er, it's that I shouldn't be angry with Xiaojuan repeatedly, it's that I shouldn't be unable to control my emotions, as long as I hear Yue'er's name!

Yue'er, Yue'er, my heart suddenly panicked, where is she now? It's been almost three hours since the wedding feast, and she has left the table halfway, has she gone home? was so insulted, and it came from her eldest brother's wife, she must be sad and sad, right? Otherwise, I wouldn't have fled so depressed. Alas! How did I forget this, a big man is still here to feel sorry for himself like a woman, Chen Ran, you are really getting more and more promising! Hurriedly took out his mobile phone and pressed the shortcut key that had been set up long ago, Yue'er's phone was finally connected, "Di~", "Di~", the voice to be answered in the mobile phone rang again and again, "Pick it up, Yue'er, pick it up," I prayed silently in my heart, but at this time, it seemed that even God couldn't hear my impatience, and only stubbornly gave me a mechanical and repetitive echo, without a little human vocal temperature.

I frustrated myself and hung up the phone, dialing again, still with the same voice, repeatedly pricking my eardrums. Take a deep breath, hang up the phone, dial again, and the world around you is surprisingly quiet, except for the never-ending voice on the phone waiting to be answered. My heart began to slowly chill, what happened to Yue'er? What is she doing? Why didn't you answer my call? This is something that has never happened since I was in a relationship with her! She was really hurt by Xiaojuan, she even refused to answer my phone, she didn't know how to face me or didn't want to face me at all, just used such silence to express her refusal and insistence.

Thinking of this, my heart is overwhelmed like never before, I can't be like this, I don't want to be like this, Yue'er, I can't lose you! But when I called her phone again, there was a suffocating voice on the other end of the phone - "Hello, the user you are calling has turned off ......"

I was stunned, staring at the phone screen in disbelief, a minute ago, the phone could still get through, just a few dozen seconds, in the blink of an eye, turned off? Yue'er turned off her phone! Why?! How come?! Is she so annoyed with me? Don't even give me a chance to explain! I slammed the table and felt remorseful, why didn't I call her sooner? When I saw her look angry and left the table early, when I was worried about her, why did I endure it so much forward? If I could ask her in time to soothe her, even if I couldn't immediately eliminate the sorrow in her heart, at least I wouldn't be rejected thousands of miles away like I am now!

I jerked my head up, and a situation came to my mind, what if Yue'er really stayed away from me from now on?! My body shook suddenly, this question that I didn't want to think about before is now really feeling its pressure step by step, it's not impossible! If Yue'er is just a little grateful and respectful to me, in the face of Xiaojuan's aggressiveness and threatening warnings, in the face of worldly eyes and public opinion, in the face of her long road ahead in Kairan, she is also a human being, and she is still a young girl who has not experienced much, how can she not hesitate to retreat? This is self-cleansing, why bother to make a mess in vain? If she chooses to leave, isn't it reasonable?

But why did my heart hurt so much, as if a big hand went straight into my chest, plucked the beating heart alive, the flesh was blurry, dripping and overflowing, and stretched it out in front of my eyes, so that I could see that it was gurgling down with blood, one drop, two drops, the blood, flushed red, fell to the ground and splashed with wounded flowers, staining my eyes...... It turns out that my feelings for Yue'er have unconsciously reached such a point where it is difficult to let go, and my habits and attachments to her have been deeply integrated into my life and my blood, if it weren't for Xiaojuan's farce, I wouldn't have realized that Yue'er was as indispensable to me as air, so that she might suddenly withdraw and let me suffocate from oxygen.

No way! It can't be like this! I got up suddenly, I had to go to Yue'er, find her and make it clear to her face, I couldn't let her disappear into my life quietly like this. If there is still a possibility of keeping her, I am willing to gamble, willing to gamble for my unprecedented affection, willing to take a risk with my happiness! I'm going to tell her that I can't live without her, I'm going to tell her how much she means to me, I'm going to say it, I don't want to be just her big brother, I want to take care of her for the rest of my life because, I love her! I love her more than I always thought!

I picked up my car keys and hurried out, I didn't know where Yue'er would go, but the first place I could think of was her home. When the car was running on the road, I only hated why the distance that was not far away on weekdays was so long at this moment, and the traffic of Ai Ai was like an ant that couldn't move his feet, making people want to grow a pair of wings and fly over.

