Xu Douxiao didn't know what he wanted to do. He didn't mean to deliberately hide it, but he never mentioned it, that house was the carrier of memories between him and Yuan Ben, and the carrier of all his youth, from a psychological point of view, people can only let go of it if they tell the events and emotions, Xu Douxiao is reluctant to talk about it, precisely because he doesn't want to let go. He kept the house in its original state and asked someone to clean it on time, which was just a stubbornness to seal his memory.

These choices that happened in his subconscious world, if Yuan Ben hadn't asked them, he would probably have found out for a long time.

Xu Douxiao did not reply to Yuan Ben's message that day, Yuan Ben waited and waited, and was in a nervous mood because of various speculations, and he barely fell asleep until the early hours of the morning.

He had a dream.

There is a kind of TV program in China that makes the elite look back on the past and say, "I'm a genius, I'm rich." Then let the unmarried young woman in front of the TV have one more fantasy object, and the male compatriot has one more object of resentment.

Zou Minyuan is watching such a show now.

The hostess is mature and steady, smiling skillfully, the interviewed guests sitting on the sofa are wearing smoky gray shirts and black suits, with a gentle smile, polite speech, and elegant manners.

"That's handsome." Min Yuan sat cross-legged on the sofa with hot milk in her hand and sighed.

The man who was cutting fruit in the kitchen turned around and retorted with dissatisfaction: "Handsome? Am I handsome? ”

"Handsome than you." She teased her boyfriend, who was obviously narcissistic, "What kind of temperament do people have?" With an annual income of $5 million and a net income of 70 yuan per second, a deep breath is a new Nike. ”

"Hey, I said, is he handsome himself or his salary handsome."

"It's all handsome." happily watched him smile helplessly at himself with a tray in his hand, to tell the truth, no matter what others say that they have love because they have love, or whatever, this one of his own is not inferior to the one on TV, and compared to the elite on TV, the man in front of him who will cut fruit for himself is more realistic.

The man ignored it, and when he leaned over to put the tray, his eyes naturally drifted to the TV, and his body stiffened unnoticed.

"He's the CEO. So young, the same age as you. Min Yuan took a piece of apple and naturally leaned towards her boyfriend.

"yes."

didn't wait for the expected rebuttal, "I'm a civil servant, you dislike me." Min Yuan looked up at him with some surprise, but he just stared at the TV, with tenderness and ...... in his eyes Bitter.

The TV show continues, and the hostess's questions are one after another, which is also supposed to entertain the public, and the questions are not sharp but satisfy the curiosity of mankind.

The interviewed elites kept smiling from beginning to end, answering questions that did not reveal privacy and did not make people feel cold, and their slightly hoarse voices made people feel comfortable, such a voice is okay to be a radio host.

"Don't you like that kind of voice that is a little hoarse? Don't stop me from smoking. Smoke and smoke, and it will change. ”

"Don't stop? Let you die of throat cancer? ”

The person in the memory scratched his slightly yellowed hair with a little reluctance, and handed in the last bag of cigarettes in his pocket.

Eventually, the sound turned out to be like this. The man watching TV coughed softly from time to time, and his heart hurt slightly, why was smoking so uncontrolled?

"Now I want to ask a question on behalf of the majority of female compatriots, I heard that Mr. Huang is single now, I don't know if he has considered starting a family?"

"Ugh." The elite was rarely stuck, and was stunned for three seconds before answering, "I am enjoying my current life, and I feel that I am not mature enough to have the courage to carry a family." ”

"Well, in the end, Mr. Huang can say a word to his family and friends through our program."

The CEO surnamed Xu stared at the camera, different from the politeness and calmness just now, his eyes were full of seriousness, and even a little childish word.

"I'm doing well now, I'm still the same Xu Douxiao as before."

Then there is the customary "Thank you for participating, audience friends, please pay attention to our next program, we will invite the famous XXX in the next issue." ”

After Xu Douxiao greeted everyone, he returned to his car, loosened the buttons of his clothes and spread them out on the driver's seat a little dejectedly, took out a cigarette and lit it, and the smoke lingered in the confined space, going back to two years ago.

"It's okay to cheer up, don't go on like this, this is not the Xu Douxiao I know."

The man's voice trembled, almost with a cry. There is a bit of bleakness, a little fragility, a bit of panic and full of reluctance.

Panicked, fragile, cold, and reluctant.

You're the one I don't know.

Didn't you come as a soldier to cover the water and the earth?

Aren't you arrogant, direct, and fearless?

Aren't you optimistic and heartless?

Aren't you determined that you will never look back?

How so?

By the way, I was the one who made you like this, I ......

I'm doing well now, I'm still the same Xu Douxiao, you should rest assured.

