Chapter 45: Why didn't you call me when you missed me
Xiao Jinxuan nodded, "Then let's eat something simple, is it okay to salad?" ”
"Okay."
There was a salad shop near the mall, and since it was lunchtime and the parking space near the salad shop was limited, Xiao Jinxuan proposed to put the flowers and jewelry back in the car and walk over.
Zhuang Yiman had no opinion, the two put things away, took the elevator to the first floor of the mall, and then walked out of the mall holding hands.
As soon as the two stepped out of the mall, there was a warm spring breeze blowing slowly, which was very refreshing.
Xiao Jinxuan remembered that when the two first fell in love, they often held hands and pressed the road like this, but after getting married, he seemed to spend a lot of time on work, but he neglected Zhuang Yiman.
"Eman."
"Huh?"
"After I got married, didn't I accompany you well?"
Zhuang Yiman glanced at Xiao Jinxuan in some surprise, then withdrew his gaze and looked at the road ahead.
In the four months when the two first fell in love, it was indeed quite sweet, and it was then that she couldn't help but fall in love with him.
When he proposed, she thought she was married to love.
It wasn't until after marriage that she realized that she was not married to love, but bread.
He can meet all her material needs, but he can't give up a little time for her, and sometimes she even wonders if Xiao Jinxuan remembers that he still has a wife waiting for him at home.
All the sadness can only be helplessly turned into a sentence in the end: "You are busy with work, I understand." ”
Her tone was not shocked, but Xiao Jinxuan couldn't hear any joy, anger and sorrow.
He lowered his eyes slightly, and saw a gentle smile on Zhuang Yiman's face.
This kind of smile rarely appears on her face when the two are interacting, although it is soft and moving, it also vaguely reveals a faint alienation.
Xiao Jinxuan suddenly realized that maybe Zhuang Yiman and himself were not happy in the past few years.
Guilt welled up from the depths of his heart, devouring him little by little.
He paused and asked, "What are you usually busy with?" ”
"Reading books, arranging flowers, practicing the piano, practicing yoga, exercising, shopping, going to beauty salons, and drinking afternoon tea with my mother."
It sounds like her life is full and interesting, but the loneliness and helplessness behind it are only understood by herself.
"That'...... Do you miss me when I'm not at home? ”
This unexpected question stumped Zhuang Yiman.
Miss him? At first, I thought about it, but then I got used to it.
Seeing that she didn't answer immediately, Xiao Jinxuan vaguely had an answer in his heart, and this answer was ...... It made him feel quite lost.
When he wanted to change the topic, he heard Zhuang Yiman open his mouth and answer: "Sometimes I think." ”
That's a general answer, but it's better than not wanting to come.
Xiao Jinxuan then asked with a smile: "Then why don't you come to the company to look for me when you miss me?" ”
Zhuang Yiman felt that his step-by-step way of asking questions was really like a teacher trying to educate children who made mistakes.
But she also cooperated: "You're busy." ”
Xiao Jinxuan retorted: "But if you come to me, no matter how busy I am, I will squeeze out time to accompany you." ”
A red light lit up in front, and Zhuang Yiman and Xiao Jinxuan stopped one after another.
She didn't answer Xiao Jinxuan, but looked at him sideways, and asked, "Then did Ah Jin miss me when he went to work?" ”
Almost without thinking, Xiao Jinxuan replied: "Of course there is." ”
Zhuang Yiman then asked: "Then why don't you call me when you miss me and don't ask me to have lunch together?" ”