Chapter 120: Lovesickness is hard to bear, and it will eventually come to naught
The tears in his eyes were like pearls with broken threads, one after another turned out of Chai Xuan's eye sockets, and hit the quilt of the hand that was still caressing Chai Xuan's cheek.
Chai Xuan's tears without saying a word had already made her heart numb, and she didn't know how to comfort the teardrops in front of her. With his arms lightly ringed, he raised his hand and gently pressed Chai Xuan's head on his chest, as long as the temperature on his chest was still there, it proved that Chai Xuan was still there.
Listening to the heartbeat in her ears, Chai Xuan's heart hurt as if it was torn. stayed at the cost of ashes, but three years later, he had to watch Cao Pi leave with his own eyes; But if he leaves, it will be equivalent to letting Cao Pi watch him disappear with his own eyes.
Either way, it will be each other's pain. Unexpectedly, God was so cruel to them, and there was not even a trace of room for turnaround.
To stay or to leave, Chai Xuan, who was holding Cao Pi tightly, was in a state of confusion......
The cool moon is like a hook to the soul, and the cold wind is cold and cold; It's hard to put into words, and a few people taste it.
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In the study room of the Xuanzheng side hall, the atmosphere is unusually cold.
Bai Yuhu looked at Cao Shu who was slowly withdrawing suspiciously, looked back on Cao Pi's back, and knelt on the ground to salute. "Minister, Bai Yu, see Your Majesty."
After a long time, Cao Pi turned around, his slightly reddened eyes looked fixedly at Bai Yu who was kneeling on the ground, and his hands behind his back were clenched into fists.
"Get up."
"Thank you, Your Majesty!"
Bai Yu bowed down and stood up from the ground, raised his eyes to see the person standing in front of him, who seemed to be not as radiant as before.
"I don't know what His Majesty summoned his ministers to do?" Bai Yu asked.
Cao Pi's sword eyebrows sank and piled up the hill in front of his forehead, and walked towards Bai Yu with a serious face, "Bai Yu, I want to know why Chai Xuan left in the first place." ”
At that time, Chai Xuan's excuse when he left was to go home to visit relatives, but he sent someone to inquire countless times, and he had never heard of the character Chai Xuan in Jingzhou Xinye. In the nine years since she disappeared for no reason, where did Chai Xuan go. And what makes her special......
Originally, as long as Chai Xuan didn't plan to tell him, he could not ask them, but until yesterday's vision, he understood that if he didn't know everything, his Chai Xuan might really disappear from him.
"Why did Your Majesty ask this?"
Suddenly hearing Cao Pi ask such a question, Bai Yu was stunned, could it be that something was wrong with Chai Xuan, which would cause Cao Pi to be puzzled.
"Bai Yu, I must know that all the things you know about Chai Xuan are not allowed to hide anything!" With a calm and resolute gaze, Cao Pi stared at Bai Yu tightly, for fear of missing the slightest hint.
Cao Pi, who was suddenly serious, made Bai Yu's heart even more entangled. Houjie moved slightly, sighing heavily. It seems that Cao Pi already knows the special features of Chai Xuan's identity, and there is no need for him to hide those secrets. Now, it's time for Cao Pi to make a choice.
"Your Majesty, you can believe in the ...... of the otherworld," Bai Yu said lightly.
The green smoke was slightly dispersed in the cold air, and a strange light flashed in Cao Pi's eyes. If it was in the past, he would have not believed it, but in the face of all kinds of unbelievable things that appeared in front of him, he had to believe it. Mo Pupils were cold, and Cao Pi looked at Bai Yu fixedly, listening to him tell him about Chai Xuan......
When the words fell, the air froze, Cao Pi's face turned pale, and his clenched hands trembled slightly. Bai Yu's otherworldly remarks made Cao Pi's heart tremble. If Chai Xuan is really someone who shouldn't exist, then why did she appear so truly by her side.
Looking at Cao Pi's tangled face, Bai Yu naturally knew his thoughts, after all, he had been so stunned before.
"Your Majesty, someone once said to the courtiers that the noble person is like the flower in the moon mirror in the water, she seems to exist completely, but when there is a sun and clouds covering the moon and the flowers are falling, everything in the eyes will turn into clouds and smoke and cease to exist."
When Wu Pu said these words to himself before, he only sighed in his heart, but maybe Chai Xuan was really like what he said in his words. The Chai Xuan they feel in the whole world is the moon in the water, the flower in the mirror, which will disappear one day.
"What kind of ridiculous words of the Water Moon Mirror Flower, I can really feel Xuan'er's existence, and even the breath and temperature on her body, it's really ridiculous for you to tell me this." Cao Pi's face was gray, and his sharp eyes stared at Bai Yu, very angry.
Seeing Cao Pi like this, Bai Yu's heart was secretly ridiculous. If Cao Pi didn't believe in these words at all, why was he so moved.
"Your Majesty, what the minister just said is what Chai Xuan said with himself at the beginning. Your Majesty must remember that there was a man who claimed to be a fellow nobleman. Gazing up, Bai Yu said lightly.
"Cao Bao!"
Cao Pi stared. He really remembers this person too deeply, Chai Xuan left with him at the beginning, and of course he evaporated from the world like him.
"That's right, Your Majesty, this person once told his ministers before parting that if the noble person does not leave this place, the result waiting for her will be...... Killed. ”
When he spit out the last four words, Bai Yu's tone was slightly choked, and his eyes were filled with rare emotion. If it weren't for this sentence, he would never have given up Chai Xuan no matter what.
