"You go and ignore it, you go and act, no one will believe it anymore. Do you really think I, Zhu Defa, am the stupidest person in the world? Zhu Defa struggled.

"I don't want you to believe it," I grabbed Zhu Defa's collar and shook it back and forth, as if to wake up a person who was asleep, "but I still have to tell you the truth, there is a lot of purity between me and Ding Ying." We are staying together but ......"

"But you haven't even touched your hands, have you? Haven't even kissed, have you? Haven't even been in bed, have you? ”

I punched Zhu Defa in the stomach, "How can you insult your loved one like this!" ”

The human imagination can be so rich.

Zhu Defa snorted, "You fight, it's best for you to beat me to death." ”

"There is one fact you have to admit, that is, Ding Ying likes me, otherwise she would not rent with me after I rented out. I have affected your relationship, but you must know that feelings always have to be tested. If I don't influence you, there must be others who influence you. And if your relationship can't stand the test, no matter how much love is in vain. I said.

"Hehe, you can laugh at it. Don't you just want to say that no matter how much I love, it's in vain? "Zhu Defa's eyes were closed, his arms were still so drooping, I suspect that if I let go of him, he will fall to the ground.

"Luckily for you, I can't love her." I said, "If I can love her, then I'm laughing at you." And I can't love Ding Ying, then this is not ridicule. ”

"What is it?"

"Help you. Don't you feel like I've been helping you? Zhu Defa, think about it calmly, if I could love Ding Ying, would I still give you advice? Will I give you so many opportunities to be alone with Ding Ying? ”

"That's why I say you're a cunning and hypocritical. It's all a guise for you to love each other. Zhu Defa seemed to have a little vitality, he raised his head and opened his eyes, but quickly lowered his head and closed his eyes.

"Disguise? I ask you, do you need a guise to fall in love? You told me that as long as you are with everyone, Ding Ying will always be very tired of you, and once you are alone, you are very far away. You told me that, didn't you? ”

"Yes. That's what I said tonight. ”

"Now I can explain it to you. The fundamental reason is that Ding Ying loves me, and I can't love her. I said.

"Wait," Zhu Defa opened his eyes again and raised his head, "the more I listen, the more confused I become." You always say what you can't love her, what you can't love her. If you love, you love, if you don't love, you don't love. What can be loved and not loved? ”

I let go of Zhu Defa's collar. If he can ask such a question, it means that he has recovered, or rather, he has come back to life.

"Yes," I said, "that's how I am." I can't love her, so I won't love her, so I'm staying away from her. ”

"You have a girlfriend?"

"You can imagine that I have a wife, and I have a wife in my hometown who is married to me."

"Really?"

"You can also imagine that I can't have a girlfriend."

"Are you impotent?"

"You can imagine it. In short, I can't love Ding Ying, so I desperately pushed Ding Ying into your arms. ”

"Ding Ying was originally in my arms." Zhu Defa's mood has improved a lot.

"Yes, I desperately didn't let Ding Ying come out of your arms."

"Really, Zheng Qihang? You can't lie to me anymore. ”

"You can still think like this, if I can love Ding Ying, I have lived with Ding Ying for almost two years, you rushed out like this, and I still came to persuade you so bitterly, and slapped you three times?"

"I'm sorry, Zheng Qihang, I'm really crazy. I'm sorry, your face is swollen. Zhu Defa said.

"I don't feel bad if three slaps can wake you up." I say it sincerely.

"Thank you."

"Do you understand me?"

"Which word?"

"Luckily, I can't love Ding Ying."

"I understand."

"Do you know how?"

Zhu Defa nodded frequently.

Next, I walked around the football field twice with Zhu Defa. Zhu Defa's mood is getting better and better, while my mood is getting more and more lonely.

I don't know what happened to Ding Ying and them now.

Ding Ying chose to tell the secret that I lived in the same rented house with her, and she spoke this secret in front of everyone, I know very well what the intention and purpose are.

That's because she really thought I was in love with Ai Sadako. Or, even if it's not love, even if it's just for the sake of graduation assignment, and pursue Ai Sadako. Nearly half a year away from me prompted her to believe that I was that kind of person.

Dean Ai admired me when he was our professor, and the success of the bookstore and platform increased Dean Ai's preference for me, and my pursuit of Ai Zhenzi was a matter of course.

Family dinners are undoubtedly the biggest thrill. That is equivalent to saying that I have become Dean Ai's quasi-Chenglong fast son-in-law, in Ding Ying's opinion.

Ding Ying has always loved me deeply. For so long, she hadn't changed her mind at all. Zhu Defa's words confirm this.

Telling the secret confirms this.

She made a last-ditch effort.

She doesn't care if she hurts or not, whether it is hurting herself or hurting others, the goal she wants to achieve is to let Ai Sadako know the truth and make Ai Sadako give up.

As long as Ai Sadako gives up, she hasn't lost yet. In her opinion, Ai Sadako is her worst enemy.

