Chapter 43
He thought, he was indeed cruel, he told Li Moxue these facts, which put her in trouble, but he was still making her understand that some things are not just willing. God and man are different worlds and cannot truly coexist.
"Is there no way to change this?" Li Moxue asked herself in a low voice.
Suddenly, she seemed to think of something, and asked Ling Ye: "I once heard Ling Guang tell me that the 'god' of the divine realm, Yan Yaxin, isn't she also yearning for human life, and then she died in the great war, and suddenly turned into a human girl, and the unique characteristics of the divine realm on her body have also been sealed, so can I also seal the divine power in my body and become an ordinary human being?" ”
Her eyes were full of hope as she asked this.
"No, I can't. You are different, Yan Yaxin can seal the spell because he wants to be reincarnated and go through the reincarnation channel. Lingye said softly.
"So, are we destined to be in each other's company? If I want to watch her grow old little by little, until she dies, I can't accept it. I can't imagine what I will be like when she dies. Since I became friends with her, I can't stand the loneliness anymore. Li Moxue said, her voice mixed with a little trembling.
Ling Ye sighed softly: "People and gods are inherently different. Your friendship, in the final analysis, is just a flash in the pan, and it will be empty in the end. Rather than facing the pain of eternal separation from heaven and man at the end, it is better to get rid of it now. ”
Li Moxue felt that her heart had never been so messy, and she didn't know what she should do. She thought of that innocent smiling face, and thought of the girl who was obviously afraid of her indifference at the beginning, and who was still cautious about her after learning her identity, but still approached her cautiously after all, she really couldn't bear to give up this friendship that she had been looking for for hundreds of years.
But......
Li Moxue thinks that Aiqi is so beautiful and kind, she should have a friend who can really work side by side with her, a bosom friend who can really grow and change with her in time, instead of always being separated from her by the riverbank of the years.
Li Moxue raised her head and looked at the starry sky above her head: "I want Aiqi to be happy, but I understand that if one day, she will also really realize the gap between us, she will definitely be sad because of this." After all, she is also a stubborn girl, and she will not want me to watch her grow old day by day. She should have a friend like she did, who would support each other during these years. And that person, not me. ”
Ling Ye didn't say much, but he couldn't help but be moved by this friendship.
Li Moxue was silent for a while, and finally spoke: "Let me stay with her for a while, her body has not fully recovered." Let's go now, I'm not at ease, and when she truly recovers, I'll leave here and return to the divine realm. ”
"Also, I want you to promise me one thing." Li Moxue whispered, "Give me 'forget your worries'." ”
Ling Ye's eyes tightened, "'Forget worries' is a potion in the divine realm, it is colorless and tasteless, and if you drink it, you will lose part of your memory. Does she really want to ......?"
"That's right." Li Moxue looked at Ling Ye with a little surprise, and suddenly smiled, "Let her forget me." The memory of our friendship will no longer make her saddened by the separation. If she forgot, I wouldn't have grieved. ”
As for these sad memories, let her bear them alone. She is not afraid of sadness, even if she returns to the divine realm in the future, she will be painful and sad to think of this friendship, she does not want to forget. Because this is the only thing that can comfort herself in her long life in the future.
She looked at the bright moon in the sky, and the tears in the corners of her eyes still slipped quietly after all.
At this moment, she finally understood that when the friendship was so strong that it was impossible to speak, what she wanted was not to never be separated, but to forget each other......
Under the same sky, facing the same stars and moon, some people are happy and some are worried, some people are tossing and turning, and some people are sleeping.
Today is a special day for Junnuochen. Ten years ago, his friend An Tiankuo died. In every year that An Tiankuo left, Jun Nuochen always had to drink alone on this day to the moon.
Jun Nuochen drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, and he couldn't help but sigh. Ten years, it turns out that the person has been gone for ten years. More than 3,000 days and nights have passed quietly. Thinking back to ten years ago, An Tiankuo was arrogant and radiant at that time, and now, all the people and things related to him have disappeared one by one. And that ambitious man is no longer in the world, and those pasts have become the past.
Jun Nuochen often thinks that in fact, nothing between heaven and earth can last forever. No matter how much the people who shook the world at the beginning, in the end they just turned into a handful of loess, scattered on the banks of the Forget Worry River, and with the cycle of time, the traces of that person were gradually obscured, and no one asked again.
Until now, he still remembers how proud the young An Tiankuo was, that person never admitted defeat, even if he was born poor, he never felt sorry for himself, but worked silently and practiced spells. At that time, in the Demon Realm, everyone knew An Tiankuo, and that man only needed to stand there, and the cold aura emitted from his body made no one dare to ignore him. What a beautiful scenery An Tiankuo was at that time. But now......
