Chapter 345: Junqi's Past Fifty-Two - Emotional Torture
The sound of construction came from the construction site. It's already autumn and the night breeze is blowing a little cool.
Qi Zhengzhe caught up and stopped in front of me, "Qiqi, you make it clear." What business am I doing with you? ”
"And I said earlier that you are insidious. Your seven years of picking me up is nothing more than a business for you, a failed business, without any emotion to speak of. "I'm a little sad.
"Is that what it means? Hao Junqi, do you understand me like that? A business failure will leave me in bed for three days? Will a business failure make me think about it? Will a business failure continue to affect my mood for two and a half months? Qi Zhengzhe became emotional.
"And what do you say? I told you about my past, based on my trust in you. I also told you, although I didn't call you brother, but in my heart you are already my brother, no different from my own brother, why do you still treat me like this? "I'm also emotional.
People walking on the sidewalk look at us. The sidewalks are potholed, because of the construction.
"I'm sorry, Kiki, I'm sorry," Qi Zhengzhe held my hands in his big hands, "I was wrong. ”
"The first time I bought you a gift, you didn't even look at it, but I was still excited in the car and imagined how excited you would be."
"I'm sorry."
"Can't be your girlfriend, not even your sister?"
"That's not what I meant, Kiki," Qi Zhengzhe hugged me in his arms, "that's not what I meant. It was me who was wrong. You know, I can't accept your past at all. Because, for so many years, you are in my heart and in my dreams every day. ”
"You are my dream, you are my motivation," Qi Zhengzhe continued, "You are still my happiness, but all this has disappeared without a trace because of your past, how can you tell me to accept it all at once?" ”
"Lying in bed for three days, I thought about this all the time, thinking about how we should get along in the future, and in what way, I think I have figured it out, I have figured it out, but in fact, I haven't thought it through at all, and I can't figure it out at all. Who can figure this kind of thing out at once? Qi Zhengzhe continued, "For me, you seem to have a magical power that strongly attracts my attention. ”
"Magic?" I broke free from Qi Zhengzhe's arms. It's as if someone has used this word on me too. Who is it?
"Yes, it's magic, it's magic. Kiki, you may not know that it is not just an attraction between men and women, it is far more than that attraction, which makes people want to stop. ”
"Can't stop? Brother, you're exaggerating. ”
"What? Elder brother? Do you call me brother? Qi Zhengzhe grabbed my arm excitedly.
"yes, aren't you my brother? Didn't I say it just now, you are the same as my own brother. ”
"But as you said, there is only one brother. You won't call me brother. ”
When was this happening? Qi Zhengzhe actually kept it firmly in mind. I was a little surprised.
I was very moved and said: "At that time, only Zheng Qihang was my brother in my life, of course I wouldn't call you brother." But for so many years, you have cared about me in every detail, and you may not even be able to do what your own brother does, how can I not recognize you as a brother? If I don't recognize you as a brother, will I buy you a gift? ”
"What gift did you buy me?" Qi Zhengzhe let go of my arm.
"I've thrown it away. If no one likes it, why keep it? ”
"No, Kiki. Where I lost it, I hurried to pick it up. ”
"Leave it in my room."
"You ......" Qi Zhengzhe turned his worries into joy, "Qiqi, what I can't accept is that since there is a magic force for me, and I am also willingly attracted by this magic power, why do you have such a past?" This past is equivalent to directly sending me to the eighteenth layer of hell, and it is so sudden, so unguardable. ”
"How can I tell you about such a past? I expected you to be hurt a little by the time I explained it to you, but I didn't expect you to be so sad. I'm sorry, brother. ”
"It's going to be fine, don't keep saying you're sorry. It's also nice to have a sister who is so magical to me. Qi Zhengzhe smiled self-deprecatingly.
We walked a lot that night and talked a lot. Later I remembered that it was Qi Zhengli who used the word "magic" for me. I seem to understand better why Qi Zhengli said that prison is a good place to purify the soul.
It was this kind of torture that Qi Zhengzhe endured for more than two months.
Without this conversation with Qi Zhengzhe, I would think that he was exaggerating, and I would have doubted how one person could be so attractive to another, but with this conversation, I believe it.
Combined with Qi Zhengli's painful condition when he was drunk and the behavior he behaved towards me while drunk, it made me think: Could this so-called magic also have something to do with the meat ring on my middle finger?
Otherwise, like Qi Zhengli, so handsome and handsome, how many girls are flirting with him, how can he still have a soft spot for someone who doesn't want to say a word more about me?
However, I quickly dismissed my own ideas. This kind of meat ring is not a good thing for a girl, it is like the failure of a painting, not only can not add artistry, but reduce the artistic taste of the work, how can it add any magic to me?
It should be the fault of intimacy. Or maybe I didn't care about these things, I just thought that my heart belonged, and no person's actions would change my mind, but I never thought about what impact it would have on the other person.
Like Qi Zhengli, although he doesn't speak much and doesn't have a common language, after all, he has been at the same table for five years and eats at the same table, so it can be said that he has lived and studied together, and it is reasonable to have a good feeling; Like Qi Zhengzhe, although he is not good at words, the seven years of pick-up and drop-off, in the wind and rain, is a cold-blooded animal and will become a hot-blooded animal.
