My heart broke when Mara (the heroine in the film) calmly walked to the military vehicle on Waterloo Bridge.

I stumbled out of the movie theater. I didn't hear Qi Zhengzhe calling me from behind.

The street is in front of the cinema. At eight or nine o'clock in the evening, the streets are still brightly lit and people come and go.

I walked down the steps and down the sidewalk. Qi Zhengzhe caught up with me.

"Why is it so sad? Why is it so tragic? I muttered to myself.

"It's a movie."

"Why is fate so ruthless? Why did God play such a trick on Mara? "We walked to the crossroads. Cars roll on the street sideways. I tried to feel Mara's inner world as she walked to the wheel.

"It's a movie."

"Why should Mara know about the news in the newspaper? If Mara hadn't known the news, she probably wouldn't have become a fireworks girl. ”

"It was a complete coincidence, Kiki, it was deliberately arranged by the director. How can there be such a coincidence in life? ”

"No, I believe. Movie: It's not entirely fictional. Movies are life," I looked at Qi Zhengzhe excitedly, "For Brother Qihang, aren't I the Roy who died?" "Roy is the male protagonist in the movie.

“……”

"Brother went to the east gate to see me, what I saw was an ocean, the entire east gate was submerged under the reservoir, and there was no shadow of me in the place where the villagers moved, there was no shadow for so many years, isn't it equivalent to being killed in battle, for brother?"

"Maybe he'll see your shadow tomorrow."

"Life is made up of this series of coincidental fragments. Originally, the village was flooded, and nothing happened to my dad, so we didn't have to escape......"

"What? Have an accident? Qi Zhengzhe interrupted me, "Did something happen to Uncle to escape?" Didn't you say that you came out to flee? ”

I was stunned. Be alert now. The brain quickly figured it out. "It's true that I escaped, but my dad's incident was a *." I still decided not to tell Qi Zhengzhe the real situation.

"Oh?" Qi Zhengzhe was skeptical.

"Because my dad was very opposed to building a reservoir in our village, because my grandfather and my mother both died that year, and new graves were buried."

"You told me about this."

"If the reservoir floods the whole village, it will also flood my grandparents' graves," we said as we walked towards the hotel, "and my dad got into a fight with the village chief, breaking the village chief's leg. ”

"And then you escaped?"

I nodded, "And then I met you." ”

Qi Zhengzhe fell into deep thought.

"What are you thinking?" I touched Qi Zhengzhe's arm. The sadness brought to me by the movie was diluted a lot because of my "exposed stuffing".

"Ah, I was thinking about what you just said, if life is really made of these coincidences, then I should be grateful for them."

"You're thankful for these coincidences? What do you mean? ”

"If it weren't for these coincidences, I wouldn't have met you in this life." Qi Zhengzhe shifted his gaze. With the help of the streetlight, I could see a flush on his face.

"I'm afraid you'll eventually regret meeting me."

"I never regret it." Qi Zhengzhe looked at me in a daze.

Walking back to the hotel from the cinema that night, it rained a little on the way. I felt a little cold when the raindrops fell on my face. It's already autumn. A gust of wind blew, and the leaves of the plane trees on the side of the road rustled, and a few leaves fluttered in the air.

Back at the hotel, Qi Zhengzhe went to my room and sat for a while, and he saw me playing haha frequently before leaving. When I was alone in the room, my tears came back. Sadness came back to my heart. The touching fragments in "Soul Broken Blue Bridge" flashed in my mind again.

I suddenly felt as if I was floating on the sea, surrounded by endless waters, and I didn't know where the boat carrying me was going, or when the storm that overturned my boat would blow.

What kind of fate does God want to give me? Why is everything uncertain? I also know that if everyone can perceive the direction of their own life, and everything has a certainty, life will have no passion, life will seem pale, or there will be no expectations. However, for me now, I would rather not have any passion, nor have any expectations, I just need to know if I can go to my brother, and how long will it take for me to go to my brother.

I have a concern, will I never go to my brother in this life? No, I don't. But what if you really can't go to my brother for the rest of your life? No, it won't, absolutely not? But what if? What if it's true? What if you really can't go to my brother forever and ever? Oh, God, you can't be so cruel to me.

God, you're not going to set my life this way, are you? You have given me too many disasters, you have made me lose my grandfather at the age of twelve, and at the same time I have lost my mother, and you have left me and my father from my homeland, and I will never be able to go back, so how can you bear to make me never go to my brother?

God, please, please let me go to my brother. I must go to my brother, please, please. You can exchange it on any terms, as long as you let me go to my brother. If you feel that my life is not tortuous enough, and it is not tragic enough, you can set it again, as long as you let me go to my brother. As long as you let me go to my brother, I can do anything.

