I'm not used to dealing with big scenes, especially when I can't control the game, I will be embarrassed to become the object of attention all of a sudden, simply put, shy, in fact, if I am asked to fight a group fight, I am not false at all, but I really have to face a large group of people who do nothing but look at you directly, I really don't know what to do, this feeling is tantamount to being naked in front of everyone, there is no privacy at all, such as speeches, I will never touch it.

Otherwise, I wouldn't worship Fang Quan who dared to confess to Zhao Wushuang in front of the whole school, this kind of thing would never be done on me, even if Xu Anran was romantically sung on the stage at that time, although there were only Fang Quan and a few of them in the audience, it also made me sweat.

So I now have a headache in the backstage of the Chengnan Gymnasium, holding the manuscript in my hand, while reciting while waiting for the school leader to call my name, this situation will occur, the reason is that the day before yesterday I agreed to the request of the old fox Principal Jiang for two tickets to Tsinghua University, that is, to use Qiao Chu's matter to promote positive energy for Chengnan, so as to establish a tall image out of Chengnan, in order to counter the trend of being overwhelmed by Jinshan Middle School and Senior High School over the years.

There are three key high schools in Longcheng, Jinshan Middle School, Senior High School and Chengnan Middle School, the ranking of these three high schools is also in accordance with the previous order, Chengnan has always been ranked at the end, the reason is similar to what Dong Wenliu said, Chengnan's sponsored students are the most among the three universities, and because it is public, so many local students in Chengnan have risen directly, and the comprehensive results are naturally uneven. That is, the teaching environment in the south of the city is the best among the three high schools, and the measures such as the library, gymnasium, etc. are all higher than those in Jinzhong and I don't know how much, but the school is not compared to the environment, but compared to the grades, and the admission rate of the first-line universities that cannot be taken every year is still the shortcomings of the south of the city, and even many parents joke that the south of the city is an aristocratic school, specializing in supporting the children of rich families.

For this point, although Chengnan wants to refute, but really can't find a reason to refute it, the reason is that they are right, at least 50% of the rich second-generation officials and even the black second-generation in Longcheng are studying here, and then a strange industrial chain is formed, although the reputation of Chengnan is not very good, but there are still most rich and powerful parents who want to get their children into it, in order to help their children and grandchildren build their own interpersonal relationships, Therefore, the number of sponsored students in Chengnan will only increase year by year, and Chengnan also earns a lot of money, and all kinds of measures have kept up, at least every dormitory and classroom and even the toilet has air conditioning, which is far from comparable to Jinshan and Senior.

To be a bitch and set up an archway, this is President Jiang's ambition, the old fox likes to play chess, it is estimated that this will also treat me as his chess piece, but fortunately, it is also considered to take what they need, two tickets to Tsinghua University, plus a certain opportunity to be in the limelight, I don't lose anything.

After taking a deep breath, after President Jiang announced my name, I walked to the podium in a hurry, holding a large number of speeches in my hand, which were basically written and handed to me by the school, I just need to read it according to the content of the manuscript, and then it is the reporter's question session, just use a few official answers, you can perfunctory past, overall it is not very difficult, the most difficult thing is to face the gaze of nearly 6,000 people in the audience with a total of 12,000 eyes, how to read the manuscript impassionedly, this is a big problem, Another problem is that this speech is indeed quite boring, as dull as the official's report to the work, so dull that people want to doze off, although the theme is to spread positive energy, but this draft is also too poorly written, and it is undoubtedly nondescript for a 16-year-old boy to read this kind of manuscript that only leaders can read.

After I stepped onto the stage, all the more than 6,000 young men and women on the stage raised their heads to look at me, and in addition to the students from Chengnan, there were also some students and teachers from Jin Zhong and senior level who were present.

I adjusted the microphone, coughed twice, looked at the stage, and then opened my mouth and raised the speech in my hand with a smirk and said: "This is the speech handed over to me by President Jiang in the morning, there are more than ten pages, and I memorized the content all morning, and it is finally ripe, in fact, I don't need to memorize it, these words are estimated to have been said when you held the freshman conference, it is nothing more than to let everyone study hard every day to be a positive three-good student, I was sitting in that position at that time, and then the school leader spoke, I dozed off, this from the beginning of elementary school to practice the ability, as soon as I opened my mouth to sleep, and then after the lecture I was also the first to clap and applaud, I remember that I met a strange before, when the school leader spoke with a mobile phone recording, I asked him, why do you do this, he said this is the best lullaby, every night can not sleep, listen to it again to ensure that you can fall asleep, a hundred tries. ”

My voice was not loud, but it was clear from the ears of everyone in the hall, and the audience suddenly burst into laughter, and I was very enthusiastic about this cold joke, and the school leaders who were originally talking and laughing in the first row were all stunned and whispered, Principal Jiang frowned, looked at me with a depressed face, and then I made another action that made them all more depressed, I tore up the speech, and then threw it into the air, and then said: "So my first speech, I don't want to be a lullaby on your phone. ”

More than ten pages of speeches turned into fragments, scattered in every corner of the hall, the laughter stopped, everyone began to discuss, and our homeroom teacher wanted to go on stage, but Principal Jiang stopped him with his eyes.

