Her heart is conflicted, painful, tangled, and helpless.

She's just a girl, and her heart is still fragile.

This feeling of wanting to love but not being able to love really makes her very painful.

"Duoduo, since you have already been moved by me, why do you have to hide it."

The man in the bed had woken up at some point.

Murong Yu was originally sleeping soundly, but when he heard his apprentice crying beside him, he woke up.

Unexpectedly, as soon as I woke up, I heard her say this.

Yun Xianxian turned around suddenly, and what caught her eye was Murong Yu's half-propped body and half-naked chest, looking at her with a gentle face at the moment.

"Master......"

After wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes, Yun Xianxian couldn't help but have a sour nose.

"Master, I'm sorry I disturbed you to rest, disciple...... Let's go. ”

"Wait." At the moment when Yun Xianxian stood up, Murong Yu immediately got up from the couch and hugged her tightly from behind. "Don't go! Duoduo...... I don't want to be your master anymore, I want to be your man. As I said, I don't care who you used to belong to, as long as you're mine in the future. ”

With such affectionate words, Yun Xianxian really can't listen to it in his ears and not be moved.

"Master...... You don't care, but others will! I don't want people to look at you with contempt, I don't want you to be ridiculed...... I can't ......."

"I don't care about that. As long as you want, I can do without this country, I can give up reviving Dalu and let it sleep forever. When the time comes, I will disband the Heavenly Killing Sect and take you with me to find a place where no one knows us, and live a carefree life for the rest of your life. Over the years, I have saved a lot of savings, and we can live our lives in peace. ”

Murong Yu turned around and walked in front of Yun Xianxian, looked into her eyes, and promised word by word.

But Yun Xianxian shook her head again and again when she heard this, refusing to accept it.

"In my previous life, I made a big mistake, which led to the collapse of Da Lu and the tragic death of the Ouyang clan, in this life, even if I sacrifice my life, I will help you, regain the throne, and return this Da Lu country to you, do you understand?"

"I said, I don't want Jiangshan, I just want you."

Murong Yu almost roared out from the depths of his soul with such a firm look in his eyes, such sincere words.

"Nope! You have to ask for it, you have to ask for it, you are the only bloodline of the Ouyang clan, you have more than forty years of hard work on your father's shoulders, if you give up the hatred of the country and the family for the sake of a woman like me, your father and mother under Jiuquan, and even General Murong, will not be at ease! ”

No matter how hard she is, no matter how reluctant she is, she can't follow her heart.

Master, I'm sorry, but your arms can belong to any woman in this world, but not mine.

No matter how insistent Murong Yu was, Yun Xianxian always firmly refused.

She has already lost the first life of the Ouyang clan, and she can't lose the second life.

A few days later, Murong Yu's body finally recovered, but Yun Xian Xian's body weakened because he had to take blood every day.

"Duoduo, what's wrong with you?"

Seeing that Yun Xianxian almost fainted, Murong Yu couldn't help but care.

"It's okay, it's just that the season has changed recently, and it's just a little uncomfortable, let's go back to Yuyan City quickly! There can be no delay. ”

She and Master have been out for half a month, and I don't know how Jing Yibai's battle went, she is fine, but Master, as the head, must go back to preside over the overall situation as soon as possible.

"Are you really okay?"

Murong Yu was still a little relieved.

Shaking his head, Yun Xian Xianwu clamped the horse's belly, and the horse neighed, and ran forward.

Along the way, Yun Xianxian's face was very ugly, but she didn't stop surely.

"Duoduo! Hold it! Don't go! ”

Driving his horse forward, Murong Yu stopped in front of his horse and shouted. Eyes full of worry.

Just glanced at Murong Yu, and before he could speak, Yun Xianxian tilted his body and fell off the horse.

"Blossom !!"

Flying to his side, Murong Yu hurriedly helped him up, calling anxiously.

"Duoduo! Wake up! ”

It's just that, no matter how you call, Yun Xianxian doesn't seem to be able to hear it.

By the time Yun Xianxian opened his eyes again, he was already in an inn.

The wound on her wrist seemed to have been redressed, and she was the only one in the large room.

He opened his mouth, but his voice was hoarse and he couldn't make a sound.

Soon there were footsteps coming this way.

The wooden door was opened with a "brush-" sound, and Murong Yu carefully scooped up the decoction and walked in the direction of the bed.

"Master......"

Yun Xian called in a low voice.

"Thank goodness! You're finally awake. Murong Yu said with a sigh of relief.

Immediately, he straightened his face and said, "You confess honestly!" What's going on with the wound on the wrist? Don't hide it from me, but tell me quickly, is the blood I drink every day yours? ”

Listening to the other party's questioning, Yun Xianxian couldn't help but lower her eyes, and slowly turned her face to the side, thinking to herself, anyway, the master has recovered, even if he knows, what can he do.

I simply admit it.

"Yes, the blood is indeed mine. It was Uncle Sun who said that human blood will have miraculous effects when used in medicine, so I ...... it."