Xu Douxiao lay on the steering wheel, letting the cigarette in his hand burn to ashes on this bustling night.

In another city, Min Yuan pushed her boyfriend who was in a daze with the advertisement.

"Yuan Ben?"

"Huh?"

"The milk makes you cold, I'll give you a hot one."

"Oh, good." Yuan Ben obediently handed over the mug in his hand, and then watched her busy in the semi-open kitchen. Mom's words burst through the memory and jumped out.

"You don't get married because you want to wait for him to get married first, so why isn't he waiting for you? One of the two of you is going to take that step first. ”

He is not a homosexual, he knows better than anyone that he only met Xu Douxiao in that youthful years.

He is not a lover saint, as long as anyone who knows knows it, he will not hold that love for the rest of his life and die alone.

Xu Dou is at ease with him, it can't be said that he doesn't love anymore, nor can he say that he still loves it, the love between him and them is an eternal thorn in his heart, horizontal there, if he doesn't touch it, he will think, if he touches it, it will hurt.

Min Yuan to him, can not be said to be particularly loved, nor can it be said that she does not love at all, her relationship with them is like a bowl of white porridge, not expensive but satisfying, simple and pure, in fact, this is also what she has always wanted.

has been dragging it like this, also because of Xu Douxiao, he doesn't worry about him, always thinking, this person is so tough, how is his body, how is the relationship with his family, he is not worried about his work, that person, as long as he does not take his life for work, he is already thankful.

Now that he's doing well, shouldn't he take that step?

"Minyuan, I said, let's get married."

The milk in Min Yuan's hand almost spilled on him, and his idle finger pointed at him and his voice trembled: "What did you just say?" ”

"I said, let's get married." He touched his chin as he remembered something, "It's a bit casual, why do you have a ring, let's buy it tomorrow." ”

The milk in Min Yuan's hand finally spilled out, she didn't care about the mug on the ground and the milk flowing sideways, and rushed over to hug him: "Okay, let's get married." ”

She had been waiting for him for a long time, and thought she would wait even longer.

They have known each other for three years, friends for one year, and couples for two years, which is logically much shorter than those who have been in love for several years, but the worst thing is their age, 29 and 26.

When she met him, she was 23 years old and graduated from college, and when she fell in love with him, her family seemed to be reassured, and when she met people, she said that my son-in-law has a good appearance, good character, good work, and good family background. At that time, she rolled her eyes, and she was a son-in-law before she got married, so what if I kicked him in the future?

But after two years, the family was anxious and unreserved, and when they saw them, they asked, when will you get married, when will you get married? It's no wonder that they are anxious, their classmates are all children, and they are still hanging like this. Yuan Ben is fine, 29 is in his prime, and he is about to become an old girl.

Every time he mentioned this, Yuan Ben's sharp teeth were gone, and he was silent. The first few times like this, she thought that he didn't love herself at all, but ah, he was so good to himself, good colleagues and friends said that he was the twenty-fourth filial boyfriend, and he felt that his suspicion of him was a sin. Later, she found out that he had such a person in his heart, or such a thing that he couldn't let go, if he couldn't let go, he would definitely never marry him for the rest of his life.

What kind of person is Zou Minyuan, who can change what she decides. So she said to him, Yuan Ben, I love you, I want to live with you for the rest of my life, as long as you don't say you don't love me, I won't let go, if you don't say get married, we won't get married, I'll wait, I'll wait until you say get married.

Now that he said to himself, she knew, he let go, how did he let go? Because of what was put down? What is it that is put down? She didn't know, she didn't want to know, and he would tell himself if he felt appropriate.

What to do now? She threw herself into his arms, tears streaming down her face. By the way, by the way, call his parents, and in the future they can rightfully call him son-in-law, and if there is a national notary called, call it for a lifetime, their lifetime, and their own life.

They're getting married.

Yuan Ben woke up, the corners of his eyes were wet, and he cried with the girl in his dream all night.

He has done this dream many times, since he saw Ning Jun in the hospital, he repeatedly dreamed that he had found a suitable girlfriend, and seeing that Xu Douxiao had a bright future, he was finally able to let go of his hopeless obsession and embark on his own happy life.

This may be some kind of retribution psychology, Yuan Ben self-diagnosed after seven days of continuous dreams, he had foreseen Xu Douxiao's light, so he was subconsciously looking for a way out for himself.

But he couldn't find himself a girlfriend like in his dreams, he thought it was a problem of sexual orientation, but he couldn't find a boyfriend for himself.

Maybe it would be good when I really saw Xu Douxiao get married, as the mother in the dream said, there is always one of them who has to take the first step. In the dream, it is him, and in reality, he can wait for Xu Dou to take the lead.

Xu Douxiao had already stepped out.

But why did you retreat again?