After listening to Juyang's words from Kiyochoji Temple, I was more calm than ever, and I was depressed all day, and it was even more difficult to see my smile.

Usually I would walk around the courtyard and relax, but at this time, I didn't go anywhere except to read books in the house, and I didn't even take a step in my Qiushui residence.

Even with the book in my hand, I couldn't read it with all my heart, but I was in a trance. I read books just to cover up so that others don't want others to see that something is wrong with me.

In a trance for a few days, all day long.

Yinglin and Zilan had already seen that something was wrong with me, but as long as they bothered me, I would even lash out at them.

Faintly, I heard them talking softly.

"Is the second lady evil?"

"I don't know, what should I do? I've never seen a young lady like this before. ”

"Would you like to find a doctor?"

"I think so, we should find a doctor."

"Yinglin, why don't you go and invite Bai Langzhong, didn't he cure the second miss's headache last time?"

"Well, it's good to let Bai Langzhong take a look."

Outside the curtain, I heard them talking softly.

"No, I'm not sick." I said coldly.

They shut up, opened the curtains, and walked in.

I was still holding the book and looking at it, without even lifting my eyes.

"Second Miss, why don't you go and stew some soothing soup for you?" Zilan asked softly.

I glanced up at them both and said lightly, "Go ahead." ”

After Zilan went out, I gave Yinglin a look again, and Yinglin understood what I meant and hurriedly retreated.

I don't like having someone pestle in front of me, I just want to be quiet.

It's just that this silence hasn't been a pillar of incense yet, and the Cao steward in the house is here.

After hearing Yinglin's report, I put down the book in my hand and walked to the waiting room.

Steward Cao stood there respectfully, I glanced at him lightly, and said, "It's difficult for Steward Cao to get my Qiushui Residence, is there something wrong?" ”

Steward Cao put his hands in front of him and said complimentally, "Second Miss, there is a banquet in the Taiwei Mansion today, the master, the eldest lady and the eldest lady will go, the master asked the slave to come and ask, do you want the second lady to go to the banquet together?" ”

Usually when I see Steward Cao in the house, he is just a "second lady" to deal with me, but in recent days, he has been much more polite to me.

Clear-eyed people seem to understand it, only from the emperor to Lan Ruoyuan, and then to the mansion A lot of gifts, everyone knows that the emperor treats me differently.

With such a relationship, those subordinates in the mansion even treated me a lot more politely, and they didn't dare to talk nonsense in front of me, and they didn't dare to be unreasonable.

After the gifts were sent from the palace that day, the eldest lady smiled when she touched me, and called me gently, "Rong'er, you have to pay attention to your body when it's cold, and go outside less, it's very cold outside." ”

When I came back from Qingchang Temple that day, the eldest lady was like this, with a caring look.

Of course, I am a child, she is a wife, and I did not disrespect her.

I have to thank her for her words of concern.

At this time, Steward Cao's courtesy, I didn't treat him with a bad face.

Although I was in a displeased, I still replied to him softly, "Zhaorong doesn't want to go, so I'm bothering Steward Cao to tell my father that it's good for them to go." ”

Steward Cao glanced at me, lowered his head and saluted, "Then the old slave will go back to the master." ”

"Hmm."

I watched Steward Cao go out, my eyes were cold again, and my mood slowed down and calmed.

After drinking the soothing soup brought by Zilan, my heart was still a little uneasy.

After a few days of endurance, I felt the need to talk to my mother. I can't act as if I haven't heard Ju Yang's words, and to find out whether Ju Yang's words are true or false, I have to ask my mother in person.

In the past few days, Ju Yang's words have floated in my heart, and I am about to go crazy.

I carried heavy steps to my mother's courtyard.

My mother saw that I was still like that, tepid and hot, cool as water.

I sneered in my heart, even if I am not my father's biological child, but I am also the child you conceived and born in October, do you really want to do this to me?

Do you really put all the hatred on me?

I felt disheartened and sat down calmly.

After sitting down, Mama Lin, a slave in the mother's yard, waited, poured tea and water, and placed snacks.

I whispered to Yinglin beside me, "You stand down, I have something to say to my mother." ”

Ying Lin bowed to her mother and walked out.

I looked at my mother, "Mother's Mama Lin should also go out." ”

My mother looked at me suspiciously, and saw that my expression was a little strange, and she didn't know why, but she still waved her hand at Mama Lin.

Seeing that there were only me and my mother in the room, I smiled indifferently and said with concern: "Mother is in good health these days?"

The mother smiled lightly, "It's the same, it's nothing good." ”

Perhaps no one is as alienated as the relationship between my mother and me.

I smiled stiffly, "My daughter wants to ask her mother something, and I hope her mother can tell me the truth." ”

My mother looked at me with a twisted eyebrow, guessing at my intentions.

