Chapter 60: The Heart
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Sun Yang also learned by chance that this was Lu Xiaoling's favorite movie line.
What we become is determined not by how capable we are, but by our choice.
At that time, Sun Yang and Lu Xiaoling were just friends, and he even teased Lu Xiaoling with Li Li, saying that she was simply a literary young woman who drank chicken soup for the soul and drank stupidly, but both of them were flattened by her very miserably.
Because of this incident, this impression has been retained like this.
At that time, Sun Yang didn't have any feelings about this sentence, but when he experienced so many things and thought of this sentence again, he suddenly felt that it was indeed reasonable for Lu Xiaoling to like it.
Everyone's life is full of various choices, and every minute of their life is paying the price for the choices they have made before, and they continue to make the right or wrong choices. The right choices and the wrong choices add up, together with the external environment, and ultimately determine the outcome they will face.
But the quality of this result is not up to others, but to the people themselves. Because a person's ultimate happiness, fulfillment, and satisfaction all come from himself.
This is especially true for monks.
Master Lu once said to Sun Yang a long time ago that a person's path determines how far he can go on this road.
This sentence is actually the same in essence as the line that Lu Xiaoling likes.
Sun Yang has been trying to understand this sentence, and has been trying to find out what his Tao is, but he has never found the answer.
His original scheming in cultivating the Tao was actually impure, but now that he thinks about it, what he wanted at that time was not actually the cultivation itself, but the way through which he could gain social status, gain the recognition of others, and even the envy of others.
If he is allowed to go with such thoughts, he may soon become a charlatan, or become an evil path like Huang Qihu and Su Cha.
Fortunately, the people he met were Lu Lou, Cao Daoping, and Lu Xiaoling, so he followed them on the current road.
His heart is not bad, he can't bear to see people suffer, he can't bear to be unfair, he can't bear to see killing and maiming, which is somewhat similar to Lu Xiaoling.
But he is different from Lu Xiaoling, his background and twenty years of ordinary life made him understand very early that he is not the center of this world, and there are many things in this world that he cannot do, so that he understands that many times he must compromise and retreat to this world, and it is impossible to act completely according to his own heart.
However, this kind of recognition is in conflict with the path of the practitioner's pursuit of the true nature of the heart.
The way that Lu Lou taught him was to find the direction he was striving for, and then stick to it, and follow his own heart, but his life experience kept telling him that this was not possible.
How is it possible for a person to live exactly according to his own ideas?
Life is always full of restrictions of one kind or another, and there are always endless blows and setbacks, and all the life experiences that he has seen since he was a child tell him this truth. Rather than bend, you will only make yourself bruised, this is the rule of this world.
Sometimes, he will feel a little ridiculous about some of Lu Xiaoling's practices, and sometimes he even feels a little excessive.
Of course, there is nothing wrong with sticking to your heart, but if you have to pay too high a price, and you may even bring danger to yourself, then why can't you compromise and think of other ways, or temporary grievances, for the future?
These are the survival wisdom accumulated by the people of Bactria for thousands of years, and of course there are those in history who would rather take from the straight than seek from the song, but while people admire their persistence, they often laugh at them in their hearts - they are just some fools who don't understand and adapt.
Sun Yang vaguely knew what he wanted deep down, because he could clearly feel that when he adhered to certain practices, his cultivation would become a thousand miles away, and when he did something that violated his conscience and morality, his cultivation would stagnate for a long time.
Sometimes he really wants to stop having so many scruples and do everything according to his own heart. But he was so entangled with the world that he couldn't do that.
Choosing to be the person you want to be is easier said than done.
But when he was alone, he often faintly envied Long Qingting, and even Lu Xiaoling, because they were all people who adhered to their beliefs, not like him, who always had too many concerns, but they let themselves get into the quagmire more and more, sinking deeper and deeper, and unable to extricate themselves.
"Mr. Sun, where are we going?" Xiao Wei, the driver and watchman sent to him by Jiang Ying, asked. said that it was Xiaowei, but he was actually four years older than Sun Yang. It's just that with Sun Yang's cultivation at the moment, if he is in the territory of Great Xia, he can be called Mr. no matter where he goes.
"I'm looking for the old site of the sect, or the mausoleums of some famous monks, if these are not available, then some temples or Taoist temples with a relatively long history can also be used."
Xiao Wei was full of doubts, but he couldn't guess what Sun Yang was going to do in those places at such a moment.
Sun Yang saw his doubts in his heart, but he didn't want to explain them.
He couldn't pin Lu Xiaoling's safety on the ethics of that fox demon, it had already killed so many people without hesitation, and it might not have any special feelings for Lu Xiaoling. It was not difficult for him to imagine how easy it would be for Lu Xiaoling to anger Lu Xiaoling with her jealous and hateful personality.
Long Qingting didn't know when he would come, and Sun Yang decided not to pin his hopes for solving the problem. If Lu Xiaoling dies because of his deliberate delay, or even because he deliberately wants to make things bigger, Sun Yang will regret it for the rest of his life.
What if Dai Baichuan guessed that the things in western Guangdong were done by himself? Is it because of this reason that you don't need to use ghost talismans for the rest of your life? Is it because you miss something that you live in fear all your life?
The more scared you are, the easier it is to be threatened by others, and the more you are afraid of losing something, the easier it is to become someone else's target.
Sun Yang suddenly thought of a sentence he had once seen, very vulgar, but it was very appropriate at this time: Since I became a bubble of, no one dares to step on my head again.
Nine-Tailed Sky Fox, will you be stronger than the Ghost King?
Let's take a look!
Sun Yang said in his heart.
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The sky was bright, and Zhao Qiuniang finally took Lu Xiaoling back to the hotel room with satisfaction.
"It's really interesting, your time is much more interesting than ours." She said to Lu Xiaoling.
She casually lifted the ban on Lu Xiaoling, but Lu Xiaoling stood at the window, looking at the huge billboard that a group of workers were replacing opposite.
“.” She read softly. “Dontorry,Behappy.”
Tears suddenly welled up, and Zhao Qiuniang was slightly dissatisfied when she saw her like this: "What's wrong with you?" I don't want you dead right now, so you'd better not put on a show like that. ”
Lu Xiaoling wiped away her tears and walked into the bathroom.
"Tianlu Insurance, solve all your concerns?" Zhao Qiuniang read the words on the billboard opposite. "What the hell is this?"