Chapter Seventy-Four: I'm Sorry, I'll Never Love You Again
After hanging up the phone, Liu Sihan angrily slammed the phone on the bed.
Liu Sihan's mind replayed what Yi Muyang just said over and over again, you are simply unreasonable, and you are making trouble unreasonably all day long.
Letting the tears run rampant on her face, she cried and thought that this time she was really going to give up. It turns out that he has always been such an image in Yi Muyang's heart, he doesn't like to study all day long, so he likes to think about some messy things. is also very sensitive, willful, vexatious, very annoying person, a person who doesn't have any shining points on his body.
Liu Sihan felt that he was too tired to take the initiative, and he didn't want to talk when he was tired, so he wanted to fall asleep and never wake up. Maybe on the arduous road of actively pursuing Yi Muyang, he really made a mistake, and he shouldn't blindly climb a person. In the world of love, whoever pays the most is the most tired, and whoever is emotional first dies is indeed true.
Perhaps, it is really time for me to let go, although it will be very painful to let go, but I will also try to force myself not to contact Yi Muyang again. Liu Sihan believes that two people in love are equal, and when you love me, it just so happens that I love you too. When I am with you, I am happy and feel happy, not every day is particularly painful, it is really not the love I want.
Liu Sihan believes that on the road of pursuing Yi Muyang, he may have been wrong at the beginning, and then he was more and more wrong. Originally, Yi Muyang rejected himself, but he never gave up, and kept comforting himself that if he persevered, maybe others would accept him. After all, if you are brave once, you will have no regrets in the future. It's ridiculous that I thought I could move the other party and the whole world, but in the end I just moved myself. In the end, it didn't touch anyone, only tears and physical and mental hurt.
Liu Sihan thought: It's that I'm weaving a gorgeous dream for myself over and over again, and it's that I've been making myself amorous. It's myself comforting myself over and over again, and maybe I will gain if I stick to it. is just singing a one-man show, directing and acting in a play. Now that I've woken up, I can't pretend to be asleep, I can't continue to deceive myself, it's time to leave.
Someone who loves you, even if it's your shortcomings, he likes. If you don't love someone, even if you take the initiative to give more, the other party still doesn't love you and thinks you are a burden to him.
Liu Sihan thought: It's time to give yourself a complete break, cherish the people around you, and can't always live in dreams.
She picked up the mobile phone on the bed, directly deleted Yi Muyang's phone in the address book, and directly joined the blacklist. She boarded the QQ account and blocked Yi Muyang's QQ account directly, and the QQ space was only visible to herself. Regarding the text messages sent by Yi Muyang, Liu Sihan has always been reluctant to delete them, and now he has deleted them all with gritted teeth.
Liu Sihan looked at the QQ chat record with Yi Muyang and smiled bitterly. I was still thinking about the chat history on QQ, which I kept forever. If you can't save it, copy it in a diary. In the days when Yi Muyang was not around, I looked through it over and over again, so that the chat records were familiar to me. Now that I think about it, how ridiculous I am, it's almost like a psychopath. Liu Sihan gritted his teeth and emptied all the QQ chat records with a ruthless heart.
When Liu Sihan saw Yi Muyang's avatar, his heart felt like it was torn, and he couldn't breathe in pain. Now everything about Yi Muyang has been deleted. But everything about Yi Muyang in his memory is still so clear, as if it had just happened.
Liu Sihan thought in his heart: Everything for himself and Yi Muyang is over, it's all over. Even if I care about him wishfully, it is only my own self-inflicted sentiment after all. I will force myself to leave, even if it hurts, I have to leave, and there is no need to persist anymore. If a person pays silently, he will be tired one day, and he will be tired and let go of himself. Since then, they have been the most familiar strangers to each other, and they have forgotten each other.
After all, love is a matter of two people, not a stupid unrequited love by yourself. A youthful crush in adolescence ended before it began.
Thinking about himself who has been stupid for so long, thinking about his persistence for so long, Liu Sihan still smiled bitterly. She doesn't know how to describe herself, is she brave, persistent, or really stupid? Liu Sihan asked himself over and over again in his heart.
and Yi Muyang's youthful and absurd crush was strangled in the cradle before it even began. What did you gain? What did you get? It seems that he has just harvested tears and endless entanglement and pain every day, leaving a body of wounds, and he is physically and mentally exhausted.
Tears kept sliding down the corners of her eyes, flowing into the salty corners of her mouth, like her bitter crush with Yi Muyang.
Liu Sihan's crying eyes were red and swollen, and his shoulders were trembling, as if he wanted to vent all the grievances and sadness in his heart. After crying for a long time, Liu Sihan was tired of crying, and he didn't know when he fell asleep.