She said, "Say it." ”

"Okay," I said, "when my mother was young, was she a slave in the former minister's mansion?" ”

After I finished my questioning, I could clearly see my mother's whole body trembling, her face trembling slightly, and she looked at me suspiciously, seeing that I was seriously waiting for her answer.

She didn't know why I was asking this, she didn't know why I was asking this, and she didn't know what I was thinking.

When I saw that she was not good, how could I answer me, and I called her softly, "Mother? ”

She looked back at me, but didn't want to speak.

"Does Mother know Ju Yang?" I'll take it one step further.

Her lips twitched slightly, and she was very embarrassed to mention it, and only replied after a long time: "Yes."

Maybe she had already guessed something, but after the positive color, she said calmly: "Whatever you want to ask, my mother will tell you."

I glared at her and said solemnly, "My daughter isn't my father's biological child, is she?"

My mother looked at me in amazement, her face ugly, and she couldn't believe what I was saying.

"Ju Yang told me." I said coldly.

With tears in her eyes, her mother whispered, "Have you seen him?"

"Yes." I whispered.

The mother sneered and laughed at herself indifferently.

"Now that you already know, what are you asking?" After the mother sighed, her face was indifferent.

"The daughter wants to hear her mother confirm it herself." I said indifferently, my eyes blurred with tears.

The mother was silent for a long time before she said, "What Ju Yang said to you is true. ”

Tears welled up in my face, and when I heard it with my own ears, I accepted it calmly. The mood is no longer as strong as when I heard Ju Yang talk about it, and I was so strongly unwilling to accept it.

Wiping away my tears, I calmed down, bit the corner of my mouth, and said indifferently: "Mother and Ju Yang have a good relationship, right?"

The mother picked up the teacup with trembling hands and drank a sip of water, and after putting it down, she gently wiped a handful of tears and said in a dumb voice: "Yes, when I was in Bfu, he took care of me very much, and I was very good to him.

I said coldly: "Mother, you are very ruthless, do you know how hard Ju Yang was to find you back then."

She was stunned again, maybe I was on time by what I said. She took a deep breath and said indifferently: "I am ruthless, but all this is caused by Yi Hun ...... back then" Mother couldn't say it anymore,

After choking for a while, he said again: "If it weren't for Yihun trampling on my innocence, how could I be like this, I was in love with Ju Yangyou and wanted to be with him, but it was Yihun who ruined me and ruined my life."

I understood my mother's suffering in my heart, and seeing her sad and painful appearance at this time, it was hard to imagine what kind of pain she was in that year, and I silently shed tears.

"But mother, even if you hate Yihun, your daughter is still your biological child!" I burst into tears.

My mother's face was full of pain and she looked at me in a daze, tears rolling down her face.

"It's my mother's fault, I can't forget those hatreds for so many years, my mother is sorry for you-"

She lowered her eyes and looked down with remorse to wipe away her tears.

Maybe for so many years, she has never let go of that past.

The room, except for the heavy breathing of my mother and me, was resolutely quiet.

I suddenly sneered, laughing at myself.

My mother looked at me with her eyes too high.

"The mother hates Yihun, so since her daughter was born, the mother has not liked her daughter, and has always been lukewarm to her daughter, no matter what setbacks and dangers her daughter has, the mother is also indifferent..."

My voice was hoarse, tears streaming down my face.

My mother was silent, her eyes lowered and she didn't dare to look me squarely, and I knew that maybe she had realized her mistake and repented at this moment, but it was too late.

"I'm sorry, Rong'er, my mother knows that I snubbed you too much before, and every time I see you, I think of Yi Hun and that past - it's my mother's fault."

I didn't say a word for a long time to calm my mind. My vision was misty, through the vague water vapor, reflecting my mother's trance-like face, I really wanted to see through what kind of person my mother was.

When I calmed down, I asked the question in my mind again. "Why did Mother assassinate the third aunt?"

My mother looked up at me again, her face was very complicated, and she covered her mouth and coughed.

She hurriedly took out a handkerchief from her sleeve and wiped the corner of her lips.

She remembered that night, the night when she took out the dagger and stabbed it in the third aunt's chest, and after I screamed in fright, she had already seen me, and after I ran away, she chased me after me, only to see someone coming, so she hurried back to her own yard.

The next morning, I learned that I had fallen into the lotus pond and was unconscious, thinking that I was dead, but who knew that a miracle doctor had just come to the house and saved me. She was afraid that I would tell her secret, and she had been watching me since I was beaten up, although she was very sad.

When I woke up, she was constantly watching me, to see if I remembered what happened that night, and what she did that night. She arranged for Aunt He to take care of me, but she actually guarded me and observed me all the time. But when I woke up, I was stunned and didn't confess to her, she thought I was stimulated and forgot that night, so she was really relieved.

And I just buried that night in my heart.

Now that I remember it all, I understand my mother's true face.

Not only did she snub me, she was a murderer.

"Mother hates the third aunt?" In her panic, I looked down on her indifferently.