Chapter 61: Using the whole youth to have a crush, it's not for you
"Okay, Auntie, I'll go find Brother Bai when I have time. It's always bothering you, going to your house for all kinds of rubbing food. I'm a little embarrassed myself, I don't have time for travel today. I'll call you when I have time, okay? Liu Sihan felt very embarrassed as he spoke.
"Okay, what are you still polite to me? If you have time, you can play more. The food I cook is delicious, I'll cook you whatever you want to eat? Li Xiuzhi smiled heartily on the other end of the phone, and her words revealed happiness.
"Okay, no problem." Liu Sihan was already sleepy at this time, and happily responded to Li Xiuzhi.
"Then you go back to sleep." Li Xiuzhi said with a smile.
"Okay, bye-bye." Liu Sihan hung up the phone.
After hanging up the phone, Liu Sihan couldn't sleep for a long time. She remembered a lot of recent things in her mind, and she really just treated Bai Tao as a brother, and she didn't want to have a deeper relationship with him. For Li Xiuzhi's continuous matchmaking between her and Bai Tao, she also saw that she was more or less helpless in her eyes. Liu Sihan thinks that emotional things are really undemanding, she doesn't like a person and will never force herself to accept him.
In this way, you are responsible for yourself, and you are also responsible for others. For Yi Muyang, Liu Sihan really likes him very much, and he was deeply attracted by this tall and handsome man from the first time he saw him. Since then, she has been constantly creating all kinds of chance encounters to pretend to meet him casually. Seeing him, his heart will also pound, and he will be nervous and at a loss. If you can't see him, you will be very flustered in your heart, afraid that something will happen to him.
Regarding the little details of him, Liu Sihan will carefully observe and keep it firmly in mind. In order to be able to take a look at him, Liu Sihan would rather go around most of the playground, just to take a look at Yi Muyang. In order to see him, Liu Sihan followed closely behind Yi Muyang's car after school, and watched him drive away from the campus.
Because of Yi Muyang's casual look, Liu Sihan would be confused. Yi Muyang's words of concern, Liu Sihan would also secretly smirk and be happy for a long time.
Yi Muyang's text message reply and QQ chat history to Liu Sihan, Liu Sihan was reluctant to delete it, and he had to re-read it every once in a while. So much so that the mobile phone really can't be stored, Liu Sihan will copy the content of the text messages and chat records in the diary one by one.
Liu Sihan was even observing and inquiring about Yi Muyang's hobbies, because Yi Muyang likes to play basketball and sing. Liu Sihan, who was not very interested in sports, also went to find a lot of sports books and a lot of sports materials on Baidu, just to have a common discourse with Yi Muyang and a few words. For Yi Muyang's favorite songs, Liu Sihan will also hum them constantly in his free time. Practicing over and over again, she imagined whether the meaning of the lyrics was what Yi Muyang wanted to say to herself. So much so that some songs were hummed a lot in the dormitory, which was strongly dissatisfied by Sun Jiayi, Bai Lu and Liu Meng in the same dormitory.
Everything about Yi Muyang, Liu Sihan will observe it carefully. Yi Muyang's license plate number, mobile phone number, QQ number, birthday, hobbies, etc., Liu Sihan is familiar with it by heart, and he recalls it like a stream. For the girl who is close to Yi Muyang to go to the problem, Liu Sihan also privately asked someone to inquire about the girl's situation, she will be jealous in her heart, as if the whole world is her rival.
In the crowded crowd, Liu Sihan could also find Yi Muyang for the first time. When she sleeps at night, Liu Sihan also thinks of Yi Muyang, and she secretly giggles alone. When I woke up in the morning, the first person I thought of when I opened my eyes was Yi Muyang.
Sometimes, on a quiet rainy day, Liu Sihan would stare blankly out of the window. She saw a back similar to Yi Muyang, and her heart was beating nervously. On the window shrouded in rain and fog, Liu Sihan casually scribbled with his hands, drawing and drawing, but inadvertently drew Yi Muyang's name.
When dreaming at night, Liu Sihan often dreams of Yi Muyang. Sometimes, I dreamed that Yi Muyang was smiling at her. Sometimes I dreamed that Yi Muyang was asking her questions in class, but she didn't know anything, her heart was beating nervously, and she prayed in her dream that Yi Muyang wouldn't ask her questions. That nervous mood is so real. Sometimes, she would dream that Yi Muyang would reprimand her angrily, and she would secretly shed tears in her dreams, but she woke up with a large wet pillow.
Liu Sihan even imitated the handwriting of Yi Muyang's comments on her homework over and over again in her free time, and she never got tired of it. Even after school, Liu Sihan would go to the podium to stand in front of the blackboard and learn the expressions and movements of Yi Muyang's lectures, let Sun Jiayi be the audience on the podium, and learn Yi Muyang to draw a circle with one hand on the podium without a compass, and then he would go to silly music. For Liu Sihan's behavior, Sun Jiayi often ridiculed her for being poisoned by Yi Muyang, and there was no cure.