So she told the secret, even when the sky fell.

And the person she loves, I, is still trying my best to cheer up Zhu De, and trying to push her to others.

You say, if it were you, would you be lonely?

Loneliness is, in many cases, far more painful than painful. The pain continues to accumulate, and it becomes loneliness.

This is destined to be a tragedy.

What I can't figure out is, why did God arrange this tragedy? I know that the source of all this lies in the raised flesh ring on my middle finger, and the source of the source is that Hao Junqi and I went up to the Optimus Stone Pillar Cliff and promised to "never leave the same heart forever" when the stone pillar fissioned.

The supernatural nature of the Flesh Ring was a warning to me not to break my promise.

As I have analyzed over and over again, disobedience is the greater tragedy.

But after all, I am a human being, a person with seven emotions and six desires, you will always pull Hao Junqi away from me, how can I keep this promise?

And the lesson of blood is that you have to hold on to whatever you want!

Even if you love someone to the core, you still have to stick to it!

……

Zhu Defa and I broke up at the door of the Youth Book House.

The lights in the bookstore are still on. The light shines on the road at the door, leaving a spot of light on the road.

The bookstore was almost empty. In addition to some books on the shelves used for rent, there are only sporadic basic books on the shelves of other categories.

I suddenly thought of the word "empty alley" of 10,000 people, can this situation be described as an empty shelf of 10,000 books?

Chu Huoyu has already completely sorted out the bookstore.

"You're finally here, I'm scared to death." Chu Huoyu said.

"Who was that guy who just got out of the store? How do I feel so familiar with the back? I said.

When I was saying goodbye to Zhu Defa just now, I noticed a person turning out of the bookstore and walking into the boys' dormitory.

"It's Xu Zhengping, he drank too much and kept talking to me here."

"Oh. This guy. By the way, what are you worried about? Worried about Zhu Defa? I've calmed him down. I said.

"What am I worried about him? It's that he's stupid and can't see it. That's what I'm worried about. Chu Huoyu pointed to the bag in his hand.

I realized that it was the "reward" for signing books.

"Got it right?" I asked.

"The money has been sorted out, but the accounts have not been settled. I didn't have time to lose the bank, so much cash ......," Chu Huoyu expressed her concerns.

"Of course I can't let you go here. With so much cash for you, I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep all night. Give it to me, I'll bring it back to my rented place. ”

"On the way back so late?"

"I'm carrying it in a snakeskin bag, and I can't count ghosts." I barely managed to squeeze out a smile.

"It's really yours, Zheng Qihang." Chu Huoyu's hanging heart finally landed, "Also, your prediction is too strong. At the beginning, you said that you would sponsor 4,000, and I would sweat for you. ”

"It's a little bit of confidence in myself, I didn't expect it to work so well. In fact, even if the book signing and selling is not successful, the sponsorship is worth it, mainly because it expands the influence of the platform. By the way, what happened to you? I changed the subject. You know, what I'm thinking about is what's going on in the box after I ran out.

"Of course, the strongest reaction was Ai Zhenzi, but she always suppressed her emotions and didn't break out, but I could see it."

"Oh, but there really isn't anything between me and Ai Zhenzi, and Zhu Yi's accusations against me are unreasonable." I say.

"This is where you were negligent," Chu Huoyu said, "you deliberately left Ding Ying, but you created a false impression to many people that you were pursuing her." Including Ai Sadako herself feels this way. ”

"How do you say that I deliberately left Ding Ying?" I looked at the Fire Jade.

"If others can't see it, can't I see it?" Chu Huoyu sat down on a small stool, and she placed a wooden chair in front of me, "Sit down and talk, I've always wanted to talk to you about this." You like Ding Ying so much, why do you still try to push her to others? ”

“……”

"Don't you know you're not just hurting yourself? Look at it now, you, Ding Ying, Zhu Defa, which one of them is not bloody? ”

“……”

"Every time Zhu De sent Ding Ying back to the rented place, you looked at their distant backs blankly or intently, and my heart was full of doubts. I don't understand why you're doing this? It's a very happy thing, but you have to turn it into three parts of suffering. ”

I'm still silent.

Of course, Zhu Defa is inevitably painful. Because Ding Ying doesn't love him, he will be hurt sooner or later. But it was much less hurtful than what it was doing to him now. Chu Huoyu continued, "And Ding Ying, just like me back then, carved you in my bones, but you treated her like this, how cruel do you say you are?" ”

"You must have remembered that night, you were going to give me your body." I spoke.

"Why are you mentioning that?" Chu Huoyu's voice was full of bitterness, "That's why I don't want you to do this." ”

I took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly, I held out my left hand, "I'll show you my fingers, do you see any difference?" ”

Chu Huoyu looked at it carefully, "Is there a difference?" ”

"Look at my middle finger, there's a meat ring on it."

"Meat ring? Isn't it a real ring? There seems to be a bulge as well. Can't take it off? Chu Huoyu was amazed.

"Let me tell you where it came from."