Chapter Twenty-Three: Eyes
"Typing a mistake!" Shi Lanyan hung up the phone, a little complaining.
I could feel that she was swaying, and she was about to fall asleep when she was standing.
It seems that sleeping, for everyone, is extremely attractive.
In this way, if I grasp the characteristics of "sleeping" itself, will I also be very attractive?
I began to imagine my own set of fallacies again.
It's like I can become a demon and an immortal after I understand it.
At this moment, Shi Lanyan must have relied on her strong mind to walk to her bed.
Because, when she walked back, my leg became her handrail more than once.
I was very sleepy just now, and I blamed this call.
For a while, I turned over in my bed, turned it upside down, and changed 5 or 6 movements.
When I couldn't sleep at home, my grandmother was on the other side of the bed with me.
However, now in this bed, I am the only one who is alone.
Of course, there is also Shi Lanyan, who has just collapsed on the bed on my right, and is already snoring.
The beds of our few started from the door and went inside, in order Rong Wei's, Yan Lingtao's, mine, and Shi Lanyan's.
When I think of Shi Lanyan, I want to laugh. She had been waiting for such a long time for a call, and she actually made a mistake.
The electricity in the dormitory has long been cut off by the dormitory manager.
I'm a person who doesn't like to sleep with the lights off.
My brother once told me that this is a group life, and no one is accommodating to me.
I spent four years as an undergraduate, and I learned that no matter how much I hated it, I had to make concessions.
Probably, no one will really get used to the feeling of being a stranger yesterday and sleeping in a room today.
It's like a little daughter-in-law who chooses to live under the same roof with her parents-in-law because she loves her husband, leaves her comfort zone, and leaves her parents.
Of course, this also includes with your husband.
If that's all, it's nothing.
Then, in this helpless environment, you have to do your best to show that you are very happy and familiar. And, for the sake of living a harmonious life, hiding your true thoughts, and hypocritically thinking about each other, perhaps, is the price of growth.
God is fair, give me a beautiful look, but the shelf life is only a few years.
A smart brain, as long as I don't have Alzheimer's disease or an accident, will follow me for life.
Others will think, this is not enough?
Yes, not enough.
Everyone can only see the smile of others when they succeed, and a few people can see the crying behind the loss of others.
I have night blindness and I'm afraid of the dark.
The more anxious you are, the more serious it becomes.
In fact, these two points alone are enough for me to spend every night in horror.
However, no matter how much I tried to seize the day, the night still crept in.
How I wish that in the dark, like other people, I can see the road ahead with a little light.
Now, it is the most terrible time in the early morning, also called the darkness before dawn.
After answering the phone just now, Lan Yan stumbled and stumbled, and besides, she always had to drag something in her hand. Therefore, the curtains of our dormitory have been pulled by her inadvertently.
The darkness outside is connecting the darkness of the room through an opaque curtain.
The curtains of our entire school are made of the very expensive, all-black, double-layer precision material, and the price is also included in the tuition.
The official statement of the school leaders is that in Lunhong City, where it is very early in the morning, you can have a good rest.
At this moment, I stretched out my hands, but I couldn't see myself.
Someone once told me that I need to take vitamin A for night blindness.
Today, I forgot to eat it.
In order not to disturb Shi Lanyan's sweet dreams, I could only tiptoe, slowly lift the quilt, and sit up from the bed.
Grandma specially asked my aunt to prepare it for me.
Unlike other schools, the four legs of each of our beds are nailed deep into the ground, and there is a small desk next to it for us to study.
In addition, each bedroom has a separate room, which we also call the "study room", but that room is not large, and there is no special window.
So, for the sake of safety, the door is usually not closed when you want to use it.
Many dormitories have also been converted into storage rooms that are not open all year round, or fitting rooms that are short-lived and smelly.
But in our dormitory, because there are few people and enough things to put in, we haven't had time to fight the idea of that small room.
I remember, just took it out? It's on my desk.
Although I am a natural left-hander, the hand is just a tool.
Besides, my right hand is perfectly functional, but it's just that it's always in trouble.
I wanted to finish the vial quickly, swallow it quickly, and then go to bed quickly.
But my anxiety made me turn into two hands, go into battle together, and touch in the direction of my desk indiscriminately.
Hey? Where's my desk?
"Shi Lanyan!" I was a little scared, I wanted to wake her up who was asleep at this time, but I wanted her to sleep a little longer, this kind of psychology is not sacred, it is a contradiction.
"It's better to rely on others than on yourself!" I didn't understand what a motto was, but then I felt that the motto was engraved on my tombstone, next to my photo, in addition to my name, to summarize the life of the deceased.