"Died in ...... Fateful ......"
Repeating Bai Yu's words softly, a layer of fine sweat suddenly appeared in Cao Pi's palms. I still remember that Xiao Man cried and told himself that there was an inexplicable voice calling Chai Xuan to go back, and that voice also asked Chai Xuan if she wanted to die. Therefore, I paid attention everywhere to see if someone wanted to take Chai Xuan away, but I never thought that this so-called departure was a complete disappearance from this world.
Cao Pi stumbled to his high dragon seat, but his heart was cold. "What if I don't let her go......" The corners of her lips twitched, and her resolute eyes reddened slightly.
After staring for a long time, Bai Yu silently lowered his eyes, "That noble person may really die." ”
Chai Xuan's world is like an unattainable myth to them, maybe they don't have the ability to keep Chai Xuan at all.
"Disappear...... Isn't it death? Cao Pi's deep timbre was like an angry lion, gritting his teeth. But Bai Yu knew that Cao Pi was more difficult to accept than anyone else at this time.
"Disappearing from this world, the noble will return to her world, but if she doesn't go back...... Your Majesty is really not afraid that she will disappear completely. ”
Bai Yu's words were like a thunderbolt on a sunny day, and Cao Pi's mind was blank, and he sat in his position in a daze, staring blankly at the white jade ring glowing on his fingertips, and his heart was like a needle prick.
At this moment, how could he not be afraid. He was afraid of the day Chai Xuan left, but he was even more afraid of her disappearance. There was no Chai Xuan before, and he could still look forward to the day when she would come back as promised. But now, if he really lets Chai Xuan leave, he is afraid that it will be difficult to see each other in this life.
Looking at Cao Pi, who was nesting on the dragon chair, Bai Yu was silent. It's not that he hasn't experienced this kind of difficult torment, but I'm afraid that Cao Pi's feelings will only be worse than he did at the beginning. Moreover, at this time, Chai Xuan is afraid that she is also entangled, and her heart is like a knife.
"White Feather, I ...... How, exactly? ”
The choked voice was like crying, with a helplessness and heartache that hit people's hearts, and the hearts of those who listened were cold. After going through so many ups and downs, this is the first time Bai Yu has heard Cao Pi ask others for help in this tone.
"Your Majesty, it hurts when you know the truth. But the noble person has known everything for a long time, and if she wants to come to her, I am afraid that it is more than you. ”
Bai Yu said lightly, he didn't dare to look at Cao Pi, afraid that he would see his indescribable heartache in his eyes.
Compared with himself, Cao Pi made himself envious. At least his love and his worries can be clearly told to Chai Xuan, but what about himself, together with a word of worry, he can't say it blatantly.
I don't know if he was touched by Bai Yu's words, Cao Pi's eyes were covered with a layer of mist. He may be really too selfish, he just wants Chai Xuan to be by his side forever, but he forgets what Chai Xuan misses most from the bottom of his heart.
Indeed, in this world that does not belong to her, it brings her danger and sadness from beginning to end. Maybe as long as she goes back to that world, Chai Xuan will be able to pursue the freedom she wants.
The thumb rubbed the jade ring on the finger, Cao Pi felt that his eyes were even hazy, and in a trance, he seemed to see Chai Xuan smirking at him, his naughty expression was like a coquettish kitten, well-behaved and gentle and making people fall in love.
"I only hope that your heart will be like my heart, and I will live up to my love...... Chai Xuan, you are going to abandon me after all. ”
The tone of the murmur was faint, gentle, as if it had never been spoken, like a gust of wind scattered in this cold and deserted hall. The smile on the corner of Cao Pi's mouth diffused this faint bitterness, and it was also endless heartache......
Lovesickness is difficult to bear, and it will eventually become empty, and everyone understands the pain of the skin; Time and space are like water, and it is difficult to go against the tide, only teach the piano to mourn.
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In front of the table, there were countless piles of paper and bamboo slips, each of which was densely packed with verses, and none of them had the words "Chai Xuan copying" written on the back.
Looking at the pen tip that kept waving in front of the table, Xiao Man was inexplicably distressed, "Nobleman, what are you doing writing so many poems?" ”
Xiaoman looked down at the small characters on the paper or bamboo slips, either "The autumn wind is bleak and the weather is cold, and the grass and trees are shaken and the dew is frost" or "There is a sad sound, and the sound enters the king's arms". And these are all poems written by Cao Pi. And every piece of paper is densely written, I'm afraid that each one has been written at least three times.
"I want to save the best for him, and when he thinks of his poems in the future, he thinks that I have written them all for him, and he will not forget me." With clear eyes, Chai Xuan looked at the poem in front of her affectionately, and her heart was full of sadness.
From the moment I came here, I was destined to leave. Whether it is resisting or following the trend, the irreversibility of time and space is the clearest thing for a modern person. If he forcibly stays and changes all the trajectories, then his future self is very likely to not meet Cao Youning, let alone Cao Pi, and even Cao Pi and himself will cease to exist.
The whole universe can withstand her "big gamble".
"What did you say, my lord, how could Your Majesty have forgotten you. You better rest for a while, your wrist should hurt. Xiao Man said extremely distressed.
Chai Xuan has been sitting at the table all morning, and as soon as she picks up the pen, she keeps writing, and Xiaoman is worried that her wrist can't stand it.