Mingyue should laugh at me affectionately, laugh at me now, live up to the heart of spring, and wander alone and groan. Recently, I'm afraid to talk about current events, and I'm all over the place. The moon is shallow and the light is deep, where to find the clouds in the dream? ------ Nalan Rongruo

Time flies, whether you are sad or joyful, the days still go by, completely ignoring people's feelings.

Half of the winter has passed, and this year's winter is especially cold, Gu Xiaoyu has already put on the thickest clothes, which are really three layers inside and three layers outside, covered tightly, and walks like a penguin.

Seeing that the Chinese New Year is approaching, Gu Xiaoyu's ex-husband Chen Shi has come twice during this period, and the meaning in and out of his words is that he wants to remarry, but she refuses and does not agree.

Gu Xiaoyu and Chen Shi got married directly after graduating from college, and then gave birth to children, it was a one-stop process, after having children, Gu Xiaoyu has been at home with children, she is a qualified housewife, she did not go out to work.

Chen Shi earns money to support his family, he is prone to make the common disease of men, he is an uncle when he goes home, he doesn't do anything when he plays mobile games, and he picks and chooses, Gu Xiaoyu takes care of the children by herself, she is unkempt and anxious every day, and what she can't stand the most is that every time she asks for money from Li Hao, it is the most difficult, because she has to suffer from Li Hao's eyes, plus sarcasm, she thinks she doesn't make money, she takes care of the children at home one day, and she has to spend money.

Thinking about it, this is also the sorrow of a woman, if you want to give your children the best care and companionship, you have to sacrifice your ideals and work, and it is too difficult to have both.

She Gu Xiaoyu is also a serious college graduate, if it weren't for her children and family, she wouldn't be without a job and live a life of reaching out for money.

After a few years like this, the last year was basically three days of big quarrels, two small quarrels every day, everyone was exhausted, and finally chose to end their marriage.

Gu Xiaoyu didn't want to think back to those days, but now when she thinks about it, she still feels that it is dark, no one is distressed, and it is even worse, in order to take care of the child, she has not slept all night, and she quarrels with Chen Shi during the day, and is on the verge of collapse every day.

She doesn't want to eat back grass, Gu Xiaoyu believes that the country is easy to change and difficult to change, even if it sounds good now, if it really remarries, it will not be long, and they didn't have a vow before they got married, but when it came to the days of firewood, rice, oil and salt, those nice sweet words turned into bullshit, so she refused directly.

What's more, Gu Xiaoyu also met a Lin Dong, letting her know that there was still such love, and it turned out that being pampered was such a happy taste, so why did she want to remarry, and she had no masochistic tendencies.

Some relatives and friends persuaded her that in order for her daughter to have a complete home, she should also consider remarriage, after all, single-parent families have disadvantages for the growth of children.

But Gu Xiaoyu feels that it doesn't matter to Gu Xinmeng whether there is Chen Shi or not, because in the three years of the child's growth, he is also unqualified as a father, usually Gu Xiaoyu takes care of the child by himself, and Gu Xiaoyu takes care of the child when he is sick, and Chen Shi's role is really only to provide financial support.

Now Gu Xiaoyu can earn money by herself and can support their mother and daughter, and she believes that Mengmeng is better by her grandfather's side than with them, at least there is no quarrel in life.

Lin Dong still runs in two places, and he came to S City in some spare time, and in order to find her, he has even been to the surrounding cities and counties. But he never found it. His parents began to urge him to remarry, after all, he would be 35 years old after the New Year, and he had not yet started a family and had no children.

Every time he mentioned letting him go on a blind date, he always said that there was someone he liked, and Lin's parents also knew about him and Gu Xiaoyu, so they didn't rush too hard, plus he always swore that he would definitely be able to find Gu Xiaoyu, and his parents couldn't do anything about him.

Feelings are never left to people, if you can let go freely, there will not be so much pain.

Lin Dong tried to think about giving up, but his heart hurt too much, and when he thought that he would not be involved with her for the rest of his life, the pain was irrepressible, and he had loved so deeply.

Often the more you want to forget, the clearer the memories become, and the desire to find Gu Xiaoyu becomes stronger and stronger, and the riotous heart can't be comfortable if you don't find her.

Tomorrow is the New Year, the winter cat, there are not many people in the morning, Gu Xiaoyu goes out to prepare some New Year's goods, and tomorrow she will go back to her mother to eat together, ready for the New Year!

Gu Xiaoyu was carrying a full load of New Year's goods in both hands, and returned to the store at noon. She wanted to bring everything upstairs, it would be too messy to put downstairs. When passing by the photo wall, she accidentally saw a photo, which directly attracted her attention, and the things in her hands fell to the ground in an instant.

She hurried over, her hands trembling and picking up the photograph of the man holding a latte in both hands, his eyes fixed on the heart in the cup, and his expression was melancholy.