However, if this sentence is really true, then the fate will not be too tragic.
I thought, if I'm lucky, I can leave a last word before I die.
I would write, "I love myself!" ”
I'd rather let others scold me for being too frivolous and narcissistic, and I don't want people to find out that I'm a pathetic person.
When the time comes, I will put a large amount of money into the envelope of the suicide note, and ask the people who see it to help me use the kind of pen that the wind does not blow out and the rain does not rot, and engrave it deeply, maybe after a few hundred years, there will really be reincarnation, I think I will definitely come back to see it.
That's why I'm so slamming and trying to save money, that's why I'm trying to save money.
In the eyes of others, it's ridiculous.
I admit that I am an extremely insecure person.
However, I must not prepare first now, because I am more afraid of death.
Alas? What was I going to do just now?
Whatever, anyway, I'm not so scared at the moment.
Because there is something called courage that has grown in my heart, and as I get older, it will grow up slowly.
When I was old, I probably had memory loss like my grandmother.
But I should be like my grandmother, who can remember me, remember "I love myself!" ”
Listening to Shi Lanyan's electric drill snoring, in the silent night, it actually made me feel enough peace of mind!
I looked at my hands, but I couldn't see them.
However, it reminds me of vitamin A.
Sometimes, people are like this, and if they can't think of it, forget it.
I can't remember, I'm going to sleep.
However, as long as you think about it, you must find it.
It's not so much perseverance as an obsessive-compulsive disorder!
Oh, pull the curtains back so that the outside library lights can shine into the room!
Slowly, I pulled back a little corner, really, the room was a little brighter, and I just pulled it all open, brighter.
Night blindness like me, in fact, can clearly see the bottle of vitamin A.
My rechargeable night light is also lying quietly on my small desk.
I'm a fool, I'm obviously here, why couldn't I touch it just now?
A little farther away, I could see where the light in the bedroom was turned on.
In this way, my night blindness doesn't seem to be as bad as it used to be.
But there's a vague, black thing that I can't see clearly.
My curiosity, wanting me to go to the door, stopped me from being there.
Go to sleep, I can't be late for the opening ceremony tomorrow!
Judging by the atmosphere in the dormitory right now, no one should wake me up!
I turned on the night light, picked up the small pill, and swallowed it raw, without drinking water.
Put your feet on the bed and pull up the quilt.
It's finally time to sleep brightly, the best time of the day.
It's so comfortable to sleep like this, and the gods will envy it.
"What!"
Shi Lanyan frowned on the bed, and then hid her head in the quilt, and the thin summer quilt was a little transparent.
This time, she was on the bed, like a caterpillar, first lifting the quilt with her feet, then covering it, then putting it in a big word, and finally, kicking the quilt under the bed.
I pouted, got up, and turned off the nightlight on my desk.
The right hand wanted to tug at the curtain.
A person's face appeared out of the window, against the glass!
I couldn't tell the difference between men and women, but half of them were eyes, and they were staring wide, and there were bloodshot and black lips inside.
"Ahh I was so scared that my whole body was shaking like a madman!
I didn't know where to put my hands, and accidentally touched the perfume lily that Lanyan put on the bedside.
I ran to Shi Lanyan's side, hugged her arm, and made her butt to her bed.
Shi Lanyan did not react.
How can it be? This is the sixth floor! I must have read it wrong!
Blood? It's even more unlikely, I'm night blind.
Those who have good eyes, in places with bad lighting, can't see the bloodshot in other people's eyes, let alone me!
I blinked, a few glances.
Deep exhalation, a few breaths.
Smile, smile, so that there is no fear.
As the saying goes, a girl who loves to laugh will not have too bad luck.
Let's go back to my own bed! Stop squeezing her.
But when I turned sideways, my afterglow made me feel that the thing was still by the window.
"Zhan Ye!"
How do I know my name?
I have chills in my back.
At this moment, his eyes spurted out, and surging blood was constantly pouring out.
"Zhan Ye!"
"What's wrong with you? Have you had a nightmare? ”
I was startled and opened my eyes.
"Am I in, dreaming?" Shi Lanyan's big face was smiling, looking at me, and slapping my head with her little fat hand.
At this time, in fact, I was very happy, it turned out that I had a roommate who lived under the same roof as me, which was such a happy thing.
I don't know where it came from, but it makes me feel that Shi Lanyan's hands are very sticky, greasy and fishy.
"Did you touch something and didn't wash your hands?"
"Tell you, we are in the countryside, whoever has nightmares, use this to massage the scalp!
It's really a bit effective, it's hard to describe, it's very comfortable anyway, and I enjoy it.
"I want to ask you, why did my perfume lily fall to the ground?"