After Liu Sihan hung up the phone, Yi Muyang's mood felt very depressed, and his heart was panicked. For Liu Sihan, he is really helpless, and there is a deep sense of powerlessness. He felt that Liu Sihan's main task now was to study, and not to worry about thinking about some messy things, but Liu Sihan just didn't listen to what he said.
Yi Muyang also reflected on his attitude towards Liu Sihan just now in his heart, and he suddenly found that some of the words he said were indeed a little heavier and quite hurtful. He felt that Liu Sihan should understand his hard work for her, so he didn't take this matter to heart. Seeing that it was not early, Yi Muyang began to wash up briefly and began to go to bed.
However, Yi Muyang didn't know that Liu Sihan was very cheerful on the surface, and he didn't seem to have anything to worry about. In fact, Liu Sihan's heart is very sensitive and fragile, and Yi Muyang's words and deeds can make her upset. Even sometimes, she began to think a lot about Yi Muyang's words, thought a lot and began to be depressed, and even quietly shed tears.
Yi Muyang didn't know that he thought Liu Sihan could understand his hard work, but in fact, Liu Sihan didn't understand it, and had decided to give up on him completely.
When he woke up, it was already 8 o'clock in the morning, and Liu Sihan hurriedly began to get up and wash up briefly. After washing, she called Bai Tao anxiously, and Bai Tao told her to wait for him in the room for a while, and then have breakfast with her later.
She waited in the hotel room for a while, and Bai Tao, Li Xiuzhi, and Bai Ze and his party came to her room to meet her and go to breakfast together.
After a brief breakfast, Li Xiuzhi proposed to buy some souvenirs and snacks before preparing to return home. In the end, her proposal was unanimously approved by everyone. The group said they would leave, and began to go to Q City Square to walk around. There are a variety of souvenirs sold in Q City Square, including sea starfish, conch shells, conch pen holders, and other sea souvenirs. There are also some seafood stalls, which are basically operated by outsiders. Liu Xiuzhi picked up some conch and starfish and a conch pen holder to take back to City C, Liu Sihan looked at it and didn't particularly like anything, so he simply gave up.
Then Li Xiuzhi and his entourage went to the Q City Department Store and went around and purchased some snacks to eat on the way. Liu Sihan and his entourage carried large bags of things into the trunk, drove to the hotel to simply pack up, and left the room. They began to embark on the return journey home, and the trip to Q City came to an end.
The two-day trip to Q City allowed everyone to see the sea and the simple people of Q City. At the same time, I experienced the comfortable life of the seaside city, learned a lot about the customs of local fishermen, and met a sincere and kind fisherman couple.
This is Liu Sihan's first trip to the seaside, she has seen the wide sea, seen the beautiful beach, and appreciated the sunrise on the sea in Q City. She will also remember the excitement and joy of seeing the sea for the first time, a place where she can isolate from the hustle and bustle of the outside and let go of all her worries. There are also sincere and kind fishermen, hospitable people of Q City. If I have time during the summer vacation, I will come back again. Liu Sihan shouted silently in her heart, she was very much looking forward to the next romantic date with the sea.
During the long journey, Bai Tao and Liu Sihan enthusiastically discussed what they saw and heard during the journey and the photos they took in the back seat of the car. Laughter came from time to time, and the air was filled with joy.
Due to the long distance of the journey and the bumps of the car, Liu Sihan and Bai Tao still felt sleepy, so they slowly fell asleep in the back seat of the car.
Since, the Chinese New Year is approaching, many people are going home for the New Year. There are very few pedestrians on the road, and the once congested roads of City C have become an empty city in an instant. The car went all the way, and there was no traffic jam, and I soon arrived in City C.
It wasn't until they reached their destination that Bai Tao and Liu Sihan woke up. After the two of them were woken up by Li Xiuzhi, Bai Tao and Liu Sihan began to look at each other.
Liu Sihan raised his eyes and stuck out his tongue embarrassedly at Li Xiuzhi, and began to open the car door to get out of the car, and Bai Tao also began to get out of the car.
Because Bai Tao and Liu Sihan inadvertently looked at each other just now, he found Liu Sihan's crying and swollen eyes. He felt very strange, he wanted to know what was going on.
He was afraid that if he asked like this, Liu Sihan didn't tell him or didn't pay attention to what he said was not right, which caused Liu Sihan to be angry. Liu Sihan has a special temper when he gets angry, which Bai Tao has seen.
He thought about it, and didn't know how to open his mouth, it was better not for Liu Sihan to blow up when he heard that he asked her about something.
Bai Tao thought about it, bit his lip lightly, and finally made up his mind to ask Liu Sihan beside him.
"What's wrong with you? Are your eyes swollen? Bai Tao looked at Liu Sihan with a concerned face.