That night, I didn't know exactly what time I actually fell asleep, and I woke up in a nightmare before dawn. When I woke up, I felt extremely tired and dizzy, but I was so excited that I couldn't fall asleep again.

Qi Zhengzhe also woke up early. It doesn't seem like he's sleeping well either.

"How's it going, are you sleeping well?" Qi Zhengzhe looked tired.

"It's fine." That's all I can say.

"Look at your swollen eyes, you know you haven't slept well. You must still be thinking about the movie, right? ”

I grinned, noncommittal.

"Let's go downstairs. Anyway, it's still early, and the unit hasn't gone to work yet. ”

We walked along a street near the guesthouse. The rain had stopped, but everywhere it was wet, but the air was exceptionally fresh. Pedestrians are scarce. There are elderly people exercising on the side of the road.

"When are you going to go back to school?" Qi Zhengzhe broke the silence.

"If you can't find my brother, I'll go back today."

"What if you find it?"

"That depends." I say. If we really find my brother, not to mention my brother, Teacher Zheng and Teacher Yan will also keep us staying in Hua'an for another night, I thought to myself.

"Didn't you just take a day off?"

"That's just going to have to be explained when we go back."

"Oh."

To be honest, I was only concerned about my own emotions at the time, and I didn't speculate about Qi Zhengzhe's thoughts at all, and I didn't think about why he couldn't sleep as well as me.

Qi Zhengzhe should be tormented in contradictions. He wants me to find my brother, but he is afraid that I will find him. Hopefully, he can't bear to make me so bitter and lovesick again. Otherwise, he would be so busy that he would not have squeezed in time to accompany me to Hua'an. Fear is the unpredictability of the situation after I find my brother.

What happened after I found my brother?

One is that my brother still remembers me and misses me as much as I miss him. The jade pendant I gave him wears around his neck every day. The meat ring on his middle finger has not been worn away by the years, and he still remembers those eight words. Of course, this is the last thing Qi Zhengzhe wants.

Maybe my brother still remembers me, but he doesn't miss me as much as I miss him, I'm just a playmate in his childhood. The jade pendant I gave him is still there, but I don't wear it anymore. The flesh ring on his middle finger still had a bulge, but he had forgotten those eight words.

The third situation, which is also what Qi Zhengzhe hopes for the most, has forgotten about me as a person. The jade pendant had long since been discarded. Even the meat ring on the middle finger is gone, let alone the eight words.

Qi Zhengzhe couldn't predict which of these three situations my brother and I would meet, so he reminded me that I had only taken one day off.

It seems that Qi Zhengzhe accompanied me to Hua'an to be a "desperate gamble".

After breakfast, we embarked on a journey to find my brother. That year, there was only one day of the National Day holiday, not a small long holiday like later. On October 2, all units were already working normally. The festive atmosphere is not very strong either. People don't have the idea of going out on vacation yet, and the term Golden Travel Week has not yet been formed.

It was another hard day, and it was also a day in vain, we went to the municipal government offices, we also went to the prefecture-level government agencies, and we also went to many small departments, but there was no Zheng Rensen or Yan Qi. There are some people who have changed careers from school to the administration, but none of them are named Zheng Rensen or Yan Qi.

Despair is overwhelming, and I can't hide from it. How can it be? How could this be? There is no Teacher Zheng in the school, and there is no one in the municipal office, so where will they go?

"Are you sure that Mr. Zheng is going back to Hua'an?" Qi Zhengzhe is just as worried as I am. At this time, he no longer had any selfish intentions.

"yes, what's wrong? Could this still be wrong? I clearly remember that before Mr. Zheng left, our village invited their family to dinner, and Mr. Zheng invited everyone to go to Hua'an to play. He also said that he would pick everyone up at the station, if anyone was sure to go. ”

"I mean Hua'an is a prefecture-level city, and when Mr. Zheng and the others go back to Hua'an City, maybe they will go back to a county seat under the jurisdiction of Hua'an City. If you were to say that, there would be no such possibility. Mr. Zheng, they did go back to Hua'an. Qi Zhengzhe said.

"That—is there such a possibility, Brother Zhengzhe," Now, it is natural for me to call Qi Zhengzhe Brother Zhengzhe, "Teacher Zheng, they went back to Hua'an City, but they didn't go back to the municipal school to teach?" ”

"Are you saying that the school where Mr. Zheng teaches may be in the suburbs or in neighboring counties and cities?"

"That's what I guessed."

"Then we'll go to a school like this."

I shook my head, "I'm just guessing, besides, the suburbs are so big, and there are so many nearby counties and cities, where do we start?" ”

Qi Zhengzhe was silent.

"Let's go back." I was a little disheartened.

"Do you want to stop looking?"

"No need."