"Tiankuo, for so many years, I have always felt ashamed of you in my heart. Back then, I couldn't help you with anything in time. You have never conceded defeat in your life, you have never bowed your head to anyone, and I once thought you had no feelings. But until Xiao Yao appeared......" Jun Nuochen whispered.
Under the hazy moonlight, Jun Nuochen, dressed in white, sat at the stone table in the courtyard, sipping wine, and his handsome face gradually became a little drunk. I think he has gone through countless years and witnessed the disappearance of too many people and creatures. The long years have forced him to look at everything in the world with the most calm and introverted eyes, and the so-called drunken dream life is just a temporary speed. After getting drunk, after all, you still have to move forward with time in this passing year.
"Brother Nuochen." An Lengyao had some difficulty sleeping tonight, so he went out for a walk alone, but unexpectedly met Jun Nuochen.
Jun Nuochen was slightly stunned when he heard this, and after he turned his head to see the person who came, he smiled mildly and said, "Why don't you sleep so late." ”
"Not very sleepy yet, come out for a walk. Brother Nuochen, did I disturb you? An Lengyao asked.
"How so?" Jun Nuochen shook his head, "Since you can't sleep, sit with me for a while." As he spoke, An Lengyao sat down on another chair beside him.
An Lengyao saw that Jun Nuochen was already a little drunk, and he smiled softly: "Our Brother Nuochen is always gentle and calm on weekdays, I thought that such a person would not like the feeling of being drunk. ”
"You're right, I don't like it, because spirits make me less sober than I used to be." Jun Nochen poured another glass of wine from the flask, "But, sometimes, I still want to get drunk. There are some things that can only be forgotten when you are drunk. ”
As he spoke, an inexplicable sadness appeared in his eyes.
"Brother Nuochen......"
Jun Nuochen suddenly smiled: "You are still young, you won't understand this feeling." You don't know how to drink alcohol yet, so why don't you have a cup of tea with me? He took out another cup from the other side of the table, poured a cup of tea and handed it to An Lengyao.
An Lengyao looked at the man in front of him who was immersed like jade, and for some reason, he suddenly felt that although this person always smiled and treated people generously, he was lonely in his heart.
"Brother Nuochen, where is your family now?" An Lengyao asked.
Jun Nuochen was stunned, looking at the wine glass in front of him, as if he had thought of something, and there was a bitter smile on his delicate face.
"I've had no family for a long time." He whispered, tilting his head and taking another drink.
"Yes, I'm sorry, I ......" An Lengyao blamed himself for touching something that Jun Nuochen didn't want to mention in his heart.
"It doesn't matter." Jun Nuochen smiled lightly, and then sighed lightly, "Some things, no matter how much they touched your heart at the beginning, have passed for a long time, and you can only watch the river of time erase the affection associated with it little by little. ”
"Family" is such a warm word, but now it is extremely unfamiliar to him. He knew that he would never have any more family in his life.
"As soon as I was born, my parents died of an illness, and my sister, who was 10 years older than me, took care of me. Our family is poor, and none of our so-called relatives and friends are willing to help us, all thanks to my sister. In order to keep me from being hungry, she often ran around looking for something to eat, and when she got home, she often lied to me that she had already eaten and wanted me to eat alone...... Later, one night, I had a high fever that did not go away, and my sister braved the heavy snow to go out to seek medical treatment, and she did not come back for a long time...... As a result...... Jun Nuochen's voice paused, trying to hide the sadness that had rekindled in his heart.
"I saw her lying in the snow covered in blood, long since she was lifeless, and a man next to her was holding a knife and stabbing her in the body...... I was only four years old and didn't know how to do sorcery! I can only rely on my own strength to protect my sister, but that man just refuses to let go......" When Jun Nuochen said these words, he seemed to see the picture of the year again, and his face was full of pain.
An Lengyao couldn't imagine that this man, who was respected in the demon world on weekdays, had such a painful experience when he was a child.
Later, an old man appeared, and when he saw this, he quickly subdued the man. I only knew that the man was a famous nobleman in the demon world, and he had a quarrel with someone that day, and on the way back, my sister accidentally bumped into him, and his anger was not gone, and he turned his anger on my sister. I heard that he usually looked down on people of low birth the most because of his noble status, and he never even regarded those ordinary people as people, but as cattle and sheep to be slaughtered, and he often lost his temper with the people below, and even killed people. But the people of the demon world didn't dare to do anything because of his noble status. And my sister lost her life under him......"
"Brother Nuochen......" An Lengyao called softly, "Then, what about later?" Shouldn't such a person be punished? ”