There is a row of strong and powerful words written under the photo: Gu Xiaoyu, I have been looking for you, wait for me! Love you miss your Lin Dong! ”

Li wanted to see her crying silently with a photo, so he came over to ask her what was wrong, but Gu Xiaoyu turned around and grabbed her violently, and quickly asked, "When did this man come?" ”

"You just left for a while, he came, and asked me to take pictures of him, there are not many people today, I remember him"

"How long have you been walking?" Gu Xiaoyu then asked again

"Well~ It's been a long time, after he drank the latte, he wrote something in the photo, stuck here and left, and touched Dong Dong before leaving, Dong Dong actually meowed at him, I didn't see it so happy, I can't wait to go with others, spineless little things, see handsome guys..." Always thinking that if she was faster, she would be able to catch him faster, but she ran in the opposite direction.

Lin Dong would leave such a sentence everywhere he went, always thinking that if she saw it, she would know that he hadn't given up, he had been looking for her, hoping that she could contact him, even if she was waiting for him in the same place! He didn't want to find her with a husband.

Lin Dong walked on the street, fluttering snowflakes, tomorrow is the New Year, the plane back to Beijing in the evening, half a year has passed, and it is still not found. I thought I would give up after a month or two, but the memories of the two when they were together became clearer and clearer, and I thought that if he didn't have her in the second half of his life, he wouldn't know how to live, and what was the point of everything?! So I still have to look for it, this little conscienceless, wait until I find her!

Gu Xiaoyu ran for a long time, the snowflakes fell on her face, and the tears slipped down the corners of her mouth, so bitter, she didn't understand what she was insisting on, obviously thinking about him like this, as long as she gave him a call, she could be happy. But I just can't get over this level in my heart, I don't want to be so selfish, he deserves better, I just hate to meet too late!

Facing the snow, I walked back to the store step by step. Li Xiang had already picked up the photo that had fallen to the ground, put it on the front desk, looked at Gu Xiaoyu's lost soul, took out a towel to wipe her hair, and asked, "Sister Xiaoyu, is he here to find you?" ”

Gu Xiaoyu nodded, picked up the photo and said, "You guys clean up after a while today, tomorrow is the New Year, take annual leave in advance, go to work on the eighth day of the new year, what's the matter with the phone call, okay?" ”

Ken and Li Xiang were dumbfounded, they didn't expect the holiday to be so early, they thought they would be able to take a holiday if they got twenty-nine, and the two shouted in unison: "Long live the boss"

Gu Xiaoyu was really in no mood, so she said, "You can leave after you clean up the kitchen counter, I'll go upstairs first, and call me if there's something."

nestled in the hanging chair, stroking his face in the photo, tears fell on the photo one by one, and said to himself: "You big fool, give up, don't look for me, look at the weight loss, I will be distressed, live well, happiness will not show me good?" What should I do if you're like this? My heart hurts, it's going to tear up! It hurts! What should I do? Lin Dong, I miss you so much."

I muttered a lot by myself, until Li Xiang called her downstairs, "Sister Xiaoyu, pack up, let's go."

Gu Xiaoyu came back to her senses, wiped her tears and said, "Wait for me."

Find two red envelopes, load this month's salary and half a year's bonus, go downstairs, these two people have changed their clothes and are waiting for her, and hand one of them a red envelope: "This is the salary and bonus, you have worked hard in the past six months, thank you, the bonus is a little bit of my heart, don't be too little, let's work together after the New Year, and strive to give you a bigger red envelope!" ”

The two happily took the red envelope, and Li Xiang hugged her and said, "Thank you, boss, you are so good."

Ken also said "thank you boss"

After saying goodbye to the two, Gu Xiaoyu went back upstairs and continued to nest, not turning on the lights when it was dark, and keeping her eyes open all night.

The memories that have slowly faded are like floods that have opened the floodgates, striking quickly and can't be avoided.

Time is actually the best healing medicine in the world, only half a year, there is no more heart-rending pain at the beginning, but when I think about it from time to time, it will still hurt at all, but I can bear it, and I am used to thinking about the heartache that a person will have.

But today's wave of stimulation made Gu Xiaoyu unable to straighten her waist in pain, as if she had returned to the days when she was separated at the beginning, and she could only curl up in pain and hold her fist against her heart, as if she could relieve the slight pain, Lin Dong ......

Gu Xiaoyu picked up her mobile phone several times and wanted to call Lin Dong, but once this idea came out, it grew like a weed and couldn't be suppressed. The last time, I even entered the phone number, but at the moment of dialing, I was hung up by a strong reason, and the phone had not yet been connected, as if I heard the sound of my heart dripping blood.

Lin Dong returned to Beijing on the high-speed train at night, and did not go back to his parents' house, but stayed in the company for one night, afraid that his family's questions would make him even more desperate!

At this time, Lin Dong had gradually lost his fighting spirit, and after looking for more than half a year, there was no news, and there was no motivation to support it, and the good memories of those days became an eternal infatuation in his heart, but it could not withstand a hopeless future.