"How so?"

"For example, every time I get drunk from drinking, I think about a lot of things that make me unhappy, so I try not to think about them, but to think about the things that make me happy. When I think of this, I raise my glass to myself to celebrate, and then, I think of sad things, and I become very depressed, in order to get rid of this feeling, I raise a glass again to extinguish the melancholy in my heart, this is probably the so-called emotional repetition?! After tossing and turning like this a few times, I fell asleep. Wine is a psychedelic soup for escapism when sad, and a catalyst for nervous excitement when happy. But when I woke up, my nerves returned to normal and nothing changed! ”

"That's what you mean by wine? Sounds right! I replied. However, as for the motivation for raising a glass, it is fresh! "I thought, what kind of logic is the motive for this toast?

"How do you feel about vomiting, rolling, and learning to crow when you're drunk? Not bad! Oh, just kidding! Lin Jun said, and when he said this, there was no trace of a smile on his face.

"Very characterful!"

"When people are drunk, they are in a state of complete relaxation, and this is the gift that Bacchus gives us. Completely relaxed, you don't have to think about anything, just drink. Any act of drunkenness is an 'improvisation' by a person in this state of relaxation. It may be seen as some kind of alternative 'performance art', which may not be understood by everyone! ”

"Hmmm! I guess this 'performance art' is understandable to those who are drunk! I nodded in admiration.

"Actually, my 'performance art' is sleeping with my head covered!"

"That's fine!" I thought to myself, it's better to sleep with your head covered than to learn how to crow!

Since then, I have often drunk and chatted with Lin Jun, listening to him express various opinions on different things, so I have become good friends.

Lin Jun and I are from Beijing, and my family runs a conglomerate, and my family is very advantageous. His uncle was a new senior at the school; In this way, Lin Jun is really a figure among the students, so he attracted a lot of envious eyes at the beginning of his enrollment. Although he is a student of the Department of Information Management, he is definitely an outlier among the others, because he has a great talent for painting, especially oil painting. During his freshman year of college, he participated in the National College Student Art Exhibition, and his oil painting "Bacchus" won the first prize.

"In that case, why didn't you apply for the Academy of Fine Arts in the first place, but you came here and chose such a major?" I asked,

"That's a good question! Before answering you, let me first ask you a question, do you know what the so-called free choice is? He asked lightly.

"This? The questions are too complex, so I'm afraid it's hard to give an accurate answer! However, in your case, I think it's more like giving up! ”

"Wrong! It's not about giving up! It's freedom again! He said.

"What? This! It's incredible! "I almost rolled out of my chair.

"Tough to understand?"

"It's not easy to understand!"

"Let me start at the beginning! I've been learning to draw since I was five years old, and I can say that most of my time has been filled with practice drafts since I can remember. I spent more time in the studio at my teacher's house than I did in my own home! According to my parents' requirements, I had to achieve what they called 'excellent grades' in my cultural and professional classes, whether I wanted to do it or not! So since I was in middle school, my pressure has never been reduced, and things like endorsements have become a normal thing after a long time. I survived until the second year of high school, at that time, I thought that I had almost honed my basic skills in painting, and I had a foundation that I could go further, and more importantly, because I read a biography of Paul Gauguin given to me by a 'friend', his spirit is the spirit that I have wanted to express for a long time but have not yet found a suitable way to express it, what he does is what I want to do but I don't think of how to do it, from now on I don't need to look for it anymore, the answer has been found! However, the teacher at that time warned me not to be ambitious, but to practice the basic skills first, practice the professional courses for the exam, and prepare for the college entrance examination. Of course, his words did not affect the decision I had already made, and I still stuck to my original idea of starting to study oil painting. At that time, I used to ask a teacher at the Academy of Fine Arts for advice on oil painting techniques through my family connections, and my first oil painting was from the second year of high school, and I also traveled to Europe during the winter and summer vacations to copy the paintings. My parents thought I wasn't doing my job, but because the culture class had already met their requirements, I didn't interfere too much. They know that since I was in high school, I rarely followed their wishes anymore, and I always acted on my own decisions, I only made what I thought was the right choice, and I firmly believed that my choices were never blind. ”

"In the year of the college entrance examination, I followed my parents' wishes and applied for the best art school in the country! And as they wished, they got the admission letter! But my next decision, I believe that including you, is incomprehensible! I gave up on enrollment! Because of this, my parents were furious with me, thinking that I was self-destructive and unreasonable, maybe I broke their hearts, and my father coerced me by severing the relationship between father and son, but I was unmoved! In the end, it was my cousin who persuaded me, and she said that our family had a minimum of a bachelor's degree, so she wanted me to follow at least part of my parents' wishes and have to graduate from college! Even for myself, I have to do that! In the end, I followed her advice and chose to repeat my studies, but I also explained my thoughts, and I told her that I had applied for the best art school and I was admitted! But that doesn't mean I have to go there to school, it just gives myself a chance to prove it, and that's it! I have a way of honing my drawing skills and I know how to improve my drawing! I need a teacher, not a school! Van Gogh didn't like to be tied down and often skipped school when he was in school, but he got good grades! I appreciate that, I'm much better than him! Because I don't skip school! After choosing the repeat class, I hardly went to class, and spent all my time learning to draw, I just read books for a month before the college entrance examination and went to take the exam, and after that, here I am! Come and drink your beer! However, until now, I was my painting teacher when I came to the Academy of Fine Arts, and I was always his student, and every once in a while, I would visit him, and he had already taught me everything, and we were old friends! ”

"I see!"

"But there's one more thing I didn't expect at all, otherwise I wouldn't have come to this school!"

"Huh?"

"I found out that my uncle was about to transfer to this school after I had already received my offer, which was when everything was decided! Unexpected! ”

"That seems like a good thing! You don't know how many people in this school envy you! I replied.

"There's nothing to be proud of! He is himself, I am myself! ”

I was silent.

"Do you know why I'm sitting with you over a drink and talking?"

"Why?"

"Because the exam is approaching, you don't go to the library, but you have a novel in your hand, and the exam book is thrown aside! Very good! ”

"This ...... Probably an accident. ”

"In short, there is something in common."

"Perhaps, but your experience is the most incredible thing I've ever heard!"

“Maybe！”

"You've already made it to the point of drawing!" Of course he knew I was talking about his award.

"It's not even close!" Lin Jun said, "And sometimes, you can't draw it if you want to, okay, don't talk about it." After saying that, he took a sharp drag on his cigarette, "You'll know later!" ”