The so-called magic comes from this kind of relationship.
We had a great talk afterwards. A "brother" seemed to melt the knot in Qi Zhengzhe's heart. I told him about my intention to go to Hua'an to find my brother, and not only did he not object, but said that he would accompany me if he had time.
"Do you know why I approve of you going to find your Sailing brother?"
"Why?"
"You've found Brother Qihang, maybe there's still hope; If you don't look for it, I have no hope for the rest of my life. ”
I suddenly remembered what Mr. Lu Xun said: Despair is the same as hope. Could it be that Qi Zhengzhe also has this kind of mentality?
"You won't pray that Brother Qihang has a crush or have forgotten about me altogether, right?" I teased.
"How can you think so badly of your brother? Don't get me wrong, I'm talking about this brother. Qiqi, if you don't see Zheng Qihang, you will definitely not feel at ease for the rest of your life, so why don't I support you to find him? According to you, you know where he is going, he doesn't know where you are going, so you are the only one who goes to him. Besides, if I say something that you are not happy about, it is not impossible that he has a crush on him or forget about his fairytale childhood. ”
"yes, that's what I'm worried about," I said, saddened, "that's why I thought I'd go to him." After all, so many years have passed. ”
"Time is the most corrosive."
"Yes, no matter how good the steel is, it can't resist the corrosion of time."
I also suggest that Qi try to reach out to other women. You must know that on the street, girls who like Qi Zhengzhe can't be counted on one hand.
"Can't count them on one hand? I don't see any of them, I originally thought there was one," Qi Zhengzhe's words were sour.
"I don't say A, B, C, D, E," A, B, C, D, E are all girls I know who used to be or still like Qi Zhengzhe, "Sister Rainbow, you can't deny it, right?" ”
"People are famous."
"Qi Zhengzhe, if you are so false in front of me, I won't call you brother."
"Qiqi, you don't know, Sister Rainbow and Yu Yinshan have been talking for four or five years."
"Don't say this kind of thing, brother, don't you know why Sister Rainbow didn't agree to Yu Yinshan's marriage proposal for a long time, isn't it because of you that they have been talking for four or five years?"
Qi Zhengzhe was silent.
We walked towards the square. The street lights had gone out, but fortunately the moonlight was bright and everything was still visible. There was no one else in the square except a few young men and women like us.
suddenly remembered Li Xiuli and Yu Liushou, and heard that Li Xiuli was pregnant, and Yu Liushou was still floating outside.
"Do you remember Sister Rainbow's twentieth birthday? You took me to her house, and at that time I felt that what Sister Rainbow really liked was you. I was admitted to the secondary school to invite everyone to dinner, and I specially asked Sister Rainbow to bring Yu Yinshan, she only brought Yu Dongrong here, and some discussions at the dinner table also showed that she ......"
"Needless to say, I know all of this," Qi Zhengzhe interrupted.
"Don't get me wrong, I didn't mean to push you out. Isn't the knot between us already unraveled? ”
"I didn't misunderstand you. I just think this male-female relationship is really a tormenting thing. ”
"Asking what is the situation in the world is a promise of life and death."
"I don't know anything profound, but I have a direct feeling, you see, you have had a crush on your brother since you were twelve years old, and he is ignorant; I silently watched you grow up by your side, and you were unconscious; Qi Caihong has affection and righteousness for me, but I can't cherish it; Yu Yinshan likes Qi Caihong so much, but Qi Caihong likes me. You say, tormenting people, no? ”
"It's too late for you to cherish it now. Sister Rainbow should be for you. Qi Zhengzhe's feelings may be the feelings of most people in the world.
"Hell knows."
I guess by the time we got back to the store, it was already eleven o'clock. To our surprise, Qi Caihong is still in the clothing store. She seemed to be waiting in front of the store until she saw us, and she walked straight to us.
"It's really romantic, where did you go on a date? Came back so late. Qi Caihong said with a smile.
"Sister Rainbow misunderstood. I walked with Qi Zhengzhe for a while and said something. Is there still business at such a late hour? "I subconsciously distanced myself from Qi Zhengzhe.
"Don't be embarrassed. Dating is normal, too. Isn't someone looking forward to this day for more than two months? ”
"Look, you see, the more you talk about it, the farther it goes."
"Kiki and I agreed to find a time to go to Hua'an to help her find Brother Qihang." Qi Zhengzhe said. To say that Qi Zhengzhe is a smart person, his words can completely clarify Qi Caihong's misunderstanding.
"Qi Zhengzhe should have told Sister Rainbow about me, right?" I'm knowingly asking.
"It was agreed upon. This is a good thing, do you want me to go with me? I haven't been to Hua'an yet. ”
"Okay, good, there is a lot of power, and Hua'an is a big city. It is a prefecture-level city. It's not so easy to find someone. ”
"I just don't know if I'll be able to make up that good time." Qi Zhengzhe said.
"I can go anytime. Kiki, see how I can help you find your sailing brother. Qi Caihong said affectionately around my shoulder.
"Thank you!"