I held the microphone in one hand, the other naturally in my pocket, stepping on a pair of rubber-soled cloth shoes, although I was wearing a school uniform, but with a flat head, I felt a little old hat, but I didn't care, I didn't care about the noise in the audience, and continued; "Ladies and gentlemen, students, I don't want to speak for anyone today, I just want to say a few words to you as an ordinary 16-year-old high school boy, first of all, I regret Qiao Chu's matter, he did something wrong, and it was very outrageous, of course, he also paid his price, the price of his life, a 16-year-old life dissipated with the wind like this, it is distressing to think about, but I don't sympathize with him, I think he is to blame, people need to pay the price for doing things, this is the cycle of heaven, so his end, Not only do I not sympathize, but I will even applaud, because he is a big villain, if he doesn't die, then more people will definitely die at his hands in the future, as for how to do his thing, that's not what I should do, I'm standing here, just to remind everyone. ”

"To tell you the truth, I'm an orphan, my dad hasn't seen me once, my mom took me to this strange city before I was sensible, and then she also died half a year ago, I don't say this to complain, but I want to tell you that for us in adolescence, we need a reason not to fall, but we don't need a reason to fall, you think, if I become self-defeating after suffering the pain of our parents' death, then, am I very likely to become the next Qiao Chu? The Buddhist scriptures say that heaven and hell are just a thin line of difference, I have a deep understanding of this sentence, I live in an imperfect family, I have been bullied for more than half a year, that kind of life is not very easy, and even after a period of depression, I thought about suicide or murder, it can be said that I will collapse at any time, and develop in the other extreme direction, it is not necessary to become such a murderous maniac, more precisely, we can all become demons like Qiao Chu, as long as you are not firm enough.

The audience was not stopping, they all looked up at me, Principal Jiang's brows gradually relaxed, our head teacher's head was full of sweat, and I was still calm.

I continued: "So frankly, I'm not the kind of good student who wins awards every year, nor am I the kind of nerd who only reads the books of sages and sages when he doesn't listen to anything outside the window, I never claim to be a good person, because this society has never treated me with kindness, how can I repay it, if the kidnapped girl is not something I know, I may have stood by and watched, you don't have to scoff at it, you ask yourself, if this happens to a person who has nothing to do with you, Would you fight a murderer for her? Apparently not. ”

This time there was a lot less discussion.

I smiled, looked around at the thousands of immature faces in the field, and then said: "In this regard, I, a bad student, just want to say some things to you, these words were taught to me by my deceased mother, there may be many ends in a person's life, but there are countless starting points, coming out of the mother's womb is a big starting point, which no one can change, and it is also the starting line for everyone, maybe the children of rich families will win at the starting line, you can occasionally complain but you can't keep complaining, this will only make you farther and farther away from them, If you are a child of a poor family, then what you can do in addition to working hard or her mother's hard work, how many phoenix men are standing out from thousands of troops to lay a world of their own, at least let your next generation win at the starting line, if you are a child of a rich family, then you must cherish the hard-won resources, set your sights a little higher, relax a little, and learn the ambition and cultivation of your old man, don't think that everything will rest if you vote for a good baby, and life will never be smooth sailing, If you don't want to start a class reunion in ten years, twenty years later, without the capital to pretend to be forced, then you all fucking run for me! ”

"Next elementary school to junior high school, junior high school to high school, and two new starting points, high school to university, is also a starting point, but many of them regard college as the end of life, this is a kind of irresponsibility, after adulthood, you don't have to be responsible for your parents, but at least you have to learn to be responsible for yourself, because this is your life, you need to plan, although five plus five equals ten, four plus six is also equal to ten, how to live is a lifetime, but do you want to be sure that this is the life you want? Wake up every morning and look in the mirror and ask, if tomorrow was the end of the world, would I still do these things? If the answer is, then do it, if not, then change something, I especially like a saying, that is, even if life tramples me into a pile of shit, I can get a dog's tail out of the shit, I'm an extremely pessimistic optimist, it's contradictory, but that's who I am. ”

"I don't ask you to be like me, to fight hard when you encounter this kind of thing, but you must understand at least a few points at this age, one, what kind of person you want to become, two, what kind of people you want to protect desperately, three, what else you can't lose the most besides dignity, these three points must at least understand, a person, whether a man or a woman, if you want to love others, you must first love yourself, and when you are strong, you are qualified to protect others and love others, now I live every day with a clear conscience, I hope you can do the same, Hearing this, many people may ask, why do you, a sixteen-year-old child who is still an adult, ask us to do this and that, why do you stand on the podium and point fingers at us, why do you ask us to dictate our own lives, right, why? ”

I paused, pointed at myself, and then at the audience, and said, "On my own." ”

The audience fell silent, and then erupted in fierce applause.