The sky is high and the sea is wide, the clouds are rolling and the clouds are comfortable, the world is big, but there is no place for him alone.

Even though there are still concerns in the world, they are completely unable to compete with the guilt and self-blame that naturally arise in this heart.

In fact, in this life, what people are most afraid of is nothing more than that they can't get along with themselves, because once the human heart goes around a dead end that they have constructed, it will be difficult to come out again, so throughout the ages, people often need religion, the thoughts of saints, and everything that can be explained to help them get out of the predicament in their hearts.

The so-called easy to destroy the thief in the mountain, and it is difficult to destroy the thief in the heart, this is the truth, only this question is the most difficult in the world, and it can't deceive people, but the world has a mediocre life, and it is too late to consider the degree of food and clothing, how can it be in front of this level, but the practice of the three religions, but there is often this level to break, and if it is broken, it will have the title of "real person", which is practice.

But Chen Jing is neither a person in the three sects, nor can anyone guide him in this regard, and his heart is really too big, in fact, the more people like him, the more difficult it is to have his own embarrassment, after all, he doesn't care much, many things can be compromised for the sake of that only principle, but once he really encounters it, it is a dead end.

If Chen Xiehu hadn't come to tell him these things today, he might still be able to rely on this sense of responsibility to keep the rest alive, not for himself, but for the thousands of people in the entire Jin Kingdom.

But he now knew that the Jin Kingdom no longer needed him, and in fact, he had to admit that the Liang Kingdom was definitely a better choice for the people of the Jin Kingdom, and there was no doubt about it.

The hatred between the three kingdoms of Liang Jin and Wei has lasted for nearly a hundred years, and they are regarded as opponents by the couch, how can they not study each other, but the more they study, the more he has to admire, because the Liang Kingdom is completely different from their black miasma, and they have all rotted to the Jin Kingdom, its internal politics are clear, the people have a way out, the Han people have a way out, up and down, the whole is vigorous and upward, constantly going to a high place, all walks of life, are the unprecedented enlightened atmosphere of the south, according to this situation, it should be them to unify the south, this is people and everything is prosperous, but he Chen Jing is bent on changing the national fortunes that their Jin country has come to an end, after all, he is a Jin country, not the people of Liangguo.

It is precisely because he can't be a Liangguo person in his life, so he understands that if he continues to live, maybe in the second half of his life, he will have to subvert Liangguo and resurrect them as the biggest goal of his life, but is that really good, in fact, it is not good, at least, for the current people of the Jin Kingdom, it is not good, so he must die.

This is the death frame he is facing.

Whether as the initiator and promoter of this war, he must stand up and bear the responsibility for the defeat, be responsible for the hundreds of thousands of soldiers who died in their homeland because of him, and for the sake of a better future for the people of the Jin Kingdom, he must die.

He can't compromise with these outsiders, nor can he compromise with himself, and there is no choice that can satisfy everyone, so if he is the only one, it may be the best choice for all parties.

What he didn't know was that the person who really shattered his last illusion actually wanted to save him, but first, his body was really unable to hold on, and he no longer had time to arrange to meet him alone, and second, that person also understood that a person like Chen Jing would never be explained by himself in a few words, and if it made sense, he would not be the one who dared to personally organize a coup d'état to seize power, and eradicate traitors harmful to the country by direct and bloody means.

Sometimes it's not necessarily a good thing to be determined, because unbearable setbacks are easier to blow completely

Collapse this kind of person.

Hearing his father's almost begging tone, Chen Jing's eyes couldn't help but turn red, he didn't dare to say anything about it, but immediately changed the topic, turned his head and said, "Dad, it seems that the two of us have never walked like this." ”

When Chen Xiehu heard this, the whole person was slightly stunned, and then said with a somewhat gloomy expression: "Yes, when you were young, your father was busy, and he rarely went back to the house to accompany you, and your mother went early, it was the wet nurse who took you, and when you grew up, you were also busy, and our father and son seemed to rarely even sit at the same table to eat." ”

Chen Jing pursed his lips and smiled, stretched out his hand, pointed to the road ahead and invited: "Then let's go for a walk together, in fact, I have never looked at this Yanran Lake seriously." ”

The geographical location of Yanran Lake is far away in the center of the border between Yanzhou and their Jin Kingdom, where does he have time to run so far to see this, and then the flood, the lake floods, the flooding is in Yongguan, the war is important, he has no leisure to appreciate, and in the past 20 years of his life, since he can remember, there is rarely such a leisurely time.

It's so tiring, why bother?

Chen Jing shook his head slightly, half self-deprecatingly, and then the two fathers and sons began to walk slowly along the edge of the moist lake together, step by step, and even the various sounds around seemed to slowly stop, and the whole picture seemed to be very quiet and peaceful.

The lake in front of me is as smooth as a mirror, reflecting the clear blue sky, and in a trance, I don't know whether the sky is in the lake or the lake is in the sky.

The grass under the feet is actually a little yellow, after all, it is almost autumn, and it has experienced a large number of people and horses, and many places are even bald grass, but there are still some places with very obvious green.