Putting the medicine bowl aside, Murong Yu wrapped his big hand regardless of it, and his lips kissed Yun Xian with a strong mouth.

Startled by its sudden movements, Yun Xianxian pushed and shoved indiscriminately, but was hugged even tighter by Murong Yu.

Although his kiss was sudden, it was not very strong, but more and more gentle.

was kissed by him like this, Yun Xianxian gradually sank into it, and gradually became acceptable from the initial resistance.

Slowly closing his eyes, he put a hand on the other's back, and hugged him to deepen the kiss.

She never said it, because she loved herself, so she would take blood from him, and she was afraid that the master would blame herself even more.

Tears ran down the corners of his eyes, sliding down in an instant, hot and hot.

In the end, Murong Yu slowly let go of it and wiped away her tears.

"Why don't you marry me when you can do so much for me? A bowl of blood a day, so many days, so many scars, Duoduo, you are equivalent to stabbing a knife in my heart! ”

Looking at the dense wounds on her wrists, Murong Yu couldn't bear to cry after all.

"Master, I am willing to do anything for you, let alone a bowl of blood every day, even if it is this life, I am willing to give it."

She said this from the bottom of her heart, for the sake of the master, she could pay anything, even if it was the price of her life, she was willing.

"Silly girl! I don't allow you to say anything like that! Don't call me Master, call me Ah Yu, okay? Don't call me Master, I don't want to be your Master! ”

She didn't want to see Master sad, and she couldn't bear to see Master cry.

How she wished she could love without reservation! However, this is a debt she owed in her previous life! I have to pay it back!

But at this moment, when Murong Yu held her affectionately in her arms again, she couldn't help but waver.

Ah Yu.

This title, how much she wants to shout out?

Feeling Murong Yu's warm embrace, Yun Xianxian closed her eyes in pain, and finally sighed in her heart.

That's it! Since she and Master are in love, then let her be selfish this time!

Instead of being miserable all day long, it's better to let go and love once.

When she returns the throne to him, it's a big deal that she will kill herself again.

In this way, she is worthy of both herself and the Dalu Ouyang clan.

"Okay, Ah Yu, I promise you, I promise you."

Listening to the whispers in his ear, Murong Yu seemed to be in a dream.

"What do you call me?"

Letting go of the woman in her arms, Murong Yu said excitedly.

"Ah Yu."

"Call again."

"Ah Yu, Ah Yu, Ah Yu!"

One call after another, the souls of both sides were unprecedentedly satisfied.

"Duoduo, from now on, you will be the wife of the Heavenly Killing Sect."

"Hmm."

Smiling, Yun Xianxian finally nodded.

"I'm so excited. Fast! After drinking the medicine, it is almost cold, and it is imperative that you take care of your body first, and when we return to Yuyan City, we will get married. ”

Looking at Murong Yu's anxious look, he completely lost his former calmness.

Yun Xianxian took the medicine bowl and poured all the decoction into it with her nose pinched.

Immediately handed the bowl to Murong Yu's hand.

"When it comes to getting married, let's take it slowly! If you become emperor in the future, I want you to marry me with the etiquette of marrying an empress!" ”

Although Yun Xianxian was so proud on her face, she had another plan in her heart.

Murong Yu agreed after hearing this.

"What the lady says, it is!"

After the two stayed in the inn for a long time, Murong Yu bought a carriage and let Yun Xianxian take the carriage away.

"Now that you are my lady, I can't let you be so bumpy, as a husband, I should take good care of my wife. Get in the car! ”

"Hmm."

As if the burden of thousands of catties in his heart had disappeared at this moment, Yun Xianxian got into the carriage with a happy face.

"Sit tight, drive-"

After a shout, the horse spread its hooves and ran.

Sitting in the carriage, Yun Xianxian couldn't help but think of the picture when she came out with Master for the first time.

At that time, she didn't understand anything, and she followed the mess when she bought the carriage, and now that she thinks about it, it's funny.

At that time, she had just come out of the palace, and she had not yet come out of the pain given by Jing Yibai, and only when she came out with her master to relax, could she put aside those pains and get short-term happiness.

Today, her heart is very different from before, but her heart is even heavier than before.

The original injury, now that I think about it, is nothing more than that.

Now, she is burdened with the mission of her previous life, the guilt of the Dalu royal family, and the kind of imprisonment that she wants to love but can't love her master, which really makes her miserable.

Once, she thought that as long as two people loved each other, it would be enough to fight against everything.

But when she was beaten into the cold palace by Jing Yibai herself, she found that love was nothing more than that.

Just because she had such an experience once, she didn't want to go through this pain again.

Since ancient times, the love of the emperor has never been given to a person.

Tang Dynasty Emperor Li Longji, no matter how much he loved the concubine, in the end, he killed her for the sake of the overall situation.

Therefore, there was later Bai Juyi's "Song of Long Hatred".

Even if there is such a beautiful expectation: in heaven I wish to be a winged bird, in the earth I wish to be a branch.

In the end, I have to accept it: the days are long and sometimes endless, and this hatred is endless.