When I came to the community where Yue'er lived and looked at the rows of high-rise buildings in front of me, I realized that I didn't know where she lived. I asked the uncle who guarded the door, but was told that he had not seen her return, and he did not know her specific address. Disappointed and anxious, I drove the car and wandered around the community a few times, wondering if Yue'er would go to the company, and then back and forth along the road from the community to Kairan. I drove slowly, so slowly that I tried to find a trace of Yue'er in every pedestrian on either side of the street, so that there was a constant sound of horns behind me all the way, and I didn't hear it at all, but it was still in vain.

On the streets of a foreign land in the spring of 20**, I, Chen Ran, a man who has always prided himself on not being surprised, actually wandered repeatedly on the street like a wisp of wandering spirit, with an indescribable loss of soul and unpredictable uncertainty, from afternoon to dusk, from clear sky to sunset, I have been able to memorize a few intersections and traffic lights on this road, but I still can't find the figure I want.

My heart, in the search over and over again, gradually turned into a cold silence, Yue'er's phone is still turned off, turned off, I began to rise a wave of ominous feelings, Yue'er, will you encounter something, will you, encounter any danger, never as abnormal as today, my heart shrank suddenly, stretched out my hand tremblingly and twisted the radio on the car, trying to find local news about car accidents, accidents and the like, but I was afraid of hearing this kind of news. The sun was already hidden behind the mountain, and the lights of the city were gradually lit up, so I decided to take a look at Yue'er's community, and if I couldn't find her again, I would go to the police.

As soon as the car drove to the gate of the community, the uncle guarding the door recognized me at a glance and said to me loudly, "Young man, the girl you are looking for is back, and she has just entered the community!" ”

It is like a beam of light shining through the endless dark alleys, bringing the breath and hope of the dying life. My heart was shocked, and under the enthusiastic guidance of the uncle, I increased the strength of my feet, and when the car accelerated into the community, I forgot to thank others.

That's it, forgive me for being rude, forgive me for my ecstasy, at this moment, there is nothing more exciting than meeting Yue'er!

In the oncoming gazebo, I saw a thin and thin figure, curled up in the corner, so inconspicuous that people couldn't bear to look at it directly. But the long hair of the shawl, the beautiful facial features, but so familiar, so close in front of me, yes, it's Yue'er, thank God, I finally found her!! But why didn't she go home and stand so lonely? Presumably Xiaojuan's words really hurt her too much, so she made herself suffer like this!

I didn't care about anything else, I braked suddenly, and the car stopped steadily in front of her. I opened the car door, ran forward in three steps and two steps, and hugged her, as if to let her warm breath confirm her real existence to me again, existing in my existence, at that moment, I actually had red eyes, and I just kept repeating, "Yue'er, I finally found you, finally found you!" ”

Later, I learned that Yue'er had really been robbed, her mobile phone, wallet, and keys were all looted, no wonder it was so late, no wonder I couldn't contact her, she actually walked back step by step alone! My heart was torn apart, she was a weak woman, unaccompanied in a huge city, and the only big brother she could rely on couldn't find a reason to contact because of the noon change, how did she survive this helpless afternoon?

The cool night breeze blew, making my mind gradually clear, looking at the person trembling in my arms, the courage and determination that I had never had were spontaneous, I held Yue'er's hands, looked at her firmly, and said what I wanted to say for a long time but had not been able to say it, "Yue'er, I don't want to be just your big brother, I want to take care of you, with a lifetime, is it okay?" ”

It's not hot-headed, it's not impulsive, I know that saying such words at this moment is an oath, a promise, and I also understand this sentence, no matter how Yue'er answers, I will face the same gain and loss. But at this moment, I no longer want to care about the world, I don't want to care about the eyes of others, just now, let me be selfish, let me follow my heart once, let me live for myself, I only want to tell my beloved woman, even if this road is long and obstructive, I will always accompany her left and right; Even though this real world makes people unable to see the future, I, Chen Ran, am still willing to use the courage and perseverance to create our own future for me and her!

Then I heard a voice, like the most crystal clear dew drops on the leaves of the spring night, with a slight and gentle breath, into my ears, melting my heart, at that moment I felt that no more emotional words in the world could be compared to the simple word "good" is really touching.

We hugged each other, our laughter and tears converged together, and when Yue'er stopped calling me Brother Chen and called me Chen Ran, I was so moved that I couldn't speak. At that moment, I swore in my heart, let the sky testify, let the flowing water testify, let every grass and tree around me testify for me, I Chen Ran, in this life and this life, will never live up to Yue'er's deep affection for me, I want to spend my life to repay Yue'er for this rare and beautiful true love that Yue'er gave me!