There was a great poet in the previous dynasty, who was only sixteen years old and wrote four sentences with a pen, "Leaving the grass on the plain, one year old and one withering." Wildfires burn inexhaustibly, and spring breezes blow and regenerate. This is not a complete poem, but only these four sentences were called by everyone at the time to live in the emperor's capital, and since then it has become famous.

The flowers and plants in front of him are still looking forward to next spring, and the lake around him can also return to calm after flooding, and he looks as beautiful as a solemn woman, but his Chen Jing's spring seems to never come.

Chen Xiehu has been following quietly beside him, but after all, he has something in his heart, he really can't help it, hesitates slightly, and says tentatively: "Jing'er, in fact, he was selfish before becoming a father, and the man also said that even if you don't agree, it's okay, the world is so big, you can go anywhere, and Liangguo will never settle accounts with our Chen family." ”

Chen Jing didn't turn his head, just nodded lightly.

Seeing this, Chen Xiehu was overjoyed and stammered: "You, you, you promised to follow, go back with your father?"

Hearing this, Chen Jing shook his head lightly and said softly: "Dad, let's take a look at the scenery first, and don't talk about those things, okay?"

Chen Xiehu thought that Chen Jing had agreed, so he was not in a hurry, and then nodded busily: "Okay, good, good, let's see the scenery first, you can see it for as long as you want, Jing'er, my father will accompany you today, and we can take a walk and see the scenery every day in the future." ”

Chen Jing didn't speak, just silently walked to the side, found a slightly dry place, and sat down, Chen Xiehu saw it, and quickly followed, and sat down on his knees, but this person is still old, and if he doesn't accept it, the young man who was brave and good at fighting back then just bent his legs and sat down, and he couldn't help but snort.

Chen Jing's eyes moved, he quickly turned his head sideways, stretched out his hands, helped the other party to sit down slowly, and said with a concerned face: "Dad, are your legs okay?"

Chen Xiehu saw that he was still caring about himself, and there was a little more smile on his face that was originally a little grinning, so he quickly waved his hand and said with a heroic look: "It's okay, when you were young."

If you really feel sorry for your father, then go home with your father, and it is time for you to take care of your father. ”

Chen Jing could only squeeze out a wry smile, did not respond to this topic, but turned his head again, looked at the wide lake in front of him, and said softly: "Dad, what about Feng Xian, did that person say anything?"

Chen Xiehu nodded and said: "Having said it, as long as he is willing, the six servants of Daliang will choose one of them with him, and he will work hard for ten years, and he can still be expected." ”

The official system of the Liang Kingdom is inherited from the atrium, which is actually not the same as the traditional system of the original countries in the south, but they are all people in the officialdom, and they have studied these, and they are still clear about the specific terms of reference of each position within them, and they can easily find the corresponding official positions of their own, or split or merge, but the status brought by each official position can be imagined, and the six squires are already regarded as the core of the temple, and their words are definitely weighty, and one step further, the six Shangshu are the pillars of the imperial court, and their terms of reference are not small。

Chen Jing can be regarded as completely relieved this time, this is for the future of his friends and he doesn't need to worry about himself, and the second is for the people of these Jin Kingdom, after all, if Zhu Fengxian can really climb so high and become a Shangshu, with his help to take care of it, the people of Jin will at least not be treated differently in the future, which is enough, because the current Liang Kingdom is good enough.

"New"

Chen Jing opened his mouth, and just wanted to ask about the new deal, but after thinking about it, he stopped talking again, and then the two of them fell silent again, as if they were really looking at the distant scenery in a daze, but the calculations in their hearts were no longer enough to speak to outsiders.

With the slow passage of time, there has been a circle of red glow in the distance on the horizon, the sky is full of burning clouds, the color changes, the shape is different, the beauty is magnificent, the world can see such a scene, it is not in vain.

It's a pity that such a scenery is also the last time he sees it.

"Youyou Tiangong, why is it thinner than me?"

Chen Jing's eyes were complicated, looking at the distant sky, and sighed, there are too many people he is sorry for in this life, he can't count them, and he can't make up for them.

In the end, I realized that I was such a failed person, as if I couldn't even say "sorry".

Children are not filial.

His eyes gradually began to darken, and soon he fell completely silent, like a meteor crossing the sky, slowly dissipating, and the whole person was no longer alive.

Chen Xiehu, who had been in a daze on the side, thinking about how to persuade his son to untie the knot in his heart, had not yet reacted, and when he finally touched it, when he turned his head, he only saw his son with his eyes slightly closed and black blood slowly dripping from the corners of his mouth.

"My son!"

The old man held the still warm corpse, crying on the ground, he didn't understand, why things came to this point, he would rather everything never happened, if he could go back to the beginning, he would refuse the appointment of the emperor Shangguan Ming, he would not be a general, he would choose to be a good father, if he could go back to the beginning, he would stop his child, tell him, all the responsibilities, it is not your turn to be a young man, if you can go back to the beginning, he really hopes that the life of the father and son is ordinary and happy.

It's a pity that there are no ifs.

The clouds in the sky are still bright red, but here, there is one less person forever.

Dare to be the first in the world, one person bears a country, this is a countryman, willing to be the world's people, only die oneself, this is sacred.

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The first half of the volume is almost finished, and there won't be a few people left in the end, so you can guess who else will receive the bento.

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