In the days when he didn't see Yi Muyang during the holidays, Liu Sihan would look at Yi Muyang's QQ space and the chat records between them over and over again, as well as mobile phone text messages. Imagining such a mood, under what circumstances did Yi Muyang send it out, and why did he send out such a mood.
Sometimes, when Yi Muyang rejected her, or when she went on a blind date. Liu Sihan will be so confused that he even wants to delete Yi Muyang's QQ number and mobile phone number, block the phone, and delete all the chat records. However, when she deletes it, she will be very reluctant in her heart. She even thinks that deleting these is equivalent to deleting the memories of her entire youth with Yi Muyang. She wanted to leave a thought for herself, and when she couldn't see Yi Muyang, she went to look at her QQ chat history and mobile phone text messages with him, imagining that he was by her side.
But Liu Sihan couldn't vent the dissatisfaction and anger in her heart, so she moved Yi Muyang from the friend column to the friend column, and she didn't want to see him again for the time being. After a while, her anger disappeared a little, and when her mood calmed down, she pulled Yi Muyang back to the friend column. Liu Sihan even sometimes got angry and wanted to completely block and delete Yi Muyang, but whenever she saw Yi Muyang's avatar, her heart suddenly softened, and she trembled with her hands and never dared to join the blacklist.
In Liu Sihan's eyes, Yi Muyang has always been her firm belief and a superhero in her heart. She sometimes feels very inferior, she feels that she has no aspect that can compare to Yi Muyang. No matter in terms of learning, appearance, family background, etc., there is a gap with Yi Muyang, and the gap is not ordinarily big. Sometimes, she would not be confident and want to give up, but in her heart she scolded herself for being too cowardly. If you don't try anything, you don't retreat without a fight, and you despise yourself in your heart.
When she mustered up the courage to reveal her heart to Yi Muyang again and again, she was rejected by Yi Muyang again and again. At this time, she will be very sad and want to give up. However, when he saw Yi Muyang's smile and a word of concern, Liu Sihan's heart began to waver again. The impregnable castle that had just been built in my heart collapsed with a bang. Again and again to give up, to persevere, to give up again, to persevere, and so on. She even sometimes scolds herself for being too unproductive and her words don't count.
However, I just don't know why Yi Muyang has such magical power, which attracts Liu Sihan to get closer to him step by step, and gradually begins to fall, and he can't even extricate himself. She even sometimes thinks that she has been planted in the hands of Yi Muyang for the rest of her life, Yi Muyang is her nemesis, and she is played with by Yi Muyang.
She didn't understand why she liked Yi Muyang, was it because he was handsome? It doesn't seem to be, for Liu Sihan, a man's appearance is not everything, as long as he looks pleasing to the eye. The most important thing for a man is not his appearance, but his character, and whether he has a sense of responsibility and responsibility, self-motivation and love.
Liu Sihan felt that Yi Muyang had a mature and steady aura, which attracted her step by step to keep getting closer to him. She couldn't tell what it was like. Sometimes she even thinks that Yi Muyang must be her benefactor in her last life, and in this life he is her biggest calamity, and she needs to spend her life entangled to death. Spending his youth in a crush, just to bet on an uncertain future, not wanting to be with him yet. Even if this bet was lost in the end, Liu Sihan felt that at least he worked hard and fought bravely, no matter what the final result was, he had no regrets in his life.
After Li Xiuzhi hung up the phone, she knocked on Bai Tao's door.
A sharp knock on the door woke Bai Tao from his sleep, he closed his eyes and reached out from the quilt to pick up the mobile phone on the bedside table, rubbed his eyes and saw that it was 10 o'clock in the evening.
"What's wrong? You're knocking on the door in the middle of the night, and you're still not letting people sleep? Mother. Bai Tao was lying in the quilt, frowning and complaining impatiently to Li Xiuzhi outside the door.
"Hurry up and open the door, I have something urgent to find you, you know how to sleep all day long? What time is it? You're asleep. You're really like a pig on vacation, you eat, sleep, sleep, eat, can you have more brains? Li Xiuzhi angrily yelled at Bai Tao outside the door.
"Alright, Mommy. Can't I open the door for you? Bai Tao reluctantly sat up and turned on the light.
"Is there something urgent that won't be said tomorrow? In the middle of the night, I still tossed and didn't let people sleep. Bai Tao frowned and muttered reluctantly.
He rubbed his eyes, quickly put on his shirt, lifted the quilt and prepared to get out of bed and put on his slippers to open the door.
Bai Tao walked to the door, pulled the handle on the door, and what caught his eye was Li Xiuzhi's angry face.